Xu Junlan's hand holding the cup trembled slightly, she always felt that Qin Wan's words were deliberately said to her. The meaning is that she can start over with Qin Ming like Zhuo Wenjun.

However, there was a ...... between her and Qin Ming

Qin Wan seemed to see what she was thinking, and said seriously: "Zhuo Wenjun was fighting alone at that time, but sister-in-law is different, you have an aunt, there is the entire Qin family behind you, your gentleness, your kindness, is your weapon, as long as you have the heart and are willing to get to know the eldest brother again, one day, the eldest brother will find your good." ”

Do it all over again......

For a whole day, Xu Junlan recalled these four words in her mind.

When she returned to the Qin Mansion and saw Zhong Ci and Qin Ming in the garden, she suddenly retreated again, is it really okay?

Can it really make Qin Ming fall in love with her?

At that time, she also asked Qin Wan such a thing, Qin Wan held her hand and said, "If you don't try it, how do you know if it's okay?" ”

yes, how do you know if you can't if you don't try?

On this night, Qin Ming picked up the lamp to read the account book in the account room, and Xu Junlan took the porridge she had just boiled and pushed open the door of the account room.

Qin Ming raised his head, and the moment he saw Xu Junlan, the disgust in the corner of his eyes flashed.

"What are you going to do?" Even the voice was full of displeasure.

Xu Junlan smiled slightly, put the food box in her hand on the table, and said: "It's cold, my husband has to stay up all night to read the account book, so I cooked some porridge for my husband, first keep it warm, and when my husband is hungry, you can also drink a bowl of hot porridge at any time." ”

Qin Ming looked at the account book in his hand, and didn't look at her: "The things are here, let them go, you can go back." ”

Xu Junlan lowered her head and stood still.

Qin Ming said impatiently: "If you want to invite me to your room on the orders of your mother, take your things and get out." ”

The merciless words stabbed Xu Junlan for a while, biting her lower lip lightly, she looked at Qin Ming boldly, and said, "I know that the reason why you love Zhong Ci is because she looks three points like Miss Mu." ”

The hand that looked through the account book suddenly stopped, before Qin Ming married Xu Junlan, he had loved a girl named Mu Qingqing, she had no outstanding worth, but the daughter of Yanjing City's changing family, just because the door was wrong, and there was a marriage with Xu Junlan, the He family strongly opposed this marriage, and tried every means to prevent the two of them from being together, and forced Qin Ming to marry Xu Junlan home with death.

On the day that Qin Ming and Xu Junlan got married, Mu Qingqing hanged herself at home without thinking about it for a while, which has always been an untouchable pain in Qin Ming's heart.

Now that Xu Junlan suddenly mentioned that the pain that had been buried in his heart was turned out again, he suddenly raised his head, looked at Xu Junlan coldly, and said, "Get out!" ”

Xu Junlan got off to a bad start, and she didn't expect that four years had passed, and Mu Qingqing was still the bottom line he couldn't touch.

Looking at Qin Ming's expression of imminent anger, Xu Junlan pursed her lips, she knew that she had ruined this conversation today, and if she continued to talk about it, she was afraid that it would be difficult to end it again.

I simply left.

Out of the door of the account room, the girl Xiao Nian greeted her, she heard the movement of the account room just now, and couldn't help but say: "Young grandma shouldn't have mentioned her in front of the young master." ”

Xu Junlan sighed and said, "I know, but Miss Mu is a thorn in his heart, if this thorn can't be pulled out, my relationship with him will not be repaired one day." ”

Returning to the room with a heavy heart, when Xiao Nian washed her face and prepared for bed, Xu Junlan seemed to think of something, raised her head and said, "In two days, it will be twenty-eight." ”

Xiao Nian nodded: "What is the young grandmother asking for?" ”

Xu Junlan did not speak, the day she married Qin Ming on the twenty-eighty day of the first month was also Mu Qingqing's death day.

On the twenty-eighth day, Xu Junlan left the house early and went to Gongxing Road to buy incense, candles and paper money, planning to pay homage to Mu Qingqing's soul.

When she left the store, Xiao Nian said worriedly: "If the young grandmother doesn't go, if you let the lady know, you will be unhappy." ”

Xu Junlan said: "Therefore, this matter is a secret between you and me, and you must not tell it to let your mother know." ”

Xiao Nian wanted to persuade again, but seeing that she had already gotten into the carriage and couldn't persuade her to come back, she also went.

Mu Qingqing's family background was not good, when she was buried, it was just a small dirt bag, and even the brand was carved by the family with wood, and in the end, Qin Ming came forward and changed the tomb and carved the tombstone.

As early as half a year after Mu Qingqing's death, the parents at home also left one after another because they couldn't bear the pain of the white-haired person sending the black-haired person, but there was not a trace of weeds around Mu Qingqing's grave, and the tombstone was cleaned cleanly, which was also the reason why Qin Ming often came.

Xu Junlan set up the incense candles, lit the brazier and burned the paper money, and before the stack of paper was burned, Qin Ming's voice came from behind her: "Who asked you to come?!" ”

Xu Junlan stood up and turned around, Qin Ming was wearing plain clothes with his hands behind his back, looking at him coldly, his eyes were like a frozen three-foot cold pool, as if because of his arrival, the air around him became cold.

Qin Ming seemed to hate Xu Junlan very much, he didn't wait for Xu Junlan to answer, he strode forward, blocked in front of the tombstone, stared at Xu Junlan, gritted his teeth and said, "She doesn't want to see you, and you are not qualified to come to see her, get out!" ”

Compared with Qin Ming's anger, Xu Junlan was very calm at the moment, she said: "I know, because I let you separate yin and yang from her, and now you, me, her, and the three of us have come to this situation, which is not what I think and want." After a slight pause, she raised her head to meet Qin Ming's gaze, and said calmly: "Although I have never felt that her death was my fault, even if you have been deliberately ignoring and indifferent to me for four years, I feel that I am very innocent. ”

As she spoke, she staggered away from Qin Ming, looked at Mu Qingqing's grave, and said softly: "However, it is also because of my existence that the two of you cannot be together." Qin Ming, it's not wrong that you love her, but," she turned her head to look at Qin Ming, with an unconcealable choked sobs in her tone, and asked, "Is my existence wrong?" ”

Qin Ming looked at her in a daze, his eyes were facing each other, he could clearly see the hidden pain that had been suppressed in the depths of her eyes, he always knew that the source of this matter was actually the wrong door, He was holding a breath in his heart, Xu Junlan was also holding his breath in his heart, but twenty-four filial piety came first, he couldn't openly spread this anger on He Shi, at this time Xu Junlan undoubtedly became the object of his venting.

He was paranoid and blamed all the fault on Xu Junlan, he thought that without her, Mu Qingqing would not choose to commit suicide, but today Xu Junlan asked him, is it wrong for her to exist?

It was this question that made him feel endless guilt in his heart.