"You know him?" I thought that Lao Ma would think about it somewhat, but I didn't expect Lao Ma to almost blurt out this sentence, it seems that he does know my father, and my father seems to be quite deep in his impression, Lao Ma asked again after saying this: "You are also surnamed Su, who are you?" ”

I told him that Su Kar-wai was my father, I was actually pretending to be sick, and I came here to find out something about my father, but Ma looked at me obviously and didn't believe me, so I had to tell him the ins and outs of the matter, and he suddenly said: "No wonder I always feel like you are pretending to be sick." ”

I said in my heart that you are an afterthought, and you have been comforting me to let me treat with peace of mind, and I just finished explaining that you said that you have long thought that I am pretending to be sick. But I didn't bother to bother with him, I said: "You also know that people who study psychology are more or less more capable of bearing than ordinary people, and nothing major has happened in my family, so the reason for his madness must be to remove external factors outside the family, let alone external factors, even if something really happens in my family, it may not be able to make a doctor of psychology collapse." ”

"What did you say?" Lao Ma was obviously a little surprised by my statement, and he asked again, "Is he crazy?" ”

"You don't know?" I was more surprised than him, he was my father's attending doctor, how could he not know about my father's condition, could he be lying? He's still sick at all?

"I know about your father, but I really don't know he's crazy." Lao Ma explained: "Your father went to the hospital to write a thesis, or I secretly helped him come in, he was normal at that time, it was because I was afraid of being seen by others, so I applied to be his attending doctor and secretly helped him take care of it." ”

"He was normal until he was discharged from the hospital?" I asked.

Lao Ma nodded and said: "I am an old friend with your father, because of my care, so he doesn't need to pretend to be crazy and stupid in the hospital, and the medicine I prescribed to him can be reduced as much as he can, so until he is discharged from the hospital, he is normal." ”

I said in my heart that my dad was still smart, and there was a friend in it who should have suffered less. But there is one thing that I am very strange, if it is according to what the old horse said, then how can the old man enter the seriously ill area?

However, Lao Ma said that my father had not entered the serious ward, but only stayed in the ordinary ward for three months and left, and I really did not see the words about the seriously ill ward in my father's notes, it seems that I had a preconceived idea.

"According to you, my dad was born after he was discharged from the hospital?" I asked, staring into his eyes.

Lao Ma nodded a little inexplicably by me, and I continued to ask: "Lao Ma, this matter is very important to me, you also know that mentally ill patients must find out the cause of the disease before there is a possibility of cure, you are honest, are you afraid of being responsible, so you have something to hide, my father has gone crazy, and it doesn't make much sense to hold anyone responsible, I just want to find out the cause of the disease, hoping to cure his disease." ”

Lao Ma said: "I said that I am friends with your father, I will not harm him, the amount of medicine prescribed to him before is very light, basically sleeping pills and other things, not to mention three months, that is, three years will not eat any problems, besides, this is a mental hospital, the medicine prescribed to patients may have some side effects, at most it is some different levels of damage to the body organs, but it will definitely not make a normal person crazy." ”

I think about it, I have been in for so long, and I have to take extra medication in the seriously ill area, and compared to the occasional confusion in my mental state, what makes me more distressed is that I can't pee out of niao. Lao Ma still has something, we didn't continue to chat, Lao Ma said let me call him after I came out, and he took the time to go back with me to see my father.

A week later, I didn't renew my hospitalization fee, and the hospital politely told me to roll up and get out. After walking out the door, I took a few deep breaths of fresh air, and then I realized that I was so happy before, and the air without the smell of medicine was so refreshing.

After being discharged from the hospital, I took a taxi back to my house, charged my phone and called Lao Ma, I still have some details I want to ask him again in person. However, Lao Ma said that he was now traveling in Yunnan, and I secretly scolded this old thing in my heart for not being true, and said that I would wait for me to come out to see my father together, and I went out to be chic and happy.

I had to talk to him on the phone about some questions, but the old horse didn't give any useful answers, but to my surprise, the old horse asked me if I still lived in my father's house, and he said that he sent me some things, which my father asked him to keep on his behalf before he was discharged from the hospital, but now it seems that he can't wait for my father to get it. I asked him what it was, and the old horse said that I should see it myself, and he couldn't figure out what it was about.

I hung up the phone and ran to the doorman, the doorman complained to me, saying that these couriers have been here for a long time, he went to my house a few times and didn't see anyone, I was embarrassed to say a few sorry, lying that I went out to travel. The express package is very tight, carrying some weight, I can't figure out what it is, take it home and open it to see, it turned out to be a few tapes.

I took a closer look at the cover of the tape, and it was full of advertising labels that didn't look like song tapes. There was no tape recorder at home, so I had to charge the battery car, and after waiting for half an hour to see that the battery was enough, I rode my little donkey to the market and bought one.

The tapes were marked with numbers in markers, for a total of seven reels from one to seven, and looked like a deliberate mark of the order in which they were played. I took out the first tape and put it in the tape recorder and pressed the play button, but to my surprise I waited five minutes and there was no sound. At first, I thought there was something wrong with the tape recorder, but after opening it, I saw that the gears of the tape recorder could turn normally.

After waiting for another half an hour or so, the tape recorder still did not play sound, and after several inspections, it was found that the tape recorder was indeed working normally. I had to wait for about half an hour, and finally there was a sound on the tape recorder, but it was a strange sound, and I didn't understand it at all.

I rewound the tape and re-listened to it a few times, and found that it was a dialect, and I was almost certain that it was not the language of the coastal generation. I listened to it several times in a row, and the more I listened, the more familiar it became, and after thinking about it for a long time, I realized that it was my father's voice.

My father's ancestral home is Anhui, which can be regarded as located at the junction of north and south, so the span of dialects is also relatively large. My father is from Fuyang, and the dialects of Fuyang, Bozhou and other places are more inclined to Henan dialect. Take Huangshan City, the most famous city in Anhui Province, for comparison, Huangshan people eat rice, raise people to eat noodles, and the language is even worse.