Chapter 32 Spstander or Participant?
I still haven't called Yu Manli, although I would love to talk to her again. It's not necessarily because I have any ill intentions towards this woman, it's because I really feel depressed alone.
For such a long time, I was like a mindful observer. In this world, I was isolated, and I didn't dare to go to anyone, because I was afraid that I would touch something I couldn't touch, like a bull breaking into a china shop. The only thing that can make me talk about it happily is probably the mysterious Yu Manli.
Several times, I tried to call that number, but I still didn't.
I don't even know why I asked for her phone number in the first place. Could it be that I just want to know more about this watch? The watch is the reason why I met her, and now, I still have her watch, and next time, as long as I reject this watch again, I will definitely meet her again.
Well, let's wait a little longer.
The days that followed, it was really long, every day was long.
It's like the kind of dullness before the rainstorm, so dull that your heart is blocked, you really want to go out to breathe, you really want to find a woman to vent well, but you can only choose to wait.
In the past few days, the only thing that can make me shine is that I have had several dreams related to Yu Manli in a row. For the first time, I dreamed of walking in the park with her, holding hands. The second time, I dreamed of hugging her, and the feeling of clinging to everything was so real. The last time, I even dreamed of being with her······
When I woke up from that last dream, I was in a state of unease and trepidation.
Such a dream, in the past, has also been dreamed of. Why, did I dream about that scene again? Is this what is really happening, or is it a desire from the bottom of my heart?
I felt ashamed that I was betraying Yuting, even though I didn't really need to promise her anything, because I didn't even touch her hand now.
Ashamed, I was confused.
Didn't Yu Manli know me before? Is it just because I bought her family heirloom watch that she has to follow me again and again and try to get it back?
From my instincts, I had the feeling that she was still hiding something from me. Perhaps, this watch is not her family heirloom at all!
By the way, she must also be a traverser, this is her truest identity! It is precisely because she is also a time-traveler, and she also entered this time and space from the future, that she will know my next move. What disappeared with the watch was not the effect of genetics at all, but because she was not originally a person who belonged to this time and space.
Suddenly, a bold idea popped into my head!
Yu Manli must have known me before, and the two of us met in a future time and space. Yes, I have never been to the future, but maybe in the future, I will meet a woman named Yu Manli, and it is her! Then, in the future, I will fall in love with her, and even marry her, and she will most likely be my future girlfriend, or even my future wife!
Yes, and only this explanation is the most reasonable!
Yu Manli, my future wife or girlfriend, must know the secret of this watch. Perhaps, it was because I didn't have a firm mouth and told her. Could she have been curious and dialed back the watch? If the person who called back the watch was not me, but her, then she would have gone back in time like me, and met me again in the past time and space, right in that store!
My train of thought suddenly became clear. It turns out that the answer is so simple.
Yes, my future girlfriend or wife, Yu Manli, also went back to the past and met me now because she called back the watch. Because I haven't been to the future, I can't possibly know that she is my future girlfriend or wife, but she knows very well about my future relationship with her. What Yu Manli sees is a future farther than me. We were standing on different floors, I was standing on the second floor, thinking that when I saw myself on the first floor, I was the future; But Yu Manli stood on the third floor, saw me on the second floor, and saw me down from the second floor to the first floor.
As for those dreams, that's what I see as the "third floor" – the future. Perhaps, dreams are another way to travel through time. U.S. President Abraham Lincoln, before his assassination, had a dream that he was lying in a coffin, and then he was killed, which is an example of a dream that can foresee the future.
When I think of this, I can't help but applaud my wonderful reasoning and imagination skills.
But I was terrified again. If I will combine with Yu Manli in the future, it means that Yuting will definitely die? Because, with my character, if Yuting is still alive, how can I still "empathize and don't fall in love"?
What else is going to happen in the future? In the future, is Yuting still alive? All of this is known only to Yu Manli. By the way, why don't I ask her out and just ask all this out?
I can't wait, I'm eager to know what's next. So, I picked up my mobile phone, found Yu Manli's phone, and dialed it, but my hand trembled a little.
However, on the other end of the phone, there was a voice, it was not Yu Manli's voice, but another woman's voice.
"I'm sorry, the number you dialed is empty, please check before dialing."
