When we love heroes,

must love the beauty behind the hero.

In this world, the topics about men are always very abundant, from Comrade Dayu who passed through the door three times and did not enter to Fang Xiaoru, a classmate who was punished by the Ten Clans; From the iron-faced selfless killing of his nephew, to the father of Sun Guoguo, who is heading for the republic.

From wild history to official history, from strange to right, men always have the ability to shape themselves into pathos, perhaps, we can call it a hero complex, and women like beautiful clothes and a full set of SK

Same thing.

This thing is indispensable to a man.

For example, Lu Liu, Young Master Lu, who loves the plot of the eighth-rate TV. Do you think it's so troublesome? Miss Renwen only came out to toss when she set a three-day period, and it was not possible to dismantle the stage at a critical time if it was not a few days in the morning or a few days in the evening. You said that you can find a few big men to catch Yan Xi, can you still run with that small body, as for not to take another Xindayi. People's children and grandfathers are dead, and they provoked you? It's unlucky.

Another example, Yan Xi, who loves the sad Qiong Yao drama very much. Seize the opportunity to show how much you can sacrifice, the bones and flesh can make people play the stinky level of Chinese football, say deaf and deaf, say suicide and dare to hit the car. You said that if you can hit and die, you can do it, and now you are wrapped in a mummy and dangling around on crutches in the hospital to count hair? It is clear that the abuse is not in place, so that the author can't get off the stage.

Xin Dayi helped him and trembled: "Yanxi, why can't you think about it so much?" Go back and Ah Heng should hate me again. ”

Yan Xi walked and didn't dare to speak - when he had the operation, he suddenly didn't want to die, he bit his tongue too hard, and his tongue and palate were cleft.

The nurse licked the popsicle on the side: "What are you rubbing?" Say you, don't you want to be good, right, the comminuted fracture of the thigh. ”

Yan Xi twisted his face, and there were two girls behind him who had undergone correction surgery, and I heard that they were both non-mainstream.

Xin Dayi helped him: "Beauty, insist, let's take two more steps." ”

Yan Xi said word by word: "You didn't tell others about me, did you?" ”

Xin Dayi twitched: "I don't have the face to say that you attempted suicide, and what I told Siguan and them was that Ah Heng was gone, and you were in a bad mood and went to travel." However, it is estimated that the land flow cannot be hidden. ”

At that time, 120 checked Yanxi's phone, and the last call was made to Dayi, so he dialed him, and Dayi felt that he was the only person who knew about Yanxi's car accident.

Yan Xi patted Xin Dayi's head and continued to practice walking.

It has been nearly three months since Ah Heng left, and it was the height of summer.

Yan Xi took a pen and wrote: "Where did you get the money?" ”

Xin Dayi looked around, very vigilant, and then wrote: "I don't know, there are tens of millions more in the account in the past two days, which is more than the amount taken by Chen Ti. ”

Yan Xi was stunned, looking at the clear water in the pond, he always felt that something was wrong, but he couldn't figure it out for a while.

The next day, the land stream came.

When he saw Yan Xi, he smiled, this virtue is more pharaoh than the pharaoh of Egypt. He said, "I was surprised that you would use this method. This makes me very distressed, what should I do with you next? ”

Yan Xi couldn't say anything and didn't bother to say it, so he wrote two words: whatever.

Lu Liu looked at him, squatting beside him gently, he held Yan Xi's thin white fingers, and asked, "Can't we go back to the past?" There is no weighing past. Yan Xi, really can't it? ”

Yan Xi's eyes were open, her pupils were black and bright, innocent and mocking. He wrote a few more words: Have we ever had a past, Lu Liu?

Lu Liu looked at his words, touched them lightly, got up lightly, took out a handkerchief and wiped the ink mark on his hand, threw it away, and said slowly: "I'll let you remember." ”

Yan Xi also smiled, opened his lips slightly, his voice was hoarse and ugly, and he said, "Lu Liu, are you sure, are you loving me?" ”

Lu Liu pushed his wheelchair, bowed his head and smiled: "I have no choice, people feel such a lonely world, there is no one more suitable for me than you." ”

In September, his legs were slightly better, and a well-known newspaper in China wanted to interview DJ Yan - DJ Yan, who left the entertainment industry and lived as a normal man.

Yan Xi resigned a few times and was imprisoned in the apartment by Lu Liu, where can he go? Later, I felt that it was an opportunity and was moved.

After talking to Lu Liu, Ben didn't have much hope, but unexpectedly this person agreed, so he told Dayi in advance the location of his date with reporters.

The reporter is an experienced veteran reporter who has also interviewed Yan Xi before, and the two sides are nodding friends. When he saw Yan Xi's appearance with a sketchbook, he held his glasses and was surprised: "Did something happen to you?" ”

Yan Xi has always been known for being "handsome" in the entertainment industry, and it is really difficult to get close to these two words at this time.

