Wherever I am, the diary is there. I took it to school and put it away as if it were my own treasure.

Shiya said that the two of them went on a date alone, and I declined her dinner invitation under the pretext of line dancing.

I walked around the schoolyard, on her favorite playground. I wondered what they were doing. When will they be back? What intimate actions will they have? I became more and more uneasy, picked up the phone and put it down, but did not dare to call her

I walked downstairs to her dorm room again, and this was the third time.

"Seek peace!"

"Why are you here?" This is her roommate Xiaoya.

"I'm waiting for someone."

"It's so late, who are you waiting for?"

"A friend, she's coming down right away." I dialed Xiya's number.

Shiya showed up quickly, and I knew she must have felt sudden. She cooperated with me to act in front of Xiaoya, and Annan knew that the two of us would be happy together.

We walked to the playground. "You're not really looking for me, are you?" Xiya still asked.

"Hmm."

"You." A tentative tone, "Are you waiting for Annan?" ”

"Hmm."

Xiya is very smart, and I guess she has seen my feelings for Annan. There was a silent atmosphere, and we just walked quietly forward. Others run one lap, we walk twice, and the runners see us twice a lap on average. I didn't expect her to understand the feelings, even I thought it was a joke from heaven. I waited for the day when I would be willing to extinguish this feeling.

"Finding peace." She broke the silence.

"You may find it hard to believe, but I can really understand the feelings."

"That doesn't mean I've ever had it, and I'll never have such a good relationship. But I can't help you achieve it, we are all ordinary, the world we live in is mediocre, and breaking its rules will pay a huge price, and we can't afford it. In fact, the first time I saw you on the train, I noticed that you were different. You are not the same as us, you are not the same as Annan. Such a strong trace of sadness, no matter how bright the sun is, it can't be removed. I can't imagine why you would go on the road with so much bitterness in such a beautiful way? It wasn't until the corners of your mouth opened up for her a very simple sentence that I wondered if the source of this sorrow could be love? You love her, and this love touches me and makes me ashamed. Even if I only stand in your space for a few minutes, I feel so painful that I just want to leave. ”

"Is this love?"

"Yes."

I felt like all my thoughts were on the ground. Someone felt this feeling, and it was no longer only the diary that could listen to my heart, but also this person firmly said that it was love. I'm not alone, I'm not an outlier.

"Thank you."

There are fewer people on the playground. Xiya promised to help me keep it a secret, and we agreed to lock everything we said that night into our memories and protect it from being stolen.

"Let's go."

It's almost eleven o'clock, "I'll send you back." ”

Under the yellowish street lamps, I saw their lingering. I left Xiya alone and turned my back on their reluctance.