It has been a week since Yiyi ran out of the ward last time and Xiao Wu returned to work at the piano store. During this period, no matter how Xiao Wu contacted Yiyi, Yiyi didn't reply, if it weren't for Brother Yu saying that Yiyi would come to work in the piano store every day, Xiao Wu would really think that Yiyi had disappeared.

Xiao Wu walked into the piano shop with a cane in one hand, Yiyi was sitting on a stool in the distance, and when she saw Xiao Wu coming in, Yiyi immediately got up and ran over, reaching out to grab Xiao Wu's arm.

"Why did you come to work? Are you okay with your legs? Yiyi asked.

Brother Yu said at this time: "I asked him to come back at least a month later to see how well he recovered, but he still said that he couldn't wait." ”

Yiyi turned her head to look at Xiao Wu, Xiao Wu smiled and said, "I'll come early, so feel at ease." ”

Yiyi asked, "What kind of heart do you have?" ”

Xiao Wu didn't speak, and Brother Yu said, "Since they're all back, let's find something to do, but don't force it, don't give me something to fall." ”

Xiao Wu laughed: "Don't worry, I'll be right!" ”

When customers come and deliver goods, they are basically doing it, Xiao Wu sits behind the counter to collect money, and occasionally goes to the repair room to do maintenance for the piano.

Yiyi brought water to Xiao Wu in the repair room, and Xiao Wu said: "Yiyi, I think you seem to have something in your heart, but you don't want to say it, and I don't force anything, but if you need it, don't take it yourself, I can help you." ”

Yiyi looked at Xiao Wu and smiled, "um" and turned around and went out.

Yiyi helped Xiao Wu out at night, although he was still wearing a plaster cast and crutches, Xiao Wu was obviously very adaptable, and he walked on a par with normal people.

"What's going on? I have to send you home? Yiyi said as she walked beside Xiao Wu.

"So what if I fall? What should I do if I can't get up? Xiao Wu said.

Yiyi looked at Xiao Wu's very rhythmic pace and said, "You pull it down, you can walk more smoothly than those on both legs, will you fall?" ”

"Hey, let me tell you, after you get used to this crutch, I think it's quite easy to walk like this." After Xiao Wu finished speaking, he walked a little faster, but he almost fell.

Yiyi was startled, and hurriedly stepped forward to support Xiao Wu, and scolded him for making trouble while asking if he was okay. Xiao Wu said hesitantly: "I didn't play well, accident." ”

Yiyi reached out and grabbed Xiao Wu's arm without crutches, forcibly pressed down the speed, and walked all the way without hurry, the two of them looked like a little couple who were walking.

Xiao Wu's house is not far away, and it is only half an hour's walk. When he got downstairs, Xiao Wu said, "Thank you for sending me back, do you want to ......?"

"I'm home." Yiyi hurriedly finished speaking and turned around and left.

Xiao Wu stood downstairs and watched Yiyi go away, and didn't turn around until he turned the corner before turning in.

Yiyi stood on the corner of the street, her chest heaving and heaving, calming her mood.

Xiao Wu's kindness to himself can be felt every minute and every second; And he has been struggling with Xiao Wu. God once wanted to close the door to himself, but he smashed a hole and crawled out, but in the face of the outside world, Yiyi was lost as never before. The former self and the current self are intertwined and constantly appearing, Yiyi doesn't know whether her choice is right or not, and she doesn't even know if she has the right to choose, let alone talk about love. What a good boy Xiao Wu is, but Yiyi can only hold back the emotions in her heart and push Xiao Wu away again and again.

Can I fall in love like this?

After work, Yiyi didn't send Xiao Wu home, she went to Max. Yiyi quit her job as a bar singer after Xiao Wu's accident, and now it's a month, and the boss asks Yiyi to receive her previous salary.

Yiyi finished receiving the money at the bar, said goodbye to everyone, expressed gratitude, and was about to leave, but as soon as he went out, he saw a person standing at the door far away.

Wang Panshuai.

Yiyi trembled in an instant, but she still mustered up the courage to go out the door, turned left directly and left to leave in the other direction.

"Yiyi!" Wang Panshuai shouted behind him.

Don't look back, speed up your pace.