Yan Xi smiled, his voice was still hoarse and ugly: "I think, you can ask something else, I have another date in an hour." ”

The reporter nodded in surprise and said, "Okay." Your fans would love to know how you're doing, or, why you quit at the time, when the fan club was close to half a million people. ”

Yan Xi thought for a while and said, "At that time, I had more things I wanted to accomplish than work. ”

"Is it more important than half a million followers?"

"I'm sorry, but yes. It's an incomparably honorable honor that half a million fans exist for DJ Yan, but my medal is still reserved for my own woman. ”

"You...... Do you have someone you like, is it Chu Yun? ”

"Although everyone has been looking forward to such an ending, Chu Yun and I ...... Let's put it this way, if I hadn't met her as DJ Yan, maybe I would have fallen in love with her. We are all true to our professional ethics and I am sure she knows that very well. ”

"It doesn't seem easy for people to accept. In this way, this person is not from the entertainment industry. Can you talk about the woman you like? I've been hearing rumors like this recently, you have a lot to do with the Lu family's Shaodong Luliu, and it seems that you have crossed the line. Is it a cover to say that there is a woman you like? ”

"Lu Liu and I have been good friends since we were children. I have known that woman for eight years, but only for eight years. Such a title, the woman you like, is actually not appropriate. I confessed that if it weren't for her, maybe Lu Liu and I would live together as good brothers for the rest of our lives. However, she existed, and it gave me a headache. ”

"Eight years, that's a long time. What kind of woman is she? It looks like it makes you very ...... Helpless. ”

"I've been resisting for a long time how I couldn't be so close to her, but obviously it's not going to work. I'm a pretty selfish and aloof person for the most part, but I've done so many things for her that make me feel weird. ”

"I heard that DJ Yan was working on an album for a long time before he quit his job, and your art skills have always been good, so is this album ready to be published?"

"This album is a personal item, maybe I will take my wife with me and show it to everyone when I have the opportunity in the future."

"Does it have anything to do with that woman?"

"No, it's something abstract, it's not about her, it's about some mood. Fiery, lovely, bright, cold, bitter, timid, too bipolar, but felt in continuous time. That kid is an old-fashioned and sluggish person, and I'm afraid he won't understand. ”

"DJ Yan, I hope one day I can attend your wedding with her."

Yan Xi smiled and held his hand: "This is, the best blessing." ”

After a few more polite words with the reporter, the interview ended.

Dayi bent on his waist and ran out of the other side of the café. As soon as the two embarrassed children picked up, Lu Liu walked over with a smile. Behind him was Sun Peng, who was dressed in a white suit and had an uninhibited smile.

Sun Peng looked at Yan Xi, his eyes were dark with a smile, cynical, and pinched Yan Xi's cheek: "Yo, Yan Shao, why did you lose weight like this?" ”

Lu Liu shook his head and smiled faintly: "If you don't eat, next time, I'm going to find someone to inject him with nutritional injections." In the second half of the sentence, the tone was threatening.

He turned around and said, "Dayi is also here, where are you going?" I also met Sun Peng just now, and it just so happens that we haven't seen each other for a long time, so it's better to have a meal together. ”

Xin Dayi looked at him, his face was cold and hard, with a chill: "No need, I'm afraid that you will poison me!" Then he took out a book and handed it to Yan Xi, "You asked me to find a book that specializes in dealing with light and dark lines." ”

Lu Liu raised his eyebrows and stretched out his fair and slender hand: "Why did you think about watching these recently?" Didn't you stop reading basic books a long time ago when you were studying painting with Professor Su at M University? ”

Yan Xi casually handed him the book.

Lu Liu looked at Yan Xi's expression, the book in his hand was not faked with a sense of heaviness, he didn't turn it over, handed it back to him with a smile, gently held his hand, and said, "It's time for lunch, let's go." ”

Sun Peng squinted at the gilded book with peach blossom eyes, and after reading it for a long time, he retracted his gaze, looked at Yan Xi with a smile, and pinched Yan Xi's left cheek.

Yan Xi smashed him on the head with a book: "Sun Peng, is there something wrong with you?" As soon as I saw Lao Tzu, I pinched Lao Tzu's face, I have had this problem since I was a child, a neuropathy! ”

Sun Peng coughed lightly, turned his head, smiled, nodded, and said, "I am." ”

Lu Liu glanced at Sun Peng, his eyes were deep, and he couldn't see the bottom.

They sat down to eat together, Yanxi lazily pounded the steak without taking a single bite, only taking two sips of juice from time to time.

Lu Liu said to Sun Peng: "I heard, you are going to set up a company? ”

Sun Peng said, "Yan Xi, you just drank a fly. ”

Yan Xi's face turned green: "Ah! ”

Sun Peng stuffed a large piece of cut tender meat into the gap between his open mouth, and smiled: "I lied to you." ”

Yan Xi was indignant, chewed twice, and swallowed.

