Little girl's marriage

[a]

When Yan Song knelt in front of her uncle, her little uncle knocked on the wooden fish eyelid without lifting.

"Buddha, help me." The girl grabbed the gray monk's robe, snorting and tearing.

"What is the matter with the benefactor?" The white and handsome Buddha's voice was gentle, but his tone was not very sincere, and he gently withdrew his robe.

"Buddha, I'm in love with two boys, I don't know who I should choose."

"Donor ......"

"Buddha, here's the thing, A is my senior in the same college, and he also works part-time as a pastor, so I often go to him to confess, complain about my two overly popular brothers, complain about them, I am in the group of girls who should not bear the pressure that I should not bear at such a young age, sugar-coated shells and overtures, so that I don't even know that my good popularity is because I have two good brothers or my own charm."

"Donor, according to the poor monk, your good popularity comes from your second brother, after all, he is better-looking. Your eldest brother, to be honest, is really ugly, and it is really good to carve out a mold with your father...... Ugly. ”

"Buddha, the point is not this, the point is that Senior A is very patient and gentle to comfort me, so I gradually like him. Then, on the day I was about to confess, I met alumni B, who silently ate a bowl of Malatang in front of me, yes, I was also eating Malatang, that Malatang was quite delicious, but I ate with a snot and a mouthful of oil, and he ate with a demeanor and a white moonlight. He is...... The best-looking boy I've ever seen eats Malatang. Then, I fell in love with B...... Now, I like both Seniors A and Alumni B, so, Buddha, what should I do? ”

The Buddha gently stroked his niece's fair little face, which was so young and so lovely. He asked her: "According to the poor monk's opinion, things should be simple and easy, and the heart should be light, and what is too difficult is not the most correct." So, the question is, A and B, who likes donors? ”

The little girl wiped her nose with her monk's robe, just like when she was a child, and she told the Buddha in front of her seriously, and replied seriously: "Actually, maybe, in fact, they don't like me." So, Buddha, what should I do? ”

The Buddha didn't say anything for a long time, closed his eyes, and slowly opened his eyes for a long time, and said gently: "If you don't like you, my uncle will help you curse them to become toads in the next life, and let them all roll calves and be stupid." ”

[two]

Yan Song asked the Buddha and returned to the school in great distress, her alma mater is also her mother's alma mater, but her mother's name is still engraved in the history of the school, and her name is just a name. Yan Song's appearance and personality are very similar to her mother, but her academic performance is never as good as her mother, who has been spoiled by her father since she was a child, and she is more and more difficult to study.

The Department of Philosophy has been strange since ancient times, and it is said that there have been three and a half crazy people in the history of Colonel Z, three who studied philosophy, and half of them came from the Law School, a good neighbor of the School of Philosophy that has not changed for a hundred years. The so-called environment affects personality.

The students of the School of Philosophy unanimously agreed that Yan Song has an ignorant face, and ignorance is a more polite word, but it is actually a face that is confused all the time.

For example: "Praise, do you like Nietzsche or Rousseau or Hegel or Voltaire or Aristotle, Nietzsche is too crazy, Rousseau is too ideal, Voltaire is not good in private morality, Hegel personally thinks that he is too sought after and Aristotle was born in the wrong era, what do you think?" ”

Praise: Confused.

Another example is this: "This era is complimented as the era of freedom, the ideal is very free, love is very free, and the quality space for everything to choose from is very large, but in the end, there is no way to realize the ideal, love is still on par with money and power, clothing, food, housing and transportation can be selected, but it is still limited to ability." And human ability is related to innate heredity, so from this point of view, is freedom always empty talk? Although the equality and justice advocated have achievable soil, but because the seeds are not good, they can only become a fashionable concept, so what is the point of our moving forward? Progress in thought is far from saving humanity, don't you think, Yang? ”

Praise: Confused.

Another example is this: "Yan Song, I discussed with my parents yesterday, although your mother is an academician, your father is a legend, and your two brothers are very good, although your family background is prominent, although you are barely handsome, but we still agree that you are a bit stupid, and you don't seem to be smart enough to get along with others, and you are obviously not a good match for me, so I unilaterally inform you that I have decided not to have a crush on you, and please don't harass me in the future." ”

Praise: Confused.

