After sending Zhong Ying'er home, Qiu Lang and Han Yi returned to their home. The two of them each lay on one end of the couch, staring at their phones. A hippie smile, a sad face.

"What's so happy? Completely ignoring my feelings! Han Yi jumped up and sat up and said to Qiu Lang: "Go back to the room and laugh!" ”

Qiu Lang stopped laughing: "I'm sorry! I was talking to Keiko about your fight, and she was talking about you getting beaten up with her brother in middle school······"

Then he got up and looked at Han Yi: "Then I'll go back to the room!" Tomorrow I will ask my assistant to help you buy some daily necessities to the house over there, closer to your company. I'll go back to Chengdu the day after tomorrow, and tell me what you need now. ”

"No, you don't! I'll buy it myself, just give me the car. Saying that, Han Yi lay down again.

"You go to the garage by yourself, you can drive whichever you want, pay attention to safety! I went upstairs to the video. Qiu Lang said and saw Han Yi holding the pillow and throwing it over, and quickly slipped away.

Han Yi opened the dialog box with Bai Xue, and it has been three years, just a few words of greetings and birthday wishes to each other. When Bai Xue left, Jean said to him: "Live your life well, and don't contact too much until you figure it out." ”

But he didn't know why, so he obediently didn't bother. He didn't understand what Bai Xue meant, he always thought that Bai Xue didn't love him anymore, and thought that she was struggling with something. And Bai Xue meant to let him figure out what he thought, whether he liked her or Zhong Ying'er.

Every time I typed a lot of words, I didn't send them out, and finally silently wrote my thoughts and love into my diary.

The voice sent by Li Jia interrupted his thoughts.

"What's the matter?"

Li Jia roared: "Have you eaten gunpowder? Speak well! ”

"You're floating! How did you become a shareholder and become a manager, and that was all you told me? Who said to be my little follower? ”

Every time I tease and hurt each other with Li Jia, I feel a lot more comfortable, as if the pressure has been released, and Li Jia understands him very well.

"When I went to your house to get papers, I got all the journals on your bedside table to the floor, and found two notes under your bed. It's still a little dusty on it, and it looks like it's been down for a long time, so I don't know if you've seen it. ”

Han Yi had a basic diary on his bedside table, and he often flipped through those diaries, recalling the bits and pieces with Bai Xue, but he never found any notes.

"What note?"

Li Jia looked at him alone for three years, although some women appeared around him, they were all embraced, and he never cared about him. I have a deep love for Bai Xue, and I never forget it, but I never mention it.

"I think you may not have seen it, I'll take a picture and send it to you now, but you'd better be prepared!"

Han Yi had an ominous premonition about Li Jia's words, and he was very puzzled. "What does it mean to be mentally prepared?"

"You don't have to worry about the company's affairs here, take care of yourself in Shanghai, don't work too hard, hang up."

When I received the picture, I could clearly see that it was Bai Xue's handwriting, and I really hadn't seen it. Obviously, he didn't find it, this is what Bai Xue wrote in his diary before he left.

Dear Yi (It's the first time to call you like this, I shouldn't be used to it, haha!! ）

First of all, I want to say sorry to you, I didn't read the diary you once asked me to see. The night you go back after my birthday, I'll sleep in your room. Out of curiosity, I finally opened your diary. Even though I knew you had nothing to hide from me, I opened it.

Looking at the days you wrote down about Zhong Ying'er, I was really envious and jealous. Even when she went to see you before your New Year, and you recorded what happened that night, my mind was really blank. If I don't care, I'm definitely lying to you. Reading between the lines, it is revealed that your love for her is far more than your love for me.

So I don't know if you love her more than you love me, or if you use me to forget about her, I'm just a substitute. I doubt you, I doubt myself, and even Zhong Ying'er. This became the main reason why I decided to go abroad, I hope I can see clearly, and I hope you can understand what your heart really wants.

I didn't sleep that night, just thinking about how much you loved her. Is it that after I told you why she left you in the first place, will you go back to her? Forgive me for being selfish for not telling you in the first place.

It was still on the night of my birthday, after we came down from the rooftop, I went to the bathroom. And the drunk Zhong Ying'er is also there, and Keiko accompanies her. Didn't realize I was inside, and I heard everything I shouldn't know. I've been struggling with whether to tell you or not, I'm selfish, I'm afraid. I'm afraid you'll leave me when you know it!

She had already decided to be with you when she came back to you, and you should be able to feel it more or less, and why she kept you at the hotel that night, because she loved you just as much. I'm sure you also know that her mother forced her to go on a blind date, and she didn't want to. Her mother was already terminally ill of cancer at that time, and she wanted to see Zhong Ying'er find a good home before she left, so she found Zhong Ying'er someone she thought she could trust for life. But she has you in her heart, and she has never been willing to agree. Later, seeing that her mother's time was short, she agreed to tearfully fulfill her last wish.

