"I asked Qin Yue, she said that your company has a lot of things, and now you are still working overtime, why do you have time to come over?"

She is already twenty-eight years old, and she has experienced this helpless situation a lot, and she will survive it alone. Regarding Xia Bo's sudden arrival, Zhong Yinger felt a trace of warmth and help, but at the same time, she was more surprised.

Xia Bo glanced at her with a smile and continued to drive: "Well, there are indeed a lot of things in the company now, but I can't help much." ”

"It's just that I heard Qin Yue say that it's quite tricky, are you in big trouble?"

Zhong Ying'er basically wouldn't take the initiative to contact Han Yi, even if she cared about his affairs, she couldn't show it in front of Qin Yue, and at this time, she could be regarded as inquiring from Xia Bo's side.

"How so?" Xia Bo didn't mean to hide anything from Zhong Ying'er, but he couldn't say why. "Mr. Han seems to be busy solving the problem these days, and I just sent him to socialize······ Then he told me to come and see you, otherwise how could I drive around in his car. He laughed as he spoke.

The embarrassment was that Zhong Ying'er had a serious face.

"You told him?" Zhong Ying'er was inexplicably flustered, and she also blamed Xia Bo for telling Han Yi that she had accidentally sprained her foot and was hospitalized.

Although Xia Bo didn't know what the relationship between her and Han Yi was, he could see that they cared about each other very much. As Han Yi's subordinate, he also knows that Han Yi's official girlfriend is Bai Xue's Xia Bo, and his only starting point is for Han Yi's good, saying what should be said, not saying what should not be said, and not guessing anything.

It's just that, because of his inexplicable affection and curiosity for Zhong Ying'er, he said frankly: "I didn't say it, Qin Yue didn't say it either, anyway, he just knew!" Actually, to tell you the truth, he also asked me to bring you lunch, and I was quite surprised when he mentioned your name······" Xia Bo made an oath gesture.

Zhong Ying'er thought to herself, in fact, it is not surprising, Qin Yue has no friends in Shanghai, who else will there be besides her.

"Sorry, I just went a little too far······" Zhong Yinger apologized for her excessive emotions. At the same time, I was also relieved, in this way, it was not what the female patient in the next bed said, Xia Bo was not interested in her, but was just doing things according to Han Yi's instructions.

"It's okay!" Xia Bo just smiled, also inexplicably bitter. He asked cautiously, without saying anything, "You······ You and Han are always ······."

He knew that there were some things he shouldn't say, but since he first met Zhong Ying'er, he had been bothering him, and he couldn't help but wonder if Zhong Ying'er was Han Yi's lover? But with his understanding of Han Yi and the contact with Zhong Yinger in the past two days, he feels that it is unlikely.

Zhong Ying'er smiled generously, this may be the reason why she and Han Yi tacitly agreed with each other, that is, the reason for less contact and less contact. Because it will make people misunderstood, her colleagues in the hotel also mistakenly think that she has something to do with Han Yi, and now even Xia Bo can see some "clues"?

"He's just friends with me now! You should know about Snow White, right? She is Han Yi's girlfriend and his fiancée······ So, don't think about it, don't guess! ”

Xia Bo is also a mature man with rich experience, and her envy and jealousy for Bai Xue can be judged from her tone alone, and her helplessness and sadness can also be felt.

Although Zhong Yinger felt that she had completely let go of it, she had faced up to her simple friendship with Han Yi. But her various behaviors of deliberately avoiding Han Yi actually did not let go in the eyes of others, and it is no wonder that Bai Xue always feels that she is a rival in love.

Those feelings that can't be grasped need time to fade away, but they will always be remembered occasionally, who can have a calm heart without waves? I'm afraid even Han Yi is the same, right?

She once pulled Han Yi into her "blacklist", QQ, WeChat, mobile phone number, but anyone who can have a little contact with him, she will not let go. (Han Yi did the same thing.) ）

From the first time she went to Chongqing to meet Bai Xue, and after seeing Han Yi and her in love, she disappeared from then on. I wish there was a fire that would consume all traces of her and him. There is no piece of armor left, and no grass grows.

At that time, she thought that this should be the feeling of hating someone, right? When you think of him, you feel shame and resentment, and it is difficult to self-control to erase and destroy.

Just like before Han Yi fell in love with Bai Xue, when Zhong Ying'er disappeared for a long time for no reason, when Han Yi learned that she was going to marry someone else, he also felt this way.

But some people say that this is what it feels like to love someone. Because you are still in love, you will have such grievances, unwillingness and jealousy.

If you don't love, there will be nothing. You won't be entangled, angry, or sad for him, and even hatred is a luxury.

If you don't love it, all emotions will go to zero. How can there be any hundreds of turns, how can you go to great lengths to pull him into the blacklist, while secretly writing down all his contact information in the diary.

At that time, Zhong Yinger went to Shanghai, and she also rehearsed such a passage in her heart when it was difficult: "Even if you are the only man left in the world, you kneel and beg me, I will pull you up and kick you hard." ”

After a long time, she felt that she was very naïve, with her understanding of Han Yi, this kind of thing would never happen, but she hoped so, and then she would definitely be willing to start over with him.

Later, time passed, and when she thought of Han Yi again, she had to admit that she loved him the most when she hated him the most. Greet him with the most vicious language, and cherish him with the most broken line of defense. Love is the soul of hate, it lives in the body of hate, faintly painful, the soul flies and scatters, and the love dies and hates to die.

