I haven't seen her for a few years, and she's really haggard. A person's aging begins with the eyes.

Meng Xilan looked at Chu Jingwen's eyes, and her heart sank for a while.

Chu Jingwen smiled slightly, stroked her heart and said, "Niangniang doesn't have to worry about me. I'm all sick with this old problem......"

Her own body, she knows it herself.

"Jingwen, don't say such things to me, I want to hear you tell the truth. What should I do? How can I help you? ”

Meng Xilan looked at her with a serious face, she really wanted to do something for her and Wuwu.

Chu Jingwen's expression was slightly stunned when she heard this, and then she lowered her eyes to hide the sadness in her heart.

She is now a wasted person, and she is burdened with the grievances and grievances of the year, she doesn't expect anything else, she only hopes that carefree can grow up safely and carefree, just like her name.

Carefree didn't know how important the conversation of adults was, she lowered her head and touched the cool bracelet on Meng Xilan's wrist, only to feel slippery and comfortable to touch.

Meng Xilan saw that she liked it, so she took the bracelet off her wrist and handed it to her, "Take it and play with it." ”

Chu Jingwen hurriedly stopped him, and when he was in a hurry, he suddenly coughed.

The maid hurriedly held water to her: "Miss watch your body." ”

Wu Wu was a little frightened when he saw this, so he only returned the bracelet to Meng Xilan, and opened his little hand to go to his mother's arms.

"Mother's hug, hug ......"

Chu Jingwen slowly took a sip of water, suppressed the discomfort in her chest, she gently followed her heart, and after a long while, she hugged Wuwu to her side.

She didn't have much strength, half leaned on the head of the bed, and said softly: "Niangniang, with my current body, what else can I do?" I don't care about anything anymore except worry-free, I don't care about anything anymore. ”

When Meng Xilan heard this, her brows became tangled into Sichuan characters. "But I care, I care."

Chu Jingwen's eyes flashed slightly, she lowered her head and gently coaxed Wuwu, Wuwu blinked at her, slowly closed her eyes in the middle of the sound, and then fell asleep.

"If there is really anything in my heart that I can't let go, only worry-free, my worry-free ......"

Chu Jingwen's eyes showed sadness: "Niangniang, if I am gone, what should I do without worry?" ”

Although she believed that her family would treat her well, she did not believe that they gave her a carefree life.

Carefree's father is the deposed prince Zhou Youping, a sinner who everyone hates. Because of his existence, the Chu family was almost implicated by it, and none of the elders in the family did not hate him, so every time they saw Wu Wu, they could see Zhou Youping's shadow from him...... Perhaps, one day, they will also be disgusted with her!

Usually except for her brother who occasionally comes to see her, the others rarely show up. Even her mother, who couldn't hold back her tears every time she came over, shook her head and sighed as if she were not her granddaughter, but a scourge who had not yet grown up.

Every time Chu Jingwen saw her mother's tears, she asked the maid to take Wuwu out to play, not wanting her to be sad and scared.

Meng Xilan looked at her steadily: "Jingwen, what do you want me to do?" ”

As long as it is her request, she will agree.

"What if...... I mean, if ...... One day I really couldn't do it, I really didn't use it. Niangniang, can you take care of me without worry, can you help me raise her......"

Before meeting her, Chu Jingwen had never had such an idea. But after seeing Meng Xilan, I saw her holding no worries and looking pity. A thought hurriedly flashed through Chu Jingwen's mind, perhaps...... Maybe she could!

Meng Xilan listened to her words, her eyes became deep, and her face became solemn.

"Jingwen, are you serious? Nothing is gone, don't say such depressing words. ”

"During the day, Lord Jiao has been here, so Niangniang must know that my body is not good." Chu Jingwen groaned slightly: "Niangniang, my worry-free is a poor child, she is too pitiful." I want to give her all the good things in this world, but unfortunately, there is so little I can give her. Speaking of this, she suddenly stretched out her hand, and Meng Xilan hurriedly grasped it, only to realize that her ten fingers were cold.

"Jingwen, Master Jiao will definitely cure you." Meng Xilan couldn't think of words to comfort her, only this one.

Chu Jingwen shook her head, lightly tapped the back of her hand with a slightly cool fingertip, and said with a little pleading in her tone: "Xilan, promise me, okay?" ”

She no longer calls her "Niangniang", but calls her by her first name.

"Please take pity on this child for me, don't let others bully her and snub her."

Meng Xilan's eyes sank when she heard this, and she didn't know whether she should agree or not.

"Xilan ......" Chu Jingwen spoke again: "This is the first time I beg you......"

Meng Xilan grabbed her hand hard, and tears glistened with tears in her eyes: "Why do you ask me to do such a thing?" Who said you were going to die? Jingwen, how do you want me to agree? She is your daughter, no matter how much I love her, the person she needs most is still you! ”

There is no substitute for the existence of a mother in this world.

