People who never resist in the face of adversity are what Liu Xili hates the most.

She has experienced this kind of school bullying since junior high school.

When I was in elementary school, maybe because everyone wasn't very sensible, I didn't feel any difference between them. But in junior high school, things were a little different.

It was a history lesson. The texts involve the origin of Taoism, and as an extracurricular extension, the history teacher casually talks about the current situation and common sense of Taoism.

However, that is not quite what my parents said.

Her look of confusion and anxiety soon aroused the teacher's idea, and the teacher kindly asked her what she had.

She stood up, corrected some of her teacher's remarks, and began to talk.

After only three minutes, she felt that there was something strange in the eyes of the classmates around her. Her voice narrowed, and she glanced at the teacher uneasily.

The teacher's face was ugly.

“...... It's almost there, and we're going to have to talk about the main lesson. No matter how you say it, it is all feudal superstition until now. ”

I just formed a class, and my classmates are not familiar with each other. But since then, many children have given up the opportunity to meet her.

At first, a small number of classmates found it novel and were willing to pester her to ask questions. But soon, the withered flowers, the dead birds, the stolen stationery, all the disturbing factors, are blamed on this "little Taoist boy" who can do magic.

She can draw talismans.

She knows how to tell fortunes.

She could see ghosts.

Rumors spread for a while, and no one wanted to associate with this eccentric person anymore.

Even after graduating from elementary school, it's a group of children. It is not incomprehensible that there is some misunderstanding of this orthodox religion in China.

But the flowers were because the person in charge did not water them on time, and the birds were bitten to death by wild cats. As for stationery, it's also made by some mischievous bad students.

Cold violence was very hurtful to Liu Xili at that time.

But after getting used to being isolated, it's not difficult to go it alone.

What really made her feel uneasy was the problem of studying.

In the politics class, the teacher declared that Taoism was "ancient Chinese naïve materialism", which did not conform to advanced dialectical materialism and should be abandoned.

When he said this, he glanced at Liu Xili intentionally or unintentionally. Naturally, the eyes of the whole class fell on her.

It made her very uncomfortable.

But what made her even more unhappy was the teacher's words.

Who should be trusted when something a family member believes in conflicts with so-called scientific knowledge?

Who's right, and does the other have to be wrong?

As her education level increased, there were more and more things that were different from what she knew as a child.

What's even more terrifying is that the teachers may be right.

If what her parents and elders said was false, then what they had said to her for a long time was a lie?

It's good to sit down and talk about this kind of thing.

However, Liu Xili found that she couldn't do it.

Isolated by her classmates for too long, she no longer knows how to talk to others and how to get along with others.

The chaotic world and the heavy red dust seem to have nothing to do with the feathering and ascending to the immortal in the book.

I don't know what to do, I don't know how to face everyone calmly.

So from a certain day, the need for food needed by human beings was abandoned.

That's what Liu Xili did.

"That guy doesn't drink water, don't really want to learn from the immortals in the book, laugh to death. ”

The student said.

"Superstition is harmful, so don't learn like your classmates in some classes. ”

The teacher said so.

"Why are you so tough, kid, can't you say anything?"

Father said so.

And the mother, just crying.

The older generation even felt that Liu Xili should not really be possessed by something dirty, and insisted on doing some strange rituals.

But the parents stopped me.

In other words, they knew very well whether the elements of the faith were true or not.

A hunger strike is a process of eating one's own body.

If you don't supplement food for too long, your body will break down liver glycogen on its own.

Hunger strikes are usually due to death due to dehydration. If you just drink water, you can last up to seven days.

They dragged her to hang the nutrient solution, but she was so uncooperative that she even removed the needle herself.

How long has it been? four days, five days, or six days?

If you don't go to school, you will have no idea about time.

At first it was a stomach ache, and after a day or two, it didn't hurt too much.

Is people's desire to survive something that can be easily abandoned? The famine in history, the hunger to eat tree roots, Guanyin soil, and those things of cannibalism, are obviously so terrible and real.

She fought against her instincts. She felt like she was about to win.

Lying on the bed, she thought quietly.

The eyes are flowery. A woman with long lead-gray hair appeared in her room.

Are you hallucinating from hunger?

"Are you trying to escape by dying?"

Are you hungry and having auditory hallucinations?

But in the face of Shuangque's question, she still answered frankly:

"yes. ”

She felt her voice weak.

"It's better if you don't die now. ”

"Are you going to convince me?"