"Yiyi! Wait a minute! Wang Panshuai shouted again, and then chased straight up, and in a blink of an eye, he was in front of Yiyi.

Wang Panshuai shaved his flat head, he looked a little more manly than his previous hairstyle, and he was no longer so flamboyant, very ordinary clothes.

Yiyi stared at Wang Panshuai, with hatred in her eyes.

"Don't be afraid, I'm not trying to do anything." Wang Panshuai said: "I am ...... I want to apologize to you, I shouldn't have done that. ”

Yiyi still didn't change her expression, and said coldly: "Are you finished?" ”

Wang Panshuai's expression was a little anxious, as if he wanted to say something but didn't know how to express it, shook it a few times, and said: "Yiyi, I like you, I don't know what's wrong with me, I wasn't actually that kind of person before, but I am, that's it." ”

Yiyi sneered and said, "Like me? You know me, right? ”

Wang Panshuai said: "I know, I know everything, I know it clearly, but I ...... Still is...... Like. Not what you think, not out of curiosity. I've talked to the bar owner a lot, and the more I get to know you, the more I like you. ”

Yiyi listened quietly, still staring at Wang Panshuai, like watching a clown perform.

"Can you, give me a chance?" Wang Panshuai's tone and expression became humble: "You have been separating yourself from others, it is you who don't give yourself a chance, right?" ”

"Wang Panshuai......" Yiyi looked at Wang Panshuai with disgust and said, "Just what you do, how can I give you any chance?" Besides, I have nothing to do with you, not before, and never in the future. ”

"Yiyi......" Wang Panshuai wanted to continue, but was suddenly interrupted by Yiyi: "You let me go!" You let Xiao Wu go and let everyone go! Yiyi's voice suddenly trembled, and tears flowed down: "Please, okay?" ”

Wang Panshuai was silent, and after a long time, he said, "Xiao Wu, he likes you too, right?" ”

Yiyi was silent and did not answer.

"Do you like him?"

"It's none of your business." Yiyi said.

"Your identity, Xiao Wu may not be able to accept it, you accept him, but you must hide something, it is a blow to him." Wang Panshuai said word by word.

The words that came out of Wang Panshuai's mouth were like needles in Yiyi's heart, and it was difficult for Yiyi to breathe.

Yiyi raised her head and looked at Wang Panshuai and asked, "You told him?" ”

Wang Panshuai replied: "No, but don't lie to him, isn't this the premise of two people's relationship?" ”

"Fuck off." Yiyi trembled, roared in a low voice, and walked forward, but he didn't take a few steps when suddenly his eyes went dark, and he fell down top-heavy.

Yiyi was in the hospital when she woke up, and Xiao Wu sat on the edge of the hospital bed and looked at herself with concern.

"You're awake!" Xiao Wu hurriedly got up and went out on crutches to find a doctor.

Yiyi was stunned for a few seconds, and suddenly nervously lifted the quilt to look at herself, fortunately, it was still her own set of clothes at night. picked up the mobile phone and looked at it, it was only more than two hours since I saw Wang Panshuai in the bar, that is, I passed out, but it was not for long.

Yiyi breathed a sigh of relief, but suddenly remembered something, and suddenly became nervous.

At this time, Xiao Wu came in with a doctor, and the doctor did some tests for Yiyi, and then said, this bottle can be left after the drip, low blood sugar, and there is nothing wrong with the body except for some malnutrition.

Yiyi asked Xiao Wu what happened, Xiao Wu said that he received a call from Wang Panshuai about half an hour ago, saying that you fainted, and he sent you here, so he hurried over to see Yiyi, but Yiyi woke up not long after.

"Then you and Wang Panshuai ......," Yiyi asked.

"See." Xiao Wu said: "He told me about today's incident, and then apologized to me, I forgave him." Men, it's just a fight, it's a normal thing. He told me to take good care of you and then left. ”

"It's good that you didn't fight." Yiyi said.

"How is that possible?" Xiao Wu laughed: "You don't know men too well!" After speaking, Xiao Wu looked at Yiyi with a smile on his face.

After the needle was finished, Yiyi immediately got up and got out of bed, told Xiao Wu to stay still, and went to the doctor's office by himself, and asked the doctor who had just diagnosed him for medical records and laboratory test sheets and other documents. After getting it, Yiyi asked the doctor who had seen these lists.