Of course, the most is like this: "Praise what your eldest brother likes to eat, what to wear, what movies to watch, what songs to listen to, what, your eldest brother has a girlfriend, oh, it doesn't matter, then what does your second brother like to eat, what to wear, what movies to watch, and what songs to listen to?" ”

Words: "......"

In view of the endless emergence of such characters, Yan Song often goes to a senior who claims to have been baptized in a seminary to confess, the senior is as gentle as the breeze, handsome as a pine willow, he can understand everything she says, he can answer everything she says, every word of comfort is like a firm iron, which makes people feel very comfortable.

But it's a little bad.

The senior's surname is Gu.

Her father said that when he met the surname Gu in school in the future, he would run away with his legs, stupid.

Why, Dad?

Because our family and the Gu family have a feud.

Although Senior Gu's eyes are as bright as stars, his lips are red and his teeth are very attractive, and his expression when he looks at her seems to encourage her to confess, but ...... Dad couldn't help but listen to his words, so Yan Song's little girl had been hesitating, whether to confess, how to confess, until one day, Yan Song went down the stairs while listening to the song, and when she slipped and fell in the crook of Gu Senior's arm, her eyes were facing each other, her meaning was as strong as wine, and her feelings were as mellow as tea, and the little girl felt that the time had come. For Romeo's sake, even if it's Juliet.

She stayed up three nights and wrote a love letter. The love letter says, "No one has ever said seriously that you are a lovely and shining girl, but you have said it; No one has ever spoken to me seriously, just because words are praises, not because of anything else, but you did it; No one ever told me seriously, Yan Song, you see, spring is coming, the wind is refreshing but not sticky, the sparrows are gray but chubby, the grass is green and the flowers are budding, and everyone has a peaceful smile on their faces. It's nice that we go to work hard, and we go to the heart of life, isn't it?

"I did a proof question to prove that I can't like you, and the answer is as follows:

"You can like it, or you can't like it.

"So, yes or no, I like you."

Yan Song thought that she had written a touching love letter, and this script looked serious, she was ready to take advantage of the fact that there was no one in the evening and stuffed it into Senior Gu's desk, but a spicy meal changed a storm.

Yan Song had a spicy meal on the way to the classroom. A small roadside table with one broken foot sits two people across from each other. The person opposite also ate a bowl of Malatang, but this was a simple bowl of Malatang, compared to the bowl full of grains with beef balls and fish balls and fish tofu instant noodles in Yansong, there were only vegetables and radishes in that bowl.

But Yan Song felt that the spicy tang on the other side was more delicious, at least the appearance of being eaten by that person made people feel that it was very, very ...... Delicious.

Yan Song was hooked by a bowl of spicy tang, and the love letter she was holding was handed to the person opposite unknowingly.

When she came back to her senses, the young man opposite her, who was as beautiful as a mountain and as beautiful as the sun, had already stretched out a white and powerful hand very seriously, and he said, "I promise to associate with you and praise your classmates." ”

When she came back to her senses completely, she had an extra boyfriend.

On the second day, Yan Song consulted his uncle, who had been a monk for many years and had been drinking and meat, but he did not get good advice, and called his mother again in the evening.

"Mom, I'm in love."

The other side was silent for a while, and then Yan Song heard a scream: "What are you talking about stupid?!" You have a boyfriend?! Who kidnapped you! Damn, I'll go over now, I'm going to fight with him?! Wrong! Lao Tzu wants to call the police! You stand there and don't move! ”

Apparently her dad stole her mom's call.

Yan Song sighed and coquettishly: "Dad, Dad, I miss you so stupidly." ”

The other end of the phone flashed with tears: "Dad, dad also wants to be stupid, your eldest brother and second brother are not fun, not stupid and cute, my son, when are you on vacation, Dad misses you so much, my son's father came back from France yesterday and brought you a little dress, you come back soon." ”

Yan Song's heart was about to melt, and he coaxed his father softly for a while before hanging up the phone.

Yan Xi on the other side was sentimental and went to H City to study, as if he had forgotten the beginning of this conversation.

Ah Heng called his daughter back in the evening, Yan Song told his mother again, Ah Heng thought for a while, and suggested: "Mom suggests that you at least see who you like." ”

"What is a real like, Mom?"

