Chapter 190: Cold Smoke and Green (10)
Lady Yu's heart swelled with a deep sense of sorrow.
The world is impermanent.
She and Shi Yuan have been married for more than 20 years, do you have a husband and wife relationship? Yes, but more often than not, it's just getting along with each other as relatives. But they are not real relatives after all.
Mrs. Yu couldn't figure out what Shi Yuan's nominal husband meant to her life? It is said that there was fate in the past life, and only in this life can we get married. But she and Shi Yuan are clearly resentful couples.
When a man is about to die, his words are good.
Why bother again? Why bother?
With the passage of time, she has been the daughter-in-law of the Shi family for more than 20 years. Her son has the blood of the emperor, but she is also the mistress of this huge mansion.
The old lady is old, and she has the responsibility and obligation to revive the historian.
Has the Shi family been defeated? No.
Shi Yuan got his wish in front of the weaving camp and the title. It's just that he's on the wrong track. Once the army of King Ningbei broke through the capital and captured the faint king, then Shi Yuan's backer would also fall. The building is about to fall, can Shi Yuan still keep his official position? Maybe I'll have to go to jail. These are all uncertainties.
Thinking about that death, the old lady will definitely not be able to stand it, and she will go to Huangquan immediately.
The lives of the three girls have been delayed even more. But God often chooses the opportunity, at this moment, Shi Yuan just got an ancestral incurable disease, not one step earlier, not one step later.
Perhaps, this is the fulfillment of Shi Yuan.
Madame Jade didn't dare to think about it anymore, because she felt that she was too selfish. She should stay with her husband like a wife who cares about her husband and accompany him with tea and water.
Later, when Ximo came out, he would go in by himself.
Mrs. Yu asked a mother-in-law, how much ginseng is still hidden in the house? The mother-in-law said a number, and Mrs. Yu said, "Hurry up and buy some more on the street." ”
Ginseng can lift qi.
Shi Yuan relied on ginseng to take a breath, so he didn't lose his breath.
According to the old lady, when the breath is stopped, the head does not hurt, but it hurts all over the body, and the old lady relied on a few or two ginseng to hang for seven days.
Of course, Madam Yu didn't want Shi Yuan to lose her breath.
Shi Yuan has been an official for many years, of course he is not clean, and there must be many bitter enemies who hate him. Some people even wish that he would die immediately, and that all kinds of old accounts could be settled.
It is inevitable that as an official in the court, you will always have to offend some people without being compelled to do so.
Mrs. Yu recited the sentence "Amitabha Buddha" in her heart, and everything has a cause and effect. She is a devout believer in Buddhism, and she feels that Shi Yuan has such a terminal illness at the age of fifty, which is actually God's punishment.
She knew that Shi Yuan had killed people, and it was by mistake. Shi Yuan used to be a general judge, and he decided a wrong case and let innocent people die in the court. No one pursued it afterwards. Shi Yuan's courage was even greater. When he became a weaving official, he was even more corrupt. Shi Yuan's personal body, Mrs. Yu never used it, because she felt unclean. Shi Yuan's money was all in Aunt Sun's house, Aunt Sun squandered a lot, and hid a lot in her mother's house, and the rest, Mrs. Yu searched it out and decided to donate it to the family of the bitter master, and donated the rest.
She is doing good deeds for Shi Yuan, and on the other hand, she also hopes that the Bodhisattva will be gracious, and for the sake of his repentance, she will prolong his life with him a little. This is the prayer of Madame Jade. But she also knows that no matter how good these things are, they will not help. For those who have been wronged, once they die, have no chance to live again.
Human life is bigger than heaven.
Since Shi Yuan owes it, he has to pay it back with his life.
Ximo entered the house and called in a low voice, "Father." ”
Shi Yuan nodded. In a trance, I felt that my son's appearance was more like the first emperor Yun Yu. No, the two are exactly the same, just
Carved out of a mold, the way he walks, the voice he speaks, it's too similar, it's too similar......
He suddenly felt that the greatest honor in this life was not to be a weaver or a title, but to have a son with royal blood by his side.
That's his pride.
"Ximo, I'll just come back, let Daddy take a good look at you."
Ximo is a smart person, and as soon as he enters the house, he realizes that something is wrong. Daddy described it as withered, and he also had valuable ginseng in his mouth. Could it be ......
He didn't dare to think about it anymore.
Just now, he felt that his mother's description was very wrong.
What the hell happened to my father?
"The child is next to the father, and the father can see it however he wants." Ximo's voice was also extremely gentle. He sat down in front of Shi Yuan's bed, and Shi Yuan reached out to hold Ximo's hand again.
"Daddy is old."
"Daddy is still young."
"Daddy is really old."
Shi Yuan had a headache and terminal illness, so he relied on ginseng to hang his anger. Fortunately, this ginseng is a good texture variety, and he does feel less uncomfortable with ginseng in his mouth.
"Daddy, don't talk, rest and recuperate."
At this moment, Ximo still didn't know what kind of illness Shi Yuan had. But seeing Lang Zhong on the side with his head down, there was a deep sadness in his eyes. Seeing a few people standing in the corner, they were all wilted, with sad faces, and Ximo guessed seven or eight points.
