"I am a person who has died once, and I have to die with hatred, but I have God's mercy before I can return to the world."

It's a strange feeling that a secret that has been hidden for decades is now so easily revealed.

This matter has been pressed on her heart for many years, and it is her most hidden secret. This secret has been hidden in the shadows, and it has gradually become moldy in her body......

If she could, if she died again, would she have a chance to do it again? Maybe there will be, maybe not, who knows.

Jiao Changqing has always been calm and light on people and things, and he is the most calm. But facing Meng Xilan, who was full of babbling in front of him, he panicked for no reason, and a slight chill appeared on his back.

Mother, what the hell is she talking about? However, when you think about it, she may not be talking nonsense...... After so many years of ups and downs, if you were someone else, you would have been unable to endure it for a long time.

Meng Xilan saw that his eyes were uneasy, and then smiled slightly: "I have never told anyone this secret, the master is a person who knows." ”

Jiao Changqing frowned when he heard this, and his face was heavy.

"Weichen is stupid and puzzled, and I hope that Niangniang will forgive ......"

Meng Xilan smiled: "Master don't need to panic, this palace has no intention of making it difficult for you, but I have been stuffy in my heart for too long, and I want not to vomit and be unhappy." This kind of thing, don't say you don't believe it, if it weren't for this palace himself, this palace itself wouldn't believe it. ”

"I've lived for two lifetimes, but this palace is still not angry, I can't do what I want to do, and I can't keep the people I want to protect."

When she left without worry, she only felt that all the kindness and hard work in her life had become the most hypocritical and ruthless hypocrisy!

She betrayed the Chu family again, and betrayed Chu Jingchuan again!

The feeling of shame and indignation, regret and anxiety is like a thousand arrows piercing the heart, and it hurts the heart.

"Niangniang......" Jiao Changqing's eyes deepened, and his tone was faintly worried: "Weichen is incompetent, and he can't solve problems for Niangniang!" ”

Meng Xilan shook her head slightly: "The incompetent person is not you, it's this palace!" ”

She thinks back that in the past 20 years, she has trembled and walked on thin ice, and in the end she still has not been able to achieve perfection.

In the previous life, the people who held grudges were gone, but what about the people who were disappointed in this life?

"Niangniang, please don't be discouraged, please think more about the prince."

Jiao Changqing couldn't say anything to comfort her, and pondered for a moment before he spoke: "The prince is not yet an adult, and he is still young, and he still needs your protection to become a great weapon!" ”

The prince's character is excellent, brave and resolute and benevolent, but sometimes it is inevitable to be impulsive and impulsive.

Meng Xilan took a deep breath and said, "This palace is not discouraged, but has just figured out some things. This palace is not worth it in this life, and the Chu family is even more so. Master, do you still remember that you said back then that you wanted the palace to leave the place of right and wrong, and hide it in the name of fake death...... At that time, the palace sternly refused, and said a lot of big truths in his mouth, but now that I think about it, I really feel ironic! ”

Jiao Changqing lowered his head: "No, what happened back then was that Weichen was narrow-minded and didn't know the pain in his mother's heart." Niangniang thinks about the overall situation, so she has always wronged herself. ”

Overall situation? Meng Xilan smiled lightly: "What's the overall situation, speaking of which, this palace is the most selfish one." ”

She is too obsessed with her own memories and hatred, ignoring others, she is responsible for Chu Jingwen, Chu Jingchuan, and Zhou Youlin...... She also took advantage of a lot of innocent people.

To this day, she wants peace and tranquility, but she is still nowhere to be found.

The old wound on the heart has not healed, and a new wound has been added, and the heart is piercing!

"Niangniang, you trust Weichen so much, please allow Weichen to say a fair word. Maybe I did make a mistake...... But no one can do it better than a mother! ”

Lookers-on see most of the game. He is not in his position and does not seek his own government, how can he know her helplessness and entanglement.

Jiao Changqing felt sorry for her from the bottom of his heart, so he would have been in the palace for many years without regrets, not seeking a career or fame, just to stay by her side and protect her silently.

Meng Xilan smiled slightly when she heard this: "The master is really a benevolent doctor. In just a few words, you can soothe the heart of this palace. ”

She looked into the distance with a faint gaze, and said in a low tone: "This palace has been hypocritical for many years, and it is tired enough, from now on, let this palace make good use of its selfish heart." ”

From now on, she will no longer be wronged, no more obedient, no longer patient, she will do what she wants to do happily, even if it is a catastrophe, she will go to the end!

A cold light flashed in Meng Xilan's eyes, it was not anger, but the resoluteness to go to the end at the expense of destroying everything.

What is more terrible than determination is ambition, and what is more terrible than ambition is desperate stubbornness!

Jiao Changqing nodded solemnly: "Weichen is willing to use his life to follow Niangniang!" ”

"Hongu knows!" Meng Xilan responded to him and said: "In the heart of this palace, you are a more reliable person and a minister than the emperor. ”

"Let's talk to Hongu. During the time when the palace was in a coma, what was the relationship between the emperor and the crown prince? ”

Because of worry-free, for the first time in their lives, there was a rift between their father and son.

This slight rift may not be a bad thing, but she can't help but think about it.

