"Is the love story over?" Avi had been impatient, as could be seen from the frown she kept on as she listened to me describe the details.

"Do you think the world is safe?"

"As a person who works for the country, can I say that it is not safe?"

"Are you safe then?"

"It's safe!" She was like an owl, spinning her head in one circle.

The world is a stage built under a large wide-mouth lens, and our lives are all used as experiments. The city is densely packed with surveillance, and mobile phones and computers, including the naked eye, are the best props for surveillance.

There is no privacy in my life, and my home is not a safe haven, which is life itself that I only understood many years later.

As soon as the summer vacation arrived, Xun An and I immediately went home, and my mother prepared a table full of good meals and dishes for us as usual.

"It's better to be at home." I devoured my food, like I had just escaped from a refugee ghetto.

"It's good to know. Now that you're older, you're spending more and more time outside than you are at home......" Mother said as she fed her eldest brother.

I understand what my mother meant. After college, even when we had holidays, we rarely went home.

I'm trying to make the atmosphere at the table a little more pleasant. "Mom, you know what? I checked, and there is still a possibility of recovery from my eldest brother's illness. ”

"Really...... That's good. Mother didn't seem to be much happy.

"Nannan, I'm not sick." On the contrary, the eldest brother began to get excited, and he pushed away the food that his mother fed to his mouth.

"Yes, yes, my brother is fine, my brother is not sick, I mean 'brother', Xun'an's brother is sick...... "I picked up a piece of chicken leg and put it in Xun'an's bowl, and by the way, I gave him a look, and asked him to help me quickly round the field.

"Ahem!" Xun'an was very knowledgeable, and hurriedly pretended to have a cold and coughed.

"Brother, look, it's Xun'an's younger brother who is sick."

"Mom, Brother Xun'an is sick, we have to give him medicine......"

When I finally managed to avoid the topic, my mother looked at me complainingly, and when she saw Xun'an pretending to be sick, she couldn't help but laugh and cry.

"Okay, when we're done eating, we'll go and 'treat' the eldest brother!" Mother glared at us again.

As soon as we finished eating, my eldest brother pulled us outside and ran outside. A new asphalt road has been built in the village, and pedestrians keep to the right to give way.

There are a lot of barren fields, and the people in the village are busy building new villages, discussing raising funds to build factories and opening vegetable and fruit greenhouses. At the same time, there are traditional farmers who have not had time to react to the drastic changes of the times and are bending down to take care of their crops. My parents would often mention that in their time, families were proud to have more land and produce more food in the fields. At that time, people could feel happy when they were well fed and clothed. Now the situation is much more complicated, and happiness is even more difficult for people.

The asphalt road was scorched under the scorching sun for a day, exuding a strong oil-derived taste, which made people dizzy and uncomfortable. Xun and I followed the eldest brother quietly, his excited appearance suppressed my desire to turn around and leave, the more I smelled the asphalt, the more I felt at ease, and the time seemed to return to the house where we played together...... Xun'an and I have grown up, but my eldest brother is still that "child".

I couldn't help but sigh.

Xun'an is different from me, he has always been at ease, and he doesn't seem to care how long the eldest brother will have a child.

It was getting dark, and before we knew it, we were at the place where my father was working.

The pillar tube that emits a "boom" sound every day in the factory is still there, and the towering appearance has become a landmark building in our village. It's like an alarm clock that reminds the village that it's time to wake up, that it's time for the village to sleep.

My father hadn't gotten off work yet, and my mother told me that the factory had been rushing to work in recent months, and my father hadn't had dinner at home for a long time. We just got here, so we decided to wait here for my dad to come home after work.

The eldest brother had never been in the factory, and when he found a new place, he couldn't help but want to find out. I wanted my eldest brother to do everything he wanted to do, so I ran to the security room at the door and begged the security guard to be accommodating.

"Uncle, just let us in, our dad works inside, and we just want to go in and see his working environment, so that there won't be any mess." I swear by it.

The security guard was a little impatient, he waved his hand back and forth, and asked me not to say any more.

"If something happens, we'll leave it to you!"

"Little girl, if something really happens, it won't be me who 'disposes' of you, but the leader who 'disposes' of me!"

"What to dispose of, it's really troublesome." I muttered quietly.

