Chapter Forty-Eight: Hiding from Hardship
Qiao Changan helped Li Qiniang into the carriage, and he also got into the carriage, Li Tongyun said goodbye at the door, Li Qiniang wanted Tongyun to live with them, but Tongyun refused, she believed in her heart that Brother Feng would be more willing to go back to Li's house than Qiao's brother if he wanted to go back.
After all, there is more freedom here, and Li Tongyun never needs him to do anything, and he doesn't need him to perform well.
"Tongyun, you have to work the matter between you and Changfeng." Li Qiniang said when she left.
Tongyun smiled and said okay, but in fact, she didn't know how to work hard in her heart, there were many things that didn't need to be worked on at all, and who else in this world didn't know who didn't know.
Qiao Changfeng picked up the sword, smiled a little contemptuously, and with the force of his two hands, he instantly broke the sword in half, and Li Fu looked at him with a dark face behind him, so angry that he couldn't speak.
"Who chose this sword, can you still practice this sword?" Qiao Changfeng asked Bai Qingyan.
"Li Fu said that if you can practice good martial arts with a bad sword, then you will be even more powerful with a good sword." Unlike Qiao Changfeng, although Li Fu is also several years older than Bai Qingyan, Bai Qingyan will never call Li Fu Brother Li, in Bai Qingyan's heart, Li Fu is no different from his peers.
"Yes, that's what my master told me since I was a child." Li Fu struggled.
"That's not the reason for you to use this kind of broken sword, I've never heard of a master who practiced peerless martial arts with this kind of sword that can be broken at will." Qiao Changfeng has never liked this kind of sword very much, and even, from the bottom of his heart, he hates it. For him, using a good sword is a sign of respect for the sword and a respect for a martial artist, not just because he has had the Dark Dragon Sword since he was a child.
Isn't it that there are no good swords, so I have to take this sword, and besides, this sword is also considered to be the best among those swords." Li Fu said that he was very dissatisfied with Qiao Changfeng's arrogant tone, and put on a posture that you have the ability to find a good sword.
"That's not shoddy." Qiao Changfeng was scared.
"Okay, okay, anyway, the kung fu is not very good, wouldn't it be a waste to use a good sword." Seeing two tsundere children who hurt each other as soon as they met, Bai Qingyan really felt a little cute.
A few people finished work, Qiao Changfeng followed behind Bai Qingyan, and suddenly asked about the injuries of the senior brothers, this is exactly what Bai Qingyan has been trying to escape for so long, the senior brother will occasionally come over to watch her practice, and she can also follow the practice, but the original intention is that the sword is difficult to move.
The two of them entered the room, the senior brother had already cooked the meal, and several people gathered around the table, since Bai Qingyan began to practice hard, cooking has been taken care of by the senior brother, through this month's exercise, the senior brother's cooking skills have become more and more sophisticated. Several people were eating, talking and laughing with each other, but Chu Zhong was the only one who looked sullen.
After eating, Bai Qingyan followed Chu Zhong to his room, Chu Zhong turned his back to her, his back looked very lonely, although Bai Qingyan couldn't see it, she could guess that he must have guessed something.
"Qingyan, I know everything." Bai Qingyan was struggling with how to tell him, but he spoke first. "It's just that I can't help you avenge the master together in the future."
"Senior brother," Bai Qingyan could think of how painful his heart was, more than ten years of work had been wasted in one fell swoop, and it might be difficult for anyone to accept. "I'll avenge you."
"Qingyan, I believe in you." Chu Zhong turned around and gave Bai Qingyan a very firm look, which was the greatest encouragement to Bai Qingyan and a person's trust from the bottom of his heart. "Actually, I'm basically relieved about this matter, maybe it's fate that I shouldn't go down this path."
"What's more, I really have no intention of getting involved in this dispute anymore, I just hope that one day, if you return to the white-clothed faction, you can take me back with you. I just hope that I can come from where I came and come back. ”
"Senior brother, I promise you, I will." All the words that Bai Qingyan could think of suddenly couldn't be said at that moment, and everything became her response to him, but he understood what she said.
