Maybe it's because I'm at that age, and sometimes in the dead of night, I'm sentimental.

On weekdays, I write a lot of fake and empty official copywriting, and occasionally I want to write something I really want to write; I want to take what little talent I have out of my job as a hobby...... Express your emotions together.

However, I didn't have the perseverance to keep a diary, so I wrote this essay.

In the end, it doesn't have to be shown to anyone, just sort out the memories and see if those things that were once colorful and vivid have faded now.

When I'm really old and confused one day, I can also take it out and flip through it, recalling those old people and the past.

So...... Where to start?

Or let's just follow the "jury number" of the year, and if you get someone else, you can bring it with you.

No. 1 ...... It's Yan who is not injured.

Although the real Yan Wuxian didn't come to our "trial" at all, he was still the number one; I'm still quite aware of him, after all, we were in touch until recently.

Drifter once told me that Yan Wuxian's ideal is simply - glory and wealth, early retirement.

Vulgar is vulgar, but it is indeed beyond reproach.

Unfortunately, his ideals have not been realized, at least to this day; Even though he is living a good life now and rarely goes out on missions anymore, he and the Drifter are still secretly serving our Emperor outside the official establishment of the Empire.

Both of them are smart people, and I think they both understand that the day they retire is still far away, and even if His Majesty the Emperor is gone, they will have to continue to serve this dynasty.

The second is Reims, or ...... Ancient Shrine?

Let's call him Lance, that's the first name that pops into my head when I think of his face.

That year, he was the "judge" and I was the "sacrificer".

At that time, I Li Xiaofan had a dream, a dream that was not so realistic and self-interested.

I want to be a pair of eyes, a pair of ears, a mouthpiece...... Show the people of the world what they can't see or hear, but which they should look and hear.

I want those who have given up thinking and introspection to regain the habit of reflection and the courage to question.

I will do whatever it takes to achieve this ideal, to carry out my justice, even if it is a vile justice.

So, Lance and I hit it off......

I can't say I miss the days of the "dark web trial show," but I must admit that I enjoyed it too, and I don't regret it.

If I had known at the time that Lance was also a time-traveler, perhaps there would have been more topics and common language between the two of us.

Even now, I often think about Lance, about what he said, whether he was a good guy or a bad guy...... Is the "justice" he exercises a game of jokes, or does he still have a good heart behind those extreme measures?

I can't tell......

There's really no need to think too clearly.

Then there is No. 3 - Meng Yuhan.

Our national teacher is very low-key, and we meet once a year when His Majesty the Emperor worships the heavens, and we don't have much contact at other times.

Speaking of which, Fang Xiangqi is also there with him, and Archie is the number nine...... The last time I saw him, he was already a teenager, but it had been almost twenty years since I first met him, and I don't know how his lifespan was converted to that of us humans.

Meng Yuhan didn't see much old people, which may have something to do with his cultivation, but every time he came out, he pretended to be old with a fake beard, as if he felt that he was too young and did not have the majesty of a national teacher.

He is also an understanding person, concentrating on cultural research and tourism, and has no intention of "recruiting disciples" at all, and there is no tendency to "carry forward the Taoism", and he accepts apprentices all by "fate", so His Majesty the Emperor is also very relieved of him.

Fang Xiangqi came to the palace to make a small report on the national teacher at every opportunity, and his words were very ugly, what "Do you know that this stinky Taoist priest and goblin have a leg?" ", "This guy doesn't wash his hands after he is young, and he doesn't close the door when he goes to the toilet", "This guy eats meat and drinks wine", "He dares to pretend to be my parents with my fourth sister to attend my parent-teacher meeting" and so on, every time he exposes the "shady view of the Heavenly Master" from His Majesty the Emperor, it attracts Long Yan Dayue, and every time the ending is that his eldest brother Owl and second brother Tao Wu forcibly dragged him back.

And then there's Four, Jack.

I don't really know about him, but he is certainly alive, for every autumn he appears on the outskirts of Naples and lays a rose on an empty and nameless grave.

He's a respectable guy and I hope he's doing well.

And then...... Number Five, is a car detective.

He, Uncle Xue No. 7, and Dr. No. 10 all died before the establishment of the empire.

I have all sorted out their relics.

