Chapter 37: Yuting wants to jump off the building?
That night, I dreamed of that woman again!
But when I woke up, I couldn't remember anything except the hazy figure of Yu Manli in my dream. But I'm pretty sure: I dreamed of her!
Damn it! I should hate her, why do I keep dreaming about her?
I was a little annoyed, and a little ashamed, I felt like I was betraying Yuting step by step.
No, it's not like that! There's no way I'm going to fall in love with that woman!
I told myself over and over again, but it didn't work. Dreams are the most real mirror, they reflect my filthy heart, and perhaps, in my heart, there is a monster struggling to break free from the chains and take me out of that cage.
Cage? Am I living in a cage right now?
I looked around, and finally, my eyes fell on the bed.
Yuting wasn't in the house, a few hours ago, she was lying quietly on this bed, but she's gone now.
I didn't feel anything out of the ordinary, though, and every time she came to spend the night with me, she usually left early the next morning.
The house was too small, too old, and too dilapidated for her to belong here. After a night of excitement, she hurried away, and I knew that she didn't really like this place, and it was only because I stayed here.
We're getting married, and I haven't bought her a new house yet, but she's never asked me to buy one.
Yuting is a good woman, but why is my passion for her becoming less and less? Now, I feel more and more like I am facing my own relatives, as if I am with my own sister? Even, when I did that with her, I felt a sense of shame.
I once saw a psychological book, which said: A person who lacks family affection is easy to fall in love with someone of the opposite sex in order to fill this deficiency in his heart, but in fact, he/she is not in love with each other, but trying to find a "relative". In other words, this person actually has a deep complex of "loving father" or "loving mother".
Could it be that the reason why I fell in love with Yuting was just to treat her as my sister and find the warmth of the family?
I don't have a sister, I don't even have a mother, I'm an orphan. What exactly is family affection? I've never experienced it, so I can't compare. I only knew that I was in love with Yuting, but after getting her, this love quickly faded away.
If it weren't for the appearance of this woman, I probably wouldn't have felt that there was anything wrong with the disappearance of this passion. However, what people are most afraid of is that there is a "reference", and Yu Manli is undoubtedly a mirror, and she shines on me nowhere to hide. Perhaps, subconsciously, I like Yu Manli more, so I dream of her again and again?
Psychoanalysis of myself never seems to be able to find the real answer, and I have already embarked on a path of no return.
I still get up, wash my face, brush my teeth, and do my own thing, everything is normal. Perhaps, in the next few decades, I will still repeat these things mechanically.
There is no love, no passion, only duty and responsibility. Could it be that this is the "happy" life I once longed for?
After leaving home, I had to go to the street for breakfast as usual. However, as soon as I left the door, I noticed that something was a little strange.
On the opposite street, a small group of people gathered, all of them looking up at the sky.
I frowned, not knowing what the hell they were doing.
However, a sentence from one person suddenly lifted my nerves, which I was already a little insensitive.
"She's not really going to jump from here, is she? Why haven't the police come yet? β
I turned my head and looked back in the direction the men were staring.
However, I was stunned!
I saw that on the roof of the building where I lived, on the edge of the rooftop, a woman was walking back and forth with her head down! Where she stood, the slightest exit would plunge her into an abyss from which she would never recover!
Oh my God, this woman is none other than Yuting!
How could Yuting be there, and what the hell was she going to do? Oh my God, is she going to jump from here like she did last time?
I was stunned, but I didn't dare to scream, I was afraid that as soon as I screamed, Yuting would fall off again like last time.
However, this time, it is not the river below! It's hard ground!
I rushed back into the building like crazy, and when I rushed in, I almost hit someone, but I didn't have time to think about anything, so I climbed up the stairs in one gulp.
Yuting, don't jump! Yuting, don't jump, I can't live without you!
Rushing onto the rooftop, I didn't dare to make a sound, and I tried not to let Yuting find out about my existence. At this time, the best way is to take advantage of Yuting's unpreparedness and take her down from behind!
Still, I was discovered.
Yuting still turned her head, and our eyes still collided together.
"Don't come here!" Before I could open my mouth, Yuting had already shouted, "If you go forward, I'll jump from here!" β
I stopped, gasped for breath, and shouted, "Yuting, what are you doing?" Are you crazy? Why can't you think about it? β
Faced with these three questions from me, Yuting didn't answer, just shook her head, with a painful expression on her face.
"Are you talking? Is there anything you can't tell me? I exclaimed, "What the hell is going on?" β
"Leave me alone!" Yuting suddenly cried, "I don't want to live anymore!" β
"Yuting, listen to me." I tried to keep my composure, but I was still nervous, "No matter what happens, I love you, I will never leave you, you must believe me, okay?" β
"I believe you?" Yuting's face showed a strange expression, like laughing and crying, "Do you think I will still believe you?" β
I was stunned for a moment, and I didn't react at once, "I, what's wrong with me?" β
"Don't persuade me, go back and live your own life." As she spoke, Yuting had already stepped one foot out of the rooftop.
Now, I can't sit back and wait any longer.
So, I lunged forward.