"A need."

"What kind?"

"When we are busy, we may forget everything, but when we are busy, the first person that comes to mind is the deepest need that is built in consciousness."

"You fell in love with Dad because you needed to?"

"Falling in love with your dad at first sight is the most irrational thing I've ever done in my life. That...... It's not just a need. ”

[three]

Yan Song inexplicably had a boyfriend, and later learned that her boyfriend's name was Song Yan, and her name just fell off. However, compared with the name "Yansong", Song Yan's gold content is much greater. Song Yanao entered the school with a full score, studied computer science, and once led the team to build a lot of functional robots, representing the school to participate in international competitions, and won awards and soft hands. Yan Song often saw his name in various newspapers and periodicals, but he was never seen, only heard.

Now after inquiry, I know that his face is the most famous. How affordable girls are, as long as the face is good-looking, other information about IQ, personality, and character can be automatically treated with soft light. Therefore, even if Song Yan's character and character are unknown to outsiders, there are still a lot of people who pursue him.

Although Yan Song and Song Yan exchanged phone numbers, the two did not move at first. After a few more days, Yan Song was still hesitant to take the initiative to contact, to reply to the love letter, and formally apologize, but Song Yan had already called and asked her to go to Wuli River outside the city to play.

As soon as Yan Song heard Song Yan's voice, his legs became weak, and the dizziness he felt when he ate Malatang came again, nodding like a chicken pecking rice.

By the time she arrived, Song Yan was already sitting by the river fishing like an old monk. The willow trees next to it, the peach trees are slender, the wind is smooth, Yan Song smiled slightly, and the nervous mood just now instantly relaxed.

She said, "The weather is so nice today, Song Yan. ”

Song Yan said, "Yes." ”

Then he continued to stare intently at the river and the ripples that were coming.

Yan Song did not disturb him, sat quietly, and when he turned around, he saw a small windmill made of delicate hard-shell colored paper beside him, so he looked at it with some curiosity.

Song Yan handed over the small windmill: "Today, the south wind is level two, and the air flow is continuous, I just folded it, give it to you." ”

Yan Song was stunned, took the small windmill, and headed north-south, and sure enough, the little windmill swayed and turned. Yan Song seemed to recall the fond memories of his childhood, stood up, and ran in the direction of the wind, and the little windmill spun even faster.

For the first time, she felt that running was also a fun thing, and she laughed unconsciously.

That day, Song Yan caught four fish, two for barbecue and two for stewing. Yan Song felt that the grilled fish was tender and the soup was delicious, and then looked at Song Yan's gaze with an extraordinary softness.

When the sun was warmest, they slept soundly in a corner by the tree.

Yan Song had a dream, she dreamed of herself when she was young, in her mother's arms. When I woke up, I was inexplicably a little emotional, Song Yan is really a very warm person, although he doesn't like to talk.

It seems that this day opened the mode of getting along with the two. It's always Song Yan who asks Yan Song to come out on the weekend, Yan Song agrees, the two get along for a day in a comfortable mood and environment, and every time Song Yan gives her a small handmade gift, he can't see the intentions, it's probably a simple little thing for him. And she is his nominal girlfriend after all, and it seems that it is appropriate to please her with careful thoughts.

He was more serious at first, and when he was more familiar, he would smile at her. When Song Yan smiled, his eyebrows seemed to be smudged by the sun, which made Yan Song feel amiable and cute, and he was also very handsome.

Later, when he was more familiar with it, he would even make some simple little robots to bring to her, and then Yan Song looked at the little robots walking around mechanically on the grass, clicked, turned, walked around again, and then laughed inexplicably.

When he was with Song Yan, time passed quickly, and Yan Song was looking forward to every weekend. Familiar classmates know that she has a date, but they don't know who this person is. After all, it's not just a bowl of spicy tang that can summon a boyfriend casually, this kind of magical and wonderful thing, let's not talk about it.

This kind of relationship is like a dream, they have not met each other in school, and there is no chance of intersection. She always saw him in TV interviews and in various newspapers, and the teenager led his team to gradually gather strength and authority. He aroused the admiration and admiration of everyone around her, but she was still the same ordinary person. She became frightened and confused, and always felt inferior and strange. After two years of love, Yan Song seriously thought about why he agreed to her obviously wrong confession.

