"Xu Youyou, three years ago I made an unforgivable mistake, I went back to China to deal with things, and I saw you in a trance at the door of a bar, but when I chased after me, the person disappeared."

"I anesthetized this longing with alcohol, and I didn't know how much I drank, until I was sent to the guest room by the waiter, and when I came out of the shower, there was an extra girl in the room, and I thought she was you, and when I woke up in the morning, I realized that I had made a big mistake."

"That girl is not you at all, but Su Limo, after investigation, I was indeed drugged, it was she who happened to call me, found that the situation was wrong, and rushed over, and the later scene happened."

"I always suspected that it would not be such a coincidence, but after investigation, it turned out that it was as she said, and there were no flaws. Therefore, at that time, Su Limo asked to come to YC to work, and I agreed without hesitation, I wanted to see what kind of medicine was sold in her gourd. “

"This matter has been pressing on the bottom of my heart, like poisoning, eroding every corner of my heart.

The person I love in my heart is you, I didn't leave my most precious thing to you, this kind of self-blame, chagrin, has been flooding in my heart, coupled with the guilt and longing for you, slowly, I resisted women, until later, as long as the contact, even if it is a handshake, the heart will appear in a short shock, or even unconscious. ”

"I know my heart disease, and I know that this heart disease can only be cured by you, but I don't know how to face you, I don't know if I will forgive me after you know about it, all of this is always hovering in my heart."

"Xu Youyou, I'm sorry, I shouldn't drink, I shouldn't go alone to borrow wine to kill my sorrows, otherwise everything wouldn't have happened."

Ji Fanchen's eyes slowly moved to Xu Youyou's face, and his eyes flashed with chagrin and remorse, "Xu Youyou, forgive me, okay?" My heart has always loved you, past, now, and will be! “

Xu Youyou looked at Ji Fanchen's determined eyes, and his heart was filled with turbulent waves, and it was difficult to calm down.

Why did fate make them suffer the same torture and pain, she concealed everything she had experienced, only afraid that the painful past would bring harm to Ji Fanchen.

However, she didn't expect that while she was going through the ordeal, he was also suffering in another dimension.

With the same experience, the same suffering, and the same self-blame, Xu Youyou seems to have returned to that night that he can't forget.

Of course, she knew that the process of that pain slowly devouring her soul was tormenting, and she also knew that Ji Fanchen knew that only she could help her get out of her inner demons but didn't dare to speak.

Xu Youyou's heart was like being held with a knife, the feeling of cutting the flesh down little by little, the bloody pain, the unbearable pain, made her breathless.

She settled down for a moment, and slowly wanted to get herself out of that pain, because she knew that Ji Fanchen needed her at this moment, needed her comfort, and her forgiveness.

She must cheer up now, put everything aside, she has to help Ji Fanchen get out of her inner demons and get out of danger.

She endured the pain in her heart and smiled lightly, "Ji Fanchen, what age is it?" In ancient times, there were chaste martyrs, do you want to be a chaste martyr in the present generation? “

"Isn't it just a woman's sleep? What's the big deal, you don't suffer, as for making yourself like that? You want to scare people to death like this? ”

Xu Youyou patted Ji Fanchen's head and comforted softly, "Okay, it's all over, I promise to keep it secret for you, and it will definitely not affect your secondary sales!" ”

Xu Youyou deliberately said lightly, and her smile was also very casual, as if Ji Fanchen's story did not touch her in any way, and it seemed that the man in front of her had nothing to do with her.

However, her clear eyes betrayed her, and the layer of mist flickering in her eyes made Ji Fanchen's heart feel like it had been hit by something.

He knew her mood at the moment, and he also knew the purpose of her doing so, he leaned his head on her shoulder, and a low and hoarse voice sounded, "Xu Youyou, the second sale to you, do you still want it?" ”

Ji Fanchen's question is difficult to answer, it is simply unsolvable.

Xu Youyou replied 'yes', then she will never be able to escape from his palm in the future, and he will always use this promise to coerce and lure her.

If she answered 'don't', at this time, she would definitely hurt him, Xu Youyou knew that Ji Fanchen was sure that she wouldn't dare to answer 'don't'.

However, such a question has been hidden in Xu Youyou's heart for many years, and after being moved by Ji Fanchen many times, what she wanted to ask most was this sentence, but she didn't say it after all.

Because her problem is not as simple as Ji Fanchen, nor can Ji Fanchen solve it with the word 'want'.

Xu Youyou was silent for a long time, and was about to speak, but he heard Ji Fanchen's pitiful voice, "Xu Youyou, you still dislike me, what you just said was a lie to me, you said you don't mind, actually..."

"I'm going to..."

Before Ji Fanchen's words were finished, he heard Xu Youyou's crisp answer, and in an instant, the eyes of the two people were together.

The phrase 'I want', like a spell, was attached to two people, making them unable to move or breathe.

The whole room seemed to be filled with the sound of 'I want,' which kept hovering and circling in their ears, and could not be dispersed for a long time.

Xu Youyou can't manage so much anymore, only in this way can he appease Ji Fanchen and help him come out slowly.

He was able to go up the sword mountain and go down the sea of fire for her, why couldn't he sacrifice for him once?

Ji Fanchen, who finally woke up from his dream, slowly raised his hand, stroked Xu Youyou's jaw, and said softly, "Xu Youyou, do you know what those two words mean?" “

Xu Youyou lowered his eyes and saw Ji Fanchen's slender fingers rubbing against her chin, the kind of touch was like a dog's tail grass, gently brushing over her face, and the itchy feeling spread from her cheeks to the bottom of her heart.

She lifted her eyelids again and looked at Ji Fanchen, "I know, I said 'I want you', it doesn't mean that we can be together, I just want to tell you that I don't care about all this, all I care about is your life." Promise me to cooperate with the treatment, Zhang Zhuo said let me have more contact with you, so that you can let go of the obsession in your heart, so I promise you that I will always accompany you during your treatment. ”

Ji Fanchen chuckled, he knew that things were not so simple, but this was already the best result, he knew that Xu Youyou was even better than himself, she pushed herself away again and again, making him convinced once again that the thorn buried in Xu Youyou's heart was only longer and deeper than his.

He needs time to slowly let them let go of the obsession in their hearts and slowly heal the wound in their hearts.