Chu Jingwen also smiled with tears: "I know, I know, I just said what if...... If that's it. ”

Meng Xilan lowered her head and did not speak, her eyes were full of tears, and she bit her lower lip hard.

Before leaving, she whispered to Chu Jingwen: "I will come to see you often in the future." ”

Chu Jingwen shook his head: "Don't come, I really don't look good." And if you let others see it, you will talk about it behind your back......"

Meng Xilan insisted: "I'm not afraid, I still have to come." ”

Chu Jingwen's eyebrows frowned when she heard this, her chest rose and fell weakly, and she smiled helplessly: "Why is your temper still so stubborn?" ”

"Aren't you the same, just take a good rest. I'll come back in two days. ”

Meng Xilan held her hand, slightly hard, with a little reluctance.

Chu Jingwen leaned on the head of the bed and smiled at her, and then looked down at the sleeping worry-free.

The gentleness of bowing her head made Meng Xilan's heart have mixed feelings.

She walked all the way out of the courtyard gate, and as she walked, she suddenly bent down and squatted in place.

Zhulu Zhuqing was startled, and hurriedly squatted down to investigate, but saw that the master's eyes were red, and two lines of tears flowed down his cheeks, dripping on the bluestone paved road one by one.

"Mother's ......"

She had endured tears for more than an hour, and she couldn't control them anymore.

Meng Xilan silently shed tears, but she didn't say a word, she didn't say a word.

The body began to ache inexplicably, as if it was injured, but the wound was invisible.

Suddenly, a shadow stretched by the nightlight appeared in front of him, and he moved closer and closer with a steady pace, only standing a few steps away from her.

"Mother, why are you crying?"

The voice sounded familiar.

Meng Xilan looked up and saw Chu Jingchuan standing there, looking at her with a tangled expression.

He and she looked at each other, neither of them looking away first, and the confrontation was so quiet that the air was frozen like gel.

Meng Xilan knew that she had lost her temper, she took out a handkerchief and nodded at the corner of her eyes, and took the lead in saying with a different face: "The mourning family is just sad for Jingwen again." ”

Chu Jingchuan said quietly: "Really? Thank you for your hard work. It's just that after all, one's own suffering can only be borne by oneself, and others cannot share it for others. ”

Meng Xilan raised her eyebrows slightly when she heard this: "Lord Chu, is this sarcastic about me?" ”

"Weichen doesn't dare!" Chu Jingchuan slowly stepped forward, stood closer to her, looked at the moistness in the corners of her eyes, and said in a deep voice: "Weichen just wants to persuade Niangniang." ”

Meng Xilan met his eyes, she could feel the emotions surging in them, and she avoided again, saying, "If I had known about her illness earlier, I would definitely have been able to help her." Even if I can't help, there is still Master Jiao...... Chu Jingchuan, you should tell me! You shouldn't have hidden it from me! ”

Chu Jingchuan suddenly laughed when he heard this.

"Niangniang, the relationship between you and the Chu family is different from before. Monarchs and ministers, you are a concubine, and you should not worry about the housework of Weichen. Moreover, if the emperor knew that you were so sad, he would blame Wei Chen's ......"

There was a hint of mockery in his words, which made Meng Xilan's heart very uncomfortable.

She looked at him puzzled: "Chu Jingchuan, do you have to talk to me like this?" Even though I have a lot of sorry for you and the Chu family, my concern for Jingwen has never changed...... The guilt for you has never changed! ”

Chu Jingchuan's face slowly changed: "What does Weichen want to do with his mother's guilt?" How can Wechen afford it? Niangniang, Jingwen is the child of the Chu family, the Chu family will not ignore her, Niangniang should not come again in the future......"

Before he finished speaking, Meng Xilan said in a deep tone: "Chu Jingchuan, don't order me, don't perfunctory me!" Even if I have to listen to your cynicism every time, I will still come! As you said, I am the concubine Niangniang, and no one in this capital can stop me! You too...... Next time, I will only come to see Jingwen and not you again. If you don't want to see me, then stay avoided, it's good for you and me anyway. ”

After Meng Xilan said these words coldly, she walked straight past him, who knows, Chu Jingchuan didn't know where she got the courage, she actually grabbed her arm, and said with a slight force: "Niangniang, are you so bold?" Aren't you afraid that someone will chew your tongue behind your back? The emperor has just set out on the expedition, and you can't stand the loneliness of the deep palace......"

"Smack!" Meng Xilan almost instinctively slapped Chu Jingchuan, so much so that she herself was taken aback.

Chu Jingchuan was beaten slightly to the face, and then slowly let go of the hand that grabbed her.

He brought it on himself, and he didn't know what was wrong with him.

Meng Xilan's eyes were heavy, bottomless, and she said disappointedly: "If you want to scold me, just scold me generously, I won't blame you." It's just, please, please don't talk to me like an enemy! I really feel sorry for Jingwen, whether you believe it or not. ”