"I'm not sad, I'm not angry." I patted Zhiyue'er in my arms, "The old priest said that people and objects are the same. In this world, sometimes there is no fate. It's like a teacup that you accidentally broke but you liked, like a handkerchief that you accidentally dropped, or someone you liked passed away...... It's just that there's no fate. There are so many people in this world, and it is already a great fate for us to meet and depend on each other. If it can't last long, it's just that fate is not enough, it's nothing. ”

"You can't say that...... That's because of the people who hurt us. ”

"Originally, I hated the imperial sister a lot, and I wanted to kill her. No, or rather, every time in the dead of night, thinking that Han is still in her hands, and she is pregnant with Han's child, I am still very angry, and I want to beat her up and make her suffer a little. But looking back, if the mother really gave me the throne at that time, would I have been able to repay it? Even if there is no imperial sister to get in the way and snatch the throne, can I really keep it? ”

Zhiyue'er looked at me blankly and didn't speak.

When it comes to the palace change, most of them won't intervene.

I didn't want to tell Zhiyue'er about it, but the assorted dishes were not around, and the small bowl was not around, it was too lonely all the way, and no one spoke, so I couldn't help but continue to sigh to Zhiyue'er.

"At that time, there were only the emperor's people in the court, but there were no people from me. My subordinates are limited to one or two Praetorian Guards who know me well. When the Empress died, those officials would inevitably bully me, threaten me, and make my life unsafe for their own benefit. I don't have the same means as my imperial sister, and I can't deal with my brothers and sisters, who occupy the mountains and kings of their respective fiefdoms, and support their families one by one, and some of them even raise their own armies. The Northern Regions are eyeing us, even if there is no army of zombies in Luanlin, they will inevitably break the agreement of a hundred years of peace and send troops to us...... There are also the assassins of Zichuan and the rebels of the civilian rebels...... With so many internal and external troubles, I must not have survived at that time. ”

"Ah Shuang......" Zhi Yue'er showed a distressed expression on her face and hugged me, "Compared to you, I am really happy." ”

"Yes. And that big pig's trotter, he didn't feel good when he approached me, and with his ability, I would definitely put my heart on him, and give him the most important things in the court to do, and even let him control the army. When the time comes, the person who opposes me may not be a royal person, nor a person from the Northern Regions, but him......" I sighed and patted Zhiyue'er on the shoulder, "Compared to that guy, Luo Qiuming is really a good man." ”

Zhiyue'er sniffed and couldn't laugh: "He took in the concubine room, and the concubine room caused me to have a miscarriage." ”

I squinted at her, "Didn't you ask him to take it?" ”

Zhi Yue'er: "Because I wanted to be Mrs. Luo at that time, I didn't want to have a reputation for being jealous." And Qiu Ming is so difficult in the court, if Bai Mei can help him, maybe he won't be so embarrassed. ”

I said to Zhiyue'er: "If God wants to let a person bear a great responsibility, he will use all kinds of tribulations to wear down people's will. My first child, my mother, my throne, have all been lost at the moment. But my will is invincible, no one can dictate my decisions anymore, I have seen life and death, I have countless fans, and most importantly, I am alive and can do what I want. It's the same with you. ”

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