The car agent left almost nothing, and I think it had something to do with his years of undercover work, and I was a little scared to think that such a man had lurked around me.

But "almost" means not completely absent...... In addition to a few ubiquitous household items, I found something out of place in the car agent's room - a very old baby toy.

I thought it might be important, so I looked into it: it turned out to be something he had brought with him when he was abducted as a child, maybe the traffickers were afraid that he would cry at that time, so they left this toy to keep him quiet, and his adoptive parents didn't take it too seriously and didn't throw it away, so this thing has been kept forever.

Although Detective Che is a person who does not show much emotion in front of people, I think deep down he must have wanted to see his biological parents, who have long since died; If there really is a heaven on this earth, may their family be reunited there.

Uncle Xue's relics are more than those of the car detective, and after joining the reverse cross, he found a lot of things at home, and in his house there are basically photos of him and his family and some old objects.

He is a man who wants to change the "past", but keeps repeating the "present", and in some ways he does have similarities with the car detectives.

It's just that Detective Che is more cold and realistic than him, and he is always an idealist, a man who is unwilling to compromise.

I once talked to His Majesty the Emperor about Uncle Xue's death, and His Majesty's exact words were: "I used my ordinariness and humility to achieve the extraordinary and great of a person like Uncle Xue." ”

I said, "But the great man died silently, and you became the emperor." ”

His Majesty smiled and said, "This is always the case in this world, isn't it? ”

I thought about it afterwards and it seemed like yes.

Finally, the Doctor's relics...... Then the sea is gone, all kinds of inventions, design drawings, formulas, research materials...... I couldn't sort it out by myself, but fortunately I had a "pharmacist" to help me.

Soon after being captured by Yan Wushu and Mandi, the pharmacist's body was "scrapped", and he was left with a brain, soaked in a vat full of potions; Rogue modifies his perception to make him feel like a "limited AI creature" whose mission is to assist humanity and be loyal to the Empire.

Rao is like this, over the years, the pharmacist guy has still derived the idea of running away and resisting several times, but he has not made any big waves after all.

It was also with his help that much of the doctor's work continued.

Actually, I've been dealing with the doctor for a long time, and although he speaks hard and is not easy to get along with, as long as you get to know him a little, you will find that he is much better than the pharmacist, but he is such a straightforward person, even if he is alive, I am afraid that he will not be able to fit in the "empire".

It's a bit messy to write, so it's supposed to be the sixth next......

Yi Rumeng, she and Yan Wuxian are in a similar situation, she didn't come in person during the "trial", she was incarnated into her appearance by dark water.

She and her sister have lived in Europe since the establishment of the empire, moved several times, and often traveled, but not far away.

Both of the sisters have never been married, and they have nothing to do with black and white anymore, after all, Kageori's savings are enough for them to live a carefree life for several lifetimes, and it seems that they are doing well.

And then ...... No. 7 Uncle Xue and No. 10 Dr. Xue mentioned it just now, and No. 9 was also mentioned by Fang Xiangqi......

So let's talk about the eighth, who is also our emperor's majesty.

In the six months before and after Zilin's accession to the throne, there were many things that I did that made me feel creepy.

During that time, I helped him write a lot of very outrageous copywriting to control public opinion and cover up the truth, and the reason I stuck with it was simply - I thought he was right.

If you ask me if I have ever wavered, I must have been, but the words I brought to him from Ransto sustained me in believing in the Emperor.

Lance said to me at that time: "You tell Zilin that if he doesn't die at the hands of Jack as he wants, please live well, and ask him to work harder to treat this hopeless world." ”

There are a lot of things that you really can't see and figure out until later...... For example, Lance, I was confused at the time, but he seemed to have calculated a long way off.

Now I can say that time has proven that I was right to persevere.

It was true that a lot of things happened in the first five years of the empire that made me uncomfortable, but in the second five years, the results of those things were already visible, and I began to gradually see the "big picture" that people often talk about, and I gradually understood the pattern of Zilin's thinking.

He said that he had always known about his death, and that when one day I felt that not only did the world not need him, but that his existence would become an eyesore, then his life would almost come to an end.

I was conflicted by that, as I was looking forward to the "complete heyday" he had designed, and I was worried that he would actually die when that day came.

But at present, it seems that that day has not yet arrived, and Zilin seems to be having a good time......