The doctor said, "The man who sent you here has seen the formalities he has done for you, and he has been here since then, and only I can see it." ”

Yiyi breathed a long sigh of relief.

The doctor looked at Yiyi, stretched out his hand and pointed at an item on the test sheet, and said calmly: "The drug is fighting in your body, your body is getting heavier and heavier, if you make a decision, it is best to hurry up the operation." ”

Yiyi looked down at the list and said with a smile, "Thank you, thank you doctor." ”

After speaking, Yiyi received the receipt, turned around and returned to the ward, and called Xiao Wu to go home.

On the way, Yiyi was very depressed, Xiao Wu said a lot of things to make Yiyi happy, Yiyi just smiled and looked at Xiao Wu, a big boy who was disabled in front of him but still behaved like a child at this moment.

Every time he needs it, it is Xiao Wu who appears, and every time he sees Xiao Wu, Yiyi's heart will settle down.

Do you know? At this moment, I would like to, really want to say, I love you.

I really want to hear you say it, but I'm afraid of you saying it, because I really don't know how I should respond so that I don't hurt you.

After returning home, Yiyi sat on the edge of the bed, looked down at the test sheet in his hand and was stunned for a while, then opened the drawer and took out the medicine to eat.

There are a lot of things in the store that day, several piano shops in the same city want to transfer goods, Brother Yu is not there, call Yiyi to take inventory of everything, call a car to send it, someone will move it to the place, Yiyi is responsible for escorting the car.

Totaling hundreds of thousands of things, Yiyi didn't dare to slack off, carefully inspected the large and small pieces from beginning to end, watched the workers move into the car, and then left with the car.

Xiao Wu was guarding in the store, and suddenly heard the mobile phone ringing, Xiao Wu realized that Yiyi didn't bring a mobile phone, and leaned over to take a look, the caller's name: Mom.

Yiyi hurriedly looked for her mobile phone after she came back, laughing at her that she could forget to bring her mobile phone, if she hadn't made a list a long time ago, she didn't know how to contact the other party, but fortunately, she didn't miss anything.

Xiao Wu responded with a smile, "Hmm." ”

"What's wrong with you? You okay? Yiyi seemed to feel that Xiao Wu's mood was not quite right.

"It's okay, it's almost time to get off work, let's go."

"Well, then I won't clean it today, I'll send you back first." Yiyi said and went to get the clothes.

"No need, I can go back myself." Xiao Wu said stunned, and then changed his tone: "You see I don't have any problems at all now, don't worry, you have to work hard to walk so many miles every day." ”

"Hey~" Yiyi showed disgust: "Who has to give you the same." ”

And they went back to their respective houses.

When he went to work the next day, Xiao Wu didn't come, and Brother Yu said that Xiao Wu was going to take two days off.

"Xiao Wu never asks for leave." Yiyi muttered.

"He hasn't asked for leave since you came, and he didn't drink too much before, and he couldn't come the next day." Brother Yu said: "It's just the two of us in the past two days, it's a little harder." ”

Yiyi smiled and said, "It's not hard, it's not hard." ”

When he was free, Yiyi sent a message to Xiao Wu:

"Are you okay?"

No reply.

Yiyi put away her phone, and there was a faint uneasiness in her heart.

After getting off work, Yiyi went downstairs to Xiao Wu's house, stood below and looked up at the tall building, Yiyi wanted to shout Xiao Wu's name loudly, and then Xiao Wu poked out his head and saw himself, and he would come down to see himself.

But Yiyi didn't shout, wandered downstairs for a while, and said with a wry smile: "What am I doing here?" ”

When I got home, Yiyi's phone rang, but it was a salesman, so Yiyi hung up the phone, flipped the call record up, and saw a phone call:

Mom, the call is 15 minutes.

I looked at the call time, and it was the afternoon of the day I went to deliver the goods.

Mom called herself and was picked up? Who took it? Who else could it be?

Yiyi instantly fell into an ice cave, her whole body trembled, and she threw her phone on the bed, feeling as if her chest had been hammered hard, and it was difficult to breathe.

Yiyi held her head, turned her head to look at the phone, recalled his performance when she saw Xiao Wu that day, recalled Xiao Wu's disappearance in the past few days, Yiyi's heart was like a knife, and tears were like rain.

