Chapter 595: Tangled
Chu Shijia knew in his heart that Yan Qingruo had some things that he hadn't told her, but he felt that these were okay, he just had to stay by Yan Qingruo's side silently, and one day Yan Qingruo would know his intentions and give up those things in the past.
He saw all the scenes at the dinner table, not to mention that his attention was originally on Yan Qingruo's body, and he could see her expression and small movements clearly, but what did it matter?
But Yan Qingruo didn't think so, she felt a little guilty in her heart, and now Chu Shijia was still so attentive to her, but she didn't want to tell him those things, she was very entangled in her heart.
The two of them walked on the way home, their steps were very slow, as if they were thinking about something, Yan Qingruo repeatedly looked up at Chu Shijia on the side, but every time it was that gentle gaze, which made Yan Qingruo feel even more embarrassed.
Chu Shijia also realized Yan Qingruo's small movements, but he didn't say anything, but the whole person was very relaxed, his eyes narrowed slightly, and he had a decent smile on his face, he was not in a hurry and would not say anything, if Yan Qingruo wanted to say it, he would not be reluctant to say it.
"Shijia......" Finally, Yan Qingruo stopped and whispered to stop Chu Shijia.
Chu Shijia's footsteps also paused slightly, and looked at Yan Qingruo with some doubts, the two stood together, from the perspective of passers-by, they were very matched, but the psychology of the two was not like that.
"What's wrong?" Chu Shijia said softly, carefully helping Yan Qingruo pull her coat tighter.
This made Yan Qingruo's heart even more entangled, she didn't know whether to tell Chu Shijia or not, but on the other hand, she knew in her heart that this was the best opportunity to explain.
Yan Qingruo's eyes were wide open and staring at Chu Shijia, and there were a lot of emotions buried in her eyes, Chu Shijia was a little incomprehensible for a while, but her eyes were very good-looking, like the clear lake water just hiding an undercurrent that he couldn't understand.
Chu Shijia thought for a while and said, "If it's okay, let's go, it will be a little cold in the middle of the night." ”
He saw that Yan Qingruo was entangled, this was also a step for Yan Qingruo, on the other hand, he was worried about Yan Qingruo, although the temperature was not very low now, but Yan Qingruo was wearing very thin, and it was not good to blow a cold wind.
Yan Qingruo bit her lip and followed Chu Shijia's footsteps, but she lowered her head and didn't know what she was thinking, she could see Chu Shijia's accommodation, but wouldn't she deceive him too much? He clearly didn't know anything, and he was moved here just because he had a crush on her.
"Shijia, I actually know Chu Mu." Yan Qingruo said, although she was entangled, she was ready to tell the whole story, she paused again, and grabbed the corner of Chu Shijia's clothes with her hand, Chu Shijia paused and stopped and looked back at her.
"I know." Chu Shijia's tone was faint as if he didn't care about this, but Yan Qingruo knew that he was curious in his heart, but he respected her very much, which made her very moved.
Yan Qingruo's brows furrowed uneasily, a pair of good-looking eyes with a hint of uneasiness, she stood there looking at Chu Shijia and asked with some doubts, "Aren't you curious about what our relationship was before?" ”
Chu Shijia shook his head helplessly, and his voice faintly seemed to float into the distance: "Curious, but I respect you, you don't want to say it, let's go back early." ”
After saying that, Chu Shijia left a lonely back, Yan Qingruo looked at this back, and the entanglement in her heart was half gone, she trotted two steps to keep up with Chu Shijia and found that he was actually walking very slowly, taking care of Yan Qingruo invisibly, her eyes were a little red, and the scenes on the dinner table pierced her heart even more.
"I had a relationship with him before." Yan Qingruo's voice was a little weak, she hadn't thought about telling Chu Shijia like this before, Chu Shijia was slightly surprised when he heard this, he really didn't think that there was such a relationship.
Couples? Chu Shijia thought in her heart, her brows furrowed unconsciously, her footsteps also paused, and Yan Qingruo behind her also stopped, she was a little uneasy in her heart, this was too cruel for Chu Shijia, in fact, she also knew in her heart that Chu Shijia had a good impression of her, otherwise how could she agree to that request.
No wonder...... Everything made sense like this, Chu Shijia frowned, and his heart was even more painful, he didn't know where this pain came from, but his heart hurt like blood, Yan Qingruo was like this because of Chu Mu.
"I'm sorry......" Yan Qingruo's voice was very soft, and even more with a strong apology, if she told Chu Shijia in advance, he would probably not agree, this is actually because of her own selfish desires, otherwise how could it cause this situation.
Chu Shijia thought for a while and said, "It's not your fault......"
