Mrs. Cheng's face has always been blue, it is obvious that there is a knot in the chest, the root is in the heart, in fact, many ladies in the back house have this kind of problem, but the symptoms shown by Mrs. Cheng are different from what Cheng Jin has seen in the past, she always feels that there is something else hidden, but she does not dare to draw conclusions, so she hides it and does not mention it, only saying, "There are no parents in the world who do not want their children to be good, and A-Niang's heart for the eldest sister is the same as for me." ”

"I know that," Cheng Chan stroked her hair with a smile, "Are you still worried that I will be jealous?" ”

Mrs. Cheng's partiality towards Cheng Jin is something that everyone can see, and their younger brother Cheng Mingyuan is also looking for trouble for Cheng Jin, but Cheng Chan, as the eldest sister, will not be jealous, but will also be a little more partial to Cheng Jin.

It is the nature of many women to be pitiful and considerate.

Cheng Jin shook his head, "I'm afraid that the eldest sister will take care of A-Niang's feelings in everything." ”

Cheng Chan was a little surprised, "How do you say this?" ”

"The eldest sister has been stable since childhood, a few of us are ignorant, and the eldest sister shares worries for A-Niang, but the eldest sister is also a human being, and you also have your own thoughts and joys and angers, you are for A-Niang, for us, for this family, suppress your nature, and try your best to cater to A-Niang, to cater to the world, so that you will be happy?"

"I ......," Cheng Chan said poorly, "people don't live to be happy." ”

"If a person lives for a lifetime, in just a few decades, if he is not happy, won't he come to this world in vain?"

"But if a person only thinks about his own happiness and makes others unhappy, he is too selfish."

"It's natural to be happy at the expense of others and benefit yourself, but you don't have to think about others in everything, you have to think more about yourself by looking at other people's faces." Cheng Jin sighed suddenly, his voice turned deep, "Decades are fleeting, people die like lights go out, even the heroes who have made great contributions to the world are just a piece of loess, and they have been arranged by others and become the talk of the streets and alleys, not to mention that we are ordinary people, you are wronged in everything, so what?" ”

Cheng Jin looks as usual, but it always makes people feel that there is a touch of helpless vicissitudes in these words, Cheng Jin can't understand it, but he doesn't study it in detail, "I won't be wronged in everything, but for the sake of A-Niang, I am willing for the sake of a few of you." ”

"What we are afraid of is your willingness." Cheng Jin's words were beyond Cheng Chen's expectations, "Eldest sister, we treat you as you treat us, I only hope you can live well, I only hope you can be happy, A-Niang must think like this, if you are unhappy in the future, how uncomfortable she should be." If you want to study for the imperial examination, just say to A-Niang, whether you succeed or not, why not give it a try? Do you think A-Niang can't tolerate you? ”

"What kind of nonsense is this?" Cheng Chan smiled, Mrs. Cheng treated her like an eyeball, even if the two had occasional disputes, it would not hinder the mother-daughter relationship, after all, they were mothers and daughters who were connected by blood.

"That's it, what can't you say about your own flesh and blood? You can't even trust A-Niang, who else can you trust? Cheng Jindao, "Eldest sister, if you really want to take the imperial examination, find an opportunity to tell Ah Niang that Ah Niang is not such a narrow-minded and unreasonable woman in the back house, or she will not allow it in the end, and she will not blame you." ”

"It's as simple as you say." Cheng Chan was moved by the words, but he still sighed hesitantly, "Let's think about this matter in the long run." ”

"How can we think in the long run? It's spring now, and it's only half a year before autumn, so does the eldest sister think it's too late to review now? You're already sixteen, and if you don't make plans early, you'll have to wait at home to get married, and at that time, will your in-laws want you to go to school? ”

Cheng Chan was unwilling, "Although I like to read, I have learned the scriptures and theories very shallowly, how can I catch up with those well-educated people in only half a year?" How can I get the test? If you really go and fail the exam, it's really embarrassing. ”

Although the township test is only the first level, but there are so many people in the country, not everyone can pass the exam, Cheng Zhan did not plan to participate in the township test before, and now there is only half a year, how can he be in time?

"The imperial examination has never been an easy task, take Ah Zhi as an example, he has been enlightened since he was five years old, and he has studied seriously in the academy and academy for so many years, and he still doesn't dare to end this year, how dare I dare to give it a try?"

"I remember that the second brother once couldn't write a strategy, but the eldest sister helped him catch a knife, and later he was rated A in the school."

If Cheng Chan was an ordinary woman, Cheng Jin would not dare to make this proposal, and it was also because he saw that Cheng Chan had always been erudite and thoughtful, and he was unwilling to be confined to the boudoir to be a daughter, and married and had children step by step to spend this life, so he had the courage to come up with this idea.

"After all, that's in the study of the family, the study of the family is just enlightenment, you haven't seen the students of the Guozijian, and the major academies in the world...... They have been studying hard since childhood, and we women are not comparable. In fact, hearing this proposal, Cheng Chan was not untouched, she knew that if she made up her mind, Mrs. Cheng, who spoiled the child, would still indulge her in the end, and her father Cheng Enhou didn't care about this, and now she was just worried that she would hurt her face if she didn't take the exam, and she was even more worried about hurting the face of Cheng Enhou's Mansion.

Cheng Mingzhi is now studying in Rende Academy, but like his old son, he has no talent and qualifications in his studies, but because he is a man, his family has to force him to take the imperial examination, and Cheng Zhan is good at learning and diligent and hardworking, but because she is a daughter, the family only let her enter the Guozi Prison Women's School, which adds glory to the family, and no one has considered letting her go through the imperial examination.

Guozijian women's school and Guozijian are completely different, although women's studies also teach scriptures and righteousness, but they do not aim at scientific examinations, let alone govern the country and level the world, what they learn is just to let women understand things and better teach their husbands and children.

"Don't worry about face at this time, how do you know if you can't do it if you haven't tried everything?" Cheng Jin pursed his lips, Zhao Hua's original intention of setting up the Guozijian Women's School was to encourage women to go out of the house and take talented women for the country, where did they expect that it would only be a few decades, and this woman had learned this virtue, "The eldest sister's foot is injured, and she can't go to the school left and right, so she simply studies at home to review the scriptures and theories, as for whether you can take the test, whether you can take the test or not, you can't get it after half a year, at least you have worked hard, and you won't regret it in the future." ”

Cheng Jin said what Cheng Chan had always wanted to do, and the look on his face at this time was not only moved, but he couldn't wait to close the door and read immediately.

"Although you are young, you have a straightforward momentum in your bones," Cheng Chan took a deep breath and smiled, "Even I was moved by what you said, what you said is right, no matter whether you go to the exam in the end or not, it is better to study at home first, even if I finally retreat, I have no regrets." ”