Sun Peng smiled: "Yan Xi, your life is based on the goal of becoming a pig. ”

Yan Xi's voice was hoarse and disdainful: "Who decided it?" ”

He said, "I will." ”

Turning around, he replied to Lu Liu with a smile and politeness: "After a while, after I make a lot of money, I will start it in full." ”

Yan Xi was brought back to the apartment, Lu Liu had a board of directors in the afternoon, ordered the bodyguards, and left.

Yan Xi took out the book, and his palms were full of sweat.

It's not a book, or rather, just a box with its center hollowed out, but it looks like a book. Yan Xi could see it at a glance, because there were only six copies of this book on the market, and all of them were hidden in the library and were damaged, and they would never be so new.

This was how Dayi sent him a message. Fortunately, Lu Liu was not interested in painting techniques.

Yan Xi opened it, and inside was a letter and a bag of documents.

He unfolded the letter.

Yan Xi:

Zhan Xin'an.

It's been more than four months since I left, and I hope everything is fine at home.

The weather in Paris is always good. It's summer now, full of flowers, and I heard the landlady say that the winter days used to be very warm, not like City B, and the city was full of snow.

I live in the 12th arrondissement, very close to the institute. The subway is only five stops away every day, and it takes 30 minutes to get to the subway station, which is quite troublesome. I've been eating a lot of weight lately, and Parisian cheese with bread tastes weird, but it's addictive when you get used to it, like this city. It's good to be fat, just lose weight. Most men in the world, except for you (because you often don't notice my appearance), don't like Ah Heng's waist like a bucket.

I bought a trench coat for thirty-five euros, which was bought by the landlady for an acceptable price.

When I reported to the institute, in addition to 300 euros of living expenses and a set of white overalls, I also had a Bible. The landlady's son, eight-year-old Iso, said to me, "It's the word of God, you see."

So little kid, in his father's big coat turned into a big coat, dragged on the ground, and he told me that he wanted to be Sherlock Holmes. I folded a pipe for him with paper, and he held it in his mouth all day and asked me if I wanted to be Watson.

I thought, that's great, and it's going to be a profession in the future.

If one day, you can't find me in City B, I don't hate your "never come back" sentence, but I'm probably Watson who has become Sherlock Holmes and won't go back.

Perhaps, you'll return home once in a while. Since you have idle the courtyard, I am bored in my spare time, and I have planted sunflowers all over the garden, although I dare not say that I have exhausted myself to take care of them every day, but every time I return home, the first thing is to look at it. Now, three full years, the flowering season is approaching.

I don't know if you still remember Chu Yun, the first woman to be so close when you grew up. She used to say that her favorite person was a man who looked like a sunflower. This is very apt for you.

Sunflower. Golden, when he smiles, there is a beautiful light flowing in his eyes, always towards the sun.

And I, always love the sunflowers.

There are thousands of people in the world, but it is a pity that everyone has quirks, and it is not as good as one, and it is not surprising that they have seen too much.

Yanxi, I think I've finally found a place where I can shout your name loudly, but no one looks at me.

They don't understand Chinese, and they don't understand what these two words mean to me.

I wish you well, but I don't know what your current situation is. Since you know Wen Heng, you have never believed in me for a minute or a second, you only believe in yourself, so you would rather rely on your own strength to save Dayi. But you don't know that on that day, a minute before you called, Chen Ti called me to stabilize you, and he said that he was willing to fight for Dayi and Lu Liu to the end. I don't know if your troubles have fulfilled Lu Liu's wish or your wish.

I know that you said such a thing because you were afraid that I would be hurt by Lu Liu, but since I have said the words of forgiveness only once, I will never go back. Besides, if you dare to hit the truck, regardless of life or death, if I am really with you, with your courage, wouldn't Wen Heng have a few more chances to be a surviving person?

Besides, I said that I would like to raise a disabled man, even if you have disabled legs and crawl to see me, I will raise you. But, with your step-by-step character, do you dare to believe it?

I hope you are good, I want you to be indecisive for many years, and you have not stopped entangling with Lu Liu, and you probably have some thoughts for a hundred years. Wen Heng has no intention of stopping him, I hope you can sit with Lu Liu in a room with a fireplace, with white hair, reading your favorite poems, looking at the paintings you painted, with affection in your veins, until you die.

My grandfather gave me something the day before I left the country, which was the evidence of the Lu family that he had over the years, and he had concealed it until now, in case the net was finally broken. I begged for a long time, for a future for us, but you never believed me for a minute. Now that you can't use it, let Dayi give it all away, I just hope that although you are close to Lu Liu, you will not be hindered.

I have known you since I met, and I only hope that there will be lovers in the world who will eventually become married, but now, I am in a peaceful state of mind.

Don't read it.

Balance

September 2006 book