Three days later, Li Ji ordered Zhan Shi of the East Palace to come to the door to convey the requirements of the royal family, and to leave Lu Jin's Geng post, and the next day sent Li Xi's Geng post, saying that it was a good deal for someone who had already found Si Tianjian, and the two were a match made in heaven, but the follow-up three books and six ceremonies would have to wait for Li Xi to pass the filial piety period.

Because the emperor promulgated the will in the court, and Zhan Shi from the East Palace came to the door in person, therefore, in less than three days, almost all the people in the capital knew the news, and Yan Yan's family became a hot topic after dinner.

Soon, the news also reached Lu Duan's ears and Lu Ming, together with the news that Lu You was going to go to Liao again, Lu Duan was a little angry, Lu You didn't come to tell him in person about such a big thing, it can be seen that he really doesn't have a father in his heart.

"Father, why don't you go into the city to see the eldest brother, maybe the eldest brother has something to delay." Lu Ming persuaded his father.

Looking back on the short ten years, he seems to have had a dream, a long dream, chaos, sadness, boredom, doubts, regrets, doubts, fears, etc., but there is no joy.

There are often two faces changing in his dreams, one will be Yan Yu, the other will be Yan Yan, and he also thinks more than once, if he didn't do anything wrong back then, if he married Yan Yan back then, what would he be like today?

Unfortunately, he didn't have a chance to find out.

Lu Duan also saw his son's depression, and he also knew what his son was thinking, sighed, and patted his son's shoulder, "Child, this is fate, accept fate, listen to Dad, wait for the filial piety period, Dad will personally go to Xu's house to propose marriage, and live a good life with Miss Xu in the future. ”

"Dad, don't worry, I won't be entangled for a long time. However, the eldest brother is very risky to go to Liao this time, the grassland battle is not as good as the city, and the use of artillery is not great, so my father must tell the eldest brother to be careful. Lu Ming smiled bitterly and said.

Lu Duan was a little surprised when he heard this, and at the same time a little surprised, "What do you think?" ”

"You can not bring artillery, but you can bring more grenades, and there is to select a group of archers who are good at riding and shooting, and the tactics must also be flexibly converted, I can't say the specifics, I just think that the grassland and the city are definitely different, but the big brother I can think of must also think of it." Lu Ming quickly stopped talking, he thought of Lu You's achievements in those years, it was indeed brilliant, and it was indeed far beyond him, where did he need to come to the class to get an axe?

"Child, you can think of reminding him, I'm really grateful, and I blame me for being incompetent as a father, if I had resigned a little to your eldest brother back then, he wouldn't have been estranged from us so far, they all said that brothers work together to break gold, you see me and your second uncle, if it wasn't for his assistance over the years, I wouldn't be where I am today, but you two brothers. That's it, speaking of which, son, Dad has something to entrust to you, Dad is old, your sixth brother is still in infancy, if so... ”

"Dad, don't say such frustrating words, you are in the prime of life, and you can definitely guard the sixth brother to grow up." Lu Ming interrupted his father's words, but he couldn't help but feel sad.

At this time, he thought of his mother, his mother's thin figure and gray hair, who was not yet fifty years old, looked like a young man, to be honest, sometimes looking at his mother like this, he really wished she had been relieved earlier.

But the mother kept gritting her teeth and holding on, to put it bluntly, she just wanted to see him marry her own son, for fear that she would delay her son again because of her death.

Thinking of this, Lu Ming was stunned.

"Kid, you..." Lu Duan was startled when he saw his son crying.

"Father, I want to hand the emperor an excerpt, and I also want to go to Liao." Lu Ming made up his mind.

"Son, what's the matter?" Lu Duan is 10,000 who don't want his son to go to war again.

"If I make military achievements, I want to take my mother to Zhuangzi to be raised." Lu Ming told the truth.

Lu Duan didn't squeak when he heard this, and said after a long time: "I'll bring you back to the capital for you." ”

Lu Ming didn't move, and after a while, he asked, "Dad, do you still hate your mother?" ”

Lu Duan didn't answer directly, but asked him rhetorically, "Do you still hate Yan Yu?" ”

Lu Ming shook his head, thought for a while, and then said: "Speaking of which, she is also a poor person, and she can't be blamed for what happened back then, if I hadn't wavered myself, she wouldn't have been able to let herself go." At the end of the day, it's my fault in the first place, after all, I'm so much older than her. Also, if I am willing to treat her well, she will not conflict with her mother, our son will not become a fool, she will not die, it is all my fault, I not only failed her, but also failed Sister Wan'er, and even my mother and grandmother, it is my sin... ”

Lu Ming didn't say the next words, but hugged his head and cried.

For more than a year, he has been filial piety in the countryside, and he has nothing to do, he has not thought back on his past, and the more he thinks about it, the more sober his cognition of himself becomes, and the more painful people are.

It's not that he hasn't thought about starting over, but he doesn't know if he doesn't have the courage yet, and he doesn't know if he can still have time.

Seeing his son who was almost broken, Lu Duan couldn't say anything in his heart, but one thing, he knew that his son had really grown up, so he didn't say anything, just quietly accompanied his son.

After about a quarter of an hour, Lu Ming realized that he was out of shape, collected his tears, and wanted to say something, but saw his father waving his hand, "Child, crying in front of your father, it's not a shame, but remember one thing, after crying, remember the lessons of the past, don't make the same mistake again." Also, a person, as long as he wants to start over, no matter how old he is, it will not be too late, it is better than being confused for the rest of his life. ”

Lu Ming thought for a while, then he smiled at his father, then got up and walked to the kang and began to sharpen the ink, and then lowered his head and began to write.

It is not so much that he wrote a letter to the emperor, but rather that he wrote a letter of repentance to the emperor, in which he frankly admitted his harvest of self-examination and self-examination during the period of filial piety in the countryside for more than a year, starting from the case of resignation that year, Lu Ming profoundly analyzed his vanity and extremism, because of his inaction and cowardice that things came to the point of irreparability, to put it bluntly, he is not a good husband, nor a son, not a good father, not a good brother.

After learning from the pain, he didn't want to wait until his son wanted to raise him and didn't wait for him, Yan Yu died, and Lu Yuan was gone, so he hoped to use his military exploits to redeem the peace of his mother for the rest of his life.