Jiao Changqing said in a slight mutter: "Back to Niangniang, the emperor has come to Cining Palace to visit Niangniang every day recently, and he leaves late at night every day, and the prince comes early in the morning every day, and when the emperor goes down early, he leaves." ”

Meng Xilan's eyebrows moved slightly: "So, the prince hasn't accompanied the emperor to the morning court these days." ”

"Yes......" Jiao Changqing lowered his eyes and said.

Meng Xilan closed her eyes, this was the last thing she wanted to see.

The more dear people are, the more sensitive and entangled they are with each other's hearts.

Meng Xilan, who had just recovered from a serious illness, made the harem, which had been thinking about it at first glance, calm down all of a sudden.

Song Qinger has been attached to the queen for many years, loyal to her, and has never had two hearts. But when Meng Xilan had an accident, she still prayed silently in her heart, hoping that she couldn't survive this hurdle.

Worry-free just left, her heart must be extremely uncomfortable. That feeling, she can imagine, if someone snatches her sister from her side, she must do her best, even if she is broken, she must stop it.

Meng Xilan is fine, this harem is her world again.

Song Qing'er hugged her sister and went over to greet her, I haven't seen her for a long time, Meng Xilan has lost a lot of weight, but her spirit seems to be good.

Xu is that her appearance has changed a little, which makes her sister a little recognized.

She was always behind Song Qing'er, only revealing half of her face.

Song Qing'er hurriedly said softly: "Sister, go and say hello to the queen." ”

The younger sister still didn't move, and when she saw Meng Xilan's eyes looking at her, she hurriedly hid again.

Song Qing'er was a little uneasy, for fear that Meng Xilan would be too distracted.

Meng Xilan smiled gently; "It's okay, this palace is sick, it's okay if she doesn't come."

Song Qing'er smiled and said: "This child may have not slept well during the afternoon nap, she has always liked to be by her mother's side." ”

She has the heart to explain for her daughter, after all, these are extraordinary times.

Who knows, Meng Xilan suddenly said: "Really? ”

Song Qing'er raised her eyebrows slightly, and reacted quickly: "Back to Niangniang, my sister is very worried about Niangniang." ”

Meng Xilan smiled meaningfully when she heard this: "Sure enough, he is a good boy." In the future, you can often bring her over to play. Now, there is no worry around this palace, but it is very lonely. ”

This short sentence made Song Qing'er's heart nervous as if she was facing a great enemy.

What does this mean? Could it be that when Carefree is no longer by her side, will she keep her sister by her side?

No, that's absolutely not possible, her own daughter, she has to raise herself.

The change in Song Qing'er's face, Meng Xilan saw it really clearly, so she deliberately asked, "What?" You don't want to? ”

Song Qing'er shook her head slightly, and pretended to smile: "Of course not, it is her blessing that my sister can get the love of her mother, and it is also the blessing of her concubine." ”

"Since it is a blessing, you should cherish it."

After Meng Xilan left these words, she waved her hand and motioned for their mother and daughter to go back.

On the way back to the palace, my sister was a little sleepy, Song Qing'er held her in her arms and coaxed her gently, but her face was heavy.

Suddenly, she looked down at the sleeping face of her daughter in her arms, and her heart became more and more uneasy.

Song Qing'er's grandmother, after seeing her master's return to the palace, was very worried, and couldn't help asking, "Niangniang, what's wrong with you today?" ”

Before she went, she was in a good mood, but she changed her face as soon as she came back.

Song Qing'er asked the palace maid to carry her sister to the bed, followed her to the outer room, raised her head and drank a cup of tea, and said, "The queen is a little strange today. ”

"Huh?" The grandmother didn't dare to say much, but expressed her confusion.

"The queen is a woman who is too unpredictable. She loved her so much, but she still pushed her into the fire pit...... My sister is different from worry-free, she is the blood of the emperor, if it falls into her hands again, won't she also end up with a ......?"

Song Qing'er was halfway through speaking, and her heart seemed to burst into flames.

Mama hurriedly stepped forward to gently stroke her back, and said smoothly: "Niangniang, don't be angry." Our Royal Highness is different from Princess Sanssouci, she is the daughter of a criminal minister, and Her Royal Highness is a royal princess, the eldest daughter, and the queen doesn't dare to touch her for half a point. ”

Song Qing'er glanced at her when she heard this: "She can not move her for half a minute, but what if she snatches her away?" ”

In the harem, all the princes and princesses born to concubines are nominally the children of the queen.

If she wants to snatch her sister away, she can do it anytime, anywhere! As long as she said a word, her sister would be taken to Cining Palace.

"Niangniang, the queen has been sick for several days because of the princess's marriage, and now she is just getting better, why should she make such troubles."

Song Qing'er sighed lightly: "The previous dynasty was the emperor's, but this harem has always been her Meng Xilan's." She covers the sky with only one hand, and she can do whatever she wants, how can the emperor control her! ”

"That's also because of the prince, she is the prince's biological mother...... If the mother can conceive the prince, then ......"

Song Qing'er glared back at her, and immediately interrupted her: "Don't talk nonsense!" This kind of thing should never be mentioned! ”

If she is pregnant with the prince, I am afraid that she will become meat on the board, and sooner or later she will not escape Meng Xilan's poisonous hands!