What's going on, it's clear, isn't it?

The collapse completely overwhelmed Yiyi, and she wanted to scream, but found that she couldn't shout at all. It's been a few years, and I've lost even the ability to vent. Yiyi could only cry bitterly, grabbing her arms, hair, neck, and chest with her hands, as if she wanted to scratch her body and let her depressed soul rush out.

Yiyi knew that there would be such a day, she was just running away, or the remaining trace of longing for love in her heart made her choose to escape. Yes, this time, she was selfish, but she was also selfish once, but the whole situation collapsed. Yiyi's world began to crumble.

Yiyi picked up the phone and called back.

The mother's voice on the other end of the phone came:

"What are you calling for?"

"Mom, you called me the other day, is there something wrong?"

Mom's voice was obviously excited, as if she was still enduring great sadness:

"There used to be, but now it's gone. You, now you're quite free, you can hook men? ”

"Mom, that's not ......"

"You don't need an explanation, you make me feel disgusting!"

The phone hung up.

The tears on his face were dry, but the blood marks on his body were clearly visible, and he sat on the ground next to the bed, looking up at the window, exactly like his lonely self during the Spring Festival. Yiyi fell into deep loneliness again, and she finally felt at this moment that the things that once thought she had supported her to go on and support her life were gone at this moment.

What did I do wrong? Yiyi thought in her heart, this road is really difficult to walk, I am so tired of walking, I am scarred from walking, I just want to live an ordinary life, not arguing, not arguing, just live like a little transparent, but why is this seemingly simplest wish so difficult to meet? I lived cautiously, guarded myself with difficulty, and played this way, like stepping barefoot on a road full of thorns, every step was a heart-piercing pain, and this whole road was full of bloodstains.

I'm tired, really tired, I don't want to go, I want to give up.

Yiyi climbed into bed and fell asleep after crying.

This night, I have shed enough tears, and I dreamed in my dream that Xiao Wu smiled at herself and said to herself, I love you.

The next day was Yiyi's day off, but she still got up and cleaned up her room, dressed up beautifully, had a good dinner, and then went out before the musical instrument shop closed. Yiyi is going to go to the musical instrument store to resign.

As soon as he entered the door, Xiao Wu was standing in the house.

Yiyi and Xiao Wu just kept a distance of five or six meters, standing face to face, staring into each other's eyes, motionless, without saying a word, as if time had stood still.

The last time I felt this way was the night Xiao Wu rescued Yiyi from Wang Pan Shuai.

Yiyi didn't expect that she still had the courage to look at the man in front of her, but she just didn't want to look away.

After a long silence, Yiyi spoke: "Where have you been in the past two days?" ”

"Learn."

"Learn what?"

"Learn what love is."

"Does love need to be learned? You've loved too. ”

"The love I want to learn is something I never thought it would happen."

Yiyi choked up, paused for a while, and asked, "What about the result?" ”

"It's painful, I've been in pain for the past few days, every minute and every second."

Xiao Wu's voice trembled, and tears flashed in Xiao Wu's eyes.

Yiyi took a deep breath and trembled and spit it out: "So, let's end this pain." ”

"Yes......" Xiao Wu said, "to end...... This pain. ”

Yiyi burst into tears, lowered her head, suppressed her emotions, and said, "I'm sorry." ”

After speaking, Yiyi turned around and walked out of the musical instrument shop quickly.

On the road, Yiyi could no longer suppress her emotions, and on a bridge with no people, Yiyi squatted down on the railing.

"Ah~~~" Yiyi finally cried out loudly, and finally let her emotions be released wantonly, on the silent and dim overpass, Yiyi's whole body was paralyzed by crying, and she sat on the ground and broke her heart.

Do you have to wait for tonight? Is it necessary to wait? Now, isn't that a great opportunity?

Looking at the ground hidden in the darkness under the high overpass, it was the hard asphalt road, and in the cold wind of the moment, it was like a tombstone lying on the ground and extending forward.

There is no traffic here, and there is no pressure on flowers and plants.