Song Yan's little robot and a whole mountain stream that can spread joy can't make her laugh anymore. Song Yan was indifferent, as if one day he couldn't see it at a glance, he would completely leave this mortal world and return to his own paradise. But what about her, after getting along like a trickle, she really began to rely on him and needed him, well, in fact, after falling in love with him, how to get out?

This kind of unequal love, the praise does not even have the right to refuse. planted the fire of doubt, and Song Yan's every move made Yan Song every inch chaotic. He didn't hold her hand, he didn't touch her cheek, he didn't kiss her, if the definition of "friend" and "lover" is completely different, then "friend" is obviously more in line with the mode of getting along with the two.

[four]

One day, the academy gathered. Senior Gu, who had not been contacted for about two years and had been admitted to graduate school, also attended the party. After Yan Song had Song Yan, she gradually distanced herself from him, although he was still so kind to others, but when she saw him at this time, she could only nod and smile.

A sentence came out of Yan Song's heart: I am the one who has a boyfriend.

The little girl's face flushed slightly, like a flower that had just budded at the beginning. Yan Song has always been a good-looking girl, after all, she has such a good-looking and Peugeot father. Therefore, for good-looking girls, everyone sees them and feels pleasing to the eye.

And those who drink are always complaining, and the boys are about to graduate from college, and the boys are a bit like unwilling hunters, after all, the captive lambs are about to go to the wider grassland, which is the gentleness and purity that they may never touch again. Therefore, there were also one or two boys who confessed to Yan Song, and Yan Song refused very seriously, and then gave each other a glass of wine. The last one who came in a drunken daze was Gu Yi. Senior Gu's single name is a "Yi" word.

He said: "Yansong, you probably don't know that every time I confess to you, it is also the most painful time in my life. ”

Yan Song has always felt that it was a good memory.

"I came to you for a piece of my father's obsession. He demanded that I have to get because of the delusion that I can't get. ”

Yan Song felt that he was confused again, and he couldn't understand it at all.

"It seems like a simple thing for me to seduce you to like me, because you obviously can't resist someone who is gentle and patient with you and treats you as an independent you. Your life is too ordinary, and your parents and brothers are very dazzling, and their pampering makes you feel unique in your home, but once you leave the house, this value is gone. So you're at a loss, you're distressed, you can't take away the added value that your parents and brothers have brought you, but you obviously can't reach the top with your own abilities. You've been trying to convince yourself that I'm the daughter of Yan Xi and Wen Heng, so I must be talented and capable, but in fact, you don't have such a thing. You admit it, and then you feel inferior. I bring you warmth and sustenance, let you face yourself, and you like me, it's a natural thing, isn't it? ”

Yan Song was swept into the dust by a shocking mood similar to "grass and mud horses".

Gu Yi continued to speak with leisure and mockery: "I am ready to get your confession and refuse you and humiliate you again, and by the way, tell my high-minded father that the love he wants, the love that he dreams of, is nothing more than that." I'm ready, I'm so excited to wait for a confession from you, the pleasure of arriving torments my heart, I watched you make up your mind and leave, that day, I waited for you all night. I thought you'd come in the next second with a love letter, but you didn't. I thought you would be shy to tell me that you liked me, and you didn't. In fact, I didn't wait for you just that night, every day after that. You never came to me again, and you no longer confessed to me. Everyone knows that you are in love with Song Yan, and I know that you are your mother's daughter after all, and you have inherited the same half-heartedness as her. ”

Yan Song was originally embarrassed to hear it, it turned out that everyone knew that the boy was Song Yan, but she thought she was hiding it well. But at the end, the girl's face turned pale, clenched her fists, instantly hit Gu Yi's face, and roared: "If you say me, I'll put up with it, why do you say my mother, my mother recruited you?" Your dad abandoned my mom for your mom, my mom didn't say anything, why is your family talking so much nonsense, you say my mom again, I can't beat you to death, you stinky egg! ”

Finally this time, she was not confused, it was the turn of others to be confused.

