After dinner, the group returned to Tianlang Community.

When Zheng Qiqi was righteous and strongly asked to live with Shi Tian, Jiang Zhu was ruthlessly abandoned and swept away, and Feng Yuan also fully carried forward the love of unity and friendship and took Jiang Zhu in.

At night, Feng Yuan lay in bed, still thinking about the day's cases and the recent series of cases.

"Alas!"

"Why are you sighing?" In the dark, Li Yi opened his eyes and stared at the ceiling by the bright light sneaking in from the window, without any sleep, he asked, "Are you still bothering about the case?" ”

"Hmm." Feng Yuandao: "I'm thinking about the recent events, it seems that after I decided to go out on vacation and got on the 'Hope', the cases happened one by one, and we knew who the people behind the manipulation were, but there was still no way, the 'Hope'...... It's really like there's no hope in sight. ”

"You're worried that you won't be able to catch the drug dealers... Scared? ”

"How is that possible?" Feng Yuan immediately retorted: "Does the young master seem to be a scared person? I just... is worried that they will jump off the wall in a hurry, a group of outlaw drug dealers, if they know that they are being chased by the police, and may even be served in a pot, they may do very radical things, they have guns in their hands, and there are explosions. Bullets, there are drugs, and there are even many other weapons......"

"You're worried that they're acting aggressively?"

The police may take a roundabout approach to hunt down criminals in order to avoid overzealous criminals, but it is absolutely impossible for drug dealers to consider whether they have hurt innocent people when they are on the run or about to be arrested.

"Yes." Feng Yuan was very depressed, and with the heat, he kicked the quilt away and pressed it under his long legs, feeling the slightest coolness, and it seemed that he could be more comfortable.

Li Yi wrapped himself in a quilt and said, "Don't move, it's cold." ”

“…… Big brother, it's March, it's almost April, and summer is here. Feng Yuan's mind beat and said, "You are not a woman, and you are still cold?" ”

"When I was a child, I was so cold that I fell ill, and besides, it's only March, where is it summer?"

Feng Yuan pursed his lips, but he didn't move, he remembered what Li Yi said about the root of the disease, that winter, he held his mother's body and lay in the cold all night.

"I remember that after you started practicing kickboxing, your body was better, why are you still afraid of the cold?"

Li Yi muttered, "Do you know the temperature of the corpse? There are some things that can't be changed for a lifetime after they go deep into the bone marrow. ”

The temperature of the corpse... Feng Yuan thought that in his life, he had seen too many corpses, but he had never felt the temperature of the corpse that Li Yi said.

"That thing... Haven't you put it down yet? ”

"Zheng Qiwei's death

… Will you put it down? ”

Feng Yuan suddenly smiled, yes! Some things, once they happen, cannot be undone or let go.

"I'll catch those people, the law... In the end, the victim will definitely be given an explanation. ”

"Hmm." Li Yi said: "I'm sure you'll catch them." ”

Hearing Li Yi's affirmation of himself, Feng Yuan was very nervous.

"Of course, as long as the master comes out, he will be invincible."

"Then you have to come on, don't forget, although this incident happened in Jianghai City, but it involves the past, but it is about everyone around you, including you. You know PTSD, people are memory animals, so they are also the most susceptible to PTSD, you look at all the people in this world, their childhood experiences, life experiences, but all setbacks may have left indelible wounds in their hearts, to solve the trauma, you must first solve the person or event that brought them trauma. ”

Trauma......

Feng Yuan thought of Jiang Zhu, Zheng Qiqi, Shi Tian, and then Lu Xi, Xu Chi, and Qin Youyou, these people can be regarded as having experienced trauma, but the final outcome is completely different.

"Xiaoyi, what about you? A few years ago, I remember when it was the Qin Youyou case, you finally opened up to me and told me about the incident when you were eight years old, but then for some reason, it was interrupted, so what about after that? What happened after that? ”

Li Yi paused, in the dark night, neither of them could see each other's expressions, only the sound of cyclic and undulating breathing.

"You want to know?"

"If you want to say it." Feng Yuandao: "Didn't you just say that if you want to solve the trauma, you must first solve the person or event that gave them the trauma. ”

"Ah Yuan, I'm a psychiatrist, I know my own problems, and I can not be like other people."

This means that if he has a trauma, he can solve it in his own way, regardless of the set of scientific theories.

"And how are you going to fix it?" Feng Yuan finally asked, "Wait for time to heal slowly?" ”

“…… Right. Li Yi said: "My parents have passed away for many years, what else can I do?" ”

"Uh... You can try to come out and accept a new relationship, you know, there will be a lot of people who will love you if you are willing to accept it. ”

After thinking about it, Li Yi said very seriously: "Forget it, if I let go and accept the love of others, it is estimated that I will become a thorn in the side of many men." ”

"......" Feng Yuan said quietly: "You have changed, you have never been so narcissistic before." ”

“…… He who touches pitch will be defiled. ”

Feng Yuan was depressed, and the topic seemed to be heading

walked in an unpredictable direction, at first, he obviously just wanted to simply complain about the recent bad encounter, and by the way, talk to Li Yi about the drug dealer, why did the painting style become like this?

"Whew!" Feng Yuan breathed a sigh of relief and said helplessly: "Forget it, sleep." ”

Li Yi didn't speak again, he could only hear his shallow breathing, Feng Yuan waited for a long time, and there was no movement over there.

Depend on!

Fell asleep so quickly! What about playing with me?

"My parents were very loving when they were alive......"

Just as Feng Yuan was complaining and falling asleep, the people around him suddenly spoke, and Feng Yuan was instantly shocked.

"Huh?"

"Because of this, after my mother was killed, my father blamed all the blame on me, he thought that it was because of my birthday that my mother would go to the mall with me to buy things on that day, otherwise he would not be targeted by the kidnappers, he thought that I killed my mother......"

Feng Yuan was completely awakened by these words, if his memory was not wrong, in his impression, the relationship between Uncle Li and Xiao Yi has always felt strange, obviously they love each other, but they are always hurting each other, could it be that the transformation happened after Aunt Shen died?

Li Yi continued: "He thinks that I killed my mother, so he hates me very much, and I also think that if he can leave his work that night to pick us up, we will not take a taxi, so that we will not be kidnapped by the kidnappers, so he is responsible for his mother's death." ”

Feng Yuan thought for a while, and then said, "You are torturing each other. ”

"Yes! We are torturing each other, knowing that it is our own cause, but we are unwilling to admit it, and we inflict all the faults on each other, and the longer we go, the deeper our hatred, and the weaker our feelings become......"

"No, there isn't." Feng Yuandao: "Your relationship with Uncle Li is not weak, he loves you very much, he just... After Aunt Shen's death, I don't know how to face you, but it's possible... He didn't know how to face himself. ”

"If he hated you, he wouldn't want to see you before he died."

Li Yi was silent again, and after a long time, he said, "Go to sleep, you have to get up early tomorrow." ”

"Xiao Yi ......"

Feng Yuan still wanted to say something, but he didn't know what to say, and seeing that Li Yi didn't want to talk anymore, he slowly fell asleep after turning countless thoughts.

Li Yi closed his eyes, listened to the breathing sound next to him slowly became stable, and couldn't help but ask himself: Does Li Hongbo hate himself?

Of course hate.

Otherwise, why would he commit suicide in front of himself? Instead of surviving to be with him.

However, he did love himself deeply.