After the engagement, she didn't want you to wait for an unpredictable outcome for her, so she asked you not to contact her again. Eventually, her mother died before she could get married, and she broke the engagement. Mother is gone, you are gone, and you are all gone, leaving yourself alone at home for more than two months. That's why we see her like this, very different from the cheerful girl you told me about. There was even mild depression.

You should remember that when I messaged you in July, she said that I was there for you that I was not married. That's how much courage it takes to dare to open your mouth to you, and then endure so much all the time. In the face of your cold words and ruthlessness, she can only cry silently, and her heart should be like a knife.

I'm not noble, and I want to selfishly take you for myself, but I can't! I'm cowardly, so I'm throwing the puzzle at you and letting you make the choice.

I'll take care of myself and don't worry about me.

You have to take care of yourself too, I'll worry about you.

Love you Cher.

- March 27, 2014

Han Yi fell silent after reading it, this is indeed like Bai Xue said, it is a difficult problem.

If Snow White was in front of him, he would hug her tightly and tell her, "I miss you!" ”

If Zhong Ying'er was in front of him, he would also hug her tightly and tell her, "I'm sorry!" ”

Bai Xue, who was far away in a foreign country, thought that Han Yi had already read the note she left, and always thought that he was still struggling, and he didn't understand his thoughts, and he didn't know that he hadn't seen Zhong Ying'er in the past three years. Like before, without Han Yi's company, you can live a good life with love, but the taste of missing is not good.

Zhong Yinger hadn't thought that she would meet Han Yi again since she left Wuhan for Shanghai three years ago, and she was afraid that she couldn't help but go to him, so she just wanted to stay away from him.

Han Yi didn't know what to do, it turned out that he had been wrongly blaming Zhong Ying'er, thinking that she had told Bai Xue what to let her leave. He thought it was really ridiculous, and he always thought that these two women left him because they didn't love him. The only thing he can be sure of is that Bai Xue's heart has not changed, and he thinks that Zhong Ying'er sincerely blessed him and Bai Xue at the beginning.

He hurried into Chu Lang's bedroom, "Video with Keiko?" ”

"Well, what's wrong?" Qiu Lang sat on the bed holding up his phone.

"Give it to me, I have something to ask her!" Han Yi snatched his phone and sat beside him, "Three years ago, on Bai Xue's birthday, Zhong Ying'er was drunk and said something, didn't you tell me?" ”

Keiko was silent for a while, thinking to herself, no one knows about this!

"If I had told you at the time, what would you have chosen? And Zhong Ying'er didn't want me to say it, she said that she would hide far away and wouldn't let anyone know about it. ”

Han Yi said with a smile: "Do you know that Bai Xue was in the bathroom at that time?" ”

"Do you mean it really! I didn't know anything, and she didn't mention it to me. Keiko was afraid that Han Yi would blame her, so she was a little flustered.

"Okay, I'll go to Wales when I'm done with my company!"

What surprised her was that Han Yi didn't bother her, "Then have you thought about it?" And what she said you didn't look for, you have to be prepared. She's back home in a few months, and I suggest you wait. ”

"I can't wait a moment!" Han Yi thought for a while, "I think you and Qiu Lang will set the wedding date first, and I will send you an engagement invitation, so it will be justified!" ”

Han Yi seemed to have discussed with Qiu Lang, and Qiu Lang gave a thumbs up with both hands next to him, with an ecstatic expression.

"Don't procrastinate, it's not too big! The last time I came home, your dad asked me if you were still planning to get married. ”

After all, Qiu Lang has proposed marriage several times, and the two have always gotten along well, and there is indeed an urge to make her want to get married.

"You ask him to prepare a proposal that will impress me, and don't go to the restaurant or the company every time."

Han Yi handed the phone to Qiu Lang, "I can only help you get here, let's go!" ”

He felt that he was messed up, and he didn't know what to do, but he invisibly became a matchmaker for Keiko's marriage.

Zhong Yinger added back to Han Yi's WeChat and wanted to send a message, but it didn't feel appropriate. Thinking that Han Yi, who is usually gentle and elegant, would actually fight for her like this, this was also the first time in his life that he had a fight. It is impossible for him to watch anyone bully Zhong Ying'er, selfishly thinking that no one can make her cry in front of him except himself, let alone let people slap her.

Her heart was warm and fearful, for he already had snow. He is just a former lover in his heart who does not want to let go, but he feels that he is no longer a lover. Either way, it would make her so entangled that she lost track of time.

Two lines of words suddenly appeared in the dialog box that he was staring at: "I'll come to pick you up tomorrow, I have something to tell you." Don't try to run, I'm sure I'll find it. ”

It's been three years, and countless times I want to take the initiative to contact him to tell that I miss him, but I'm afraid that he will know that she is not doing well in Shanghai alone. Living in a small house shared with someone else in the suburbs, commuting to work and spending hours on the subway and bus. On her terms, she could have found a good boyfriend, but she rejected all suitors and lived her own life. Even Han Yi yelled at him and asked, "This is what you call a good life?" "She doesn't care, as long as she doesn't let Han Yi see it.