I won't forgive myself, not in this life, not in the next.

Who told my mother to help me when she needed me the most, and I couldn't even say words of comfort? I know that being sick cannot be replaced, and I also know that I can't disturb the nurse when I am by my mother's side, but the truth is reasonable, and my heart will never be at peace.

The so-called mother-daughter connection, naturally sensed it, and I was really guilty......

"Hello, please give way."

Just as I was complaining about not being able to bear the pain for my mother, a nurse's polite and standard voice interrupted my thoughts.

When I looked up and saw the phlegm tube entering my mother's mouth, my heart was broken.

Mom, I'm going to experience the torture of life worse than death again!

Torment, this is the opposite of the light, with a tormenting negative emotion.

It recurs unscrupulously, and everyone who is tainted by it has the despair of walking in hell.

It's because of its terrifying nature that I'd rather my mom be unconscious. It doesn't matter if I'm seen as a rebel, as long as my mom is free from pain.

After all, I owe her so much that I can't pay it for the rest of my life.

The debts I owe must be repaid, not to mention that I still owe emotional debts. I will do my best to make amends to my mother, and I will sincerely apologize to her, but not here.

All I have to do right now is to get the nurse to stop what she is doing, immediately!

Mom wept again, and the indistinct weeping was extremely poignant. I don't know if it's because the time has been extended, so my mother's pain has also deepened? Anyway, I saw Mom's right leg bounce up.

It was only for a moment and only two or three seconds, but it did happen.

In addition to so many heart-wrenching and unsettling changes, the only thing that remains unchanged is that my mother is still in a severe coma. The unconscious changes have become more severe than lessened, which really scares me. Faintly, a sense of foreboding rose in my heart.

Tian Wenwen, what are you thinking? There is no premonition in this world, no, premonition exists......

At this moment, my mind was confused as if I had fallen into an evil spirit, and dizziness followed.

"Wenwen, are you alright? I'll help you to bed and lie down. ”

Looking at me who was paralyzed, Zhang Yang was nervous, and he was trembling when he spoke.

Unfortunately, his concern was in vain.

When I endured the headache and struggled to take a step, I was stopped by Zhang Yang.

"I know you're uncomfortable, and I'm uncomfortable too. Mom can't breathe on her own, so she can only rely on sputum suction to remove the obstruction, so as not to aggravate the condition of the respiratory tract infection. ”

Zhang Yang whispered to me while wiping away my tears, and under his persuasion, I dispelled the idea of obstructing the nurse. Looking at me crying like a tearful person, the nurse also sighed again and again.

They don't want me to see this picture either, my mother's miserable and helpless can be sighed by anyone who sees it, let alone me.

As the phlegm duct deepened, the mother's body trembled uncontrollably, and tears poured out again and again, soaking through the pillow towel and wetting the sheets.

Sadly, she remained unconscious.

It's strange, I'm not a crying person, I didn't cry when I was a child, everyone praised me for being brave, and my mother hugged me and kissed me non-stop, saying that I was her little warrior.

Since I'm brave, since I'm a little warrior, I shouldn't cry.

But what's wrong with me today? From morning to afternoon, from morning to evening, until now......

Do you still need to think about this? Because it can't be replaced, it's sad and weeping.

I'm so stupid!

I kept scolding myself in my heart, crying and scolding while scolding, and I wanted to scold all the mistakes I had made, so that I could relieve some of my guilt for my mother, so that my mother could feel my sincere apology.

Ten minutes later, the nurse finally left, and I, already crying hoarsely, physically and mentally exhausted. At this moment, I looked at my mother, who was lying on the hospital bed and couldn't move, with mixed feelings.

I wanted to go over to see my mother, but I was afraid that the sadness of the heavy graphite would disturb it. Although my mother is unconscious, she must have felt it, and I have no doubt about it, because my mother and I are related by blood.

It is because of this special relationship that I have a lot of concerns; It was precisely because of this special relationship that I finally hesitated and walked towards the hospital bed with heavy steps.

In less than five seconds, I saw my mother.

When I looked at my mother, whose eyes were closed, her breathing was hard and weak, and there were tears still in the corners of her eyes, I shuddered violently. At the same time, I held out my hand tremblingly.

"Mom, don't cry, the wound on your eyes hasn't healed yet, don't cry! If you don't cry, I'll kiss you, every time I was sick when I was a child, you kissed me, and you said that as long as I was kissed by you, my body would recover quickly, because my mother's kiss has the superpower of love. I believe what you say, and I believe that your daughter's kiss has the same superpower and can help ease your pain. ”

Before I finished speaking, I cried and kissed my mother on the face, just like she kissed me when she was a child.

"Mom, it's the New Year soon, and we haven't cleaned up yet. You say that seventy ancient and rare, eighty cane dynasty, ninety years old, and 100 years old; You said that you went around the world with me in the old age, and I was not allowed to lie to you; You say, why are you lying in the hospital......"

Speaking of this, tears welled up in my eyes. I know my mom is also very uncomfortable, although she is unconscious, she can feel everything.

"Daughter, no one will always have smooth sailing, everyone will have times when they face the wind and waves, as long as you don't fall, no one can knock you down."

Mom, I said your words word for word, and I never dared to forget them, let alone let me fall.

And yet, you fell.

I'm bleeding from my mouth, do you know why? Because it's a mouthful.

I didn't expect that the mouth would really break through......

Looking at the blood flowing from the corner of my mouth, Zhang Yang was anxious and distressed, he took a cotton swab and wanted to give me medicine, but I waved his hand to stop him.

I lifted my stiff arm and wiped the bright red from the corners of my mouth.

After waiting for a long time, Mom still didn't change, still lying motionless. But I knew Mom was trying to breathe because the numbers on the ventilator were beating all the time.

To be honest, I was touched by her tenacious desire to survive, but the sound of her breathing also made me sad. Qi is like a gossamer, which is to describe my mother's breathing at the moment.

I stood up again and kissed my mother's cheek with my chapped and bloody lips, I was so careful, for fear that the cracked lips would scratch my mother's carefully cared for face.

Mom pays great attention to maintenance and will try her best to protect every inch of skin in her body. Someone like her, who pays so much attention to her image, has to shave her hair because of surgery.

She must not like the way she looks now, and when I think of this, I forced a smile on my face and said, "Mom, you will always be beautiful and moving, no matter when and where." Knowing you're tired, lie down and listen to my story. ”