I especially wanted to write you a letter that began last night. Because I don't know how to write your story or how to move on with my life.

Emotionally, there's no logic to speak of, so let's write where it is.

It was also written that you should go back to Qizhou to learn that Sui Jinyu was pregnant, in my imagination, your relatives and friends have a small life, and the touch on you is actually quite big, because at this time, you have realized that you are not an omnipotent strong woman, and your father's influence on you has never disappeared, even if you have a successful career, you have reached the peak in the eyes of outsiders or even yourself, you still have low self-esteem in your bones.

I impose my experience on you, I don't know if you will be happy, I want to describe you as the kind of person who looks down on the clouds but is very strong, you were a little radical at the beginning, in fact, because you are not completely bearish on the world, there will be people with you in the future, I hope you will be happy during that time.

Yuer, I feel that no one is with me, and the current situation is also the result of my behavior, I feel very lonely, but I can't tell whether I don't want to break it or I don't have the ability to break it.

I've not been in a good state of mind lately, and I can feel it myself, that is, when I put pen to paper to write about you, it's been almost a month, and I basically haven't slept before two o'clock in the middle of the night. When I was a child, I was afraid of the night, and when I closed my eyes, all the ghosts I imagined appeared, and a small noise could scare me half to death, and now, after surviving one night after another, you will feel that the night is actually no different from the day, it is just a part of the day.

I can't tell, I can't tell if I'm staying up late, or if I'm staying up day after day. I once wrote, "People, growing up, shrinking and crumpling twenty-four hours a day, and passing in one step."

You see, I really stepped over, I was not afraid of the night, in the early hours of the morning, the stray cat barked and screamed, and it was over when I turned over.

I even like the evening, the night, it's so quiet, I like to be quiet, I wish I was the only one in the house, although I feel lonely when I stay alone, but I don't know or don't want to deal with people's love.

If it were possible, I would like to float up, float high, and shrink into a small one, where no one can find me, but there are others.

Am I being too selfish?

I don't want to tell people that if I open my mouth, it will lead to more problems, and I am tired of coping with them. My sister said that I should work hard to improve my IQ and emotional intelligence, and also said that I should live the life I want to live.

I close my eyes these days to improve my IQ and EQ, I know that my dual quotient is insufficient, but can I improve it with hard work? Can you live the life you want to live if you improve?

I can't figure it out, so I want to tell you about it in the letter.

I don't know where your story will end, I gave myself a few days to do what I loved, and I'll do it again, but I can't do it as much as I did a few days ago.

Do you know? I also fantasized about calling my mother and telling her, in fact, I didn't want to continue at all, but as soon as I opened my mouth, my emotions must have been intense, and I was afraid that she would be sad, afraid that she would be disappointed, afraid that she would not understand and devalue me worthless.

The word "tired" came to my head at the time, and it is too apt to describe my life or my current state.

I don't know if it will make you sad to let you carry my expectations, my experience, and my shallow views on life, but I really don't know who to tell or understand except you.

It's going to be the National Day holiday soon......

I wanted to say that you should have fun, but it really didn't make sense. You don't expect anything from me, and if you do, it's just what I expect from myself.

Okay, I'm hungry, so let's get here.

I know I'm going to try, and I'm going to do it to you.

Best wishes.