Chapter 081: Heartache Diary

At the end of December, it was very dark and the evening breeze was bitterly cold. Through the window, you can see the white light in Han Yi's house, which is even more warm and lively.

Qiu Lang leaned into Keiko's ear and said, "It's like the New Year when I was a child!" It happened that Han Yi also heard it.

Since the death of Qiu Lang's grandparents, there has been no so-called New Year's feeling, and he has lived abroad for more than ten years and has come back once or twice. Because his parents divorced when he was very young and became their own families, he felt redundant everywhere he went.

"I now officially invite you to our hometown for the New YearΒ·Β·Β·Β·Β·Β·" Before Han Yi's words fell, Keiko kicked him very hard.

Han Yi felt a burst of pain, "Do you have something to say!" Did I invite him to my house, and it got in your way? ”

After thinking about it, I still don't care about her in general, after all, so many people celebrate Bai Xue's birthday. Slowly raised the wine glass, "Except for Li Jia, everyone can drink a little more." ”

Li Jia felt targeted, but she had to send Nuan Nuan back to the company after dinner, so she had to admit it.

"I wish Bai Xue a happy birthday, and I wish you all happiness!" Zhong Yinger also raised her wine glass and motioned to everyone to celebrate together, and drank a glass of red wine.

Han Yi felt that something was wrong, and thought, "Don't you want to get drunk again?" So he also dried it in one gulp, "Just this glass, everyone is dry." ”

Bai Xue stood up and raised her glass, "Thank you so much for coming all the way to celebrate my birthday, it's really nice to have such a group of good friends together!" Thank you! ”

When she was about to drink it, she was snatched by Han Yi, "Li Jia poured her a glass of juice, she will get drunk after this glass!" Then he drank Bai Xue's red wine in one go, and Bai Xue didn't seem very happy.

"Don't stand, just sit down and be happy." Keiko was afraid that Bai Xue would be angry because Han Yi had snatched her wine, so she hurriedly pulled her down. said to Zhou Pei: "Pepe, hurry up and try your minister's craftsmanship, it's very good!" ”

In the eyes of others, Han Yi protects Bai Xue and loves her. But Bai Xue didn't think so, she felt that she should drink this glass of wine, because it was Zhong Ying'er's blessing, whether she was sincere or fake, she even doubted herself and Han Yi now.

"Seriously, Han Yi, what you cook is much better than the steak you ate at noon, it's delicious and full!" Qiu Lang likes this kind of ordinary home-cooked meal.

Han Yi accepted their praise in its entirety, and being praised for his cooking skills has always been something he is proud of. Smiled, "Professional!" Keiko is doing better than me, and you'll be blessed in the future! ”

"I've been really impressed with the minister these days!" Zhou Pei liked the dishes made by Han Yi so much that he couldn't stop eating them at all, and he was happy to eat.

Zhong Ying'er was also eating the food he cooked for the first time, and there had been countless opportunities like this, but she put it off for various reasons. If she and Han Yi were sitting at the same table at this moment, they would definitely burst into tears.

"If you like it, eat it happily. After eating, I rushed to the airport, a plane at nine o'clock! Han Yi sandwiched the dishes for Bai Xue, and everything seemed to be very good.

Han Yi felt that after coming down from the rooftop with her last night, he found her weird, and later found that she was swinging alone on the swing on such a cold night, looking very sad.

Qiu Lang ran to the kitchen and added another bowl of rice to himself, looked at Han Yi and Fu Bo and said, "It's okay!" The car is already waiting downstairs, and I will send you over after eating, just in time. ”

"Everyone else's rice is still eating, why are you going to have a second bowl so soon?"

Keiko stared at him, and said something with a smile that made Qiu Lang a little embarrassed.

"It's delicious!" Qiu Lang looked left and right, still eating with a bowl, "Don't you think? ”

Zhong Ying'er seemed to be relieved at the moment, as if a voice came out of her heart: "It's time to let go!" "I just feel empty in my heart, and I can't find a reason to be sad or happy.

