“Today_is_the_day.”

At least four people have said this to me today, and even the tone in which they say it is very similar.

If you like old Hollywood movies, you will find that in the vast majority of films with "tough guys" and "shootouts" as their selling points, there will be such a person...... He would say the line to his teammates with a straight face, a frown, and a constipated, ritualistic demeanor before embarking on a dangerous mission.

And in the next half hour, the person who said this line will die nine times out of ten......

There are similar words - "I will wash my hands after this vote", "We will get married after this vote", "Look, this is a photo of my wife and children, I will invite you to my house for dinner after this vote", "How are you going to spend it when you get rich?" I want to open my own garage" blah blah.

Although this is all a movie routine, it is a foreshadowing technique for the director to make the audience feel sorry and strengthen the impact of the plot when the character dies, but in my opinion, it also has a certain reference significance.

From these lines, you can summarize some rules - before you do a high-risk event, don't pay too much attention to it, too much attention will make you nervous, tired, retreating, and playing abnormally; But don't think about what you want to do before it's done, as it will distract you, reduce your ability to execute, and increase the probability of failure.

Ordinary mind is the most important thing.

What we Longjun people are best at is this, that is, the golden mean.

In everything, we must pay attention to the point and stop, and it is too much.

Take the bank robbery as an example, the experience of countless predecessors tells us that the problem of a failed robbery is often that some adrenaline rush is the problem.

If you have a member of your team who is "an alcoholic, addicted to drugs, loud, hysterical, and always thinks that his poor self-control is just a sign that he is a pure man", then you better get him out of here, because in 99% of cases, such people can do bad things...... Of course, if that person's name is Trevor Phillip (Trevor_Philips), then you should consider him the exception of the 1%.

However, the group of teammates I led today ...... It's not "Lao Cui", but a bunch of fools.

To be honest, as soon as I met these guys, I regretted taking the deal, but there were rules, and I had already accepted the errand and taken the deposit, so I had to do it hard.

By the way, I haven't introduced myself yet...... My name is Yan Wuxian, a person with strong ability, his profession is "collecting money to do things", and he is called "postman".

Personally, I don't really like the nickname, just as I don't like the old movie of the same name (in this case, the 1997 film "The_Postman" directed and starred by Kevin Costner); A lot of people think this film is not bad, but in my opinion, this is just a narcissist who reuses the routine he used in "Future Water World", and it has become more procrastinated and boring.

If I had to pick my own, I'd rather have a nickname like "Old Driver", and I wouldn't care if there was any misunderstanding.

Except for a little bit of false name in the Tao, about me as a person...... Actually, there is nothing to say.

I'm ordinary.

Once, I also wanted to be a good person, have a serious job, start a small family, and live a hot life with my wife and children.

Pity...... I was out of luck.

Remember, when a man like me tells you he's "bad luck," don't take it literally; In fact, these four words contain a point of helplessness and nine points of accusation against the current state of society, but it is difficult to say a word and I can't tell you, so I say this...... It would be best if you could read something in my melancholy eyes, and if you couldn't, forget it, it doesn't matter.

As for my job, the main thing is to take all kinds of "orders" to complete tasks that law enforcement doesn't care about or don't allow.

I will take the kidnapping work, and I will also take the work of rescuing the hostages.

I'll do the robbery, and I'll do the work of recovering lost property.

I can do the assassination, and I can do the work of protecting the target.

I don't have my own team, I don't want to join any fixed team, and I team up with new teammates every time I go on a mission.

Of course, after coming out for a long time, you will always meet some familiar faces; However, in this industry, there will not be too deep friendships between peers, because no one knows when they will hang up or become enemies with each other.

The biggest advantage of a "lone ranger" like me is that it is easy to run, and once the situation becomes out of control, I will leave the task and my teammates without any psychological burden, and it is most important to save my life.

Today, for example, I think I think there is probably room to play to this advantage.

Looking back...... The self-proclaimed "Tobacco Club" employer was suspicious, I had never heard of it before, and they were sloppy with a bunch of very amateur teammates.

