Chapter 4 Feel this thing, is it reliable?
The large-scale planning of Aqin's internship company is in full swing. Listening to her, the launch ceremony was held in five coastal cities at the same time, and the grand occasion was unprecedented.
She was assigned to a seaside city more than 100 kilometers away from us to work with the specific work on the spot. It happened to be the weekend, and she called and invited our family to come over and check out her company's activities.
It's been more than half a month since the last time I had dinner at my house, and I don't know if she met Xiaoyong at the door when she left that day, and I couldn't ask her. It just so happened that this was an opportunity for me to get a glimpse of the situation in person.
I drove for an hour and a half, and when I arrived in H City, the road condition of the highway was very good, compared to the congestion during the long holiday some time ago, it was so happy that there are no words to describe it.
Ah Qin was too busy to greet me.
We ate seafood by the sea and then walked around. In the afternoon, I went to the scene of the event, which was indeed very large, in the commercial center of the city, the most lively place, and it was even more popular on weekends.
Ah Qin was very happy to see us, and ran away after a few minutes of crackling talk. An intern, a yellow-haired girl, jumps up and down, on call, that is a must.
I don't like to be too noisy, so I walk alone to the coffee shop next to the commercial center and sit for a while.
I ordered a Mandheling.
The little girl in the coffee shop smiled at me, and it was a very special smile. All of a sudden, I remembered the word "special", yes, sometimes, maybe someone just politely smiles at you, or makes eye contact, it's not special, it's just your own wishful thinking.
Do you feel like this thing is really reliable?
I remembered Xiao Yong.
I remembered the feeling he described to me when he met Aqin at the elevator entrance.
I wonder how he's doing now? That night, I went down to take out the garbage, and he was still at the door, and I guess Ah Qin would definitely bump into him when he went down. They had already met in a Western restaurant, although the lights were dim that day, and both of them were looking down at the screen, but how could they be a little impressed, right?
I have a little impression, plus the "scene repeats", although a year has passed, but if they are really fated, that night, they will definitely be able to find the feeling they had at the beginning.
However, judging from the situation in the past half month, there seems to be no sign on either side. However, I feel that this thing is hidden in the hearts of the two of them, and I can't understand it deeply, so what do you care. Think about it, forget it. Let it be, whatever.
The coffee was brought over, and I took a sip, which was a little bitter.
Only to find out that I forgot to put sugar.
Yes, before sugar, coffee was bitter, but many people don't like sugar, they just like that bitter feeling. I feel that this thing, everyone is different, and I can't help it.
In the evening, I had a meal with Ah Qin. It was a noisy seafood stall with a lot of people. So there was no time or mood to ask about the events of that night.
Halfway through the meal, Xiaoyong called and asked me where I was, wanted to ask me out for a drink, and a few friends I also knew.
I said that I was still out of town, and it might be more than ten o'clock when I returned after eating. Another day.
Ah Qin heard it next to him and asked casually: Who? Elder brother. I also told you to drink, don't go, I'm so tired from driving today.
I didn't know how to answer her for a while, so I just dealt with a few random words.
Later, when I was driving, I regretted it a little, in fact, I should have told her the truth when she asked: It was the handsome guy from the TV station that I introduced to you last time! …… See how she reacts.
When I got home, I had just parked the car when Xiaoyong's call came again.
He seemed to have drunk a little too much and his tone was a little high.
Big brother, big brother, shouted hard.
I'll pick you up! You're pretty much the same, aren't you? I say.
Okay, big brother. I'll send you a location now...... Brother, you must come, don't let me fly!
Good. I'll be there later.
When I went to the music bar, Xiao Yong was playing dice with his friends.
In the center of the bar, a guitarist is playing and singing to himself, as if singing Xu Wei's song.
I sat down and said hello.
Xiao Yong really drank too much. His luck is also so bad that he loses almost every time and has to drink every time. I couldn't see it, so I kicked him: You're begging to get drunk, aren't you?
Xiao Yong laughed.
Brother, you haven't seen the amount of alcohol I drink, this bit of beer can make me drunk?
From eating and drinking to now, he can especially drink tonight...... Several of them chimed in.
Forget it. He's almost drunk, so he'll go back first. Play again another day! I said it out loud.
A few friends didn't object, but Xiaoyong didn't want to go, and asked me to drink together.
I pulled him into the car.
As soon as I sat down for a while, I was on the main road and was about to turn the corner, when he threw up. By the time I pulled over, the guy had already vomited my car door.
I held him up and gave him a pack of tissues. A gust of wind blew, and he seemed to be much more sober, felt very embarrassed, and quickly apologized.
It's so late, and no car wash is still open. I drove up to a nearby fountain, filled it with some water, and rinsed it briefly.
I'll open it early tomorrow morning to wash it. It's okay, I've tried spitting on other people's cars too. I comforted him.
Big brother, you're so good...... Xiao Yong looked grateful.
His eyes were bloodshot, probably because he hadn't rested well recently.
He didn't seem to want to go, so we just sat down on the stairs of the fountain and chatted.
I handed him a cigarette.
He took it and pumped hard.
How? What's particularly joyful about today? I asked.
Well......
Well, what?