He wanted to stand up and ask Lang Zhong a few words.
Shi Yuan seemed to guess Ximo's thoughts, and took the initiative to inform: "Don't get up, it's rare for your father to talk to you well, you accompany your father." ”
Like a child, he prayed to his son not to leave.
Ximo sat down again.
"Daddy, I'm not leaving."
Shi Yuan smiled with satisfaction and closed his eyes: "Daddy understands you, what you want to do in the future, just do it, Daddy won't stop it." ”
Ximo's voice softened: "My son is not good. ”
He remembered that in the past, there was a lot of estrangement between himself and his father, but now he can say such emotional and reasonable words, Ximo is moved and ashamed.
He also heard the meaning of his father's words. It seems that Daddy knows everything, but he doesn't want to say it explicitly, and he saves face for himself.
"My son is really bad."
Ximo repeated again. He just wanted to comfort Shi Yuan and make his heart feel a little more comfortable.
Shi Yuan sighed heavily: "It's Daddy's bad." Daddy's fame and fortune are too heavy, even at home, he doesn't talk to you well, he always forces you to do this and that, and compares you with Yuquan's beast. Now I know that you are my good son, and you are the only good son I have. ”
These words also contain too much heaviness and sourness.
Ximo's heart was also sour.
"Daddy, what do you want to eat,
My son will do it for you. ”
Shi Yuan shook his head: "Daddy doesn't want to eat anything." Since our relationship is so good, Daddy doesn't want to say anything. I'm tired, go out and call your mother in. ”
Shi Yuan's head began to hurt again, and the pain had spread to his neck, shoulders, and even to his heart. He endured the pain, but beads of sweat the size of beans still rolled down.
Shi Yuan didn't want to show weakness in front of Ximo. He wanted to show his strength in front of his son at the last moment of his life, when he was dying.
In his son's heart, he has always despised himself.
He wants his son to know that he is also a man.
Ximo found out that Daddy was wrong, he bent over, suddenly hugged Shi Yuan's head, and comforted him deeply: "Daddy, don't be afraid." ”
With this "don't be afraid", Shi Yuan's tears came out.
"Daddy, just let me hold you like this. I remember, when I was a child, you asked me to go to the study to study, but at night there was a huge thunder in the sky, and I was scared, and it was you who came in and hugged me, touched my head, and said that it would not sound for a while. ”
Shi Yuan trembled all over, this was a trembling of excitement.
Such a small thing, I didn't expect my son to remember it.
"Daddy, there's ...... When I was a child, I loved sweets, and you said that eating too many sweets was not easy to digest, so you deliberately reprimanded me, and I cried, saying that I was going to the temple to find my mother, so you hugged me and said that you were my mother. ”
Shi Yuan left cloudy tears.
Ximo also returned to his childhood, back to when he was five years old.
The barrier between father and son was opened, the estrangement was gone, and around the sickbed, they met each other frankly.
Outside the door, Madame Jade had been eavesdropping.
In her heart, she was very, very uncomfortable.
She is too selfish, only caring about the pain in her heart, but ignoring Ximo at a young age, what she needs most is the company of her mother.
She's not a proper mother!
Lady Jade's tears fell, and she choked up and walked into the door.
Ximo turned around, looked at Shi Yuan and his son, wiped his tears and said, "I have already asked someone to go to the temple to report the news, and the old lady will come back with the girls in a while." ”
At the last moment of Shi Yuan's life, the entire Shi family was together and had to be together.
Ximo listened to her mother's words, stunned and stunned.
Daddy...... Is Daddy really dying?
He held Shi Yuan's hand tightly and said with great sadness: "Mother, what kind of terminal illness does Daddy have?" ”
In this situation, Mrs. Jade is no longer good at concealing it.
"Your father and father have a headache inherited from the Shi family, and your grandfather also died of this illness back then!"
Ximo sighed deeply: "I see! It seems that one day, I will die of this illness! ”
"No......" Madame Yu corrected, but she stopped talking.
At this time, it was too cruel to talk about life and death in front of Shi Yuan. Just make my son uncomfortable for a while. The son is not a member of the historian, and the son will not inherit such a terminal illness.
"Mother, what do you want to say?" Ximo sensed that Madame Jade was wrong.
"I didn't say anything, your dad is tired, let him rest and rest."
Shi Yuan sighed hard: "I'm not tired." Ximo, my son, you will never have a terminal illness like your father in your life. Daddy, this is retribution, Daddy has done bad things, Daddy himself knows...... You won't...... You will soar in the future, under one person, above ten thousand! ”
This is the second time Ximo has heard this.
This is also from his own father. After the discomfort, he only felt sad. Even so, those stereotypes in Daddy's heart have not been removed. Daddy still hopes that he will be an official and knighted and glorify the lintel!
But he went the other way.
Ningbei Wang Yunzhan hinted to him that although this road is difficult and dangerous, he can still get what he wants.
Ximo listened lightly.
Glory and wealth and white horses pass through the gap, only the peace of the world is what his heart is related to, and his heart is looking forward to. If he gets this day, he would rather take off all his armor and take his beloved woman with him to live a life of seclusion.