Now I can only pray that it was just an embarrassing accident and not some kind of orchestrated "trap......

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Today is a day to remember.

Counting today, I haven't had a "seizure" for 300 days.

It seems that the "emotion management" course I taught myself really worked.

In the past 300 days, whether it has been bullied, beaten, insulted, or abused...... I've endured all kinds of physical and psychological stress, and I haven't had a single "seizure", which was unthinkable in the past.

I thought, I'm ready.

Tonight, there will be a total lunar eclipse.

On this night of the red moon, if I can also restrain myself, then I can prove to "them" that what they can do, I can also do.

I just want ...... Don't be surprised.

…………

Today is a bad day.

Just like every day I've lived in the past few years.

If there is a god in this world, then I must be a sinner who was born cursed by him.

I was born into a family of police officers, my father, mother, and second uncle, all of whom were federal police officers; Since I was a child, I have been told to "dedicate oneself to justice", to be "just", to be "worthy of one's conscience", to "protect the weak", and ...... to "be a hero".

I did as they said......

I think that's why...... I am now being held in a makeshift detention cell awaiting trial.

There is a saying that "good people are not rewarded", and I am one of the witnesses to this saying.

When I was a child, my father was shot dead in an alley by his partner for refusing to accept black money, and the person who took over the case, or ...... Everyone in his police district, like his partner, takes money from the same bigwigs.

The progress of the case speaks for itself.

Mother is a tenacious woman, and of course she didn't accept the bullshit "findings", she chose to fight.

So, a few months later, she died in a "traffic accident".

At that time, I was still young, my eldest brother was in the police academy, and my second brother was still in middle school. For us...... The second uncle compromised.

The second uncle used the death of our parents as a bargaining chip, took a large amount of money from unknown sources, and saved my eldest brother from the fate of being developed into an undercover agent in the police academy.

After that, the second uncle quit his job as a policeman, gave up a large amount of pension, and found a job as a messenger watching the door in the office building; He used the money he received to support our three brothers, and sent his second brother to college, while he was still living very poorly, and he was almost forty years old and did not get married.

The eldest brother later successfully became a police officer, while the second brother went to study law and became a lawyer.

I understand what they think, and they all want to do justice in their own way, one day...... Revenge for your parents.

And this day came sooner than I expected, but in a form I didn't expect.

The eldest brother and the second brother's secret investigation of their parents' old case in their respective fields eventually attracted the attention of the dirty cops and gangsters involved, and they began to receive death threats and substantial attacks.

But none of them are the kind of people who will give up......

As a result, not long after, the second brother died in a car bomb in the parking lot outside the courthouse.

On the same day, a fire broke out in the second brother's law firm, and all the evidence he had collected over the years was burned.

Two days later, my second uncle and eldest brother gave me a fake citizen ID and put me on a flight to another country.

It wasn't until I watched the news that after sending me away, the two of them went to kill a lot of people, from the federal police station, all the way to the gang's lair, and finally died in a shootout.

I understand their choice, which they made in despair and anger after learning that "there is no revenge through the system".

Although the incident between the second uncle and the eldest brother caused a lot of trouble, it did not cause any negative social impact in the end, because the official announcement of the plot was "the gang raided the federal police station, and the police launched a heroic counterattack and finally won a big victory"; The general public has no way to verify whether this set of statements is true, and with the various guidance of the mainstream media, this has become a heroic deed that can be sung and cried.

And I, perhaps, should be glad that as one of the very few people who know the truth, no one has come to me to say goodbye.

After that, I became a homeless person – homeless, with no legal identity, one false identity after another, and one temporary job after another, without any labor security.

Maybe fate played a joke on me, and years after my family died, I had awakened a superpower in me—the ability to turn back time.

However, this ability has many limitations and costs, and no matter how much I try, I can't go back to a day where I can reunite with my family......

But it doesn't matter, at least, I can still be a hero as my family expects.

Even if what I do will not be understood, appreciated, or even misunderstood, hated, and hunted down for it, I will persevere.

Yes, this life is bad, but what can I say, I can only blame myself for "bad luck".