Feng Yan sat in Grandpa Dong's rocking chair with his eyes closed, his face was full of thoughts, and Grandpa Dong, who was still watering the flowers next to him, finally couldn't stand it anymore: "A big man, crying with a sad face, what does it look like!" ”

Feng Yan got up and pulled Grandpa Dong to sit down, "Grandpa, I ,,, I want to drop out."

",,,,," Grandpa Dong looked at Feng Yan and did not speak

"I've done my best in the past six months, I'm really not this material, and I don't want to be admitted to an ordinary university and affect my parents, grandpa, can you understand?"

"I don't understand, what are you young people thinking now? At that time, my family was poor and couldn't afford to study, what a good condition you have now,,, why don't you study? ”

"Grandpa, I also want to study, but the current situation really does not allow me to spend so much anymore, my family conditions are also clear to you, if I take an ordinary university in the future, graduate and stay in the field to work, at the beginning of about two thousand a month is good, this salary may be my daily expenses are a problem, I can no longer stretch out my hand to the family to ask for living allowance, four years of college is enough to take out the family, and I graduated from college are 24 years old, out of the work for a few years has not been stable in the thirty, at that time there is no money, What should I do if I am old and don't have a diploma with high gold content? I might as well get out of school as soon as possible, first of all, to reduce the burden on the family, my dad is still young, my father and I can start a business together, I don't believe that in ten years I will be worse than those who have just graduated; Grandpa, I believe that reading is not the only way out for our rural children. Seeing that Feng Yan's attitude was so firm, Grandpa Dong didn't say more, "Child, grandpa still hopes that you will think about it again, this time your decision is directly related to your future direction, I don't want you to make a decision as soon as your brain is hot, don't rush to go, think about it for a few days, it's best to discuss it with your parents, okay"

"I will, then I'll go to the evening self-study"

Feng Yan did not go to school after coming out of Grandpa Dong's house but walked in the direction of Canal Park, he wanted to be alone, he was afraid that he was too impulsive to make the wrong choice, Taixian County was still more lively at about eight o'clock in the evening, the road ran at night, there was an endless stream of people walking, the snack street, the commercial pedestrian street was brightly lit, but although the prosperity in front of him was real, it had nothing to do with himself, the mobile phone in the jeans was buzzing and vibrating, pulling the wind that was thinking crankily back to reality, "Hey, Mom, what's the matter?" ”

"Son, are you reviewing tightly these days?"

"It's fine"

"Your dad is very busy these days, he has been working alone for two days and one night in a row, and he has to work overtime in a few days, I'm afraid he won't be able to bear it, you can help him this weekend"

"Well, okay, where is my dad at the construction site?"

"He's in the township and county, your Uncle Li"

"Okay, I see, I'll be over on Saturday. My grandmother is fine,,, Eun,,, that's good,,, it's good,,, I know Mom. ”

His mother's phone call seemed to strengthen Feng Yan's newly shaken determination, in fact, there was another reason why he wanted to drop out of school: he was afraid that his father would work hard all day long, and in case one day,,, he was particularly insecure now, and he wanted to be able to hold up the sky before his father could not do it.

At night, the canal park is lit up with neon lights, and the atmosphere of life is even stronger, and the people who come here for a walk are diverse but have one thing in common: happiness

A dejected young man walks alone on the banks of a canal, aimlessly, the dark and winding road in front of him is like the life he is about to begin, full of hope but unknown,,,,,,

The thunderstorm that fell in the morning without warning drenched many students who didn't bring rain gear into soup chickens, Feng Yan and Yang Sao Heizimo were part of it, and Lin Luo, who didn't go to them to class with them today, shouldn't be able to run

"It's really a June day, Hei Ziwen's face will change when he says it" Yang Sao stood at the back of the classroom and took out the hair dryer out of nowhere to blow the clothes of the three people on the desk, but he didn't know that the danger was coming, and when he realized that there was someone behind him, he had been knocked down by a thick test paper

"You dead flea, you can't find it in the morning, I have to kill you,,,"

As the old saying goes, you are not afraid to come, and you are afraid to come early

"Oops, Hei Ziwen, what are you doing, you hurt me, oops, come and help,,,,, you two have no conscience,,, oops" Yang Sao curled up on the ground and shouted, Feng Yan sat in his position and played with his mobile phone, Hei Zimo flipped through the review materials and listened to the good show with a smile, neither of them paid attention to this self-inflicted guy

"You Siberian tiger girl, you are too ruthless, you two white-eyed wolves, I am enthusiastic to help you two blow clothes"

