Han Yi thought about Zhong Ying'er's strange behavior, and felt a faint pain in his heart, looking at the words written in the diary, he couldn't express his complicated emotions.

Diary of February 8, 2013

On February 6, when I was eating delicious potato chips and kebabs with Wu in the snack street, I suddenly felt something hit my face, raindrops the size of beans, and when I reacted, the rain started to fall, and I even felt a little pain on my face. It was fine a second ago, but the rain fell as soon as it was said, and before I had time to hide, I got wet. Unexpectedly, at this time, the phone rang, Sharon (your name in the phone notes)! I'm not mistaken, you actually called me, is this a surprise from a heavy rain? Or is it a fright? I quickly found a place to hide from the rain.

"Where are you now? I want to see you! "I can't hear the emotion in your tone, but I know something must be something.

"I'm at home, where are you?" I wanted to scold you for not replying to my messages for so long, but I didn't, I just wanted to know what the situation was now.

"I just arrived in Yellowstone and am at the station now. Can you come out and see me? "I should have been pleasantly surprised to hear this, but I couldn't help but be overjoyed.

"Did something happen?" I was worried, and asked cautiously.

"Are you coming?" You feel like a request and a command, and you don't say why it's all of a sudden.

"You wait for me, I'll come right over. It's raining a little cold now, so you find a warmer place to stay. As I spoke, I motioned for Wu to rush out.

The two of them ran together in the rain because the wallet was still in the samurai's house. I used Wu's mobile phone to call my mother, saying that it was raining and that I wouldn't go back to sleep at Wu's house at night, so as not to worry her. After all, it's past four o'clock, and by the time I see you, it's almost dark.

My home is in the county seat, and it is about a 40-minute drive from the city center. All the way I kept wondering what the hell was wrong with you? Although you and we are in the same province, but in different cities, it takes you two or three hours to come over, why haven't you contacted me for a long time, and suddenly come to me? I have too many questions.

When I was in the car, Bai Xue sent me a WeChat message and asked me to play games with her. I said there was something out there and I'll talk about it next time. Then open the chat with you, and the rows of messages I sent out.

"Why didn't you come over and tell me in advance, I'll pick you up in advance, you don't have to be in such a hurry." I tried not to think about it, not to ask what was going on.

"I'm sorry, I just saw missed calls and messages on my phone today, and my mother hid it." I don't doubt it, I believe everything you say.

"You mother and daughter are really good at playing!" I seemed to have a slight hint of complaint or sarcasm.

"You don't understand, I sneaked out today, and I quarreled with my mother twice at home······" I looked at the news, and the feeling of clouds and mist was in the clouds. I asked what was going on, and you wouldn't say.

After getting off the bus, I went straight to the waiting hall, looked around, and quickly spotted you. Sitting on a chair, the red tweed jacket, as if the one I wore when I first met you, with a light pink backpack on his lap and his hands folded. I trotted up to you, squatted down, put one hand on your hand gently, looked at you, and felt an indescribable distress.

"Is it cold?" I look you in the eye and ask softly.

You nodded, then shook your head again, and didn't speak.

"Stupid or not!?" I smiled and said, "What do you mean by nodding and shaking your head?" ”

"I'm sorry" you spoke, I seem to understand what you mean, but I'm not what I want to hear.

"I ask you if you're cold, what do you say I'm sorry!? Did you do something sorry for me? "I forced myself to joke and try to avoid sensational or unhappy conversations. I think I know you too well, a person who has always been strong, and never shows a cowardly side. I grabbed your hand and stood up, trying to take the bag in your hand and carry it, but it seemed a little out of place, after all, it was a pink bag, so I carried it in the other hand, in fact I had to admire myself for being able to react like this in such a short time.

"Did you eat at noon? Are you hungry now? Shall I take you to dinner first······?" I asked a lot of questions, like a teenager with questions.

"I didn't eat it, I couldn't eat it. My hair came out without washing it. You replied.

"Well, should I feed you first? Why don't you settle where you're staying tonight? Look you're emaciated. I've never stayed in a hotel here, so I'll have to help you find a place to settle in first, or I can order your food directly from the hotel. "I asked for your permission, and I seemed to be immersed in talking to myself.

"Okay, I want to take a shower first, it just rained a little bit, and my hair feels messy." Your slightly serious expression seems to stretch a little.

"No, it's still pretty!" I just spoke my heart.

"Just what you think looks good!" You smile slightly.

"Of course, I think it's good-looking, who else do you want to make you good-looking?" I was smug and pretended to be vinegar from someone I didn't know.

On the way out, I used my phone to check the nearby hotels, looked at the photos and prices, and decided that I could. At this time, there were quite a lot of cars, so I quickly got a taxi, told the driver the location, and went directly.

I didn't ask you if you brought your ID card, and directly used my ID card to check in for you, a standard room. As for my own, I have already contacted Hiroko and can stay at his house at any time.

When you got to the room, you said to go take a shower first, and then go out to eat something when you were hungry. I looked at the room service on the menu quote and it was a little expensive. The bathroom and bed are separated by a piece of clear glass.

