After turning the hill wall, we came to the top floor, and watched the huge and beautiful canopy bloom above our heads, and our hearts were filled with emotion.

Except for the countless flowers and trees that have grown, the white ruins have not changed anything, and they are still fresh and beautiful as in the painting. The monster didn't know where to hide, and we didn't find it until we reached the door of the Danfang. I really don't know if it's afraid of Lu Yan himself or the antlers in his hands.

After walking a short distance, the Danfang appeared in front of me, and as soon as I came out of Xiazhuang, I was surprised to find that the structure of the entire ruins was similar to that of Xiazhuang. If you think about it, even the platform we first explored could fit into this structure, and the ornate altar-like building matched the shape of the square in front of the Danfang.

These layers of buildings may all be interrelated, but know what the basis for this connection is. When I opened the door, the furnishings were still the same, a multi-layered openwork ball hung in the middle of the room, and there were still some tattered pieces around it.

I said to Lu Yan, "The antidote should be in the side rooms on both sides." ”

Lu Yan nodded and walked to the side. I didn't want to search for it myself, so I followed him.

When I opened the door, it wasn't the same as the last time I was here, but unlike what I thought, the stone boxes were empty, and there was no silver sand antidote. And none of the unknown weird ingredients I need.

"Let's go, let's go look on the other side!" I said to Lu Yan.

Lu Yan nodded and came out with me. As I walked through the main room, I suddenly felt that something was wrong. The last time we came, the reason why we were discovered by the monster was because I lifted Zhang Guoqing's backpack, and at this time, the backpack was gone!

Could it be that Zhang Guoqing came back and took the bag away? But what did he take this for? He's just a monster now, I'm afraid he's lost even the basics of his mind, and the stuff in it is of no use to him at all.

Thinking of this, I hesitated a little. Lu Yan sensed that something was wrong with me and stopped to look at me.

"I'm fine, it's just that Zhang Guoqing's backpack was thrown here last time I came, and I can't see it this time."

"Don't worry if I'm here!" Lu Yan said lightly, turned around and pushed open the door.

The bright light of the flashlight illuminated the room, and I knew that this was the last hope, and if I couldn't find it, I would have to try my luck in the water at the bottom, and the probability of this luck being met was unimaginably small.

The shelves were filled with stone boxes, some even with lids, and I struggled to check the contents one by one. Some of the boxes did contain sandy things, but they didn't have that strange smell, I showed them to Lu Yan, and Lu Yan told me very clearly that they were cinnabar, not the antidote I was looking for.

The shelves were so high that the top floor was too close to reach, so I simply climbed up and looked through them one by one towards the deepest part of the room. Seeing that there were fewer and fewer boxes in front of me, my heart gradually cooled.

At this moment, a low roar came from under the shelf! I prick my scalp and hurriedly shine a flashlight on it, and I almost fell off the shelf.

There was a man squatting in the corner at the end of the shelf, this person was pale, wearing a tattered robe, a white face, there were no ears, nose, eyebrows, and eyes, only a huge mouth with sharp teeth that was constantly opening and closing at me at the moment.

As soon as I straightened my waist, I reached out to pull out the fixed light sword on my waist, but I hit my head on the roof, and the sharp pain that came from it instantly made my whole body curl up. Lu Yan was originally searching below, and hurried over when he heard the sound, I heard Lu Yan's low shout below, and the sound of steel breaking through the stone slab, and hurriedly jumped off the shelf, but saw Lu Yan's antlers deeply rooted in the wall at the corner, forcing the monster to be unable to move in the corner, and still roared in panic.

The monster was the size of a man of average stature, with all hands and feet, and was covered in tattered pieces of cloth, and would have looked almost like a white man if it weren't for the blank on his face. Lu Yan stood in front of this monster with a look of embarrassment on his face, as if he had broken something.

I looked at him strangely, but he stretched out his hand and interrupted me, "Did you find it?" ”

"No ......"

"Then let's get out!"

"But this ......"

"It's okay, let's go!" As he spoke, Lu Yan withdrew his antlers and dragged me out.

Although I was reluctant, I had no choice but to walk out, and when I turned around, I saw that Zhang Guoqing's backpack was thrown on the ground, and in the broken and unshaped military uniform on the monster's body, a round of huge eyes was faintly exposed.

Lu Yan carefully closed the door of the side room, pulled me straight out of the door, and sat on the stone steps at the door. I didn't sit down, I stood behind him and looked down at him. Lu Yan found a pack of cigarettes out of nowhere, and with some difficulty with his injured hand, he took out a cigarette and lit it, and almost smoked it to the root in one puff.

This is the first time I have seen Lu Yan smoking, and I know that he should meet his old friend again, and I feel emotional, so I didn't pay much attention to it. After being silent for a long time, Lu Yan finally let out a sigh of relief and said, "Why don't they want to be people!" ”

I had been wondering in my heart about Lu Yan's strange behavior with that monster, and then I reacted when I heard him say this. Aren't the clothes on that monster the same pile of tattered military uniforms that Zhang Guoqing has? He transformed himself into a human form and put on clothes, in order to find himself back then? It's no wonder that Lu Yan has this reaction, but after becoming a monster, he will still have this kind of behavior, which is incomprehensible. I wanted to say something, but I opened my mouth but didn't say it, imagining the miserable years that this monster had withered for decades, and that unusually sad emotion had just come out of my heart at this time, and I almost collapsed and coughed out of the cold.

"Why don't you want to go there with me?" Lu Yan asked suddenly.

“……”

"Why can't you let go of this world?" He didn't seem to wait for my answer, and then asked.

yes, why can't you let go of this world? I had never thought about this question, but when I heard Lu Yan's question, I suddenly wanted to answer him. I looked up and kept asking myself why I couldn't let go of this world. This world should have been easily let go, not only because it was more ugly than beautiful, not only because it gave me a sense of urgency to leave all the time, not to mention that it was now broken like this, worse, even more unbearable, why can't I let go of it?

Is it because of those people? Or is it all that has ever happened? I pondered it, but I didn't have a clue, and it was all like a mess, twisting and twisting to bring another problem to the fore.

Why do I have to figure this out? Does it matter or do I care?

"Lu Yan, I don't know where you're from or what you've been through. But I have lived in this world for more than 20 years, and in these 20 years, I have experienced some things, met some people, and left some traces here. But I never thought that I would be such an important person, I just concentrated on living my little life, running my little life, I have lived a very happy life for more than 20 years, and I never thought about changing anything or regretting anything. ”

I gasped for breath and felt something heavy build up in my mind.

"But this kind of small day came to an end so suddenly, and I was such a small person who did such a big thing, and it may have changed the whole world! Lu Yan, do you know? This feeling is very bad! ”

"But I still think about my little days, about the little happiness of our little handful, but I changed the world, and this little handful of people is gone. But my wife is still there, and you are still there. So I still want to get back to those ordinary little days, even in this broken world. ”

"This kind of little life can only exist in this world, if you say that there is an intact ...... in that world" I lowered my head and thought for a moment, "That kind of little life belongs to me over there, I broke up my little happiness, I want to get it back with my own hands!" ”

"To be a man, you always have to be a little responsible." I said with a smile.