Empty number? No way?
I dialed again and still responded the same way.
Yu Manli actually gave me an empty number? No wonder, when I dialed her phone that day, her phone didn't ring at all? This woman was lying, she wasn't muted at all, but the number never rang!
I am ashamed that I have been deceived by a woman who is most likely my future girlfriend or wife? Are we in this relationship? None of this can be verified.
I looked at the watch again, but unfortunately, this watch can only take me back to the past, but not to the future, which may be its fly in the ointment.
Perhaps, the reason why I couldn't find a way to save Yuting was that I had never been to the future, and I hadn't been to the third floor where Manli was standing, right?
Do I need to wait until one day in the future, when I meet Yu Manli again in the crowd? When will I know a complete answer?
But I didn't want to do that. In this way, in case Yuting still dies, I can only live the rest of my life, isn't that watch equal to an ornament? If I could go back in time countless times, why should I leave my watch aside and wait quietly for the future to come?
I can't afford to wait, and I don't want to wait any longer.
After a few more days, I was like a prisoner, stuck at home. Every day, I would go to bed late and wake up late, and I would stop running in the morning and watch my belly bulge day by day. Touching my thickening beard and looking at the sloppy self in the mirror, I couldn't bear to look at it anymore.
Is this what I am?
To be honest, I'm not a handsome guy, and I'm ordinary standing in the crowd, so it's no wonder that Yuting rejected me in the first place. As for that Yu Manli, she is so beautiful, there is no reason for her to fall in love with me, but I still self-righteously fantasize about being with her one day in the future?
My mind kept exchanging images of these two women, which made me feel irritated. So, I lay back on the couch and played my mobile game. At this time, only these network opiums can temporarily anesthetize my tense and boring nerves. However, I couldn't stay focused because I always felt like something was going to happen today.
I looked at the time on my phone, and suddenly, I jumped up from the couch.
It's not good, isn't this the day when Yuting jumped into the river? That's right, it's this day, an hour to be exact, and she'll be on the riverside!
No, no, it won't happen again! There's no reason for her to jump into the river? This time, I didn't follow Shi Wen, and I didn't get involved in the affairs of the two of them again? According to the first "procedure", they should be busy with the wedding event now, right? How could she not think of committing suicide? Thinking of this, I sat down again.
However, for some reason, I still felt a little uneasy in my heart.
Could it be that if I don't do anything, I will definitely return to the original parallel space? But what was the first version of the story? That time, I didn't intervene between Yuting and Shiwen, but gave Yuting to that guy, but on the day they got married, didn't Yuting still have a car accident? Moreover, the person who drives under the influence of alcohol is Shiwen!
The same story, the same unfolding, the same ending! Wouldn't it happen again? However, I can only stand on the side, quietly watching all this develop?
No, I can't be indifferent anymore, I have to do something!
But what can I do now?
I paced around the room, confused. It was destined to be my most anxious day, as I was tortoise or rabbit, but it seemed that there was no difference between the two.
Time passed minute by minute, and it was getting closer and closer to the point in time when Yuting jumped into the river last time.
No, I'm going to take a look, to the river.
So, I walked out of the house and headed towards the river.
I'm not sure if I'll see Yuting over there again. If this version of the story is the first time, then she will definitely not be there, which means: as long as I don't change everything in this parallel world, then this timeline of the past will run as it always is, as accurate as the plot of the movie.
But what if the plot is different this time? That is: whether I participate or not, there is a different version of the parallel space I enter every time? In this way, I don't have to think about my impact on this parallel space at all? Because, what I'm experiencing now is different from what I've experienced before? Can I change the history of this space?
I came to the riverside and looked at my watch, but fortunately, there was still half an hour before the time when Yuting was going to jump into the river last time.
In the same spot, I sat under a tree, hiding in the shadow of the tree, but like a sneaky thief, watching around.
Yuting, will she come? This question has been hovering in my mind.
According to common sense, there seems to be no reason for her to come here today, and even if she comes, she shouldn't be jumping into the river? Unless, what blow did she get again?
Still, I was expecting her to be here, because I was waiting for something to change.
This kind of change is likely to change my original assumptions, and even affect my beliefs.
In anxiety, I was waiting, waiting······