In the summer of 2009, we just met.

At that time, you were twenty years old, and your smile was as bright as a sunflower; That year, I was 18 years old, and I liked you at the age of 29 because your cold and arrogant smile was as bright as the sun.

On many afternoons in the late summer of 2009, the sun was not very strong, and there was a light breeze, but as long as you stood at an angle, your eyes would be pierced by the salty sun. So, I habitually squinted my eyes slightly, sat in my seat on the fourth floor, and looked out the window uncontrollably, focusing on the old football field not far away. Looking at it, it was empty, perhaps the wall on the edge of the playground was a little dilapidated due to disrepair, and it looked a little vicissitudes, and it was already covered with clusters of green vines, and there were fewer people going there. And at that moment in that season of that year, I happened to meet you, and you were the only one in the whole vision.

Yes, it was I who met you, and, only from afar.

Later, I found out that you were a lonely transfer student, it was the first time you came to school, you passed by my window and came to the class, and when you introduced yourself, you were so arrogant, as if you were refusing to be flattered and approached by others. But I saw you, your inadvertent cold and arrogant smile.

During that time, maybe I was crazy, I wanted to ask about your QQ and phone number, but only to think about it, because I was in the same class, I naturally squeezed into your life. During that time, you didn't communicate with me, not even eye to eye. I cautiously hoped that maybe you would live in my heart for the rest of my life, and I really thought at that time.

For the first three months, we didn't say a word, you see, I was never brave. And you, still so arrogant, don't let people get close. It wasn't until one evening in late autumn that I was ready to ask you a geometry problem and start our first conversation. I don't remember exactly what I said, but the feeling is still vaguely there.

Many times, I am moved by my persistence.

Actually, what I know, from unrequited love to broken love, is just my loneliness. All along, I just loved you in the name of friendship.

You'll never know that for me, you're enough to make me miss me for the rest of my life. My heart is small, and there is no other person who makes me feel as soulless as you, you see, I am still so persistent, but you can never see it. For I am waiting for you on this shore, and you are waiting for her on the other shore.

On the radio, I often hear someone ordering a song and hoping that the person in love will hear it, but in fact, the possibility of hearing that is actually very small, but miracles happen every time.

I listen to those interactive radio stations on time every night and every night, feeling the sadness, sadness, happiness and loneliness that do not belong to me, I admit that before I met you, I was a woman as warm and sunny as summer, but when I fell in love with someone, is it the beginning of loneliness? Because the missing is really heavy, enough to make the once closed heart of me become unable to be myself, I think I can be speechless in the year that I have known you

Good friends who don't talk about it, at least that's what I think, and there will always be three or two girls around you, and you don't pay attention to them, so I still choose to wait.

When I graduated, I left a message for each of my classmates: go straight, happiness turns right on the left bank.

A word to yourself is - be brave! So I wrote you a love letter, but you refused. Thinking about it now, I can't help but smile on my face, even if it hurts at the time.

Later, I found out that you are actually Keiko's friend for many years!

After graduation, I still often remember, thank you for the memories you brought me, yes, I went to your world, but your world did not accommodate my place, and you said to me: I'm sorry.

I can only hear about you from Keiko, you have a crush on a girl, but I am still struggling with my crush on you.

In the winter of 2012, on a cold afternoon, I learned from Keiko that you were hospitalized. I messaged you, on the night of Christmas Eve.

That night, I was alone and felt completely out of that lively festive atmosphere.

Sometimes I think God can arrange a meeting for us, the first time we meet after graduation. I fantasize that the moment we pass by, I don't have the courage to stop you, I just turn my head and look at your side face against the light, the outline is so soft and clear. I like your clean face, that little bit of indifference. You'll look up and look at the sunny but still cold sky...... Suddenly, you meet me peeping at you, and then look at each other and smile, and I know that your smile at that moment has something to do with me. Just like that, I look at you quietly, without squinting and uncovered, until you turn around and disappear into the sea of people.

It turned out that I could be very calm at that time, and I imagined in peace, as if there was no breath, no heartbeat, and even if there was no intersection after that, I looked forward to seeing you again, just once.