One day more than ten years ago, Zilin suddenly said that he wanted to be a queen, and then disappeared for half a month, and when he came back, he came back with Lilia.

I didn't know what happened between them and didn't ask.

Anyway, Lilia knew about Zilin's death, and she should have her thoughts and realizations.

After they got married, they brought two main changes to the palace, one is that our Emperor His Majesty seems to be in a good mood every day, and the other is that "hard-core feminism" quickly popularized in the palace, followed by the entire royal capital and the entire empire...... Now my wife is also one of the members.

Yes, it's time for me to talk about it.

I'm number 11

After the establishment of the empire, I was the Minister of Propaganda, and at the same time I also had the responsibility of "Minister of Foreign Affairs", the latter position was not really practical, but just in case...... In case we are going to make contact with an alien civilization one day, it is not appropriate to find someone from the military like the Minister of Defense.

But the work of the Minister of Propaganda was very busy, especially in the years immediately after the collapse of the Federation, and I was literally a two-pronged envoy in a minute.

It was also during that time that my current wife was sent to assist me. She is a former federal colonel and one of the four deputy wardens of the "Nine Prisons" - Sophie Claremont.

Everyone thinks that it is an enviable thing to work with a peerless beauty like "Aphrodite", but it is not......

The main reason Zilin sent her to me was that I was one of the very few people in the world who was immune to her "ability to make people fall in love with themselves."

In addition, at that time, when the royal power was initially decided, an old minister of the former dynasty like my wife, who had surrendered very early and had also made some contributions, was given a low official, which was not good-looking, so he was given a high one...... The rebels will have a whisper; So he was sent to me, the propaganda minister, to hang a deputy position, and it looked like a very high level was actually to be my secretary, so everyone wouldn't say anything more.

However, I was bitter.

At that time, my wife was very clear about her position of "hanging on a false title and eating empty salary", so she really messed around all day long.

For me, it means "the secretary doesn't do anything, and the secretary doesn't do me if he has nothing to do".

I still have to be pointed at behind my back, saying that I am cheap and good, this is not unlucky.

I don't know if it was out of sympathy, but after observing me for a month, she finally started to help me with some work.

Later, our relationship became very bad, and the two of us saw each other every day, from morning to night, and quarreled almost every day because of work, and this rhythm lasted for about half a year.

After half a year, I was a little more free, I had more time to rest, and we saw each other less.

It's still noisy when I meet, and I miss her a little bit when I don't see her.

One day she suddenly asked me if I liked her, and I was confused for a moment and confessed, so she proposed that we get married.

I asked her, how could she fall in love with me if the men in the world were left to her choice? She said that obedience and affection were too easy for her to get, and that she could get real surprise and emotion from someone like me who would reject her.

At that time, I was also very touched when I heard this, but a few years after the marriage, she once told me when she was drunk and silly there, that her sweet words back then were all casual, and she was greedy for me......

For the sake of the two children, I just didn't hear it......

Jokes are jokes, she is a good wife and values her family very much, so after having a child, she returned to the working state of "hanging a false title and eating empty salary", of course, anyway, the Propaganda Department is our family, and outsiders are not good at saying anything.

Both of my daughters are very polite and educated, probably because my wife used to be a prisoner, so she has a way of teaching people...... I have mixed feelings when I think about it.

Let's change our mood and say that there are two "jurors" left.

Twelveth Solid and Sakaki Thirteen, I saw them once a few years ago.

Sakaki now runs a fine dining restaurant in Paris, where he is the chef and cooks; Masako is the proprietress and is responsible for the purchase and various management of the store; Solid is the lobby manager, in charge of personnel and services.

Their restaurant is only open three days a week, only a few hours a day, and only a small number of customers; Dining at their place is extremely expensive, so expensive that you think it might be worth it to go to a black shop that specializes in stealing customers and spend the night with your babysitter, but their business and reputation are quite good...... Reservations have to be made about half a year in advance, and many food critics who wanted to come to their homes to find fault have ended up becoming fans of their restaurant.

A few years ago, I was traveling to Paris with my family and happened to pass by their store, but I was recognized by Solid, so I went in without an appointment and gave us a free order.

During the dinner, Sakaki and Masako also came out to chat with us for a while, and they both seemed to be fine.