She didn't like Han Yi for a long time, and Han Yi was not his first boyfriend, but Han Yi's moisturizing and silent warmth and touching would always make her think of it inadvertently, so she would never forget it. From ambiguity, to falling in love, to torturing each other in the end, letting go of each other.

The initial period of breakup was decided unilaterally by her, because it was the hardship of the family, and she did not say goodbye.

During that time, she felt that she couldn't survive at all, she frantically searched all his Weibo and status, trying to find his traces from it, at that time, there were many girls who commented on him, Bai Xue was one of them, she was crazy and sad when she saw it, and she wanted to pick up the phone and call him, asking him what his relationship was with those girls. But she still fulfilled her mother's wish, she didn't do that, knowing that after her mother left, she regretted her marriage and went back to find Han Yi, but found that everything was too late.

At first, he would explain to her calmly, and he would take the trouble to tell her that everything was over, that he was in love with Bai Xue now, and hoped that she would not come to disturb him and Bai Xue again, just like he left without saying a word, and it would be good to leave again.

But she was unwilling, she frequently went back to school to wait for him, looking for him, more and more times, he finally couldn't stand it, and coldly threw her a sentence: We have broken up.

It wasn't until Han Yi proved to her that she had asked her to meet Bai Xue that she believed this fact.

She said to herself: I don't love him anymore. But in fact, what she was thinking was not like that at all, at best it was just self-comforting.

It wasn't until she lived in Shanghai for a long time that she began to gradually adapt to life without him, and found that everything was not at all as difficult as she imagined. Sometimes you can't live without a person, just because you can't make up your mind to cut off the past, and you don't believe that you can live well without him.

Because everyone is a very realistic person. Compared to the unattainable future, the pain of losing is right now, and it really torments oneself, is the future better than the present?

She didn't know, she just knew that it was painful right now. In order to be less painful, it is because it becomes hysterical and aggrieved.

Later, she met the boss of the training class who pursued her crazy, and she was so crazy that she imprisoned her and hurt her perverted boss, which made her feel scared, and naturally remembered Han Yi's goodness.

She also indulged in this pain for a long time. She was unlucky, but fortunately, Han Yi appeared later and helped her teach her a lesson and ask the perverted boss.

Now, she has hinted to herself countless times in her heart that she and Han Yi are no longer lovers, and they can never become lovers again, even if they are not completely relieved and let go, but at least they will not be like before, after all, she is also a person who is going to run for three, and the independence engraved in her bones also needs maturity and ability to support.

Zhong Yinger's colleagues also had a similar story, she liked that person for ten years. In the past ten years, she has been like Nala in Ibsen's "A Doll's House", at his mercy, never refusing to give him what he wants.

Until he meets someone he really likes and doesn't want to be entangled with her anymore, she becomes broken, irritable, and suspicious. During that year, she continued to do one thing: pull him into the blacklist, then pull him out again, and then pull him back into the blacklist, and the cycle went on and on, and on, and on.

Every time she released him from the blacklist, she would post a hypocritical Moments status, but he never replied. She was very saddened, for for all the uncertain words were actually addressed to him, and if he did not respond, she did not know how to continue.

Continue to put him on the blacklist? What's the point? All his contacts are engraved in his mind, and he will not be killed by his flesh and bones.

When she was most tormented, she called him and begged him to block or delete herself, whatever she wanted, as long as she couldn't find him anymore.

He replied to her: "I won't look for it when I don't care, and I will find it when I do." “

Forgetting someone is not about blocking, deleting, or breaking up a relationship, but that you don't think about how to treat him at all.

This colleague of hers spent nearly two years giving up the person she had liked for more than ten years.

Later, she said that now seeing that person silently exist on her social platform, she even blocked him, deleted him, and had no urge to talk to him, I really gave up on him.

What does it feel like to give up someone you like?

Some people's answers may be: I don't delete your friends, I don't pull you into the blacklist, I don't unfollow, and I don't delete your phone. All I have to do is be lukewarm, neither sad nor joyful. I just want you to watch all my dynamics, which have nothing to do with you, but I am not noisy or noisy by your side, and the ghost is not gone.

But for Zhong Yinger, this is not the case. Because I have loved someone for many years, and it has taken many years to give up on someone. So she knows that giving up someone she likes won't be haunted at all.

Given up, her heart, her soul, was no longer relevant to him. Whether she was silent or rejoicing, it was no longer for him to see. She didn't delete his phone and didn't pull him into the blacklist because it was no longer necessary, and she didn't want to bother with that. Whether he is there or not, to her, is no longer special.

That's what she thinks, but maybe she hasn't done it yet, she just hopes she can.

Love will go from fiery to bland, but giving up will go from madness to relief, from crying to silence.

The person who was given up by her was like a fire, Zeng Ji burned her, but in the end, it was burned and it was over.

What does it feel like to give up someone who has loved it for ten years?

She didn't know.

Zhong Yinger and Han Yi have known each other for only 7 years, and there are too many happy memories and too many sadness.

Eason Chan's song "Love Transfer" sings like this: Burn perfect youth for a wife, and transfer the warmth of one person to another's chest.

What does it feel like to give up someone you've liked for a long time?

Maybe one day you find that all your emotions are no longer up and down for him.

For Zhong Yinger, it is difficult to define whether to give up or forget.