Yan Song reported to her father at night that she had beaten the son of the Gu family, and Yan Xi said, Dad sent you to the battlefield, not enough to send two more*.

"Two*" one was reading a book and the other was watching TV, and they rolled their eyes helplessly, with exactly the same expression, one dazzling handsome, and the other as gentle as water.

Yan Song called Song Yan, who had a mobile phone between his neck and a pen in his hand. He put down the pen, listened patiently for a while, and said softly, "Ah Song, it's not important. ”

"What?"

"I said it didn't matter what he said. You're angry about it, probably because you still care about him. ”

She wanted to explain her position sonorously and forcefully with firm words, but Song Yan didn't seem interested, but said lightly: "I'm sorry, I'm a little busy here, hang up first, and call later." ”

The stupid girl with the nickname of the Yan family put down the microphone and hung her head in silence. She didn't know how to express her affection, but Song Yan, who had always been as gentle and rational as her mother, didn't seem to care about her clumsy affection, Mo said that she didn't care about Senior Gu at all now, but she cared, and this kind of care obviously didn't become Song Yan's distress.

He doesn't agonize for her.

But she has.

She has many, many troubles, each of which is related to the word "Song Yan".

She knew what it was like to like what her mother said she liked. She understands the need that comes from the bottom of her heart, not because she can't do it on her own, but because she is with him, everything becomes a memory that she can remember.

Song Yan is like a marker, where he is, every page of her life is heavily colored and conspicuous and clear.

Yan Song finally realized this, and when she called Song Yan again, he had already turned off his phone.

She waited to see him again on the weekend, but his name never came up with the ringing of her phone. The girl is haunted by her dreams, but it turns out that the past is just a dream.

When he reappeared, it was a month later in the national newspaper headlines: "Z Song Yan vs. Crazy Army, Chinese genius finally wins over American robots." ”

Song Yan's team won the authoritative robot corps in the United States, and all parties had a crushing advantage in performance. When he stood on the stage and raised the trophy to give a speech, Yan Song smiled. She was proud of him, and knew that the secret pride of love would soon disappear. Back then, he and she didn't grow up, looking at the young people as young as young, and now he and her are like big trees and grasshoppers. He shines as brightly as a pearl, and he must not be secretly thrown into her arms.

After Yan Song laughed, he began to cry, and after a day or two, he figured out what he understood, and cheered up to read. After reading it for a day or two, I was stunned again, and I was stunned and sobbed. Ah Heng called her daughter and heard her cry once, she loved her very much, she felt something in her heart, and she cried sadly with her.

After all, falling out of love is just a trifle.

After that, Song Yan also called once, and there was silence on both ends of the phone. Eventually, the two of them groaned at the same time. Song Yan said, you have always talked a lot, you speak first.

Yan Song said, Then I said it for you, Ayan. Dear Ayan, let's break up.

Song Yan was silent for a long time, the girl bit her hand with her mouth, her snot and tears were all pasted on the back of her hand, and she cried like a fool.

Song Yan didn't agree immediately, although he was silent, he was a gentle person inside. He said, "In a few days, if you change your mind, call me."

[five]

It is conceivable that Yan Song was also raised by the feelings of the proud little princess, how could she still call him like this. If you are despised by the person you like, this frustration may be imprinted for a lifetime.

Like other girls, she studied hard, was sent to graduate school, changed her major as a graduate student, studied psychology, graduated with a master's degree in psychology, hurried to catch up with the decline of a certificate, and then returned to the public hospital in City B to apply for a successful job, so she settled down and became a psychological counselor. Mom and Dad retired early, but since they were young, they have been legendary and bright, deeply in love with the world, and have been loved by the world until now, the brothers are loved, and she is happy with her, looking at all this is the most beautiful scene of the world's wealth and flowers.

Yan Song gradually began to go on a blind date, she has a cheerful personality, and there are many good boys to pursue, and her parents have chosen a good boy who is as ordinary and cheerful as her. She was engaged to choose a wedding dress, choose a ring and then make an appointment, and was busy for a happy time, but one day, she fainted at the crossroads, and her hurried footsteps suddenly stopped.

At that time, it had been seven years since the young wind and snow.

Reading the newspaper minus the technology edition, reading the news and skipping the freshness, she, ah, finally forgot that day. However, it finally returned to that day.