"You take a shower first, I'll go out, you lock the door. It just so happened that I was a little hungry and went out to buy dinner. "I'm actually not hungry, so I'm eating snacks outside with Wu, how can I be hungry.

"It's okay, we'll go out to eat later!" You don't seem to notice the completely transparent glass.

I smiled and pulled you to the bathroom, then I went out and sat on the bed. He pointed to the piece of glass that was separating us. You seem to understand something, laugh, and run over to get me out.

"I'm in bed, give it to me!" I was pushed out and shouted "Remember to lock the door!"

What happened to me during the meal, why didn't you reply to me before, and suddenly appeared in front of me again. You said, after you go home, your mother will let you go on a blind date, you don't want to, your mother is domineering and stubborn, confiscated your mobile phone and wallet and hid it, quarreled again at noon, and found the mobile phone wallet in the afternoon when they were not at home before they wanted to come out to relax and hide from her. You also said that since she was a child, she likes to interfere in everything, and everything has to be done according to her wishes, and the reason why she went to Shanghai to work is to stay away······ You've told me many, many things you've never told me before. After my repeated persuasion, you sent a message to your parents saying that you had gone to the same school, so that they could not worry.

"I really can't let you listen to your parents and go on a blind date with my conscience, I hope you can discuss and talk well. I don't know what to say either, I respect your choice. "Actually, I was confused in my head, I hope that the person I love can also love me, but I also don't want her to face a choice of what she has to give up, let alone quarrel with her relatives.

"Don't talk about that!" You put your hands on my arm, maybe we all have our own hearts, even if I have you in my heart, you have me in my heart.

Hiroko called me and asked me where I was and when I was gone. I said, I'll talk to him later downstairs.

"Are you leaving?" You sat on the bed, with your long hair draped and staring at me with big eyes.

"Hmm······ I can go to Hiroko's house in the evening. But if you're going to keep me, I can consider it. "I was laughing so unnaturally, it was a complete joke.

"Okay, then don't go!" You blurt out.

I looked at you in amazement, and I was relieved for a long time. "Is it so straightforward? Are you serious? I finally saw you, do you think I'll be willing to leave······" I was like crazy, and I said a bunch of things.

"Yes, stay with me." From your expression, I can tell that you mean it.

"In fact, there have been many times when we have slept in the same room, even next to each other. In that case, I would like to ask you something, can you answer truthfully? "I suddenly became very serious.

"I know what you're going to ask, I've thought about it, and I'm hesitant and afraid, but if you ask me if I'm willing, I'm willing." You looked at me intently and said.

I think she did know what I wanted to ask, because I'm more conservative and I think if we had a relationship in bed, it would be for life. But I also feel that even if I wanted to, I would not be able to keep you by my side and bind you, and maybe you have the same thoughts or the opposite.

"Tonight, don't go. I'm serious. "Looking into your eyes, I can feel that affectionate feeling.

"Wow, you are a girl, can you be more reserved! Of course, we men have to say that. I pretended to be serious, but I was very happy, and said, "Can I stay tonight?" Then he pulled you in front of him, kissed you the lips, and couldn't help but caress you.

"Yes!" You smiled and said to me.

That night, we did things that were inappropriate and indescribable for children, and 10,000 words are omitted here......

"I've thought countless times about what it's like to be with you, and I'm curious about sex. We've had many times like this, but we've been restrained by a lot of my thoughts or bullshit. I want your consent, but I'm afraid you'll refuse. "I put my arms around you, and said a little shyly. You say the same is true for you.

Good night. On the 668th day, if we are far away, we are still so close and far away, and our relationship is still so wonderful and unpredictable.

Diary of February 9, 2013

Sometimes happiness just comes so suddenly, and it's just as unexpected. I never expected that you would miraculously appear in front of my eyes after disappearing for almost half a month. I never thought that sharing a bed with you would come so quickly and so suddenly, I thought it might have to wait until you told me exactly that you had agreed to be my girlfriend, that you were sure of each other, that you would hold hands for the rest of your life, and that they would not disappear at any time. Sometimes I also feel that my thoughts are a little inexplicable, how can a big man be the same as a hypocritical woman.

That night, I didn't care about what I had or didn't, you were right in front of me, really, I didn't pretend to be like a decent gentleman. You told me not to go, to stay! Looking at your appearance, you are beautiful and delicious, and your male hormones are soaring, and you will feel uncontrollable, and any blame and complaints have been thrown out of the clouds.

People are full of curiosity and desire to explore the unknown, and at this age, it feels like an instinctive desire. My mind was blank, and it was like there was an invisible force driving me, sometimes with your hands on my shoulders and sometimes holding me tight. Although I haven't experienced it before, I know that this kind of experience is just enjoying being like this with someone you love.

Thinking about it now, I feel a little shy and a little excited.

On February 7th, the next day, I woke up earlier than you in the morning. Looking at you sleeping next to me, I gently tapped your nose with my index finger and kissed you lightly on the lips. Your fingers slowly roamed over your smooth skin, you moved, opened your eyes and looked at me, and then immediately covered your head with the quilt, and I smiled and pulled away, and you clung to it. I had the wit, and I reached into the quilt and scratched your armpits exactly as you kept flipping around.

