There were very few people on campus, and only the graduating students were still making up classes during the winter vacation, and I think back to this time a year ago, I was one of the people who studied hard in that classroom.

Step by step, walk through those familiar places.

The little shop where we went to eat ice cream and drank cold drinks after class, the lilac tree that had found five-petal lilacs on it, and the wall we secretly climbed over, everything was still there, everything was fine.

Unknowingly, my footsteps were dragged to the window of the broadcast studio.

Maybe I came this time because He Jiacheng mentioned Yan Xu.

If you don't want to forget, you still can't forget it.

In the evening, the sky has gradually darkened, the street lights on the campus are instantly lit, and the lights in the rooms are also lit up one by one, but the lights here are not on, and the building is empty. Thinking about those days in the studio, it seems as if everything was a long time ago and yet so familiar.

Even if there are people, it's not who we used to be.

Come to think of it, I have indeed been stupid for too long, and now I am still stupid at this moment when I stand under the window.

Do you still expect the lights to come on?

Do you still expect to see "us" under the lights, shoulder to shoulder, preparing for the next day's show?

Don't you still understand what is called the right of things and people?

It's time to leave. Scatter and disperse.

However, there are some things that the more you want to end, the more difficult it is to end.

It was such a short distance from the school building passing the playground to the gate, and it was like a century for me.

Because I actually met Yan Xu at school.

I suddenly understood the words that He Jiacheng had repeatedly muttered to me at the party.

Yan Xu didn't go anywhere, it turned out that he was back! Read! Finish!

I seemed to understand in an instant, why he seemed to have evaporated from the world after the college entrance examination.

If it were me, I would have chosen to disappear too.

In fact, there are many times when I understand Yan Xu as well as I understand myself. It is precisely because of this, because they are too familiar with each other, there are many times when two people get along with each other more and more sensitively.

At that time, I clearly saw Yan Xu and a few people coming out of the teaching building to play football on the playground. He was still the same as before, I could recognize him from a distance, although it was winter, he was already thin, but he never wore a little more clothes, so thin that it made people feel distressed.

As he walked in little by little, I stood quietly on the side of the road. I'm not sure if he recognized me too.

Then, for a minute, he stopped, and stood far away, quietly, but his eyes were erratic.

We just looked at each other across the road, and a minute seemed like half a century had passed.

I was a little overwhelmed and didn't know how to speak.

In fact, after graduating, I imagined countless chance encounters between us, but I never imagined that it would be such a scenario.

Because of this overwhelm, in the end, I chose to leave, obviously I came here to see him, but when I saw him, I really wanted to escape.

It wasn't what I wanted, and I didn't know what I wanted.

The moment I walked away, I heard a heavy kick from behind. I didn't turn around, but I seemed to see the ball fly away.

It turns out that I really don't know anything.

Later, I always remembered that when I met Yan Xu, his eyes looked at me, which were light at first, but then completely dimmed little by little.

Yes, we are like that again, we didn't do anything, we didn't even say a word. But when I think of all this, I feel distressed. There were times when I wanted to tell myself that nothing had happened, as if nothing had happened. But that look in his eyes was clearly real. Yan Xu didn't go anywhere. But I'm gone......

When I got home, I didn't eat dinner, I told my mother that I was tired, so I locked myself in the room alone, and then I began to rummage through the cabinets to find all kinds of photos from high school, classmates, and gifts from each other, trying to find all traces related to Yan Xu.

Actually, if I want, I only need to send a text message to He Jiacheng, and I should be able to have Yan Xu's contact information.

But I didn't. I frantically flipped through the Weibo circle of friends of every classmate who might have been in contact with Yan Xu, and sure enough, I easily found B from A, C from B, and finally found his Weibo link.

I always felt that I couldn't get in touch with him, but in fact, I was just angry. It turned out that it was not difficult to find someone to contact him. As long as you really want to find.

I didn't dare to pay attention to him, but I just looked through his Weibo page by page, and he was actually updating every day. Here, there is his favorite football, his favorite anime, his favorite games, his favorite food and drink, and his joys and sorrows. It was as if I saw him again.

I also turned to the heartache of his decadence after re-reading, and I also turned to the heartache of his decadence after failing the college entrance examination, until I turned to the winter a year ago, and suddenly saw a photo, and tears welled up at once.