I don't know how to say it...... Elder brother...... I saw a saying that day, "If life is only as first seen", you have a lot of knowledge, tell me what it means, okay?
Why don't you go to Baidu and check it...... It's not too early, let's finish this one, let's go back.
Brother, don't worry. Talk to me a little longer.
Vomit my car dirty and smelly, and ask me to chat with you. This kid, do I owe you in my last life...... I thought to myself.
Oh yes, I want to ask you, during this time, I often see you wandering downstairs around 7 pm, have you ever met that girl again? I asked him.
No...... He replied with his head bowed.
I went down to take out the garbage that day and saw you...... I thought you met her that day! I looked him in the eye and asked.
No, I don't. If I had, I wouldn't be so sad now! Xiao Yong sighed.
I finally understood that that day, my carefully arranged "scene re-enactment" was in vain. Maybe it was when Ah Qin went down, Xiao Yong just walked away, or maybe it was Xiao Yong who stood there and lowered his head and pondered for a while, and Ah Qin slipped away from him......
Alas. Fate is such a thing.
Maybe I'm intervening too much to make this situation happen. But if I hadn't intervened, they'd still be the same. Perhaps, it's my way of doing it wrong. Forget it, I don't have to worry about it anymore, just let it be.
Brother, I am actually very grateful to you in my heart. Xiao Yong looked at me drunken and said.
What am you grateful for?
You're such a nice guy. Only you know what is on my mind. I've never told anyone about that, you know best how I feel. Also, you don't get angry at making your car so dirty...... The most important thing, you will not use the tone of educating me, what to tell me to let go of my children's personal feelings, and concentrate on work, in fact, people are not grass and trees, who can be ruthless, and there is no support for feelings, what kind of work can be done well? …… Do you say yes, brother?
You just have such a wonderful encounter, put this angel in your heart, put it in the deepest grassland in your heart, and then work hard and make some achievements in your career, I think, God will not treat you badly...... I patted him on the shoulder and said.
Perhaps, one day, she will really suddenly appear in front of you? Is that right?
Brother, one day, I was the first to invite you to dinner! Eat a big meal!
Ha ha...... Listen first, okay, let's go. We'll talk about that another day.
Talk to me for a while, brother. Please.
Xiao Yong reached out for cigarettes again.
I handed him the cigarette and suddenly remembered what he had just said.
By the way, why did you just ask that?
Which sentence...... What if life is only as it first seems? Yes, I want to know, what kind of state of mind can I feel like this? Brother, you have a lot of life experience, can you tell me some.
Oh, this sentence, according to my own understanding, is probably a pair of lovers, they from the first meeting, to love, a lot of things may happen, but in the process of development, often change a lot, maybe there will be no beauty when they just met, when this moment, there will be such a feeling: if everything stays in the wonderful feeling and state when they just met, how good it would be!
yes, yes. That's how I thought. Xiao Yong hurriedly said.
I often feel like this, and I wonder if I could go back in time and stay in the moment I met her. He continued, with an affectionate look.
What an infatuated person! I thought to myself. Love is really a strange thing that can torture a person like this.
We can't dream all the time, there will always be a day when we wake up. I looked at him and said.
Yes, I know that, but I always ...... I can't get out of it...... He lowered his head, looking very sad.
Besides, if life is only as it first sees, it should be said that those lovers who have had a lot of stories after they met, and even those who loved to death and lived, but did not get the desired results, and you? Only that one face, the so-called glimpse, nothing has happened yet, as for it? I say.
Well...... I'm really stupid, am I? Elder brother.
It's not, it's just that I think you should be more positive, believe in yourself, believe that it's just fate that hasn't come yet, and then cheer up and face the sun!
I get it...... Brother, thank you so much. I know that you are also a person with a lot of stories, and it feels like your inner world is rich. I'm so glad that I came out to work and was able to meet such a good friend and big brother as you. Xiao Yong looked at me with grateful eyes and said.
There are a few people in this world who don't have their own stories. Some people's stories or life experiences may not be written by the best directors or screenwriters in the world...... Sweet and sour, everyone knows it. I said with emotion.
We'll have a good chat another day. Let's go, let's go back. I stood up from the stairs.
Xiaoyong nodded, stood up happily, patted the dust on her buttocks, and walked into the car.
In the city late at night, the neon lights still flicker.
The street was paved with a layer of freshly fallen leaves, and the cars sped by, the leaves were rolled up, spun freely in the air, and slowly, lay back on the street.
A cold wind blew from the window, slightly cold.
Suddenly, Xiaoyong's voice floated over:
Brother, how is your cousin doing?
Pretty good...... Why did you ask about her? I chuckled inwardly.
Last time I was downstairs at your house, I seemed to see her, but she was in a hurry, and I didn't have time to say hello, in fact......
Actually, what?
Actually, if it weren't for such a person in my heart, I thought, maybe I would like your cousin, she's actually pretty good, and I feel better than all the girls I know, it's just that I'm ......
Fainting.
I'm speechless again.
I thought about a million situations, but I never imagined that it would be like this. Alas, this stupid boy, I really don't know what to say about him.
Actually, that's not all, and what happened next was even more jaw-dropping.