"He Chuan, I heard what you said to your uncle last night." Xu Yi took a sip of beer and looked at He Chuan seriously.

He Chuan listened to Xu Yi's words and felt that Xu Yi seemed to have something to say to him, he looked at Xu Yi seriously, didn't say a word, and waited for Xu Yi to speak first.

Xu Yi held his face with one hand, and drank the beer with the other hand until he drank it all, he looked at He Chuan longingly, and wanted to drink another can, but He Chuan refused with righteous words, saying that the last can would be the last can.

Xu Yi pouted, his hands on his cheeks, he looked at He Chuan and said in a daze: "You say, have I done too much in the past two years, am I too willful." ”

He Chuan picked up a can by himself, opened it and drank half of it, he didn't answer and just looked at Xu Yi.

Xu Yi said: "I don't know what I've been complaining about all these years, whether it's because he didn't grow up with me, or because he didn't grow up with me, or because he didn't grow up with me, causing me physical and psychological damage." ”

"Blame him? In what capacity do I blame him, as his son across the Pacific? Or is it a 'stranger' who only knows how to give him money? ”

"When I was a child, I would have looked forward to his return, I would have loved to see this 'glamorous' father, and I would have long wanted to feel the 'heaviness' of my father's love?"

"I study hard, force myself to learn other specialties that I am not interested in, do my best in all aspects, get awards, win trophies, I have always told myself to be sensible, not willful, to be obedient, Dad likes sensible children. I did everything just to please him so that he could come back to see me more. He said, "Xu Yi, that's awesome." "I'll be happy for a month."

"I vowed to be a better person than him, and I must make him look the other way, so that he can come back to see me often, give me fatherly love, and give me a sense of security."

"As I grew up, I gradually understood that no matter what I did, he would not come back to see me more often, and the son who saw him once a year was not as good as money and status after all, and he never had a trace of sincere guilt about not being able to grow up with me, I began to refuse to communicate with him, and I avoided him when he went home, and it would not hurt me anymore because he left to hurt me, and he gradually became a stranger in my heart."

"You know, there was a time when loneliness, despair, helplessness surrounded me all the time, and I even thought about ending my life like this,"

"Later, he no longer took the initiative to talk to me, no longer took the initiative to ignore me, and gave all his 'superficial' love to make a wish, and he came back every month to make a wish just after he was born, and he gave all his love to make a wish, and I was also happy, I don't care about the gossip of the outside world, the discussion behind the backs of classmates and friends, I have become stronger, and I will not be swayed by other people's emotions with 'no father'."

"Now, I'm grown up, I can begin to understand that he left home and left me involuntarily, but he has never been able to forgive him, he can't let go, he has been trying to compensate me, at first with money, then with companionship, until now I am still refusing, he said that he has recognized his mistakes, he wants me to give him a chance, to make up for me, to make up for my missing childhood, I told him forget it, I'm fine now, just let him take care of the wish, don't let the wish repeat."

Xu Yi sighed deeply, he looked at the night sky, as if he was looking at his former self, and some unbearable pictures and harsh words kept flashing in his mind.

"Xu Yi is a child without a father."

"Xu Yi's father doesn't want him anymore."

"Xu Yi's father ran away with someone else."

"Xu Yi's father did something bad and fled abroad."

"Xu Yi is so pitiful."

"Xu Yi, you have to be strong."

"Xu Yi is too miserable."

"Xu Yi deserves that your father doesn't want you."

These harsh words kept circulating in Xu Yi's mind, and Xu Yi couldn't help but shout: "Enough." ”。

Seeing that Xu Yi was emotional, He Chuan walked to Xu Yi's side, he patted Xu Yi's shoulder and comforted: "Okay, okay, don't think about it anymore." ”

"I don't know what I did wrong, why they did this to me."