His brows were tightly furrowed, he didn't like to see Yan Qingruo's appearance, he cautiously raised his hand to comfort her, but he didn't know what he thought of and shrank back, he was very entangled in his heart. If Yan Qing still likes Chu Mu, will she hate his touch?
But if Beiyan Qingruo saw this scene, she thought differently, she felt that Chu Shijia was beginning to dislike her...... She suddenly felt a little sad in her heart, but she knew in her heart that this was the retribution she deserved, she shouldn't ask for so much, even if Chu Shijia really started to hate her, it should be, after all, she couldn't respond to his feelings.
can only refuse again and again, but now that the two are trapped together by her, Yan Qingruo thought of this, her heart was even more guilty, she felt very sorry for Chu Shijia in her heart, and at this time Chu Shijia also fell into contemplation, she looked at the silent Chu Shijia and felt even more sad.
"No, it's all my fault, I should have told you in advance, I'm sorry......" Yan Qingruo said a little uncomfortable, bowing her head very sadly, and before Chu Shijia could say anything to comfort her, she was interrupted by Yan Qingruo again.
"The ...... that can dissolve our fake marriage relationship" Yan Qingruo's words were very light, even she could hardly hear them, Chu Shijia didn't hear them clearly, she looked at Yan Qingruo with some doubts, and her face was full of questions.
Yan Qingruo bit her lip and said in a louder voice: "I said, we can dissolve this relationship...... It's all my fault, and I have absolutely no complaints if you want to get rid of it. ”
Yan Qingruo, who said this, relaxed a lot in her heart, but she had a strong sense of unease, and said that he must have refused to do so, it would be false to say that he was not disappointed, but this is the best result.
But to her surprise, Chu Shijia chuckled twice, shook his head, looked at Yan Qingruo with a smile, and said gently: "It's okay, I choose to continue this relationship." ”
"Huh?" Yan Qingruo was a little surprised, she raised her head and her eyes were full of disbelief, and when she saw Chu Shijia's smiling eyes, she felt even more guilty.
"But......" Yan Qingruo said again, she is already like this, she is not worthy of him being so good to her, but Yan Qingruo did not say it for a long time, but her expression has already expressed everything.
Chu Shijia didn't know what Yan Qingruo was thinking in his heart, he shook his head disapprovingly, he couldn't stand Yan Qingruo giving up on herself like this, she was obviously very good, even if the two broke up, it must be Chu Mu's problem, Yan Qingruo didn't have a problem even if she didn't tell him about it, but she said it, she was a kind girl.
"No, I won't abandon you." Chu Shijia said with a smile, her eyes narrowed with a smile, although it was already dark, but Yan Qingruo seemed to see a glimmer of light, she took a step back helplessly, and her heart was very entangled.
This step back was seen by Chu Shijia in his eyes, hidden in his heart, his bright smile paused, and it seemed as if nothing had happened, he comforted himself in his heart.
"I don't deserve you to be so nice to me." Yan Qingruo shook her head and said uneasily, she was a little overwhelmed, it was the first time she had faced such a scene, but she really didn't know how to treat Chu Shijia well.
Hearing this, Chu Shijia's brows furrowed noncommittally, and his face was full of disapproval, it didn't matter if Yan Qingru retreated, she would take a step back from him, Chu Shijia stepped forward and held Yan Qingruo's shoulders, this time it seemed to give her endless courage, Chu Shijia said firmly: "No, you are worth it." ”
His eyes stared at Yan Qingruo, but Yan Qingruo only raised her head slightly, and then lowered her head without saying a word, she was dazzled by the light in his eyes, and she didn't know what to do.
"I'll always protect you, no matter what, trust me." Chu Shijia said firmly, he looked at Yan Qingruo with a pair of eyes gently, even if Yan Qingruo didn't give him a response, he thought that he wouldn't give up, this was not a setback for him, and he was really willing.
If Yan Qingruo is worthy of him doing this, he feels from the bottom of his heart that Yan Qingruo is an excellent woman.
But Yan Qingruo, who heard this, did not react as Chu Shijia imagined, only to see Yan Qingruo shake her head, but her eyes were full of determination, which made Chu Shijia slightly surprised, and then Yan Qingruo broke free of his hands.
Chu Shijia didn't react for a while, looking at his hands with some hesitation, he heard Yan Qingruo say, "No, I'm not worthy of you like this." ”
After saying that, Yan Qingruo didn't give Chu Shijia a chance, and left quickly, Chu Shijia sped up slightly to keep up with Yan Qingruo's pace, he was a little lost in his heart, but he still said firmly on his face: "It's okay, we still maintain this relationship, I won't give up." ”
Hearing this, Yan Qingruo silently sped up her pace and left Chu Shijia behind, Chu Shijia looked at Yan Qingruo's back and shook his head a little helplessly.