After trying to persuade me, the eldest brother still didn't want to go with me, so he simply sat on the ground and cried. I was too busy comforting him to pay attention to what Xun'an said to my uncle.

"Let's go, let's go in." Xun An picked up the eldest brother.

The telescopic door was also opened, and I followed in stunned... Looking back at the uncle again, his eyes were evasive, and his expression was a little unnatural.

"Xun'an, what did you tell him?"

"I shared a secret with him."

"Secret? What secret? I would like to know too. ”

He walked into a shadowless shadow, and I squinted to see clearly. "Since it's a secret, it's not for everyone to know."

I was blinded by the street lamps overhead. No matter, "Just come in." ”

The eldest brother is like a rabbit that has been released from the nest, jumping around in it. I was afraid that he would really cause some trouble, so I kept following closely.

This is an old factory, and the buildings have accumulated the dust of time. Except for the tallest building, which has a slightly modern feel, the rest are some low-rise bungalows, presumably where the workers eat and rest. These small bungalows are next to each other, and in the shade of magnolia trees, only a faint yellow light flickers.

The factory was quiet, and there was no sound of machines running, not like it was rushing. I looked up at the top of the building, which was hidden in the black starry sky, with no windows around it to let in the light.

"Doesn't that look like there's workers working in there?" I grabbed my eldest brother's arm and talked to myself.

"Where's Xun'an?" The atmosphere became more and more sneaky, and I let go of my eldest brother's arm and looked back to find peace.

Xun'an followed slowly and slowly, not in a hurry to keep up with our trotting steps.

"Xun'an, I'm afraid, I'm going to hold you!"

Holding Xun'an's hand tightly, I was immediately relieved. I didn't take a few steps and realized that my eldest brother was gone, and I chuckled in my heart.

The street lights in the factory couldn't shine at all, so I had to shout loudly, and I grabbed Xun'an's hand and began to sweat non-stop.

"Big Brother ......"

My voice echoed in the empty factory, but there was no reply.

I was anxious and panicked, let go of the search, and stumbled like a headless fly in the darkness.

"Big Brother ......"

I searched all the conspicuous places, but I could not find him, so I turned my attention to the row of unobtrusive bungalows.

The lights in the room were not affected by my shouting at all, and they were still so dim and weak.

As soon as he walked to that side, he was not yet on the edge of the house, but he saw his father carrying his eldest brother out of one of the rooms.

"Dad!"

I hurried up to catch up and took the eldest brother from my father's hands. The eldest brother seemed to be frightened by something, shrunk his head, and his body kept shaking.

"Dad, what's wrong with big brother?"

"I looked everywhere for him but didn't find him, it turned out that he ran to you."

"You guys go back to me!" My father was furious, and I remember that this was one of the few times he had seen him lash out. But I don't know what I've done wrong, I just guess in my heart that my eldest brother must have made trouble again.

I was stunned, but I just hugged my eldest brother tightly and didn't dare to speak.

Xun An also walked over, and I think he heard his father's roar as well.

"Annan, let's go first, let him... Go on! Xun An seemed to be angrier than my father, and he lowered his voice to appear more powerful, and I couldn't help but look up at him.

"Don't cry, let's go."

If he hadn't said it, I wouldn't have realized that my vision was blurred.

Xun An pulled me and my eldest brother, didn't speak again, and left quickly.

"Xun'an, what do you say is wrong with Dad? Why are you throwing such a tantrum at us? "I'm still sobbing.

"Also, he knows that his eldest brother's nerves are still very fragile, why do he scare us like this?" The eldest brother's body was still trembling.

Xun An didn't answer, his face was still cold, which was terrifying. None of us have the ability to absorb the huge impact of an emergency, but in order to avoid this big wave causing further waves, I know that the most important thing at the moment is to make my eldest brother's mood better, and I am afraid that my mother will cause trouble.

"Big brother, it's okay, Dad didn't mean to murder us just now, don't be afraid, okay?" I kept my voice as soft as I could and stroked his head over and over again.

The eldest brother's body is still shaking, and his mouth is also full of words.

"Daddy...... Naked...... ...... on the bed"

The sentences are incomplete, and the images I can think of are also intermittent, but the plot put together is somewhat clear.

