Sycamore Fall Chapter 45. Big dreams, who feels
In the cold night, no sound could be heard in the carriage, as if a still flowing glacier, everything had been dimmed, not everyone was as quiet as him in reality, he just locked himself in the dark abyss and began to isolate himself from the world.
Su Kite and he always get together less and leave more, and for the sake of the better future they describe, they always read the letters written by each other when they feel lonely and helpless, which is used for this relief and encouragement.
It was almost dawn, and the golden sunlight was gradually shining through the cloud city, and he was about to find his lover without dreams.
Knocking on the door, the landlord Zhao Dan was about to welcome him in, and to his surprise, she was also a young woman, but her young face revealed a tenacity, as if she had experienced an extraordinary experience, and her eyes were also red, and she must have been sleepless last night.
"Mr. Tang! After a long journey, let's go to the house for a meal first, and we'll talk about it later. She saw that Yining was dusty, and wanted to entertain first.
"Miss Zhao, thank you for taking care of Su Kite, I'm not hungry, I just want to meet her first." His expression was stiff, and there was no blood on his chapped lips.
"Good! I'll take you! Zhao Dan sighed, turned around and went to the room to take out the string of keys.
Turning on the light by the door, the dark room was instantly filled with warmth, and the layout of this small cabin felt familiar to him, bringing back his memories to the secret place where precious memories were stored when he was in high school.
The room was clean and tidy, and there were jingling wind chimes hanging by the windowsill, and Su Yuan was lying quietly on the wooden bed, looking peaceful and happy, with a smile on the corner of her pale and red mouth.
"Little kite, I've come to see you!" He crouched down, took her cold little hand, and gasped and coughed.
The cold body was no longer soft, the jade pendant he gave him in his ear, and the broken lipstick next to the bed, he seemed to be able to conjure up the scene of the last moment, and the valve of emotional control in his heart was easily broken.
"Why did you leave me alone, didn't you say it, after we graduate, I will marry you as my Tang family's daughter-in-law, so that you will be happy for the rest of your life!" You're too ruthless, too ruthless! Why can't you just wait for me, why can't you hide everything from me, can't you let me say more to you......"
Zhao Dan stood beside him, and also wiped his tears with silk in a low voice, people's emotions are very easily infected, not to mention that she is a daughter made of water.
"Mr. Tang, Miss Su Yuan left you a letter with me, saying that I will give it to you when you come, and I will go out first and not disturb you." Zhao Dan took out a letter from his wide sleeve and placed it on the crumpled sheet.
His hand was very strong, but it was difficult to pick up this thin letter at the moment, but this letter belonged to Su Yuan, and his unbearable heart was difficult to resist her will, so he had to tremble and open the letter.
To the most important people in my life:
Anin! Please forgive me for my willfulness, and forgive me for saying goodbye to you without saying goodbye! If you want to blame, you can only blame this unpredictable providence, and create and make people! How can I be willing to leave behind you who love me, respect me, pity me, and are willing to give up for me? I asked myself that I had regretted my actions countless times in my heart, but in the end, the decision that came was bloody, irreparable mistakes.
I used to think that the luck of returning to the nest turned out to be misfortune after all, and I had a great mother who loved me dearly, but I had a sinful father, and this caused my displacement. I don't want to say too much about the trivial matters at home, I just ask you not to trace the roots, just collect my remnants, and forget that there is such a thing, I am still a homeless prodigal.
When I left you, I told myself not to be too sad so as not to damage my body, maybe there will be a chance to meet again in the near future, but I am fragile after all, and I will eventually become sick with lovesickness. I would write by the windowsill every day, and I would collect scattered thoughts like you, which also became my cure for autism, and I lived happily and without suffering.
Gu Fang and I are like sisters, she cried very sadly when I threatened to chase you, but you have never seen her pear blossom with rain, and she loves you no less than me. I may be close to you because I am looking for the warmth of the world, but she is the most original attachment in your heart.
During the ten days we got together after the college entrance examination, she told me a lot about you, such as what you like to eat, what you like to do and what your subtle actions mean, and then I realized that the woman I thought you had was standing in front of me, and I realized that I was destined to have a war with my good sister. I thought I was going to be a stranger to her from now on, but what I didn't expect was that she actually let go, and I didn't see you at all, I still have a sense of guilt for her, and I hope you can say sorry to her on my behalf.
I know that you have never forgotten her, that you have always had a part of her, that I cannot selfishly bind you to stop you from running to a better life, and that if you don't have a good life, I will be unhappy. Promise me to find her back, and don't let her lose the world and become a regret again!
Meeting you is the luckiest thing in my life, and at this moment, this life is no longer an empty word. I know very well that my body is getting worse and worse these days, so I want to write this letter first, keep this last attachment to you, I hope you can listen to my words, find her, love her, and stay with her for a lifetime, this is also my last wish, if you still have love for me, please keep this love and return it to Gu Fang.