"Okay." Yiyi pulled the railing, got up slowly, and whispered, "That's it, it's good." ”

As he spoke, Yiyi raised his legs and climbed the guardrail. Yiyi naturally knows that it's ugly to do such an action in a skirt, but where can she care about her image? After a while, I'm afraid that I will be even more terrifying.

Yiyi sat on the guardrail, the wind was really cold, and her face, neck, hands, legs, and all the exposed skin seemed to be cut by a knife, which made Yiyi suddenly have a desire to end this pain quickly.

"I'm sorry, Mom."

After saying this, Yiyi leaned forward.

It's about three seconds, no, a second, and it's over. Yiyi, I'm sorry, you've worked hard in this life.

Suddenly, his waist was clamped tightly, and a force pulled back, and Yiyi's whole person was thrown backwards again. How powerful is that? Yiyi's shoes flew under the bridge.

Before he could land, Yiyi's whole body was tightly controlled, and it was only about a second before Yiyi slammed into Xiao Wu's chest.

Xiao Wu's arms wrapped tightly around Yiyi, holding her to his chest.

Yiyi raised her eyes to look at Xiao Wu, stunned for a few seconds, and then struggled hard, crying loudly: "You let go!" ”

Xiao Wu still held on tightly.

Yiyi struggled for a while and couldn't break free, so she could only gradually relax a little and said softly, "I'm out of breath." ”

At this time, Xiao Wu realized that he was too hard, and he was about to strangle Yiyi to death, and hurriedly loosened a little strength, Yiyi took the opportunity to get rid of Xiao Wu hard, and pushed back hard, Xiao Wu fell to the ground.

"Ahh Xiao Wu let out a brief cry of pain and fell to the ground with one hand covering his right leg.

Yiyi was stunned for a moment, hurriedly threw herself down beside Xiao Wu, and cried and said, "What's wrong?" What's wrong! What happened to you! You speak! What's wrong with you! You speak! Hurry up and speak! ”

Xiao Wu sat up straight, pulled Yiyi into his arms and hugged him, and said, "My legs are not good, you walk so fast, I can't catch up with you, I almost can't catch up with you!" ”

Xiao Wu also burst into tears.

"You're scared the hell out of me! You're going to scare me to death! ”

The two of them hugged each other and cried on the empty and dim overpass.

Is this the beautiful love in other people's mouths? Can you first tear two hearts apart, and then put the wounds together, so that these two hearts are deeply embedded, in order to get love?

It took a long, long time before Yiyi raised her head and met the gaze of Xiao Wu who was staring at her.

Xiao Wu's kiss fell.

Xiao Wu, you are my angel, right? Yiyi finally let go of all her defenses at this moment, reached out to wrap her arms around Xiao Wu's neck, greeted Xiao Wu deeply, and forgot everything.

Yiyi was paralyzed, and seemed to have exhausted all her strength, so she snuggled in Xiao Wu's arms for a long time before she whispered, "I'm cold." ”

Xiao Wu only realized a little soberly at this time that they had been sitting on the ground of this cold and windy overpass for a long time.

The two helped each other to get up, Xiao Wu bent down to help Yiyi pat the dust off his body, saw Yiyi's feet, and asked, "Where are your shoes?" ”

Yiyi looked at Xiao Wu and asked rhetorically, "Where are you on crutches?" ”

Xiao Wu looked around and said, "I saw you sitting on it just now, I ran in a hurry, I should have thrown it away, and I might have fallen under the bridge." ”

Yiyi snorted and laughed, looked at Xiao Wu and said, "My shoes are also under the bridge, they can be a companion." After saying that, Yiyi suddenly remembered something, bent down and touched Xiao Wu's right leg: "Your leg, does it hurt?" ”

"It hurts." Xiao Wu said: "The moment I was hit by you just now, it hurt a lot. ”

Yiyi suddenly panicked: "Then what should I do, hurry up to the hospital, it won't break again, right?" ”

"It's not broken, it's not broken, it's just a pull." Xiao Wu held Yiyi, looked into her eyes, and said, "You have cured me just now." ”

Yiyi buried her head, as if thinking about what had just happened.

"This is your way home, right?" Xiao Wu asked.

"Well, it's not far from my house. Let's go, go to my house. Yiyi put Xiao Wu's arm on his shoulder and slowly walked in the direction of home with Xiao Wu in his arms.