"Help······ Okay, okay, I'll come out, don't scratch! "You shouted loudly, and I was afraid that people outside the room would hear you.

"Come out!" I lay still and said.

Unexpectedly, you wrapped up the quilt and sat on top of me, and I could still feel your temperature. He sat down and said, "It's not the first time for me, do you mind?" Are you still a *male? ”

"Who told you I'm a *male?" I said with a smile in my anger.

"You mentioned it when we chatted before, it should have been more than a year." There's a hint of seriousness in your expression.

"It's been over a year, how do you know if I'm still here?" I'm still smiling.

"Because you're still liking me." You thought for a moment and replied. At this time, my hands are already slowly moving and caressing your waist.

"So what if I tell you I'm not? Will you be unhappy? "I suddenly became serious, too. As soon as the words fell, you wanted to get up and slip away, I took your hand hard and approached me, hugged you, put your ears close to my mouth, and said, "I slept with the person I love last night, and it's not anymore." ”

"I found out last night! Then you would mind...... Didn't it give it to you? You still ask very seriously.

"Was it before you knew me?" I asked.

"Well, before I went to college, it was the same high school ······ I told you about earlier." You try to explain.

"Well, I don't want to hear that person. If you say that you don't mind at all, it must be fake, more or less jealous, but I never thought about what was not the first time, it has nothing to do with me, and it was before I knew you, it didn't affect me to fall in love with you, and it was also a fact that I couldn't change, so there was no reason to blame you······" I guess it's the turtle son who once appeared in front of me and made me feel like a junior. I was still trying to keep saying my tirade about whether it was the first time it wasn't so important, and you started kissing me again. Who cares about the mess, looking at you sitting on me, can I think of anything else?? Of course, it is instinctively to pounce on you and start the unspeakable.

I didn't get up until noon, and after leaving the room, we went to eat and go shopping together. Because your phone has been turned off, I'm afraid that your parents will be worried and say to send you back, but you don't want to. I said let you tell your parents that you are talking about friends, don't go on a blind date, and discuss it well. You said that you said this, it is completely useless, and your mother said that she wants you to talk about a local person who knows the roots, and it is best to come to your house after marriage, which is simply unreasonable. I also feel a little too much.

"But if you run out like this, it will make them worry after all, and besides, it will be Chinese New Year's Eve in a few days." If you want me to take you back to my house, my mother will be very happy, but you have to think about your parents, I haven't seen you for so long······" I've said a lot, I don't know if you've listened.

"I know all of this, I'm an only daughter in the family, I understand them, but it's really a bit too much······" You say time and time again that your mother is too domineering and never thinks about your thoughts. But you can feel in your words that you understand them, not that you hate them, but that you just want to live your own way, and you want them not to care too much about and interfere with your choices.

In the end, you still said to go back and told me that you wouldn't go on a blind date, so I didn't have to worry. I said that I was very close to you, and I could go over and see you at any time, as long as you didn't avoid it.

Different stations, different moods, this time to send you on the train does not have the feeling of not seeing each other again, but I feel that there will be more opportunities to meet in the future, at least during the Chinese New Year, I can go to you anytime and anywhere.

On February 8th, you called me to tell me that I had a good talk with my parents, and said that I would not force you to go on a blind date, and I also let go of my heart, after all, this is a big New Year, how happy the family is. And you mentioned the letter, you just read. And I, alone at home, my mother and sister went shopping, and my father played cards. At home, like before, I listened to songs and played games, played with Wu and Bai Xue, played for an afternoon, and didn't feel tired at all, and made an appointment to continue in the evening, which may be the reason for the good mood.

Today is amazing, sleep directly until lunch time to wake up, the reason is that instead of passive insomnia, it is better to actively stay up late. The three of us played games from 11 o'clock in the evening until 3 o'clock in the morning. After lunch, I went out for a walk, and then took a lot of photos of the two dogs in my spare time. In the evening, I watched my mother busy with the dinner on Chinese New Year's Eve, and our family's Chinese New Year's Eve dinner has been chicken noodle soup all year round, and it has been like this since I can remember, it has not changed, and then the family sat around to watch the Spring Festival Gala. When I was a child, my grandparents, parents, sisters and sisters sat together around the rising fire, watching black and white TV. I remember buying my family's first color TV when I was in the third or fourth grade of elementary school. Every year on this day, the family will reunite to watch the Spring Festival Gala. Now I'm not burning wood anymore, I turn on the air conditioner or use the heater, and I don't watch the Spring Festival Gala much, I don't know if the Spring Festival Gala is no longer so interesting, or it has changed after growing up.

At midnight, my dad went outside the door to set off firecrackers, and my sister and I said Happy New Year to my parents, and they went to sleep. And I, on the other hand, was in good spirits, sent a message to my sister wishing my little nephew a healthy and healthy and growing up, sent you a voice message wishing you a happy new year, and then sent a text message to all the friends I could think of in my mind, not a group message.

On the 669th day, I hope that you, whom I love, are all healthy and well!