When she woke up, there was a group of people around her, and the kind aunt was fanning her with a newspaper, and the aunt said, girl, you have a heat stroke, try to see if you can stand up.

The girl stared at the words in the newspaper and stared at it in a daze.

A well-known American reporter interviewed the mechanical genius Song Yan and asked him how many months his marriage to American supermodel Du Rui was.

Song Yan smiled softly in the interview, and the well-known reporter described that this handsome and beautiful Oriental man had stars twinkling in his eyes, and he who never had scandals with others probably really met true love this time.

Like a newborn child seeing a moving object, she subconsciously grabbed the newspaper gently, she stood up and said I have nothing to do with you, but she began to cry as she walked, and the despair of many years ago resurfaced, and she hated herself for thinking that she would have been able to laugh at everything, but the sense of disparity that could not match him never disappeared. Yan Song hated herself, she knew that her ability was limited compared to her parents, she knew that she was separated from Song Yan by a universe, and she even understood that this mismatch was not only due to her lack of being able to stand side by side with him, but also because he didn't love her.

At least, when he saw her, there were stars twinkling in his eyes.

When she was young, she loved confession, and she always felt that she was in trouble, but when she really had unrecognizable things, those resolvable things were just the thoughts of a girl, and this unrecognizable thing was really the hidden pain of a lifetime.

The bitterness is called the lovesickness that has fallen in love.

When Yan Song returned home, inexplicably, he fell ill. She had many dreams, each of which was on the banks of the river, blue as the sky, little robots walking awkwardly among the rice fields, and each robot came up to her and handed her a note, which said, I love you.

I love you.

The girl who thought she had lovesickness woke up from the illusion, looked at the reality, only to feel that her heart was extremely bleak, and she ate a few mouthfuls of Chinese medicine and Western medicine, and then fell asleep again.

After a few days, he was sent to the hospital, but it was not a lovesick disease, but an incurable disease that was more difficult to solve than lovesickness, Ah Heng frowned for a long time, and Academician Wen, who had never been stumped by the disease in his life, sighed.

That illness not only made her daughter muscular atrophy and unsteady on her feet, but also made her flower-like age, but like a skeleton, no longer beautiful. She put on her daughter's white robe again, and returned to the institute when her temples were gray. On the other hand, Xi traveled around the world just to find Changming's medical skills and treat the little girl.

Yan Song's fiancé is just an ordinary person, ordinary people can only add icing on the cake, but they can't go through ups and downs, so they are naturally in a hurry to get married.

Yan Song was in excellent spirits for a while, sat up and drew her eyebrows and eyes tremblingly, she was like an old lady with limited mobility, and her painting was not good-looking, but she put on lipstick, sat upright, and asked Yanxi: "Dad, am I good-looking?" ”

Yan Xi smiled, stroked her daughter's head, and looked at her with clear, warm, and loving eyes. He said, "Pretty looking, just as good as your mother." ”

Yan Song exhaled and said, "Then I'll be relieved." Mom is so good-looking, I'm as good-looking as she is, that's good. ”

The brothers Yanqi and Yanjing took turns to stay in front of the Yansong window, and they treated her as if they were young, reading interesting books to her and telling her what the names of the newly blooming flowers outside the window were.

Yan Song suddenly looked in the mirror one day, and saw that his hair was gray, and he was crushed by the pain, and he couldn't stand it, so he sat on the edge of the bed, and gently leaned on his father's ear and said: "Dad, stupid and uncomfortable, let go of stupidity." ”

Yan Xi didn't shed a single tear since her daughter was sick, and after persuading her a few words at this time, she couldn't hold it back, and walked out of the ward in a few steps, sat at the door, and cried.