There was only a thin pair of stockings on his feet, and he could clearly feel that the ground was hard and cold when he walked on the ground, but Yiyi still stepped on it step by step. She felt that the thorns on the road seemed to have become less and softer, and it didn't hurt so much to step on.

On the way, Xiao Wu told Yiyi that her mother had told him everything. At first, Xiao Wu was difficult to accept, but after returning home, he began to learn about this aspect of the content frantically, and saw a lot of people who were the same as Yiyi, as beautiful as Yiyi, and they were all living so hard.

It's just that the gender pretends to be the wrong body, and what Xiao Wu said about ending the pain is to let go of those traditional views. He knows that what he loves is the person in front of him, and love has nothing to do with her gender. Besides, whether it is Yiyi's personality or appearance, she is the look of the girl she likes, so she can completely care about gender issues.

"You are such a gentle, kind, wonderful person, I don't care about those others at all." Xiao Wu said.

Xiao Wu hopes that Yiyi will accept himself, accept his love, and be able to open his heart to himself that has been closed for a long time.

After arriving home, Yiyi put hot water to let Xiao Wu take a bath to dispel the cold, and only after Xiao Wu finished washing and lay on the bed did he go to take a bath.

When she came out, Yiyi wrapped herself tightly in a large bath towel, although the chest had been operated on in the first two years, which can be said to be perfect, but the most important lower body had not yet been done - because Yiyi had not saved enough money and had not been able to get her mother's permission. She was afraid that such a "deformed" body would scare Xiao Wu.

Xiao Wu pulled Yiyi to his side, and without the slightest hesitation, he reached out and untied the bath towel.

When this last trace of secret was revealed, Yiyi closed her eyes and tears flowed, even though the light was dim to the point of ambiguity, she didn't dare to look at Xiao Wu's expression.

Xiao Wu gently pulled Yiyi into his arms, lay on the bed, stroked the fine hair on Yiyi's cheeks, and whispered in Yiyi's ear: "Yiyi, I love you." ”

Yiyi was greedily feeling Xiao Wu's body temperature in every inch of her skin at the moment, she raised her eyes to look at Xiao Wu, smiled happily, and said, "Well, I know, I love you too." ”

Xiao Wu wanted to get up, but he pulled his leg, and he made an "oops" sound in pain.

Yiyi smiled, turned over, put her hand on Xiao Wu's chest and pressed Xiao Wu, leaned into Xiao Wu's ear and whispered, "You lie down." ”

Brother Yu was very strange that Xiao Wu actually came to work with Yiyi, and it was Yiyi who entered the door with Xiao Wu.

"Yiyi, you're different today." Brother Yu stared at Yiyi and said.

"What's the difference?" Yiyi asked.

"It feels like the style is ...... Lady. ”

"It's not pretty, is it?" Yiyi then asked.

"It's not pretty, it's good-looking! It just doesn't feel like your style, especially feminine today. After Brother Yu finished speaking, he entered the house.

Yiyi turned her head to look at Xiao Wu and pinched him on the waist: "Who made you like ladylike style?" Do you like individual ones? ”

Xiao Wu shouted "Oops" and dodged for a while, saying, "But I think you're beautiful, really." ”

Yiyi playfully said, "Okay, forgive you." I'll get your crutches, and you sit down. ”

I took out the spare crutches in the store, went to the repair room for a long time, and found a lot of stickers with guitar logos of various brands, and pasted the crutches full, full of bells and whistles, and airtight.

Xiao Wu was stunned and asked, "This ...... Isn't it ugly? ”

"Is it ugly?" Yiyi took the cane and looked at it: "I like it." ”

"Beautiful! I would also like. Xiao Wu took the crutches and tried it: "You really made it different, it's much more solid, I think I can run faster than last night, and I will definitely be able to catch up with you!" ”

Yiyi covered her mouth and laughed.

Xiao Wu stood beside Yiyi, took his hand, and said, "You promised me last night, no matter what happens, you can't do stupid things anymore, live well, you have me, don't be afraid of anything." ”

Yiyi pretended to be stupid: "Last night? What the? I forgot. ”

"It's nothing, my leg hurt a lot last night." Xiao Wu looked disdainful.

"Hahahaha, bad guy!"