On the thirteenth day of the lunar calendar, when Ah Heng was sorting out the sundries at home, he received a phone call.

The call came from an unfamiliar voice, and he said that he had a few relationships with Ah Heng and wanted to pass on something like Yan Xi to her.

Ah Heng asked him who he was.

He said that his surname was Chen, and he was an old acquaintance of Yan Xi.

Ah Heng suddenly remembered who this person was. The secretary of the Lu family, the person Yan Xi was afraid of.

Lin Ruomei was replaced by Lu Liu two years ago, and the Lu family has long been surnamed Lu. As for the Wen family, they are among them, but they don't know how much they occupy.

She asked him where he was going, and Xiao Chen said an address, and Ah Heng wrote it on a sticky note paper and sandwiched it in the phone book just in case. Later, he was worried that Yan Xi was involved, so he tore up the paper and was about to send a text message to his relatives and friends, but when he looked at it, he was a little dazed. Because of Lu Liu, she has no one to trust. Her relatives and friends are also Lu Liu's relatives and friends, so why bother others.

Ah Heng sighed and went to the meeting alone.

She took bus No. 122, then turned to No. 159 and No. 173, and went around for a long time before reaching her destination.

It was once a very prosperous commercial center with many high-rise buildings, but for some reason, with the changes of the city, it gradually withered. The place where Secretary Chen was located was a tall building in the complex, next to the fountain in the square, and he said he was waiting for Ah Heng on the top floor.

When Ah Heng reached the top floor, he was taken aback. The top floor was a vast open space, separated by an iron door with a heavy red rust, which must have been locked before, but now it was gently concealed, and it opened with a push. Surrounded by wooden horses, slides, and four-wheel drive lanes, it is clearly a paradise for naughty children. Only in the corners, a few pots of withered rose eggplants, hanging low, huge and pitiful.

The few times I saw it before, Secretary Chen was wearing glasses, a straight suit, and a sven face, but now he was wearing a denim jacket, sitting quietly on the ground, staring at these dusty toys, and holding a can of beer in his hand.

When he saw Ah Heng coming, he bowed slightly, and took out a palm-sized red four-wheel drive car from his wide denim jacket.

He handed it to Ah Heng, and Ah Heng was stunned.

Secretary Chen smiled slightly: "Yan Xi's childhood toys have been placed with me for so long, it's time to return them." ”

Ah Heng shook his head, turned his back on his hand, and looked at him suspiciously, not daring to accept it.

Secretary Chen smiled: "What a cute child, no wonder." ”

Ah Heng was very direct: "You are a bad person, Yan Xi doesn't like you, don't bother him in the future." ”

Secretary Chen's smile became bitter: "For Yan Xi, I am indeed a bad person. But not because of the dirty photos. ”

He said: "I gave you this car to tell you, and also to remind you that the love and entanglement between the boss and Yanxi is not something you can meddle in. And what I owe to Yan Xi will be taken to the grave and kept in the next life. ”

Ah Heng said: "It was Lu Liu who asked you to come." ”

Secretary Chen swallowed a sip of beer and nodded. He said: "Man is his master, and I am just a pawn to move around." ”

Ah Heng squinted: "Why didn't he tell me directly, but let you come?" ”

Secretary Chen gently put the car that Ah Heng didn't pick up on the small lane with twists and turns, and watched it run non-stop, his eyebrows and eyes gradually eased, cautious and gentle. He said: "You have snatched his cutest toy, and he is so disgusted with you and disdainful of you that he naturally refuses to come himself." It's just that the reason why I was sent here is probably because I am also a participant in Yanxi's past. I know everything about him and Lu Liu. ”

Ah Heng intercepted the red car, put it in the palm of his hand and looked at it closely, only to find that the paint color was uneven, as if it had been added later.

Secretary Chen smiled: "It has a story. ”

"So what?"

"So, what Lu Liu wants to tell you is this story.

"This incident, I will tell you from the beginning, and Miss Wen has her own distinction between right and wrong.

"The story starts with me. I don't have a name, I grew up in an orphanage, I only know my surname is Chen, and I was later adopted by the Lu family, and I have always been called Xiao Chen. When he was ten years old, he was taken away from the orphanage by the Lu family because he answered a few intelligence questions correctly. At first, I thought there would be a complete home, but in fact, I have been trained as a pawn.

"You know what a chess piece is, right? It is the kind of person who is usually a helper and can be given up at a critical moment. I was sent to the best business school to study, and there were many children of the same age with me, and they and I only existed for the only grandson of the Lu family, that is, Lu Liu. He needs a hard chessboard, and in fact, many times this is more important than a hard heart. ”

Secretary Chen paused and smiled, his voice was very soft, with reminiscence, and seemed to be happy: "And I, because of my excellent grades, was sent to Lu Liu's side in advance to remind him of his usual study life." When Lu Liu was a child, he was a very gentle and kind child, well, I feel a little like Miss Wen, you look white, like a little jade, and you are often laughed at by the elders and called 'Lu Xiao Bodhisattva'.