"You dead flea, isn't this the old lady's hair dryer, you ,,,," Hei Ziwen just grabbed the book next to him and was about to smash Yang Sao, but Yang Sao quickly stopped him

"I have something to say" Yang Sao pointed to the school uniform in the middle, "That's our second child's style, the opportunity is for you, hehe,,,"

"Count you smart" the corners of Hei Ziwen's mouth rose to Yang Sao on the ground, and he turned around and picked up the hair dryer with one hand and touched the school uniform with one hand, the "shrew" at this time seemed to be Lin Daiyu's upper body with a shy face, and she was about to succeed, but suddenly a big hand came out from behind and dragged the school uniform away, leaving Hei Ziwen pestle there with an embarrassed face, Yang Sao, who had just gotten up, saw Hei Ziwen's distorted face and smiled very relieved, but he didn't want to get too close to this angry "tigress", so he took a kick, Hei Ziwen is a fuel-efficient lamp, She walked out of the classroom angrily to get into a fight, which was a way for her to get closer

"Hey, Xiaojun, I'm resting this weekend but I'm going to the construction site to help my dad, he can't be busy alone, so let's do it, I'll pick you up next week during your summer vacation, don't ask so much first, I'm telling you when I meet, don't worry, I'll pay attention, it's not the first time I've gone to the construction site to help, so let's do it first, see you next week" Feng Yan hid on the rooftop to call his girlfriend Mi Xiaojun, who was studying in the next county, and was heard clearly by Hei Ziwen, who was standing behind

"We don't have a break next week, how are you going to find her? Do you ,,, you really want to give up? At this moment, Hei Ziwen can't care about being jealous, she cares more about whether Feng Yan will drop out of school, he really doesn't want to lose this boy he has liked for a long time

"It's not called giving up, it's choosing, since I have chosen, I won't regret it, Hei Ziwen, I, I've always been a good friend of you, so, I hope you study hard, don't affect yourself because of inconsequential things" Feng Yan didn't know why he was able to say this to Hei Ziwen calmly today

Feng Yan just walked to the door of the classroom and was called by the head teacher, the head teacher has always been good to Feng Yan, and the teacher is also the vocal music teacher of Feng Yan Middle School, so they have always gotten along well in private, and it's okay, let's take this opportunity to say goodbye to the head teacher

"Feng Yan, come, sit over there" The head teacher pointed to the stool next to him and motioned for Feng Yan to sit down, "Why didn't I see you in the self-study class last night?" Is there something wrong? You have made great progress in the mock exam this time, and if you work hard, there will be a professional course to pave you for the exam, which is not a big problem, but don't be distracted, the next year is very critical."

"Teacher Chang, I, I decided not to take the university entrance examination"

"What do you mean if you don't take the university exam,,, something happens at home" The head teacher knew that Feng Yan's family conditions were not very good, and it was estimated that Feng Yan didn't want to go to college because of family problems

"It's nothing, I just don't want to read anymore, teacher, I'm nineteen, I'm not a child anymore, I want to choose it myself"

"Then you can't say that if you don't read, you won't read, what are you studying for the past ten years, aren't you just waiting to get into a good university, and you can get ahead in the future?"

"I don't think so,,,, you can get ahead without reading! ,,,Teacher, I failed your cultivation, I'm sorry, I'll go first"

Feng Yan didn't wait for the head teacher to react and quickly walked out of the office, he didn't enter the classroom but walked out of the campus directly

"This, if you don't read it, you won't read it, it's irresponsible, it's too irresponsible, it's a major event in life, is it just such a child's play!" The head teacher was very angry at Feng Yan's approach, he never expected that the student he favored could do such an outrageous thing

"Teacher Chang, why are you so atmospheric, our class has gone several times"

"Can that be the same, your class is all messing around, it's good, I'm a seedling of a university, what a pity"

"It's a pity that there is no way, in fact, I think the root of this is still in this education system, you see, from 87 to 91 years of this age group of students, especially in the countryside, eight years old to go to kindergarten, the high school entrance examination are seventeen or eighteen years old or even older, the age of the big think more, you look at the current high school students, falling in love everywhere, than eating than wearing, should be full of positive vitality and healthy campus now Yanran has become a small society, teachers dare to turn their faces when they say more, This month, the police station went to our class three times to find someone, how can you read good books in this kind of environment and this atmosphere,,,,"

"Teacher Zhang, I'll call the student's parents first" Teacher Chang had already learned the skills of the "lecturer" in front of him, and took the opportunity to get out quickly

"Hey, Mr. Chang, I haven't finished talking yet, this, this is not vomiting and unhappy, let's talk ,,, when we come back"

Yang Sao saw Feng Yan walking past the classroom just now, and he hadn't come back yet, so he secretly called Feng Yan

"Second child, why did you go to you, you didn't call me, I'm bored" Yang Sao leaned on the table and blocked his head with a textbook, "What?" You're going to help your dad? Have you made a decision? Domineering you; Okay, don't talk about it, pay attention to safety on the road, and let's talk about it when we come back" Yang Sao, who hung up the phone, wrote a note to Hei Zimo and told him that Feng Yan had decided to drop out of school.

