Because of Han Yi's sudden appearance, Bai Xue shed tears inexplicably.

Was it because Keiko and his appearance after they released the pigeons that she was not moved by the fact that she was alone and alone for dinner? Or was it just because of his presence that her tense nerves were relaxed and her emotions were released?

She didn't know either, but she loved and hated him in her heart.

Leaving without saying a word, it was she who asked Han Yi to give her some time to digest the problems that arose in her relationship, so she would feel that Han Yi respected her and did not force her to accept all this. But when she slowly tried to understand, accept and take the initiative, he ignored her again, giving her the feeling that Han Yi was passively accepting, as if she was the one who did the wrong thing, and her initiative was taken for granted.

I couldn't get in touch for a few days, and I didn't come back to talk to her face-to-face after returning from New York, and how to solve the problem of Hao Yali being pregnant with his child, which still made her worried. Now he came back without saying a word, as if nothing had happened.

The dinner of the two of them should have been romantic and happy, however, there was nothing but depression.

Han Yi asked Bai Xue about her daily life, whether she was busy, if anything interesting happened, etc., she just looked at Han Yi, and then chewed slowly on the food in front of her.

He also talked about what he had happened in New York these days, the relationship between Qiu Lang and her mother Yang Suqing had eased, and Song Jianguo and his family were also planning to return to China to settle down······ But Bai Xue still didn't show any interest, and after talking to himself for a while, Han Yi gradually quieted down.

They looked at each other face to face, and for the first time they felt so strange.

Bai Xue was in the outpatient clinic in the afternoon, and when she passed by the infusion hall, she noticed a girl who was getting an injection a few steps away from her, and her boyfriend was by her side.

In her mind, it flashed that when she and Han Yi had not yet confirmed their relationship, he knew that when he had a cold and fever, he specially rushed from Wuhan to Chongqing overnight to visit her, cook for her, and accompany her on drips······ And when I was in Kada, I was unaccompanied and cared for when I was sick.

She couldn't help but take a few more looks, and the girl wanted to go to the bathroom after a while and ask her boyfriend to help lift the hanging bottle.

The boy shouted at the girl at the top of his voice, didn't you go to the bathroom just now? Why are you going again, so that you don't drink so much water, but you have to drink!

There was a lot of impatience in his tone.

Everyone followed the prestige, and the girl realized everyone's gaze, and lowered her head in embarrassment and whispered: "The doctor said that if you have a fever, you should drink more water, so that you can get better quickly." ”

"Then you can't bear it? It's been less than an hour and I'm going again. The boy didn't notice the girl's embarrassment at all, and still scolded loudly.

Shirayuki turned her head to the hallway, her back to the girl. When the two passed by her, she saw the girl biting her lips and flushed face, and she was very distressed, and she couldn't wait to step forward to help the girl teach her boyfriend a lesson.

She now lives in Hao Yali's house with Liu Xiyao, and every few nights, she hears the quarrel next door, followed by the woman's cry, and then the woman's abuse and crying when she is locked out of the door, until the last cry for mercy.

Twice when I went home and got off the elevator and walked around the corner, I heard crying in the hallway. She knew that it must have been the woman who sat there slumped there and sobbed quietly.

Bai Xue is not a gossip person, but their quarrels are sometimes loud, and she herself is also a person with concerns, sometimes insomnia, and will hear the content of their quarrels clearly. Slowly, she learned from the woman's insults that the house belonged to the woman and the furniture was bought by the woman. The man eats and lives for nothing, and he picks and chooses all day long to find trouble.

Very angry and annoyed. Why not leave this scumbag? Why do you have to be so wronged by yourself? I thought she was a haggard, inferior, and sad woman without the Lord, but I didn't expect her to be confident, calm and elegant.

Her delicate makeup, neatly combed and high bun, and friendly smile are like the "crazy woman" who cries and screams and loses her mind.

Perhaps, in the face of love, there is no elegance at all. When she falls in love and can't extricate herself, no matter how delicate and intelligent a person is, she will instantly become a fool.

Some people say: I don't mind being lonely, it's more comfortable than loving you. Many times, we would rather be alone than disappointed by two.

Fortunately, in the past few years of meeting and falling in love with Han Yi, he has never yelled at himself and quarreled with her, except for the last time, it was also for a time when she had a big fight with Han Yi because of Hao Yali's matter. In other words, this is not a quarrel at all, because Han Yi did not quarrel with her, but she was venting her dissatisfaction and bad emotions alone.

Bai Xue's first love was Han Yi, and they were also together, which was a very beautiful thing. In fact, she didn't want to fall in love from the beginning, and she didn't expect that she met transfer student Han Yi in the year of her junior year of high school, and then she was moved like this.

When she was in high school, she stayed after school with a girl in her class to clean up.

The girl's boyfriend begged her, "Did you clean up for her?" The two of us are in a hurry to go to the movies, or we'll be late in a while, and you're fine anyway. ”

She could have refused, but she was just that kind. Later, she swept the entire classroom by herself.

That's when she suddenly had an idea - if only I had a boyfriend, even if he wouldn't take me to the movies, at least he would stay with me and sweep the floor.

