Chapter 12(1)
"Why does your brother hate him so much?"
I didn't answer.
He disappeared from my world, without warning.
Feelings should come and go quickly, and they go slowly. I fell in love with him for a long time, but it only took a short time to forget all the gifts that two people gave each other. Xun An is right, he doesn't really love me.
"Do you remember who I am?" Again, this look is exactly the same as when he told me that he liked someone.
"What the hell is wrong with you?"
Finally, the relationship with Conghan eased, and Xun'an came to trouble me again. I don't care if he is kind, and I can't care about it. He doesn't care if his eldest brother's illness can be cured, he doesn't care if I am happy with Conghan, I dare to think that he doesn't care when this world will be destroyed. But he shouldn't have thought that everyone would be as indifferent as he was, and didn't care how hurtful his indifference was.
"You're not suitable."
I finally made an appointment with Conghan, and he agreed to accompany me to the movies. I received a message from him asking if he wanted to come and pick me up. There was a lawn behind the dormitory building, and the Manila grass in early summer was already very prickly, and I was uncomfortable to sit on.
"I don't want to talk to you about that." When I looked down at Xun'an, I felt that he was very small, and I didn't think that his bones were actually very hard.
"I'll go first, I'm coming from the cold."
"Don't you want to ask me why?" He took my hand and told me not to go.
"I don't have anything good to do with me, don't talk about any conspiracy theories."
"What's the situation?"
"Torn your face?" Avi heard the climax of the story, and before he could swallow the food in his mouth.
I know he's always going to leave, just like my tears are always going to dry up. The breakup didn't feel good, but it made me realize what was wrong with me. The colorful love is really blind, the person he loves is not me at all, I should have seen it a long time ago.
He likes me, and the reason he's with me is simply because I have the shadow of the person he loves.
I always have some familiar images in my mind, maybe I have seen them in a dream, maybe I have repeated them in my life. The repetition over and over again made me overlook some details. Different supermarkets, the same pattern, one layer of life remains the same. And there are too many places in my body that resemble someone, and I have been in a trance.
"You sit down and listen to me."
Since I was a child, I only told Xun An in my heart, although he hated Conghan, but I never asked him why, maybe I should listen to his explanation. I lied and called Conghan so that he didn't have to come, and Xun An finally let go.
He was perceptive and easy to perceive problems that I couldn't perceive, which is another difference for us. In fact, Xun'an and I are different except for the similarity of appearance and temperament, and my temperament is just next to each other. He has qualities that make him competent in all roles, and I can't. No one should confuse me with him.
His wallpaper is a group photo of us. At that time, we had just learned to walk, and I was learning a little slowly, so my mother asked him to hold me steady, and I was able to freeze this picture. It looks exactly the same.
"You say I have someone else's shadow in me."
I stared at Xun'an, "Who am I like besides you?" ”