Han Yi seemed to see that Bai Xue had something on his mind, but there were so many people, and neither of them could show it. When people laugh, she will also try to get other people's laughter, and be happy together, but she doesn't say a word after a meal.

After several girls worked together to clean up the mess of cups and plates on the table, they washed the dishes and cups cleanly. And Han Yi, Fu Bo and Qiu Lang made a simple and formal farewell, and Qiu Lang promised to go to Han Yi's house to pay New Year's greetings during the New Year.

Li Jia has been following Han Yi for a long time, and she also understands Han Yi. Plus she's quirky enough and observant. When everyone else was laughing and chatting with each other, she noticed that Bai Xue and Han Yi's expressions were more solemn, and even when Han Yi took the initiative to talk to her, she ignored them.

She pulled Nuan Nuan and said, "I'm very happy to meet you, remember to contact me next time you come!" I won't send you back to the company first, safe journey! Then he leaned over to Han Yi and whispered to him, "Don't worry, I will help you take care of her." As she spoke, her fingers pointed at the snow indistinctly.

Han Yi pushed her out and said, "Drive slowly, pay attention to safety!" ”

While Keiko and they were all sitting in the living room saying goodbye and chatting one by one, Han Yi pulled Bai Xue into his bedroom.

"What's wrong?" Bai Xue pretended that nothing had happened, and smiled unnaturally.

"What's wrong with you? Did I let Zhong Ying'er come over and make you unhappy? Han Yi was a little puzzled in his heart, obviously he had already said it when he was on the rooftop, "I think the goal has been achieved, and she has blessed us." It's good for us, and it's good for her. ”

"You think too much, you really don't!" Bai Xue put her hands on Han Yi's shoulders, looking so natural, and then kissed him.

After Han Yi hugged her tightly and kissed her, he asked uneasily, "Is it really okay?" I don't really have any contact with her anymore. I meant it to keep you from thinking too much, or I'd be self-defeating. ”

"You don't know the psychology of girls!"

What does Bai Xue's words mean, does it mean that Han Yi doesn't understand her or doesn't understand Zhong Ying'er? She didn't say exactly why.

"Let's go, don't waste time!" Bai Xue hugged Han Yi from behind and sent him out of the bedroom half-pushed and half-on-the-spot.

Han Yi turned around and kissed her forehead again, "It's Christmas in a few days, and then it's New Year's Day, and I can't spend it with you." Have fun on your own, and then take a lot of rest! ”

Several pairs of eyes were staring at them, but Han Yi didn't notice it, and he was still holding Bai Xue.

"That's it! If you're done again, you'll miss the plane, so let's go! Keiko had already prepared his gift box and stood at the door with Fu Bo.

Qiu Lang took the gift box and said to Keiko: "I'll send them down, it's cold outside, don't go down." The driver will take them to the airport and I will go straight back to the hotel. ”

In just a few minutes from going downstairs to getting in the car, Han Yi also discussed the company's affairs with Qiu Lang, giving him time to take a look at more, after all, his vision and management experience are professional.

This trip seems to have changed a lot of people, Fu Bo was still sullen when he came, but now he is already smiling, he always asks Han Yi about warm things. Zhong Ying'er said her blessings, but she still loved Han Yi in her heart, but she had decided not to entangle her anymore. After all, he and Bai Xue love each other so much, even he is envious, how can he bear to hurt a loved one and the one he loves.