He's just, for a moment, a little hard to accept.
When Bai Qingyan went out, she found that the senior brother was standing at the door, he seemed to be waiting for her, he listened to most of the conversation just now, and he also guessed that the result would be like this, and he remembered Chu Zhong's worries and sadness very well these days.
Bai Qingyan's martial arts have made great progress, which makes her very happy, but as Bai Yan's disciple, Chu Zhong has completely lost the opportunity to avenge his master, and every time he watches Bai Qingyan practice swords, he feels so painful in his heart. But these have nothing to do with the fact that he has opinions about Bai Qingyan, they are still the best brothers.
"Senior brother," Bai Qingyan called him, a little helpless in his tone.
"Qingyan, it's nothing, he just can't accept this matter for a while, let's give him more time." Jiang Ci's face was also solemn, and he didn't know how to comfort him.
They grew up together, and although Chu Zhong was not steady enough, at least compared to Jiang Ci. But he looks humorous and funny on the surface, but his mind is actually more delicate than Jiang Ci. What's more, it has been smooth sailing since childhood, and when encountering such a big thing, it is simply difficult to bear it alone.
He also has arrogance, not to mention that he is not messing around when he sees everyone so happy these days, but Jiang Ci knows that he is in pain in his heart, but he just doesn't want to trouble everyone. Jiang Ci looked at him in pain, and he secretly felt pain in his heart, and in the same way, he didn't want to trouble others, especially at this very urgent juncture.
Bai Qingyan nodded, indicating that it was understandable, comforted him by the way, turned around and left. Jiang Ci carefully pushed open the door and saw Chu Zhong standing by the window with a lonely face, he walked over and carefully put his shoulder on his shoulder, like two people when they were young, using their bodies to convey their feelings.
They are all the same, they are not good at lyricism, and they are also very bad at verbal expression. But fortunately, they understand each other, so many times, a lot of unnecessary lyricism is naturally omitted.
But language is still very important, Chu Zhong turned his head and looked at Jiang Ci, who was very close to him, sometimes, he felt that the most important person in his life was the person in front of him, but one day, will there be such a day, they will all meet girls who like each other, and then they will be forced to distance themselves.
In addition to these, there is one thing that can alienate them right now, Chu Zhong knows that for himself, he is already a waste, but Jiang Ci is different, he has fewer injuries, and he can heal his injuries soon, and soon he can follow Bai Qingyan to avenge his master, he has to practice kung fu every day, maybe after he succeeds, he will be very busy, and at that time, they will be farther and farther away.
What's more, there are some things that he doesn't like very much, just like when he first practiced, he was good at literature, but if he didn't practice, he would be different from Jiang Ci. It's not a conspiracy. He still chose to practice, and compared to the literature he liked, he felt that Jiang Ci would be more important in his heart. Jiang Ci didn't know about this, because Chu Zhong never wanted him to know.
Should you regret it, if you didn't do it for him at the beginning, Chu Zhong thought in his heart, and there was already a tear flowing out of his face.
This is not like him at all, when Bai Linchuan attacked Jiang Ci from behind with a sword, and silently blocked the sword from behind, only at that moment could he clearly see himself, in his heart, he was really more important than his own life. He didn't think about the consequences, and now the consequences are coming.
Such consequences are simply unbearable for him. He can no longer protect him, he can't accompany him to practice swords, and he can't accompany him to wander the rivers and lakes, as they said at the beginning. He even lost all their common hobbies.
Jiang Ci carefully wiped away his tears, and wiped away his tears very gently.
"Don't cry, don't cry." Jiang Ci's heart was also very painful, his tone was already trembling, but his hands were always difficult to wipe away his tears, and the tears flowed wantonly like a flood that burst the embankment, appealing to all the grievances and unwillingness.