But this kind of thinking is not allowed for a girl like her who is arrogant and has some inferiority, and she is not allowed. Nothing to do with her in love, she wants to be admitted to the university of her choice and leave this small town······

But things didn't develop in the direction she imagined, and Han Yi walked into her heart.

When she was a freshman, she also had a cold war with her roommate Fang Wen, when Fang Wen cried and complained to her parents and boyfriend.

Her parents called Bai Xue successively, and expressed to her "cordial and friendly" that his baby daughter had not been wronged at home on weekdays, had never suffered losses, and asked her to be more tolerant if she did not do well in some places.

Bai Xue was naturally aggrieved in her heart, whose child is not a child anymore, but she can't worry about her uncle and aunt, she just hung up the phone with a few "um" sounds.

Then Fang Wen's boyfriend came to the door at night, roughly the same thing, Bai Xue's age is older than Fang Wen, and she should be let in.

Why? Who isn't a treasure?

Well, maybe she's not! Bai Xue has always been used to being alone, her parents at home have never given her any care, and she has only one sister who loves her. In addition, the only friend is Keiko, the one who fights with boys for her.

At that time, Bai Xue didn't tell Keiko about it, otherwise······ Because she doesn't want to tear her face and have a stiff relationship with her roommate. Therefore, I can only wronged myself.

She sat on the grass in the playground and shed tears, thinking that it would be nice if I had a boyfriend, even if he wouldn't help me, at least I could lend him a shoulder to lean on.

Of course, that was a long time ago, and then Fang Wen also broke up with that boyfriend, and they also became friends, and now they are also in the same hospital.

When she was studying at Ka University, she suddenly had a fever at almost 11 o'clock one night. Wearing pajamas and slippers to go out to buy medicine. Most of the shops on the street not far from the student apartment were closed, so I finally rushed to a pharmacy that was about to close and bought fever-reducing medicine.

On the way back, she ran into a drunk man, yelled at her and tried to pounce on her.

She clutched the medicine in her hand and ran as fast as she could. The drunken man's companion pointed at her and laughed.

I don't know how long I ran, but I remember the moment I closed the door, the clothes on my body were already soaked with sweat, but it was already a cold winter that was about to freeze.

One night, I returned late from part-time overtime. I vaguely felt that someone was following me all the way, and my heart was in my throat, and I was very scared. Finally, at the turn, she picked up the bricks piled up in the corner.

Just like that, hugging it to his chest, thinking that if the man behind catches up, he will shoot it.

Later, when they got home, the man didn't catch up, but she brought the brick back.

Looking back now, I smile indifferently.

She was like this, she walked alone for so long when she felt that she might not survive several times.

Slowly, I began to learn to take care of myself and protect myself.

I never had the consciousness to look at the weather forecast every day, and after being drenched in heavy rain a few times, I learned to always carry an umbrella in my carry-on bag.

When I was taking a shower, I fell in the bathroom because my slippers were too slippery. His arm was cut by the protruding porcelain piece on the wall, and he sat on the ground and cried. After that, I remembered it for a long time, and I never wore those slippers to the shower again.

I had a fever in the middle of the night and there was no medicine at home. I don't have the strength to drink all my body, and I have to burn it if I want to drink saliva. Later, I prepared common medicines for colds, fevers, diarrhea and other common medicines at home, and slowly groped for the symptoms before birth and took medicine quickly.

When I came back by taxi at night, I took a picture of the license plate number and didn't know who it was sent to. I began to learn to wait for the car to arrive home when I pretended to call and called my "boyfriend" to pick me up downstairs, after all, I was alone abroad, and I couldn't be too careful.

Some people say that when you get through all the hardships alone, you don't want to be with anyone that much.

Maybe that's the case, no one longs for loneliness, and no one wants to be lonely like a dog, but say it's good to be alone.

But again and again, when she tried her best to cross the hill, only to find that there was no one waiting on the other side of the mountain, she gradually got used to this loneliness.

A girl once said: "When you have a serious relationship and end up breaking up, it will be difficult for you to like someone else, and you don't want to spend time and don't want to get to know each other." It's like when you're almost done writing an essay, but the teacher says you're scribbling, tears up your homework, and asks you to rewrite it. Although you remember the beginning and the content, you are too lazy to write. Because an article has spent all your energy, and you are only one end away, and you have to start all over again. ”

When she was young, she fell in love with someone, just because the sun was just right that day, and he happened to be wearing the white shirt she liked.

Later, I watched too much love and hatred, and experienced too many points and combinations. She would never like him again because he was just wearing a white shirt that she liked and singing a little love song that she liked.

When she begins to weigh the pros and cons, when she begins to instinctively refuse to escape, she knows that it will be difficult for her to fall in love with someone again, or that she no longer knows what love is.

Some people may say, who hasn't met a few scum when they were young? But we will eventually meet the right person in the end, so we still have to believe in love.

Bai Xue has never classified Han Yi as a scumbag, she has always felt that Han Yi is very talented and excellent. But somehow, now she is far more sad than happy with him.

This kind of love is not what she wants.