Ah Heng has been soaking in the research institute since her daughter was sick, only visiting her daughter regularly in the evening, and came in a hurry today, and saw her husband sitting at the door and swallowing tears, frowning his eyebrows, hugging him with tears, and said softly: "It's okay, Yanxi, with me, it's okay to be stupid." ”

She fed her daughter as if she had nothing to do, talked and laughed gently with her daughter, and combed her with a beautiful braid, and behaved as usual without hurry, and when she left, she turned her back to her, and her voice was firm: "You are the most uneasy child among your three brothers, I was in pain for twenty-four hours when I was born, and this debt is not compared to my mother, but I care, I want you to pay it back; When you were a young picky eater, you only drank breast milk, as the saying goes, a drop of breast milk and a drop of blood, I want you to pay this debt; When you were a child, you were a little fat man, when you couldn't walk, I spoiled you and carried you on your back, you asked me if I was tired at that time, I said I was not tired, you asked me if I wanted to repay me, I said my mother didn't. Those are all lying to you, and your mother will be tired, and your mother will want you to repay you. Pay me back everything you owe me, don't think about paying it back in the next life, I'm not me in the next life, you're not you, it's all empty words. ”

Yan Song's throat choked: "But, Mom, I don't know how many more days I can be your daughter." ”

Ah Heng's eyes were red, he took a deep breath, and said softly: "Give me another month, just one month, one more month." ”

Yan Song put her face between her knees, and as soon as she lowered her head, tears fell, and she said, "Okay, Mom."

No matter how painful it is, stay up?

Okay, Mom.

[six]

Yan Song, as a guinea pig, was sent to his mother's research institute, Ah Heng said: "This is a dying person, with a strange disease that is rare for 10,000 people, please show your medical skills, cure me for her to kowtow to everyone, if you can't cure her, I will carry her home." ”

The doctors in the institute have never heard Academician Wen say such a heartfelt statement, and it seems that there is no way out but determination.

Yan Song survived a month later, and her mother found the root of the disease and cured her. The disease is said to be heredity, Ah Heng thought about it for a while, and then knew that the disease came from her husband, who had been seriously ill once. The reason why her daughter's illness is more difficult to treat than her husband is because she has the heart to abandon her life.

Ah Heng slapped her daughter hard, she said: "No matter who you are for, it is your fault for being so afraid and cowardly and treating yourself harshly." I and your father have been looking forward to a daughter for more than ten years, the heart and liver pearl are as spoiled, you cough your father is distressed, he yearns for freedom by nature, but the first thing to go to is to buy you clothes, buy toys, be bound by you and willing, and then I heard that the root of the disease came from him, sitting on the sofa for a long time without speaking, he has never been a person who loves to cry, in order to bring you the pain and cry a lot, half of the hair is white. You are young, and if you are only an obsession, you will be old in the wilderness, but you lack the courage to be a coward, practice yourself, and practice me and your father. Our husband and wife depended on each other when they were young, and it is also two people with one heart and one life, and it doesn't hurt to practice it as you like. But why do you despise life so much when you are so young? ”

Yan Song hugged Ah Heng and cried and said, "Mom, I was wrong. ”

Ah Heng said, "You don't have to go home now, and your father and I don't want to see you again for the time being." Anyway, the world is far away, you might as well see what the world is like. ”

Yan Song left home, looked at the snow in the Alps, read old books from the British Museum, stood on a European harbor and looked at the sea that was reluctant to rush day and night, and also sat on the Japanese Shinkansen and listened to the sound of cherry blossoms falling in April. She finally understood that Song Yan was so stable and peaceful because she knew the mysteries of the world and nature, and it was she who forced him into a desperate situation where she had to give up on her with ignorance and anger.

She was finally relieved and used her mobile phone to dial the original number, whether he was married to Durry or someone else, she owed him a "sorry". But she guessed that it might not be him who answered the phone, after all, after so many years, but there was only a long silence on the other side of the phone that was connected, and Yan Song listened to the suppressed and intermittent breathing, and wondered that she seemed to hear sadness and panic. Song Yan is not such a person, he has always been confident and open-minded, such as Zeng Zi, a disciple of Confucius in the pre-Qin Dynasty, who has the ideal and demeanor of "wearing light spring clothes, bathing on the banks of the Yishui River, spreading his arms and blowing the wind on the high slopes, and singing all the way back".

She paused, then spoke, "Is it Ayan?" ”

The other party still didn't speak, and he didn't hang up the phone.

Yan Song was sure that it was him because of this, and he was so ashamed that he couldn't help himself, and then he whispered: "Ayan, I'm sorry." ”

She apologized for her irresponsible abandonment.

