Chapter 53: Drinking and Spitting the Truth
She held two jars of wine and ran towards him lightly, Guan Duyuan liked the feeling of her approaching her.
He reached out and grabbed her, and flew away in one leap, and she tucked the money bag back into her own waist, holding two jars of wine in her arms, and laughing foolishly.
He asked, "What are you laughing at?" ”
She said, "I don't think I've ever had a drink with you!" ”
He was silent, remembering that when he saw her for the first time, the two of them drank a pot of wine not far from Shensha Pass, and he didn't dare to think about the past, and his heart broke when he thought about it.
The two landed on the roof of the General's Mansion and sat side by side, she handed him a jar of wine in her bosom and stuffed the money bag into his waist.
She said: "I specially bought the 'White Cloud Room', and I wanted to try it, after drinking this wine, can I really feel like I am flying among the white clouds." ”
He took the wine, smiled and said, "Then try it." ”
She opened a jar of wine in her hand, poured some out to the sky, and said, "First sip, respect heaven and earth, sacrifice to ghosts and gods, and ensure that the people of the Great Atom live and work in peace and contentment!" ”
He looked at her, speechless for a long time.
Even though she had lost her memory, her habits never changed, and every action she made to remind him of her memories was a torture for him, and habits were a terrible thing.
What's even more ironic is that she used to pray for the blessing of her own people, but now she prays for the blessing of other people's people.
The two altars collided, each looking up, and in this moment, he forced himself and tried to let himself go.
The two of them sat on the roof and watched the lights in the distance, each with a jar of wine in their hands, and there was a feeling that they could sit for a night.
Afraid that she would accidentally fall, he kept holding her tightly, but she didn't care. A jar of wine was quickly halved, and each had a little on their minds.
Wine is such a good thing that it can ferment and finally swell.
She was going to sit back to back with him, and he was going to sit with her.
The two of them were close to each other, and she could feel each other's temperature, and she thought, "It would be great if we could grow old like this!" ”
In the world, there is no such thing as being old, it is just people's self-deception and self-prayer.
She held the wine jar, meaning to toast to him, and he did the same thing, thinking that the other could not see it, so he could drink it recklessly and get himself drunk.
As everyone knows, hearts and emotions can be contagious, and habits can also be contagious.
The strong liquor goes around the tip of the tongue and into the heart, rising a stream of heat that flows through all parts of the body, and finally stirs up a kind of power, a power to speak the truth.
If there is no alcohol inducing, the scars buried in the bottom of the heart, who can really dare to face their deep hearts.
Taking a sip of wine, she leaned on his back and asked, "Have you ever regretted anything?" ”
He didn't know why she asked, but he just wanted to answer, the cliff was a dead hole in his heart, and he didn't have the courage to say it.
He said, "Yes! ”
She looked into the distance with a gloomy expression, "I didn't expect that the omnipotent general would also regret something, I thought that only I did." ”
He took a sip of wine and sneered at himself, "Anything? Scold! A person cannot be protected on the battlefield, and a person jumps off a cliff in front of him, and he cannot jump. I'm right for everyone in the world, but I'm also sorry for one person. ”
She was silent for a long time, "You have a hard time, you have no choice, you still remember him, he will definitely understand you under Jiuquan." ”
He didn't speak, and the lights in the distance clouded his eyes.
She said softly, "You know, I've killed people. You have no last resort, and I have no last resort, just to kill her. ”
She thought of Keke in Bangyue Tower, and remembered the miserable appearance of her last lying on the bed, and her heart hurt.
He knew who she was talking about, and after a long time, he said, "That's not your fault." ”
Bitterness crept up her throat, clogging her with pain, "No, it's all my fault, they're right, she wouldn't have died without me." ”
He knew that she couldn't let go, "Can she live well without you?" In fact, sometimes it's more painful to be alive. So, you're right. ”
She smiled wryly, "That's a life!" ”
He asked himself over and over again, "Life? What is life? Was it the young son who was whipped to death? Are there groups of innocent people swept away by the flood and no one to save them? Is it the gentleman who is tyrannical and domineering, causing trouble in all directions, and becoming the king? Is it because the people of Li are hungry? Are you dead or alive on the battlefield? Who is it that values life? ”
She didn't know that he still had such pain, she really didn't understand, compared to him, what was her own pain!
"As a general, but I hate war, I hate the battlefield, do you say sarcasm or not? Why do you have to fight to the death? Why do you want to take the world for yourself? The world is so big, but it can't accommodate a single person......"
It turned out that he had carried so much by himself, full of unknown injuries. Her heart began to twitch and ach slightly.
At this time, he especially missed his father who was far away in Beiwan, missed his mother who had never met, raised his head, poured wine, his chest ached, and two lines of tears went down from the corners of his eyes, and his cheeks were wet in an instant.
He said: "There are many things in the world, one can't ask for peace in the world, two can't seek harmony and happiness, and three don't dare to ask for affection and whitehead." ”
She only felt a cramping pain in her chest, she had never seen her in-laws for two years after entering the house, and she had heard from Wu's mother that he had lost his mother when he was born, and his father had gone far away, and he could not return without an edict. So, on this day of family reunion, he misses his father and mother......
The more she thought about it, the more painful it became, and the pain was so painful that she couldn't breathe, and she couldn't cry anymore.
She raised the wine jar, looked at the sky, lifted it from afar, and said in her heart: "Mother, I am your daughter-in-law, rest in peace, I will take good care of him, and I will accompany him to the end." ”
Tilting his head, he drank the remnants of the wine jar and threw the jar out of the jar, and he didn't know where it fell, and the crisp cracking sound crossed the night sky.
Shu He has never been so heartbroken, she wants to give him all her tenderness, all the warmth, all the love, the heart, and the people.
Grabbed his shoulders, leaned in, and warmed him with all her heart, a soft love spread from his lips all over his body, and wrapped him warmly. A soft hand crawled up his cheek and gently wiped away tears.
She said, "I'll always be there!" ”
He took him into his arms, his heart convulsing with pain. But he didn't dare to ask for this affection.
He said, "I'm afraid, one day, you'll hate me; One day, you will leave me. ”
She looked at him quietly, stretched out her hands to hold his face, looked at each other with tears, and whispered: "No matter what happens, I will not hate you, nor will I leave, I will, always be." ”
Hugging tightly, looking out over his shoulder, there was a firework, which she thought was too dazzling, and suddenly she didn't like it.
After a long time, she said, "I don't want to watch the fireworks!" ”
He asked, "So what do you want to see?" ”
She said, "I just want to see you!" ”
He gently hugged her, fell silently, picked her up and entered the house.
In the room, the candle flame is flickering, the fragrance is overflowing, the eyes with affection in the veins look at each other, and his steps are slow as if there is no end, as if he is walking the whole life and this life.
He asked, "Is it that pretty?" ”
She said, "Yes, never enough of it!" ”
He asked, "How long is forever?" ”
She said, "Forever this life and this life!" Afterlife and Afterlife! Forever! ”
He laid her down and took her into his arms, his thin lips covering the man's forehead, and with one free hand he removed her hairpin.
Three thousand green silks hung down one after another, half-covering the jade face, with affectionate eyebrows and shyness. The shadow turned around, entered the couch and hugged the Qi bush, the curtain was lowered, and the gorgeous clothes retreated to expose the snow skin of the moonlight......
The moon has broken and exhausted all his tenderness.