For a long time I used to miss you in the past, those times when we had nothing to talk about, I missed the past us, when we were strangers in the same class, I was reluctant and didn't want to say goodbye to you, this love that has not begun and ended, I found that I have been painful to the marrow, in the night under the moon before many flowers, I watched the people who came and went around me. So, sometimes I also think, I should forget, time is like a magician's hand, and I believe I can put you outside of my heart.

Then the thing I was expecting happened, you invited me to your birthday party, and you'll probably never guess how excited I was. In the following days, I began to slowly enter your life, playing games with you, chatting with you, and when you said that there was a problem with Zhong Yinger's relationship, I could only hide my love for you, listen to you, and comfort you.

Later, you broke up completely, you said that you came out of the shadow of broken love, so you fell in love with me, and we fell in love. I love you very much, and I know you love me too, but I'm still scared.

Now I live in the flowery city where you were at the beginning, and I pass by countless zebra crossings every day

、The flow of people and vehicles is crowded、It's just that I began to like to stand at the intersection of the street、Quietly watching the countless vehicles flash under my eyes、The feeling of endless flow、Like a tunnel through time、All the way forward。

The people around me changed, and they changed again, and I was the only one who was left in the same place. But one day, in the windows of countless cars passing by my eyes, I saw a familiar face, pasted against the glass window, as if it were an ancient photograph carved down in time. The memories are vague but huge, I can't remember my original face clearly, and I leave a vague memory. I turned my head slightly, glanced at the vanished image, turned the corner, and galloped forward. Turning his head, he walked quietly across a long zebra crossing. That said, I know that we can see the morning and the sunset at the same time, and we can feel the cold and the warmth at the same time, but the difference is that you are busier now than before, and you are not in the city anymore.

Once, because of your love for the game, I also fell in love with it, and once, because I knew that I couldn't get you, I delusionally wanted to become another you, a little closer to you.

In the beginning, you were the one I watched from afar, and I was the one who wanted to bring us closer. Sometimes I wonder if I'm wrong, the closer I get to you, the farther away you are. It's just that no matter how beautiful it is, it will only become what it once was. You see, I tried so hard to love you.

This is just my imagination, I am afraid to say this to you, because the assumption I am afraid of is also wrong, love is too short, but it is so easy to be sad.

You said you wouldn't lie to me, but this time you lied to me because of Zhong Ying'er. I also thought about being able to be good friends with her, but I actually resisted in my heart, and I was very cautious, because you also loved her as I loved you.

Of course, you will never understand such feelings, because you are not me, how can you appreciate your preciousness. But I will always remember those amazing times when you were amazed, and your warm words.

In the days when we are not together, the memories you left me will become warm white moonlight, not the wounds that have been crushed by the years.

I am willing to carry the beautiful thoughts you left me to find someone like you who can give me a sense of stability. I'm joking with you, in the next life, I want to be a man and meet a woman like me. Then, in life, dare to love and hate!

We all love freedom, we love to walk, we love to ride, we love to read······ But we don't have that time, we don't have time together.

You don't know, even the voice on the phone can make my heart flutter and feel like it's going to jump out and run away, and then I timidly answered your call in my trembling voice, and you started lying to me so easily······

Sometimes it's like this, when you fall in love with someone at an age when you don't know how to love and don't know what you like, it's like getting sick after a rain.

A long time ago, I read a book that said: One day, you will meet a person, and that person may not be good, but you will

It's for him to be fascinated, even one of his smiles can bring you a whole spring. And if he asks you for the fireworks, you'll give them too. I also hoped that one day, I would be able to dedicate to him the whole world I have. You never know that your name has accompanied me throughout my most beautiful years. Say love is too heavy, say love is too weak. I hope to meet you on my next trip, when I must stop you and say to you with a smile that I haven't seen you for a long time. May you be happy, wonderful, and goodbye!

However, because I am timid, I am cowardly, so I dare not say goodbye, maybe not dare, I don't want to, I won't, I can only write it in my diary.

If you could, I hope you would still be as honest with me as you used to, my dearest you, the one with a sunflower smile that belongs to me in the mark of my youth, and will be in my future.

Keiko left home to talk to Qiu Lang, and Bai Xue, who enjoyed a person's "crankiness" at home, wrote down his sensitive feelings when he lied to her for the first time in her diary because of Han Yi's concealment.

(End of chapter)