At this time, it takes a lot of courage to meet Zimu's eyes. Those eyes were full of joy, full of desire, full of light, and at the same time, they were tortured to lose their vitality, color, and agility. Please stop at this moment, let me have more time to see her.

We looked at each other, not knowing what to say for a moment.

"Got it all?" Zimu spoke first to break the atmosphere.

"Hmm!" I nodded, "Just got it." ”

Tears rolled in my eyes again, and I raised my head and closed my eyes to calm myself. Can't be so vulnerable, I said to myself.

"Thank you for coming, I should have told you a long time ago." Zimu tried hard to speak, expressing.

"Stop talking." Worried about her state, I don't want her to work too hard.

"Worries you." Zimu's eyes stayed on me.

"It's going to be fine." Everything today is beyond my comprehension.

At the age of 19, I know too little about the world, I have experienced too little, I have no experience in life and death, I can only pray from my heart that it will all pass, and at the same time, I can't do anything.

Zimu twitched the corners of his mouth, as if in response to my words, "I'm trying." She said.

We only spent an hour alone with each other, and we didn't talk much because we were worried about her body, and my life, because of the absence of her company, returned to peace. Her life, this time there is too much involuntary body. A lot of the time, we sit quietly like this, time and environment are not important, and she is real at the moment. Occasionally, only the sunlight outside the window reminds me that time is ticking.

When Xiaoxiao came to call me out, we both felt that it was too short and that time passed too quickly.

"She had just finished dialysis and is very weak now." Because she had interrupted the rest for too long, Xiaoxiao had already shown a trace of displeasure.

"I'll come again." Xiang Zimu assured.

"Thank you."

Closing the door gently, I felt hollowed out.

I've always thought of myself as a master at managing my emotions, but at this moment, my heart is fluctuating and I can't control my eyes anymore, and I let those fluids evaporate. Right at the door, I crouched on the ground and didn't make a sound.

"Let's go." After a moment, Xiaoxiao patted me on the shoulder.

In the downstairs living room, the man in the suit was sitting on the sofa, obviously returning from his busy work. "I'll send you back." Seeing me go downstairs, he stood up and said.

"Good" nodded in agreement, today's physical strength is a bit overdrawn.

"Next time she's better, I'll call you." Xiaoxiao said before sending me to the car.

The car slowly drove out of the villa. When I looked back at the building, it was quiet and elegant, like a hospital and a prison.

"Thank you for coming today." The man in the suit suddenly spoke.

"You're Zimu's father?" I've guessed his identity and tried to make sure.

"Hmm!"

"Here?"

"Xiaoxiao's home."

"Oh! So Xiaoxiao and Zimu are relatives? "I gradually got to know the relationship around her.

"Hmm. Xiaoxiao is my niece, she grew up with Zimu since she was a child, and she is a cousin and a sister. "The man in the suit, no, you should call your uncle at this time, and explained the general situation to me." Xiaoxiao and his father and I are brothers, and we started a business together, and later her father went abroad to develop, Xiaoxiao has always been with us, and the relationship with Zimu is also very good. Xiaoxiao should have told you about Zimu's mother, right? ”

"Got it."

"When her mother died, she was 12 years old and a schoolboy. For so many years, I have been worried every day, afraid that who will take her away from me, and even more afraid that she will be inherited by her mother, the more scared she is, last year, she was still found out, and in the end I couldn't do anything. After all, I'm a father, I'm sorry for her. With a foot on the brakes, this man who is nearly 50 years old can not calm down on the steering wheel for a long time.

This is not the first time I have seen adults cry, my father has also cried in front of me. I knew it must have been more poignant and profound than a child's injury. Like my father's pain, I chose to wait quietly for him to calm down.

"At that time, she should have listened to her mother, and if she hadn't been brought into this world, she wouldn't have to go through so much pain. Her mother was like that, and now it's her turn, and I can't do anything. "The self-blame at the moment should be more powerless.

"How long are you going to torture me?" Uncle looked up and yelled at the roof of the car.

I think he must have been depressed for too long. Today's venting is a good outlet. I witnessed all this, I was not surprised or panicked, I just sat quietly in the car.

"I'm sorry!" After a while, my uncle turned to me.

"She won't blame you." Quietly thinking about what he should say, he finally couldn't help but say it.

"Hmm!" After venting his emotions, my uncle calmed down a lot. "In the future, you should come to see her often."

"Definitely."

"Xiaoxiao told me that she has mentioned you many times and said that you are very special."

"Is it special?" I don't know why, so I silently calculated in my heart what Zimu meant in particular.

"When the formalities are completed, I will take Zimu abroad, and her uncle will help her arrange a top hospital." My uncle told me about my current situation.

"Going abroad?" I was no less surprised than when I knew the state of Zimu.

"Hmmm! SARS is now serious in China, and people are crowded in hospitals, as you know. It will be much better abroad and a lot more professional. I'll try to find a matching kidney source over there, and I can buy it for money there. "Obviously, Uncle has made up his mind.

"When are you leaving?" I know it's the best option, and I have no way to dispute it without a reason and even less identity.

"Soon, at the end of this month. Her uncle's side had already arranged it. The procedures for going abroad are almost done, and now I am contacting the medical staff to accompany her, and her state, I have to wait for a while to get better before going. Don't tell her yet, keep it a secret for me. "My uncle reminded me at the end that it was clear that all this had been done with great care.

"Didn't tell her?"

"Well, she didn't want to go. I think it might have something to do with you. ”

"And me?"

"Hmm!"

"Uncle, do these arrangements have a good grasp of curing this disease?" I don't know how to answer his question, I want to know more about all the possibilities, but in my heart I still don't want to accept these facts.

"With the right source of kidneys, there is still hope. Even if there is only one percent hope, I will give it my all. "What a man is determined to do, I think he must have considered a lot of possibilities. Uncle's determination at this moment will inevitably make him fight without reservation.

"Hmmm! What can I do? ”

"Spend more time with her during this time."

"Okay."

Back at school, it was getting dark. I walked quietly on the school playground track, probably wandering. Life and death, it turns out that all this is true.