I hope to have an afterlife, because this life is too bitter, and there is no happy ending, if you don't dislike me, please bury me next to the plane tree in your hometown, maybe I can be reincarnated as a phoenix in the future.
Su Kite's letter didn't seem to be finished, but there was no left part of the paper in her hand, thinking about her always blank character, and the actions she did were all for him, he didn't look for the root of it, he followed Su Kite's wishes and wanted to take her back to his hometown.
There were not many things in the house, and he searched the room for what she had left behind, the orchids by the windowsill were in good bloom, the collection of essays in the drawers was stacked peacefully, and the insoles for him hung in the closet......
Su Kite's tomb stands next to the plane tree in the mountain behind his hometown, which is her favorite place, and on a summer night, she always loves to hang her legs in the air on the smooth branches, looking at the brilliant and gorgeous galaxy, and yearning for the legend of the stars in the sky. Now her wandering soul has finally been able to settle down, and she no longer has to call the world home.
After teaching the last lesson of the semester, he resigned from his job in the county, and begged Old Man Chu to let him go to the countryside to teach in a village near his hometown.
Gu Fang finally let go of his heart under the sincerity of his many contacts, and finally showed up after learning about Su Yuan's misfortune, the appointed day was coming, he waited quietly at home, how could he not be excited, he and Gu Fang had not met for five years, and he didn't even know how to open his mouth and how to face his heart.
"Class!"
"Stand up!"
"Hello teacher!"
"Hello students, please sit down! Today, Mr. Tang will tell you the article "My Uncle Mr. Lu Xun", first of all, let's look at the picture of Mr. Lu Xun on the big screen, the students should be very familiar with Mr. Lu Xun, what kind of person is he in your impression? ”
"I'm coming, I'm coming! Lu Xun's original name was Zhou Shuren, the word Yucai, a native of Shaoxing, Zhejiang, is a modern writer in my country...... "Qiuluo generally carried the official introduction seriously, which caused the surrounding classmates to laugh.
"Qiu Luo, I support actively answering questions, the question I just asked is what kind of person you think he is? The teacher doesn't blame you, then you continue to say what you think, and we all listen. He encouraged Qiuluo to continue answering.
"I think Mr. Lu Xun is a complicated person, his articles are really difficult to understand, even every word and sentence in the work contains deep meaning, it seems that most of his words are correct, although I don't want to see him in the exam questions, but I still respect him very much."
"Qiu Luo is right, Mr. Lu Xun is indeed worthy of the respect of others, his works are indeed concise and obscure, everyone has always had the impression of him as a serious fighter, so today we will understand him from the perspective of others, and approach this gentleman who has been a difficult student for many years......"
Before the class was halfway through, he only heard someone outside the window telling him to go out, "Teacher Tang, someone is looking for a girl about the same age as you, waiting for you at the school gate, do you want to go down and have a look first?" ”
"Students, the teacher has something to go out, you have to stay in the classroom obediently to prepare, I'll be back later." He gave the students in the class tasks and left the classroom.
The white gauze skirt fluttered lightly, and in the wind, she was like a blooming orchid, beckoning to him, it was Gu Fang who was quietly coming, and she was combing her long hair.
"Ah Fang, didn't you say that you came in two days, I haven't had time to prepare for you yet, and I'll pick you up and wash the dust." He was a little at a loss
"Didn't you want to come and see our Teacher Tang in advance, I haven't seen you for so many years, you don't allow me to be a little anxious." Gu Fang grabbed his hat and smiled at him. ”
"It's windy outside, why don't you go to my office and sit first, the fresh honeysuckle I picked is in the drawer, you can take it to make tea, I still have a class, so I'll snub you like this first!"
"Okay, I'll listen to you, remember to call me when you're done!"
Yining led Gu Fang into his office, and when he passed through the corridor, he was inevitably teased by the bear children in the class, saying that he finally had a teacher and such words.
Gu Fang was playing with his teacup in his office, which was exactly what she had given him years ago, and it was still in use and very well preserved, while he continued to lecture, and he wanted to pass on what he had learned to the children who were thirsty for knowledge.
After Gu Fang read Su Yuan's letter, she also understood a lot of cause and effect, and her dead heart for love burned again, but there was still a huge obstacle between the two of them, that is, Gu Fang's father, the calf guard cow with a deep view of the door.
"A-Ning, I seem to be in a dream, I thought I would never be able to continue this fate with you again, Sister Su Yuan, she really loves me......"
"It's not a dream, Fong! I swear, I will spend my life to protect you, I will no longer be cowardly, I will not let go of your hand again......"
Under the plane tree, in front of Su Kite's new grave, a broken mirror reunion was being performed, and he seemed to see the beautiful woman smiling at him again, and the soul that could sing and dance loved him deeply.
Life is like a dream, but who can feel the life of a big dream? It's just that I experienced joys and sorrows in my dreams, and I left some broken memories after waking up from my dreams!