Shen Fu will still submit articles to the official account and publishing house, but she will no longer stay up late and work hard to code words as often as before.

Most of the manuscript fees submitted before were used to give Fang Lin an emergency, but now that he has broken off with Fang Lin, Shen Fu still wants to continue writing. First, I can earn some living expenses for myself, and often buy some things that can be used for my parents and younger brother and mail them back; Second, she has also written for so long, and found that writing often can not only sort out and summarize her knowledge, but also understand the needs and ideas of the public by reading everyone's comments and messages.

Shen Fu hopes that her research direction can be combined with social life, rather than detached from reality and the masses, so those comments and comments are the best research and feedback for her.

Some time ago, because of emotional changes, Shen Fu didn't have the heart to write a manuscript, and in the past two days, I saw several emails urging her to continue writing, and she replied one by one, saying that she would continue to contribute, but because of personal time relationships, she needs to reduce the frequency and submit regularly in the future.

Soon Shen Fu got a reply, naturally there was no problem.

Shen Fu started to code after dinner, and when he finally finished writing, it was almost eleven o'clock at night. She stretched and was about to go to wash, but she didn't expect to receive a text message from Fang Lin.

After the marriage proposal, Fang Lin didn't come again, on the one hand, he was too busy with work, and the two lived far away, so he didn't have so much time to come to Shen Fu; On the other hand, naturally, the two of them not only had a quarrel at the gate of Shenfu School, but also almost everyone knew about it, which made him very angry.

He was annoyed that Shen Fu was too desperate, and he didn't leave any affection for himself, but when he was lying in bed in the dead of night, he kept thinking of Shen Fu's goodness.

He remembered the joy and happiness in his heart when he finally caught up with Shen Fu, and they even promised to spend the rest of their lives together under the witness of the red leaves in the mountains, but later, they ...... How did it get to this point?

Fang Lin opened his eyes in the dark, his eyes were out of focus, and he didn't know whether he was looking at the roof or the void. The eyes slowly condensed with water, and the eye sockets seemed to be a little sour, and then the eyes gradually blurred, and the bright light that sneaked in through the unclosed curtains also turned into a circle of light, flickering and flickering.

Fang Lin felt a small stream of warmth flow down his cheeks from the end of his eyes, and when he passed through his earlobes to his neck, the warmth was already cold, cold, like his heart at the moment.

He knew that he had gone too far this time, but he was really afraid, afraid that Shen Fu would eventually abandon him, so he thought of the idea of going to Shen Fu School to propose marriage. He thought that even if Shen Fu was reluctant, but in the case of her own school and so many pairs of eyes, she would agree to herself under pressure and pressure.

In any case, as long as Shen Fu agreed to his marriage proposal, then everything would be easy to say, everything that happened in his house before could be revealed, and he would no longer have to worry about gains and losses.

But he didn't expect Shen Fu to be so resolute, and he really didn't want him......

Now even Shen Fu doesn't want him.

When he was young, although his father also loved to drink, he still loved him very much, and often lifted him up and put it on his shoulder. Later, somehow he became involved in gambling, and tossed most of his family's wealth, his sister Fang Yiru couldn't even pay the tuition, and dropped out of high school after only one semester.

When the family really couldn't get by, his father didn't make up his mind to quit drinking and gambling, but how could it be so easy? The most resolute time was when his father endured alcohol addiction for less than 3 days, and then secretly went to buy alcohol to drink, thinking that after drinking enough at one time, he didn't want to think about it anymore.

But how can a drunk person have self-control? In the end, I couldn't stand the itch and temptation to gamble again.

In a vicious circle, his home is becoming less and less beautiful. He is also tired, and he has thought about giving up countless times, but his sister has his own home, and his father and mother only have one son, if he doesn't even care about them, then who cares?

As for the child, his feelings for that child are very complicated, it is indeed the child born to himself and Wang Menghan, and it is the product of their young and frivolous impulsiveness.

Wang Menghan was his first love, but the first object of his affection when he was young was Shen Fu, but Shen Fu was too clean at that time, and he looked very cold, so he couldn't see through it. After that, they didn't attend classes in the same class, and the two of them were not common, and the excitement gradually faded. Although Wang Menghan is not outstanding in all aspects, she is enthusiastic and bold, and Fang Lin was moved by her enthusiasm and initiative.

He thought about being with Wang Menghan well, and even took her to meet his family, he thought that Wang Menghan cared about himself, so he would be willing to accept his family for him, but he didn't expect Wang Menghan to be hit hard when he learned about his family background, and he wanted to break up with him, but unfortunately he accidentally conceived his child.

The child really planned to be aborted, but Wang Menghan had a special physique, and the miscarriage would cause irreversible trauma and could only be born.

After being with Shen Fu, every time Shen Fu mentioned that he wanted to see his family, he was terrified, he was afraid that Shen Fu would be like Wang Menghan, and he would leave him when he saw his home and family, so he had to keep making excuses to shirk. In fact, he vaguely felt that Shen Fu was not a person like Wang Menghan, he should believe in Shen Fu, and she might be willing to share it with him.

But he didn't dare to take any chances. What's more, he also has children with other people, Shen Fu is so good, how can he stand it? He couldn't stand it either.

He has been with Shen Fu for three years, Shen Fu never took the initiative to ask him for anything, but himself, because he wanted to pay off his father's debts, he had to deceive Shen Fu, saying that his mother was seriously ill and needed to spend money, Shen Fu gave him his living expenses without saying a word, and then went to work part-time to share it for himself. Valentine's Day, birthdays and the like, other couples are extremely romantic if they can be romantic, but Shen Fu has always been able to save because he is considerate of him......

He knew that Shen Fu was good to him, but the better he was, the more guilty he felt, and the more guilty he felt, the more he felt that he couldn't raise his head in front of Shen Fu. Therefore, he will deliberately show toughness and indifference many times, in order to seek equality and superiority in front of Shen Fu.

But gradually, he found that he couldn't control himself anymore, and his indifference to Shen Fu seemed to have become a habit, the more Shen Fu was injured for him, the more pleasure he could get, because that showed that Shen Fu really cared about himself, but after the pleasure, he began to panic again, and always felt that Shen Fu was being pushed farther and farther away by himself, and he would leave one day.

He felt like a prisoner who had been sentenced to death, and the guillotine was hanging from his head all the time, which made him both tormented and painful, so he wanted to get Shen Fu, so that it seemed that he could lift the death penalty and remove the guillotine, and end this pain and suffering.

But Shen Fu always rejected himself, which made him very dissatisfied and resentful.

Fang Lin closed his eyes fiercely, his sideburns wet with tears, and it was cold, but he didn't want to raise his hand to wipe it.

Is it really my fault? Maybe it's because I really don't deserve it, I don't deserve warmth......

The guillotine still fell, and it hurt more than expected.

Fang Lin thought about it, sat up and took the mobile phone from the bedside table, and looked out Shen Fu's number from the address book, he was going to call, but in the end he didn't get through, he put the mobile phone back and fell on the bed suddenly, put his hands on his face for a while, and finally reached out and took the mobile phone and began to write text messages. I wrote and deleted, deleted and wrote, and finally sent it out.

"Shen Fu, I'm sorry, you want to be happy."

Shen Fu read the text message. She already knew that she was over with Fang Lin, but when she saw these words, she still felt that her eyes were sour, and her heart was also heavy.