"It can't be, it's impossible......," I said, trying to break up the gradually coherent story with a shake of my head. Brother, don't say it again! I started repeating "impossible" again and louder and louder, trying to overshadow Big Brother.

I know I must look even crazier than my big brother, and in the meantime, what should I do with Xun'an, who is walking with two people who are in a state of mind?

He stopped and hugged me.

"Don't do that, okay?" An almost pleading tone. I don't think I can keep indulging in my unpleasant imagination, and I can't let more people be affected by the disgusting emotions caused by this incident.

Listening to Xun'an's heartbeat, I gradually calmed down.

I put my arms around my big brother. The three of them just hugged each other tightly and clinged to each other.

"It's just cheating, and my father must have been confused for a while. He must still love his mother and love us. "I relieved myself.

I need a hug. Whether I hold someone else or be held by someone else, I need it. And I will always need it, and I must have lived in a grave without a hug.

When we got home, Xun'an and I pretended to be nothing. When my mother suggested that it was time to bathe my eldest brother, I immediately took the job. I was afraid that he would say something that would make my mother suspicious. But it was really inconvenient for girls to bathe boys, so the object was changed to Xun'an, and the next few days were the same. We also tried to minimize his contact with his mother, so that the matter would end without a trace.

Our father's cheating was finally discovered. Those shady things that can't be seen can be found by flashlights. And blatantly, in addition to deliberately doing it for others to see, there is also a miscalculation of the profitability of the thing itself. I didn't see, and I didn't expect, that there was a black lens in the house that was always there.

The home has two bathrooms, one on each floor. Since living on the second floor, my washing has been solved upstairs.

The bathroom faces the hallway, and there is a window on the wall next to the hallway, and it is about the height of an adult from the floor. In the summer, we all leave the window open when we take a bath, because we are afraid of the heat stuffing inside. And at home, we didn't expect to be peeked at. Over time, that window was overlooked. I teased Xun An when I yelled out the window for peeping while he was taking a shower, and he would poke his head out and throw me in the water.

After I learned that my father was cheating, I felt uncomfortable every time I saw him. Luckily, he wasn't at home for long, and I didn't need to meet him, so I went upstairs when he came back. When I had nothing to do in my bedroom, I stretched out my time doing everything, including taking a shower.

I left the window open as usual and hummed a song while bathing. When I turned to the window, I was still happy, and I glanced at the window to find that someone was poking out half of the phone!

I immediately crouched down and tore off the towel to wrap my still foamy body. The pores were all open in horror, and they gasped together, but I still couldn't breathe. My fingers turned black, and I shook my curled body, gritted my teeth and wiped it, but the towel fell to the ground again and again. I forced myself to calm down, and by the time I mustered up the courage to look up at the window again, my phone was gone. I quickly closed the window and got dressed at a high speed. I tried to open the door and look down the hallway, but I didn't find anyone.

I don't know why I don't even dare to tell people what I'm worried about. I'm not a victim, I'm like a wrongdoer, helping others hide their mistakes and indulging my unjustified cowardice. I lay under the quilt and listened to the cicadas, and my heart became a frog call.

I'm afraid of people, I'm afraid of people and acquaintances, and I'm afraid of myself. I can't guess if they have a camera hidden in their harmless eyes, I'm exposed in front of people, and in the mirror. In my dream I was in an empty room, and I was looking around in a whirlwind. I was awakened by the black lens on the wall.

Glazed tile

Blank wall

Black lens

Six

You open your eyes

Push open the door

As far as the eye can see

It's all over the place

Twelve

You pull back the curtains

The clouds are getting thicker

Grey day

The bottom is full of streamers

You go out on the street

Wild cranes are swaying

snake eyes

God roared and roared

You're tired

Encounter an old house of rotten wood

There is not a single bed inside

You fall asleep

Six

You're groggy and awake

It's dark

I realized that everything was drunk in a dream

Eight

You're obsessed with aftertaste

Ink paper

Paint with nightmares

Twelve

You close your eyes

It's all over again

Blank wall

A little bit of red light is gone

"You're not making up a story for me, are you?" Avi questioned the authenticity of the story and was amazed that I could write poetry.

"How dare you come so far to be your tenant without some extraordinary experience?"