Zhou Pei patted Han Yi on the shoulder and stretched his head, as if he wanted to scare him, "Have you received the money for the minister's novel?" My aunt just told me that the phone was turned off when she called you, and then asked me to tell you. ”

"How much money do you have?" Han Yi asked casually, "How is this calculated?" ”

"You are the author, you signed the contract yourself, and you still ask me?!" Zhou Pei leaned back on the seat and said as if complaining: "The money must not be much, because there are so many for the first printing, but since it sells so well, there should be a lot more later." This is a small amount of money for you right now, right? No wonder I'll take care of it for you, and your online click-through rate is now growing upwards and is very popular! ”

"It's not about money, it's about this novel that matters to me! So I also wanted to see if it would be so popular, and if I could be a writer in the future? ”

"Come on! Didn't my aunt say that they signed you, and you didn't want to! Zhou Pei said and turned to Zhong Ying'er: "Sister Ying'er, are you going to work in Wuhan all the time?" ”

Zhong Ying'er saw Han Yi's eyes also watching her from the central rearview mirror, and when she was discovered, she turned her head and avoided it.

"No, I'll go to Shanghai after the Chinese New Year, and I don't want to be in Wuhan anymore."

She felt that Han Yi should be very happy to hear the news, so that no one would pester him anymore, making him feel annoyed and wanting to escape. But Han Yi doesn't think so, he wants to see her live happily and happily as a friend, instead of staying away from him. Even one day when he learns that she is not doing well and is being bullied, he will want to protect her and comfort her, because she is the person he once loved so much.

"Don't you want to sleep with me?" Keiko stood upstairs and asked Shirayuki.

Bai Xue raised her head and said with a smile: "You go to sleep quickly, I'll read a book in Han Yi's house for a while, and I'll sleep in his bed tonight." ”

"Okay, I'm tired from playing all day, so I'll sleep first." Keiko felt tired and yawned as she slowly walked to her bedroom.

Han Yi has a few books on his bedside table, books on business administration, contract law, corporate culture, etc., and a diary in the middle, which has been written all over. It looks like he should have changed to a new book and was writing, otherwise he wouldn't have put it here.

She thought that Han Yi had said that it didn't matter if she let her see her diary, for him, there was no secret. It's better to say it's a diary, but it's better to record each day's feelings or experiences, and there's nothing unseemly.

"What do I think of him? Or don't look at it? Will he be angryΒ·Β·Β·Β·Β·Β· Countless hypotheses came to her mind, but she thought that the diary about writing Zhong Ying'er was no longer there, it was all written about herself, and it wasn't a snoop on his privacy, right?

After all, she couldn't resist the curiosity, she sat on the bed and picked up the brown paper diary with a cardboard cover with a starry sky pattern, she felt like a thief, and her heart was uneasy. She finally convinced herself on the grounds of "so that I can know Han Yi better".

Turning the first page, the top and bottom are dark and simple patterns, the paper is yellowed and slightly brownish-gray, and the blank space in the middle is written "Dream, it is destined to be a lonely trip" Han Yi said that the words on the first page of each of his diaries are written at the end, that is, when he writes this diary full, he will write down his mood on the first page. Under this line of Chinese characters is written "January 9, 2013 - July 25, 2013".

Not all of this diary is about Bai Xue, because the first time they met after graduating from high school was at Han Yi's birthday party, and she clearly remembers that it was February 2, 2013.

She opened it and read it slowly, before she wrote about her, she missed Zhong Yinger a lot, so sweet that she was jealous, and even longed for that person to be herself. Despite this, she can also understand that feeling, just like she missed Han Yi like this at the beginning.

Sweet daily life, sweet dialogue, sweet inner monologue, can be read from the text. When reading Han Yi's careful preparations for Zhong Ying'er's birthday and the mood of seeing her, Bai Xue closed the diary, and the jealousy of being a woman had made her dare not look down.

She told herself that these were all in the past, that he was the only one in his heart now, and that she believed in Han Yi. And when she saw February 8th and February 9th, she had completely exploded in her mind. The words that recorded their love of fish and water were so painful to her that she skipped them when she saw them.

Bai Xue didn't sleep all night and read the entire diary. From the first day they met again, to Han Yi's slow affection for Bai Xue, and finally falling in love with her, confessing to her, etc., are all written in it.

She also began to walk into the memories, even if she believed in Han Yi, even if she thought it was all over, she still asked herself: "Is it really all over?" Han Yi, do you love me? ”