Oh, yes! It's really rare to write a letter these days, let alone a letter that doesn't even have a stamp.

Apparently, this letter was sent by someone on purpose.

To test my suspicions, I shook the envelope in front of my nose, and sure enough, it smelled very strong, and I was all too familiar with this smell.

Back in the dormitory, I learned from the mouth of the four eyes who were lying in front of the computer and didn't want to look up, that Gangzi and Stubborn Niu were called to play basketball, and there were only two people in the dormitory at this time. The rare cleanliness of the dormitory is back, and I don't have to worry about being disturbed, and I can read the letter to the end.

On the second floor, I have a mosquito net on my bed, and the small world set up by the mosquito net is my own space, and in the mosquito net erected all year round, the folded quilt and a stack of teaching textbooks at the bedside are all the belongings. I like to do what I love in my own space without being disturbed.

I sat down on my bed and took the letter out of my bosom. The font on the envelope of "Liu Rui receiving" is beautiful, but there is no pen power.

I took a deep breath and opened my eyes, which had been closed for a full five seconds. Along the corners of the envelope, I carefully opened it, for fear of tearing it a little.

See the letter, well!

I'm sorry to say goodbye to you in such a way. It takes a lot of courage for someone who can't see their tomorrow to say goodbye in person, and this may be more appropriate now. By the time you read this letter, I should have been on the other side of the ocean, everything is fine, don't read it!

At this moment, I am raising my pen to recall the acquaintance and acquaintance for more than half a year, and I ask to take back the sentence "If I could, I really hope I didn't know you". I should say that it is fortunate that I met you, which made me know the true meaning of life, and the reason why life is worth persevering, and also made me recognize my past 20 years of life.

I want to apologize to you first for keeping it a secret from you that I was sick. In fact, as early as the day of the hotel in the seaside town, I came back in a hurry because of the diagnosis of the disease, and later when I chatted in the park, I was told that I needed to be hospitalized. I'm entangled and painful, I don't have confidence in the treatment, and I don't want to face it in my heart, and I want to talk to you because I don't know where to go, I can't find the direction, because you give me a different feeling than others, so I want to talk to you. But what I didn't expect was that after talking to you, my consciousness actually changed, you let me know you, understand a completely different way of facing life, and let me know that different experiences create different outlooks on life and values.

Later, you sent me to the hospital, something like that happened, but it made me see the other side of you, never had the opportunity to tell you, in fact, the feeling of leaning on your back is very special, it is never more solid and dependent, at that moment, I am the same as you, I really hope that the road to the hospital will go on. Don't deny it, that's what you must have thought at the time.

For your farewell later, I am angry, Xiaoxiao told me that you asked Fan Xin to borrow money, and you can roughly guess why you left, after all, time is very easy to calculate, right? Later, your performance on the phone also confirmed my suspicions. I admit that I called to explain to you, but you always avoided talking about anything else, or simply refused to answer my phone under the pretext of being busy, which made me feel that it was very important to explain to you, and you didn't understand me at all, and you didn't even give me a chance to talk to you clearly.

I want to thank you for the book and the bag of instant noodles that you left in the hospital, I was so happy when I suddenly realized that they were my only excuse to ask you out, and of course, thank you, for their sake, you still came out to see the last healthy looking me. That hug in my memory, I must tell you, I am satisfied.

Remember the story of that mountain? I made it up, but it's a pity that you didn't let me finish it, because you are so arrogant, so inferior, and always preconceived ideas, what do you want me to say about you?

I just want to talk to you about us, about you, about me. You are so inferior, in this point, you have completely forgotten your own merits. I want to ask you to let go of your inferiority complex, in fact, you are good enough, different enough, enough to make everyone on this campus look at you differently. As for me and you, in fact, when I realized what I really thought, I decided to be admitted to the hospital, and I wanted to appear in front of you in good health, like a normal person, to enjoy the beauty that should be. I look forward to this day more than ever.

I can't guarantee what will happen in the future, but now I want you to know that I will fight for the life I want. What about you? Do you want me to exist in the life?

You promised me to wait for me to come back, and I promised you to actively cooperate with the treatment. I hope that by the time I come back, you will no longer have the same low self-esteem as you do now, and you will still be able to work hard for the life you want.

Good bye! Thank you for giving me the courage and thank you for letting me know you.

Zimu

29 April 2003

Four pages of letterhead, neatly spread out in my hand. On the last page of the letterhead, Zimu sketches a picture of two people hugging with a simple drawing.

I read every word of the letter in one breath, excited, happy, sad, regretful... All kinds of emotions filled my heart, and I was a little confused.

After bowing my head and reading the letter carefully, I carefully followed the original creases, put the letter away and pressed it under the pillow, and I wanted it to accompany me for a long journey.

"Third, what's wrong?" Gangzi and Stubborn Niu returned to the room with a basketball and saw me sitting on the bed in broad daylight. The stubborn cow was attentive and asked with concern. "It can't be sick, why do you feel weird?"

Gangzi stretched out his big dusty hand, ready to touch my forehead.

I raised my hand and patted his hand away, "I'm fine, by the way, have you figured out where to go on May Day?" Quickly recovering from my state, looking at the three roommates surrounding in front of me, I digressed the topic and avoided explaining.

"No, a few big men, it's not interesting to go anywhere."

Speaking of this, Gangzi seemed very helpless. He invited a circle of girls around, for the incomplete play plan, of course, no one wants to go out together, and he is less and less looking forward to the May Day holiday.

"He's about to become a monk." The stubborn cow sneered, and then began to change his clothes on his own, and he was always the first to change out of sweat-soaked clothes after vigorous exercise.

Four Eyes returned to his computer and didn't say anything.

Looking at the scattered brothers, remembering the guilt of not participating in activities before, and the contents of the letter under the pillow, a sense of summoning rose in my heart.

"Go to the beach, I know a place."

When faced with my proposal, the brothers were stunned at first, and then quickly came to a consensus that they had never seen the sea.

After everyone's gossip, Gangzi and Stubborn Bull went out, and they were going to invite the girls to go again. "Someone must be there this time." After having a specific direction to play, Gangzi is full of confidence. Four Eyes, who didn't want to go out, was dragged by me to buy some snacks or something.

The sun slowly sets over the small island on the coastline, and the red waves sparkle in the eyes. As I did that day, I sat on the stone and looked at the scene in front of me with some fascination.

Gangzi and Stubborn Niu are playing around an invited girl in the sunset, the three of them are talking and laughing and look very harmonious, I heard that the girl is the goddess in Gangzi's heart, and was moved by Gangzi's sincere invitation.

What I didn't expect was that there was also a girl next to Four Eyes. At this time, he was working with her on some animal on the tidal flats, and it was like he was working on some system code.

I was still sitting on the same stone half a year ago, and my thoughts were churning, and for the first time, I had a more tangible feeling for the word "thing" and "people". The four people who were playing in the same place last summer are now going their separate ways, are they all okay? When will we see you again?

Luckily, there are always new friends around me, and they play different roles and make my life equally colorful. "Come on! We're all in this together. "I prayed three times silently in my heart against the shoreline.

At the end of the prayer, I grabbed the small stone beside me and threw it as far as I could towards the sea, and I jumped off the stone and ran like a madman in the direction of Gangzi and the stubborn cow.