"I watched him secretly, and you know, I didn't come to him alone. I want to report his every move to Lu Lao, and I want to prevent him from becoming only aware of the brightness of the world, and even being too close to the same person. But he would keep looking at me and say pitifully, 'Brother, let me play with Yanxi for a while, we will do our homework after we beat the monsters.' At that time, I heard Yan Xi's name from him for the first time. ”

Ah Heng smiled slightly: "When Yan Xi was a child, was he as sharp as he is now?" ”

Secretary Chen waved his hand and fell into deep thought of memory: "No, no, no, it's not what it is now." I've never seen a child who laughs so much, with baby fat on his face, a baby head, big eyes, and a small mouth that can smile like a heart. Every time I saw him, he always wore a pair of pink pig's head slippers with a bag of milk hanging from his mouth, and ran behind Lu Liu.

"He grew up with Lu Liu, and the two of them ...... Because of the same loneliness, the relationship has always been good. There is a word - inseparable, which can often be confirmed in them.

"I often see them sitting on the carpet playing Transformers together, killing villains with a gamepad, but unconsciously sleeping soundly in front of their little heads. Ah, by the way, Yan Xi still had a problem sucking his thumb when he was a child, probably because he didn't have a mother since he was very young.

"Here's what I'm doing for Lu Liu and Xi'er. No one has ever called Yan Xi like that, right, because that's my exclusive name, and I call him Xi'er because he is a child I cherish very much. I gave him this toy car, which he used to put in his pocket, and when I called out to Hill, he saluted me solemnly, and then put the car on the track, and told me, "Sir, everything is ready, please judge fairly."

"He played against Lu Liu, I was the referee, he often lost, and I always thought that it was because of my lack of preference that he would lose to Lu Liu. He mistakenly thinks I'm unjust. But I live for Lu Liu, and loving Xi'er is already an injustice.

"For Lu Lao, I chose to be silent, no longer actively reported, but just taught Lu Liu some business skills in a timely manner, took him to eat the cheapest but really delicious food I had when I was a child, and told him how gentle the world is. Lu Liu is moving in the direction I want - close partners, soft hearts. But this is no longer within the scope of Lu Lao's tolerance. He was furious and wanted to take back everything I had, including an identity that could be with this child.

Lu Liu cried and begged him, saying that grandpa should not drive his brother away, and he would never dare to do it again in the future. Since then, Lu Liu has changed a lot, he has self-control and endurance, although he is gentle-faced, he doesn't like to talk anymore. He became more and more dependent on me, but he drifted away from Yanxi.

At that time, Yan Xi had just entered junior high school, and the little child had just grown into a teenager. At that time, the first appearance of elegance was like a pipa half-covered, but a smile, a look, clean and inspiring. He ran around the city with his folder in his hand, drawing whatever he saw. I have seen him tiptoe kissing a small splendid flower growing in the crack of the city wall, and I have seen him sit in the park with his head bowed and draw stray kittens. He fed the kittens, but the kittens were cold and never smiled at him. Therefore, after a long time, he understood some truths in the world, and he refused to laugh when he saw people again. He said that those who love to laugh are fools, and fools will be looked down upon by hard-hearted people.

"Later, he often went to the places where Lu Liu and I went to eat, and when he came back, he told us very seriously: 'I have eaten what you eat, it is too sweet, too sour, too bitter, not delicious, really.'"

Lu Liu looked at him, but he always smiled meaninglessly, young and vigorous, but tried to tolerate Yan Xi's childishness, or be patient. He often said to me, 'Brother, Yanxi is still too young, isn't he?' He was anxious to announce that he had grown up, and would rather teach me how to eat a complicated and gorgeous European meal than expose his weakness and hug me and cry.

However, he and Yan Xi are so strikingly similar that sometimes they even seem to be shadows of each other. No one is happy to lose their shadow. Yan Xi is unhappy, and Lu Liu is also very abnormal.

He often said that he had to think of a better way to make Yanxi stronger, so that they could be the best friends in the world again, and even grandpa could not be separated. But even though he thought so, his behavior showed his disgust and disgust for Yan Xi's naïve ignorance that matched his age.

"Yan Xi once loved to sing a nonsense song to Lu Liu, the lyrics said, lala, it's getting dark, Sunflower has lost me. Lu Liu said where am I, and Yan Xi sang and replied: Sunflowers have you. Others say that Yan Xi is as brilliant as a sunflower now, but he is only the light itself, how can he ever rely on the light next to him. The land stream is like the moon, and it has always relied on him to draw warmth. This warmth is endless, and he is used to it, so he doesn't think so. Lu Liu told me, brother, as soon as I turned around, Yan Xi was there, it was really annoying. ”

As soon as he turned around, Yan Xi wrinkled his face and pretended not to smile, so weak, but standing there in the sun, it was really annoying.