It was a winter night, two little snowmen under the plane tree outside the studio.

I don't think I'll ever forget that it was the most romantic New Year's gift I've ever received, and I will ever be.

I still remember vividly that it was the last day of the year, and the next day it was the New Year's holiday.

The campus on the day before the holiday is always impetuous, evening self-study, everyone is looking forward to the relaxation of the holiday, and few people can seriously read books and do questions. What's more, that evening, it was snowing outside the window.

I only heard the classmates sitting by the window suddenly exclaim, ah, it's snowing heavily, and then everyone's hearts seem to float out of the window all at once.

Before the last evening self-study, just after the bell rang, the classmates sitting in the first row of the door shouted to me, Mei Ke, someone outside is looking for you. At that time, the whole class heard that sentence quietly, and I felt that the eyes of the whole class were focused on me, and the noise between classes was a few minutes late.

I walked to the door in that particularly strange silence, and then saw Yan Xu. It was like the first time we left the studio in our senior year of high school and he came to see me in our class. As soon as he went out, he said with me as fast as he could, and then he actually took my hand as fast as he could, and rushed outside the teaching building.

Looking back now, I still feel how ambiguous and heartbeat that moment was, but in fact, as a person concerned, I didn't feel anything at the time, because everything happened so fast that I didn't have time to think that this was the first time I held hands with a boy, and then I had followed him down the stairs to the courtyard of the campus, and then went straight to the direction of the broadcast studio.

When I got outside, I felt cold, so I was a little relieved, and I asked while running after him, "Yan Xu?" Where are you taking me? ”

Yan Xu turned his head and realized that I was not wearing a coat, so he took off his coat to me and continued to pull me forward.

"You'll know when you get there." He looked back at me and smiled mysteriously. I don't know if it was because of the illusion, or because it was really cold, but I felt him pull my hand tighter.

When he arrived at the destination, under the big plane tree outside the window of the broadcast studio, Yan Xu turned on the light of his mobile phone, and suddenly a song slowly slid out of his mobile phone, it was Fan Xiaoxuan's snowman.

Snow, piece by piece, spell out the fate of you and me, my love is born because of you, and your hand touches my heartache...... In the singing and lighting, I clearly saw the two snowmen on the snow, under the big tree, also together, holding hands.

"Merco, a New Year's gift for you." His smiling face looks so beautiful in the soft light of the mobile phone. I was a little excited, a little surprised, I didn't speak, I just stood stupidly and smiled at him stupidly.

"Silly girl?! Don't be too moved, I'm just too bored in the self-study class just now, so I came out to breathe and build a snowman. ”

"Remember the first time we met in the studio? It was two years ago today. ”

"I remember, there was no snow that day." The two of us looked at each other in front of the snowman, Yan Xu suddenly sneezed loudly, I came back to my senses, and hurriedly urged him: "It's too cold, go back quickly."

The class bell rang again, and it was time for us to separate again. That day, I still didn't say anything, those two snowmen were the best New Year's gift I have ever received.

Sometimes, Yan Xu is like this, his feelings are expressed bluntly and warmly, but sometimes, he seems to hide all his heart, becomes silent, and doesn't say a word, just like after that snowy night, he didn't come to me again, and the two of us never seemed to have a chance to say a word.

I once sneaked to the place where he used to build snowmen, but the two snowmen were long gone, and there was not even a trace of them.

Did he like me, at all? It's so hard to know for sure.

However, all of this is almost as if a person is ...... Isn't it Yang Wei!

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but suddenly wake up from my memories.

That's right, I always felt that Yang Wei was so familiar before, it turned out that the most similar thing about the two of them was not their eyes, nor their postures, nor their smiles, but the same distance and proximity to me.

Thinking of this, I suddenly felt so tired, and the idea of wanting to contact Yan Xu was suddenly thrown far, far away.

With his new number, will I really call him?

The call goes through, what am I going to say?

If you still don't say anything, what's the point of everything?

So, suddenly, as if I had seen through it, I silently closed his Weibo page and put away everything left behind in high school. Then he silently returned to bed and fell into a deep sleep.

I thought, let's just sleep like that. Sleep until you forget anything.