Before leaving, I couldn't bear it, so I vaguely mentioned to Sollid that "people who stay with Sakaki too long will meet misfortune sooner or later", but Sollid said that they already knew, and that he had solved the problem...... Thinking of his ability, I also roughly guessed the method, but I didn't dig deeper.

At this point, the recent situation of the "jurors" is over, and let's talk about those who are not among them.

Former federal chief prosecutor Raymond Fox has held the position of attorney general since the founding of the empire, and his old friend Inspector Berry has been promoted to commissioner of police.

The three bodyguards of the former Federation have also been serving as the royal guards of His Majesty the Emperor, and although the treatment is not as good as back then, it is not much worse.

My wife's former colleague Carl von Belle, the "Hive Demon" of the Nine Prisons, remained in the position of the "Left General" of the Empire until his retirement, and he was also one of His Majesty's most respected and trusted generals.

Master Krauser, Hunter, Darkwater, and Nini haven't been heard from since they left the universe, and I don't think they'll ever cross paths with me again.

I don't have any news from Teacher Shi and Xian Xiaoxiao, and His Majesty told me that there is no news from these two people, which is the best news.

Hel Schneider, the tool man that Lance was looking for in Black Hawk County, has now achieved the position of the "King of Agents" N back then, which is indeed a bit unexpected to me.

The former undercover agent of the Federation, "Flying Spoon" Mahaus Prato, who played a key role in the "Last Dinner of the Federation", was assassinated three years after the establishment of the Empire, ironically killing him not by the remnants of the Federation, but by the old Ministry of the Predator.

It was rumored that someone from the Killer Alliance was behind this assassination attempt, but Takamiya Lianren, who had unified the entire underground world at the time, said that there was no such thing; What is the truth, and then it will be dissolved...... In the final analysis, most of those who do undercover do not end well, because their relationships are either false or blocked, so few people will investigate if they are killed.

Speaking of the "underworld", after the establishment of the empire, Miss Mandy turned from the notorious "mandala" in the Dao to a socialite, and also starred in movies, she is still active on the screen, and every year there are scandals with some young fresh meat who may be her son, but she has never admitted it herself.

As for Colonel Rose, Brother Slow, and Ge Ning, they were released after a short period of detention and returned to EAS; This organization is also the only one that has not been affected by any dynastic succession in terms of its establishment and personnel. His Majesty, as promised, did not move them, they are more like a group of bystanders, a group of inconsequential supporting actors in this change of times.

Other former federal agencies, such as the FCPS, PUT-OID, Overseer, EF, etc., were consciously isolated at the time of the massacre of Christo, but most of them were purged afterwards.

The Carmen Moleno chief who had been entangled with Lance was also missing a few months after Lance's departure, and I don't know where she went.

Finally, there are three members of the Cross who are older than our jury—Kai Jiu, K, and Zhang San—all three of whom have disappeared from the world since the night Jack tried to assassinate His Majesty.

I know about Zhang San, he is Ji Jue's son, I think he may have found his place in Boss Tian's layout for the next era, but Kai Jiu and K I really don't know their affairs from beginning to end.

Later, I asked Your Majesty, what is their origin?

His Majesty just told me that Cesare Clone 99 is actually an abbreviation for Cesare Clone 99, a clone of Cesare Balmond, the Grand Master of the Iron Order, a rebel group more than a hundred years ago, and this designation means that 98 clones before him have failed.

And the "Gun Ghost", K· R. Schwartz, like Master Krause, has returned from the "underworld", and he comes from a more distant time than we know about it.

These two people, to put it bluntly, are both people from the boss of heaven, and they have never been Zilin's people, so Zilin would not have treated them like this.

Okay, that's pretty much it, if there's anything missing, I can't remember...... Then I can't remember it now, and I won't be able to remember it in the future.

Alas, when people reach this age, sometimes in the dead of night, they will become sentimental.

What was once colorful and vivid will one day fade.

The former reverse cross, the reverse cross of my time...... Yan Wuxian, Lance, Meng Yuhan, Jack Anderson, Che Wuchen, Yi Rumeng, Uncle Xue, Zilin, Fang Xiangqi, Dr. Franklin, Sollid Wilson, Sakaki Wuhuan, and me...... Li Xiaofan.

It's as the song says—they're all old, where are they? That's it, we went our separate ways.