However, Yuting's two feet had already crossed the rooftop, and her feet were only enough to reach the edge less than half a meter wide outside, and if she took another half step forward, she would fall from there.
I could hear the screams of the crowd downstairs.
Like the wind, I rushed up and hugged Yuting from behind before she was about to jump down.
"Let go of me, let go of me!" She was screaming.
How could I let her go, I used all the brute force in my body to drag her in from the outside, and then hugged her and threw her to the ground.
We were rolling and wrestling on the ground, and she punched me, but instead of dodging, I got a solid punch in the face.
It's really decrepit enough, one night, I was beaten by two women?
Eventually, though, I subdued Yuting and crushed her to the cold ground.
Yuting cried, bean-sized tears falling to the ground, and her shoulders were shaking constantly.
"Let me die, let me die!" She cried and screamed.
I didn't have much strength left, but I still held down her arms and legs, and we just lay on the ground together.
At this time, the door of the rooftop was slammed open, and several people rushed up.
One of them is a police officer, and two are security guards.
"Quick, come and help me." I held out my hand.
With the help of the police and security guards, we set Yuting up together, although she was still crying and screaming.
After this crisis passed, the policeman also asked me a few words, and when he learned that Yuting and I were boyfriend and girlfriend, he left. Before leaving, he repeatedly told me not to stimulate Yuting anymore. I could only nod my head in agreement, but I still didn't understand: what did I stimulate Yuting?
Yuting leaned back on the bed and looked out the window in a daze, opposite to the gray wall and the closed window.
"Yuting, drink saliva." I took the water and walked to the bedside.
But she didn't even look at me, so she waved the glass of water away.
The water, splashed on my body, and it was still a little warm. The water glass, spun around the ground a few times, and no longer moved.
"Yuting, what's wrong with you?"
"You don't care!"
"I'm your boyfriend, why can't I ask?" I couldn't help it.
"What does it have to do with you whether I am dead or alive?" Yuting turned her head and glared at me viciously.
The corners of my mouth twitched twice, but I finally swallowed the words.
We didn't speak, and the room was eerily quiet, as if it were deadly.
"Did I do something wrong?" There was silence for a moment, but I still couldn't stand the silence and spoke.
Yuting still didn't speak, still keeping her head down.
"Yuting, you speak, you speak!" I couldn't take it anymore and shook her shoulders.
However, no matter how I shook or yelled, Yuting still didn't say a word, as if she was dead.
Suddenly, I felt a kind of dread, like every time August 24th approached.
Maybe I shouldn't have come back here. What am I doing? I can't change anything, why is the distance between Yuting and me still so far away?
I stopped and lowered my head.
"The woman." Yuting spoke, "You, were you lovers before?" β
"What?" I was stunned for a moment, and when I raised my head, I saw Yuting's cold, scorching gaze.
She bit her lips again and stopped talking.
"I don't understand what you're talking about." I was pretending to be calm, but my heart was uneasy.
Could it be that Yuting has discovered something?
Yuting still didn't speak, but her eyes turned from me to the window.
My heart jumped violently, and the temperature of my body rose with it.
Yuting stood up, walked to the window, and looked at the gray wall opposite, as well as the closed window.
"I saw it all, and there it was." She suddenly raised her hand and pointed to the other side tremblingly, "Last night, in that room, you, you pressed on that woman's body!" β
"No, it's not what you think!" I screamed, and the sound that came out of my throat startled me.
"What else could that be?" Yuting turned her head and looked at me with a smile, "Ning Qiang, I thought you were different from other men, but I didn't expect that you were still the same as them!" β
"Yuting, listen to me, there really has nothing to do with that woman and me!"
It dawned on me that I hadn't closed my doors and windows last night when I rushed to the hotel opposite. Yuting just woke up, and saw the hotel room opposite in front of this window, and I, who was unfortunately pressed on Yu Manli's body. When Yuting saw this scene, she must have mistakenly thought that I had some kind of relationship with Yu Manli, and the two of us had a private meeting in the middle of the night. However, it is not surprising that if anyone saw that scene last night, who would think that I was still innocent?
"Okay, you don't have to say it!" Yuting interrupted me, "Ning Qiang, from now on, we broke up!" β
"Break up? No, you can't! I rushed forward and grabbed her hand, "Yuting, listen to me, I really don't know that woman." β
"Don't know? I don't know, would you run to someone's room in the middle of the night and climb into her bed? Yuting said as she desperately tried to break free, but my hand was so strong that she couldn't break free.
"She, she's spying on me! , no, it's a voyeur of us! I yelled, "I'm just going to the other side to theorize with her!" β
"Voyeurism? Why is she spying on you? Yuting's eyes widened, and the sharp gaze made me a little hairy.
"How do I know? She, she must be a voyeur, yes, she's a pervert! She loves to peek at people! β
"Then why don't you go and call the police?"
I was stunned for a moment, and then I reacted. Yes, if someone is peeping, there is no need to go directly to the opposite side in the middle of the night, why didn't I call the police at that time?
"Do you really not know each other?" Yuting asked.
"When, of course."
"Then do you dare to swear to God in front of me?"
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