On the other end of the phone, he was just a teenager who was in love for the first time, but now he is a mature and stable man.

He spoke, succinctly and hoarsely: "One thousand eight hundred and fifty." ”

Yan Song was surprised: "What? ”

The people over there were suffocated, and sighed softly for a long time: "I said to wait for you for a few days, and then I think about it every day, and after a few days, you can change your mind." After a few days, you didn't come back and waited for a few more days, not realizing it at first, just casually calculating, these many days have been 1,800 days. ”

He was so light-hearted, he was first stunned, and then he cried like a fool.

[seven]

She called her dad and said, "I'm in love again." ”

Dad said to her, "It's a different person." ”

She held a pair of jade-like hands and smiled slightly: "It's still that one." ”

Yan Xi's eyes widened, thinking in a daze, which one is it, he asked Ah Heng, and Ah Heng put his gray hair close to the long neck that was gradually loosening.

They have been together for half a lifetime, Ah Heng smiled, kissed the handsome face that was full of wrinkles at some point, and said lightly, it doesn't matter.

As long as the heart is still there, it doesn't matter if those who are there are not, those who stay where they are and those who leave.

What you really need, only you know.

[eight]

Yan Song once asked Song Yan: "Why did you agree to that confession letter so casually back then?" ”

Song Yan said: "You said in your love letter, 'Yan Song, you see, spring is coming, the wind is refreshing and not sticky, the sparrows are gray but chubby, the grass is green and the flowers are budding, and everyone has a peaceful smile on their faces. You look at me and make me feel that if I reject you, the wind will stop and the sparrows will become thinner. ”

Yan Song was embarrassed: "That's what someone else told me. ”

Song Yan said: "When I first went to university, I was told that the words of the School of Philosophy were very famous. ”

"It's because Yansong has a very famous father and mother and brother." Yan Song smiled, but now he is only relieved, relieved to face the appearance of an ordinary person, and relieved to let himself go.

Song Yan was surprised: "They told me that there is a girl in the School of Philosophy who is as beautiful as a painting, and her eyes will glow. Because he loves to help others, and he doesn't fight with others, he is particularly likeable. Later, they dragged me to sneak a peek at you. ”

Yan Song was astonished, no one had ever said such a thing to her.

When did she also look up to the eyes of others.

She said, "Then you ...... that day."

Song Yan smiled slightly: "I thought you would never ask me why I, who never eats spicy food, appeared in front of a stall full of spicy food that day." So, whether you write a love letter or not, who is it for, what is said in the love letter, and what does it matter. ”

"Ayan, why didn't you take the initiative to find me?"

"I'm afraid you'll tell me again that you're going to break up. Refusing once, I lied to myself that it was fake. I refused twice, but I didn't know how to get it back. After all, you are an excellent and cheerful girl, there are many boys who like you, from a rational point of view, I want you to have a better choice, but from a personal point of view, I am unwilling to let you go, so I have been hesitating and stalemate in place, deceiving myself, as if time has stopped forever on the day when we are still a couple. ”

Yan Song's heart was unbearable, she knew that she probably really misunderstood something. Whoever he falls in love with is the best person in his eyes, and it doesn't matter how he is in the eyes of others.

All she was obsessed with was the gaze of outsiders.

Yan Song wiped away her tears and took a deep breath: "Ayan, why didn't you choose supermodel Du Rui, that is a very outstanding girl." ”

Song Yan said: "Du Rui is a friend of my gentleman's friend, and the reporter Levi asked me whether her marriage to her was true because she was recognized as a good girl. I told him that I had a girlfriend and that she was a good girl. I have no reason to sacrifice my own good girl for the sake of another good girl. ”

After all, there are many, many good girls, but there is only one good girl I like.

[nine]

When the youngest daughter of the Yan family got engaged, the parents of the two sides had just met.

Ah Heng said, "Mother Song Yan, hello. ”

Song Yan's mother's eyes lit up, she hid behind her husband shyly, poked her head out, and looked at the goddess she admired in the past: "Hello Senior Sister Wen, my surname is Ruan." ”

Mr. Yan said, "Mr. Song, hello. ”

Song Yan's father smiled faintly: "Mr. Yan, hello." However, I don't have the surname Song. ”

Well.

Well?!