"No, I'm just asking you to say yes. Let's make a swap, right?"

Adults, self-deception, the pursuit of non-existent comfort and so-called psychological comfort, in the final analysis, is just a form of passive escapism.

There is no regard for the impact and feelings on the child.

Everyone is selfish.

So, she should also be selfish.

In her new life, she is determined to be a person who lives only for herself.

It's not that difficult to deal with people, just use the Internet a little bit to learn about what's trending. This approach made her have a great time in high school.

What a bunch of boring idiots.

Bullying the weak has always been the pleasure of this bunch of trash. But so what's the matter, I'm not a weak person anyway.

Liu Xili thought so.

Although the victim guilt theory is not something she admires, she still can't sympathize with Shi Xue.

Isn't it very simple to fight back when you are scolded and fight back when you are beaten?

If he stalks like a plaster, kill him.

Anyway, the guys who offended Liu Xili too much were all disposed of.

There is a small pond next to the school, which is a great place for the corpses to be found. Since disappearances are mostly after school, these cases are ultimately closed.

That's all there is to ...... It's just three or four people. It's just three years of study, so it's not too noticeable.

Unexpectedly, after graduation, I went to college, and I was actually separated from Shi Xue, and it was even more coincidental that even the dormitory was the same.

The kid seemed to think he liked her because he didn't make a move on her in high school.

It's not that they can't get along well, but for Liu Xili, Shi Xue is really ...... It's stupid.

To be excessively naïve is to be stupid and not to accept dissent.

Can this woman do whatever she wants just because someone likes her? No kidding.

However, Liu Xili gathered all her real thoughts and locked them in a small box in her heart. Then, she put on a smiling mask and faced her.

It's not that I don't really care, it's just forbearance.

Disguising yourself is the way to protect yourself. Although Shi Xue is a little stupid, the kid who follows her ass every day is very smart.

She was indeed a little surprised by the appearance of the robin.

She doesn't hate it.

But she hates Shi Xue.

I hate it to the point that everything that connects her belongings is hated together.

"I bought snacks and eat them together, is the power strip getting old and it's time to replace it? Also, I bought a cute storage bag, so you can put your stuff in. ”

Such an understanding little girl, it must not be her problem to have an argument with her. If you clash with her head-on, the unreasonable party will definitely be defined by everyone as your own.

Who wants to use your things? Liu Xili thought to herself, and her answer was, "Okay, put it there." ”

Human love can be unjustified, and so is hate.

Although it is a very cute little life, for the sake of your master's roommate, which is my peace, please shut up forever.

Strangulation? That winged thing is too hard to grasp, and it's not stupid.

Isn't it too obvious that the dormitory is on fire?

Drowning? Even more impossible, could it fall into a teacup on its own?

Suddenly, Liu Xili realized that she had fallen into a misunderstanding.

In order not to arouse suspicion of such a troublesome thing for people, it is necessary to use the power of nature. But it's just a bird, a little bird.

Just borrow "common" chemicals.

And it's so easy to blame - there's a girl in the class, Calyx, who is notoriously weird.

Everyone knows that she often soaks herself in the lab, playing with expensive equipment without permission. What's more, she can be cruel to small animals.

In order to do all kinds of unreasonable experiments, he used guinea pigs, rabbits, frogs, or hamsters, goldfish, and birds that he bought...... No matter what you face, you can be ruthless without any psychological burden.

Even so, when facing humans, she can always greet them with a smile. Once, when she got a hand of blood, she waved her hand happily when she saw the teacher, which frightened the poor old lady very much.

Everyone didn't like her, and they didn't dare to approach her.

Therefore, even if it wasn't made by Calyx, she couldn't argue.

After class, while Shixue was called by the teacher to sort out the materials, Liu Xili went to the storage room of the laboratory building to find what she wanted.

Unfortunately, the storage room has all the dangerous items locked. It gave her a headache.

Discouraged, she leaves the storage room, and she finds the door to the second lab open. Walking in, there was a little girl with white hair operating something in a fume hood.

"Calyx?"

"Ah, hey, what are you doing?"

"The teacher said the key was missing, and asked me to help me go back to the lab to find it. What are you doing?"

"Guess what. ”

After that, she continued to get busy with her business. Liu Xili leaned in and studied it carefully.

Potassium cyanate, carbaamide, water, carbon dioxide......

She understood that calyx had to use potassium cyanate, which was low toxicity, to produce potassium cyanide.

Cyanide is the best poison that can kill instantaneously.

- To be continued -