I don't know why I cried and got out of bed to update, and I don't know why I suddenly wanted to leave these words.

It's just that I'm complaining, and no one will see it anyway......

Thinking back to everything, I hung the most verbal sentence: "If I could turn back time, even if he knelt in front of me and begged me, I would not marry him!" ”

I...... I quarreled with my husband again, which was very inexplicable, and the reason was just that I wanted him to accompany me to the hospital for a check-up tomorrow......

When I was 10 years old, I went on a blind date with him, and it happened that I went to the same middle school as him, so I was somewhat impressed. The meeting between the two sides is roughly fixed, hehe, I have to say that fate is a wonderful thing, during the time when we were not married, we didn't get along well, and even got out of the marriage halfway.

But just because of his words, he said: "Men are all in charge of women, and I need you." ”

The sweet words are sweet, but they are also the shackles that have imprisoned my life, and the marriage money I am about to give out has been dragged back like that.

The first time I had an argument with him was when I was pregnant in July and August, and I had a big belly and got into a fight over trivial things. What followed was a never-ending bickering.

On the day the child was born, he held my hand and said to me that he would be good to me and the child in the future, but when the child was three or two months old, he was not in good health and often went to the hospital for infusion and blood drawing......

I can't remember how many times I had a fight while taking care of my children, and I used to sit alone in front of my bed in the middle of the night and cry until my tears dried up, but in exchange for his words: Tears are worthless.

He also said this sentence in front of my mother, and my mother pointed at him at that time, can she control the child's illness? What mother in the world wants her child to suffer when she gets sick? Since she came to my house, she hasn't had a good meal, how many pounds was she before she got married, and how many pounds is she now?

At that time, I was surprised to realize that I really wanted to control my weight within 100 catties from a fat man of more than 110 pounds.

I did, but it was ......

He's a man, but it's not something that a woman like me can manage, and he doesn't need me......

When I was in my mother's house, I was also a little hedgehog covered in thorns, but why did my edges and corners be sharpened clean after I got married?

Never-ending quarrels, beatings and scolding, I learned to be indifferent, I learned to be indifferent, I learned to cry silently, and I learned that the first person who thought of anything was not him.

But like this, I have become the woman he said would not worry about.

Really, I didn't dare to reach out to him to ask for money, I didn't dare to have no job, no income, I decided to buy a beautiful dress, and when I brought it home, I would carefully hide it from him.

I wonder how long these days will last? I don't know what I'm like with him?

Simple documented cohabitation?

Ironically, sometimes I feel like I'm ...... He ...... for free

I wanted to escape, I really wanted to escape, but the admonitions of my relatives and the secular words made me retreat......

I even thought of the most extreme way to leave him......

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Can you forget it? Can I escape?

What I want is very simple, just a word of concern in the midst of hard work......

Oh, my God...... What did I do in my last life...... Punish me like this in this life?

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