Jiang Ci cried because he was wronged, Jiang Ci knew since he was a child, he loved to cry, never looked like a boy, although he never liked to cry in front of people, but he always cried in front of Jiang Ci, sometimes, Jiang Ci would jokingly ask him why he always left his bad mood to him, and gave all the hippie smiles to others.
At this time, Chu Zhong always smiled and didn't speak, and then half-jokingly said, After that, I often smiled at you, but I smiled so beautifully, I was afraid that you would like me. Jiang Ci didn't speak.
He only knew that he had wronged him for leaving all his bad feelings to him, but he didn't know, it was because he treated him completely as his own, he didn't know, he never defended him, it seemed that there was always something between them.
You are my dream of gain and loss, I am your dispensable person, after all, the arrows that cross the mountains and rivers pierce people who are injured by emotion. Chu Zhong knew it very well in his heart.
He just couldn't control his emotions, and he couldn't control his feelings. At this moment, his face was already wrinkled from crying, like a mess of paper.
And Jiang Ci had already stopped crying, he just hugged him tightly like that, giving him all the warmth he wanted, he collapsed for a long time, he hadn't collapsed like this for a long time.
"Do you regret it?" Jiang Ci saw that he had finally stopped crying, and seemed to be in a much calmer mood, so he asked this sentence in fear.
Many things, only want to do and don't want to do, there is no worthiness and unworthiness, since it was already desperate to do it at the beginning, then, how can you not regret it. Chu Zhong spit out three words from his mouth without hesitation, and his firmness even surprised Jiang Ci. "No regrets."
"Chu Zhong, I know you're uncomfortable, I'll stay with you, I won't leave." Jiang Ci's eyes were still flashing with crystal tears, which were tears that had not been shed just now, and they were the warmth that had been accumulated in his heart for a long time.
Chu Zhong pushed away his arms with some hesitation, the more he wanted, the more he would dare not accept it when he got it, it turned out that all this may be just his wishful thinking, because he said these words just to comfort him, because he said these words only because he was kind to him, and then there was that they were brothers, and that's all.
That's all, there's nothing more to it, there's no other emotion.
This was something that Hatsu Zhong learned many years later, and it was something he would never have thought of at the time. He looked up, tears glistening in his eyes, and at the same time, he broke free from his warmth and stood up. He still didn't want to bother him, and if he really just wanted to be by his side forever, he could have let him get hurt so that he could take care of him for the rest of his life.
But not the other way around. He couldn't watch him give up everything to take care of him.
"Jiang Ci, you don't have to be like this, I can still take care of myself." Chu Zhong regained his senses, to be precise, it was his reason that prevailed over his feelings, and his voice was cold, with a feeling of rejection.
"How are you going to take care of you now? You can't even hold a sword, you can't lift something a little heavier, how are you going to take care of yourself, ah? Jiang Ci listened to Chu Zhong's words, and instantly became angry, how long did he want to be strong!
"I said, yes, you can!"
"Let me take care of you, I will take care of you, haven't I taken care of you since you were a child? Besides, it's all because of me that you're like this, and that's what I'm supposed to do?! Jiang Ci roared, but he soon realized that his words had obviously hurt his self-esteem severely.
Chu Zhong stopped talking, and stood there sadly, with a hurt expression on his face that made Jiang Ci very uncomfortable.
"I,. I didn't mean that, I, I'm sorry. Jiang Ci's tone was also obviously injured, with a hint of flattery, "I really just want to take care of you, you know." ”
"Enough!" Chu Zhong roared angrily, of course he knew that he wanted to take care of him, he knew that it was enough, how could he really let him take care of him so selfishly. "I'm tired, you go out!" Hatsu Chung turned around, tears wetting his face, wetting his broken hair, and running down his face.
He didn't dare to cry until he heard Jiang Ci's footsteps. He stood there for a long time before leaving, and his heart ached, and he didn't go far, and he listened to him cry at the door, and he himself began to cry. He no longer had the courage to comfort him and give him warmth.