Secretary Chen hesitated a little and said softly: "In 1997, I don't know if you heard from the news that there was an explosion at the southern end of City B, which was caused by fireworks in the bar room during the Chinese New Year, and a full 33 people died. ”

Ah Heng tried hard to recall and remembered the tragedy. The raging flames devoured and exploded, the wanton spread, the endless melting, the tragic cries, she had seen the tragedy magnified in the newspaper back then.

Secretary Chen crumpled the beer cans into a ball and looked at the sky tiredly: "At that time, me, Lu Liu, and Yan Xi were all there. Lu Liu and Yan Xi drank too much wine, and I watched them quietly on the side. I looked at the fireworks in the stadium, one moment I thought it was beautiful, but the next second I heard a terrible cry, accompanied by the wind. ”

He said, "I only chose one at that time. ”

Ah Heng was stunned, tears kept falling from the corners of his eyes, looking at him, he couldn't believe it, the heartache squeezed out her breath, she couldn't breathe, and finally, like crazy, knocked him to the ground. She kept crying, dumbfounded, and yelled: "How can you, how can you give up on him so easily? ”

Secretary Chen's eyes were numb, and he wiped the blood stains from the corners of his mouth: "My first reaction was to grab Lu Liu, and Yu Xi grabbed his hand and looked at us with fear and pleading. I couldn't carry my two and a half years old out together.

With the sadness in Yan Xi's eyes that almost expected the ending, Lu Liu shook off his hand fiercely and said to me, "Don't look back, don't look back." "I didn't know at the time, these were just conspiracies that young Lu Liu thought of to train Yan Xi's mind.

"But I turned back. There were tears in Yan Xi's eyes, he fell to the ground, so thin, looking up at the fast-melting signboard, desperately crawling out. ”

Despairing...... Despairing...... Despairing......

He said: "By the time I brought Lu Liu to safety, the bar had become a sea of fire, and I couldn't tell where it was fire and where it was Yanxi. I seemed to hear him shouting, 'Brother save me,' but I couldn't find him again, only the charred car. I couldn't get rid of it, and almost every day was a nightmare. Lu Liu was unwilling to face Yan Xi, so he went to Vienna on the pretext of studying abroad. ”

He lay on his back on the ground, smiling sadly and shedding tears: "I promised him that I would love him justly, as I did to Lu Liu." But in 1997, a month after Lu Liu left, I watched him being insulted by the people Lin Ruomei had found, and picked up the camera in order to end his suffering. I whispered to Ciel through the camera, and he hung his head as if he hadn't heard, his fists clenched, and he was surrounded by darkness. Lu Liu and I finally destroyed the stupid child who was willing to give us infinite sunshine, and we destroyed love itself. ”

Ah Heng took a deep breath, but tears were all over his face. She kept wiping her eyes with her sleeves, wiping and wiping, but she squatted on the ground and cried.

In 1997, Hong Kong returned to the motherland, and the whole country rejoiced; When I grew up, I was able to add half a bowl of food; The school sent her to the city to participate in a math competition for the first time, and she was lucky to win the first place.

There are a lot of indices, but it seems that everything has nothing to do with her Mr. Yan.

It was getting dark, and someone gently pushed open the babbling door.

The man looked at the red cars that lined the tracks in beautiful arcs, and there might have been cheers all around him many years ago. Maybe for the victory of one person, or for the defeat of another.

In this city, if someone loses completely, someone wins in vain.

He walked quietly past the bespectacled man, tall, not as a child.

They all wanted him to grow up, and lo and behold, because of this seedling, he was older and desolate than everyone else.

With the painsorly patchwork address in his hand, he squatted down gently and took the crying little girl into his arms.

Ah Heng hung his head and said tremblingly: "I can't even find a reason to tell them in 1997 that the teenager they abandoned will also be another person's heart in 2003." They even trampled on someone else's treasure on the grounds that they didn't know! ”

Yan Xi was stunned, stared carefully, and looked at this child in a good way, only to find that the sadness and pain in her eyes were engraved in her bones, and she couldn't be more profound.

Almost instantly, he understood what she was talking about.

He felt sad, but hurriedly stuffed Ah Heng into his arms: "Baby, I crawled out, look, I'm so powerful, I don't need to be rescued." I know the world is unjust, but I just don't know what other people's love looks like. ”

Love is abandonment, love is doing what you can and then standing by, for them, love is everything, but not what love looks like.

"I don't need it, and it's not unusual." He pinched Ah Heng's bones, almost into his own muscles and bones, and said, "But, Wen Heng, there is only one person in this world, and you must love me fairly." You have to love me alone. ”

Wen Heng, you must be just, love me alone.

Only you.

Ah Heng looked up at him, looked deeply, and nodded lightly after a long time.

She promised him justice, and she could only be so partial in the future.

She wiped away her tears and frowned, but she looked so serious. She said to him: "Unless there are white bones in the loess, I will guard you for a hundred years." ”

Light a longevity lamp and bargain for a hundred years. Yan Xi is ninety-seven, and Ah Heng is three years old.

Swear to the gods, explain to the gods.

She couldn't turn back.