In fact, Hei Zimo is very envious of Feng Yan, envy that he can do whatever he wants, and he lives in a single-parent family, his father died in a mining accident at the age of ten, leaving him and his mother to depend on each other, all these years he has relied on his mother to open a tailor shop to support him, so every decision made by the filial Hei Zimo must put his mother first

Feng Yan returned to the dormitory, put on the work clothes and shoes he usually wore to help his father work, and went to the station to take a car to the township and county to find his father

All the way, Feng Yan was thinking about how to tell his father, presumably now the head teacher had already called his father, forget it, let it be, Feng Yan leaned against the window and closed his eyes and fell asleep,,,,,,,

The weather after the shower is unusually hot, but the township and county station is still full of people, very lively, Feng Yan bought two bottles of water at the station gate and went out on a motorcycle to drive towards the construction site, because a section of the road leading to the construction site was pressed by the heavy-duty car potholes and just a rain is very muddy, Feng Yan can only get out of the car and walk along the side of the road, look up at the construction site, and see that there are people standing on the side of the main body of the four or five floors just now, and the light emitted when the steel bar is docked is unusually dazzling, needless to say that the person is the father, Because he was the only one who did the steel bar welding at that construction site, he was regarded as a contractor, and the machine, tools and flux were all contracted on the construction site, and the father was only responsible for the work. The wind jumped into the construction site, and the shoes were stuck with thick mud, like stepping on stilts

"Feng Yan, I'm here to help your dad again," a middle-aged man wearing a hard hat and shabby overalls shouted at Feng Yan in the steel bar work shed not far away

"Yes, Uncle Liu, I'm here to earn some pocket money,,, hehe,,," Feng Yan greeted and walked towards the main building under construction

"Hey, I almost forgot, Uncle Liu, I'll use one of your hard hats," he said, and ran to the wooden box in the shed to get a hard hat

Feng Yan walked to the third floor, found a place with a large space, took out his work clothes, changed into a bag containing his own clothes, and walked towards the roof

"Dad, here you go" Feng Yan took out the bottle of mineral water he bought at the station from his bag and handed it to his father

"Your homeroom teacher called me, what do you kid think? I want to work the construction site like you Lao Tzu."

The father put down the work in his hand, took the water handed by Feng Yan, and drank most of it in one gulp

"Stop it, it's time to eat soon, go get the flux over there"

"Your homeroom teacher said that you have made a lot of progress in the exam this time, why can't you say that you can't go?" The father was silent when he saw the wind, "You can rest assured that you will study hard, you will not die of tiredness, as long as you study hard, I will smash the pot and sell iron for you"

"Okay, you have said this since I was in elementary school, I am most annoyed to hear what you say about smashing pots and selling iron, you are tired and tired of smashing pots and selling iron for me, I am comfortable in school, I am so at ease, I also know my grades, not particularly outstanding, if I am admitted to a university that does not slip away, the four-year tuition fee will have to hollow out our family and exhaust you, and after graduation, I will marry my daughter-in-law and buy a house in a foreign place, at that time, you will sell blood or I will sell kidneys, We know that this is not a wise road that does not meet our family's situation, why don't you change direction in time, you are now in your forties, and I am also in my prime, let's do a good job, I will help you, and I will definitely be better than me in the future, maybe my classmates have just graduated and I have already mixed up as a person, isn't this good? ”

The father stopped the work in his hand and turned his head to look at his son, who was standing not far from him, and also looked at his son, and listened attentively, the son really grew up, had ideas, knew how to feel sorry for his father, and knew that he had to share the burden with the family, although the father still wanted his son to finish college, but he knew his child too well, and a father who had no opinion still pushed the decision-making power to Feng Yan's mother

"Let me declare first, I don't support or object to your withdrawal from school, go back and tell your mother, if he doesn't agree, you have to honestly go back to class and prepare for the university entrance examination, go, eat"

Father's answer still made Feng Yan a little surprised, he was still thinking about how his father was angry on the road, how to educate himself how to study, how good it was, the children of poor families only had a way out by studying, and then rushed themselves back to school, he was ready to quarrel with his father, and then play a disappearance, and go to Mi Xiaojun's place for a few days, I didn't expect this level to pass so easily.