It's been a long time since I've slept so comfortably, and Ya still has heavy eyelids with her eyes closed. She still seemed to be trapped in a whirlpool that was gentle, but powerful, as if it was dragging her deeper into the darkness. But her consciousness stopped this undercurrent, and she showed exhaustion in the entanglement of the two consciousnesses of wanting to fall asleep and wanting to wake up. 

I want to sleep in this warm feeling like this, and it would be nice if I could sleep completely without fatigue. 

Sometimes it's a cocoon, and sometimes it's a push. 

My son is still young, and I should have a reason to taste the sweetness of a nap. But why bother yourself? When my son was four months old, he insisted on opening a small goods store. Taking advantage of her mother's summer vacation at home, let her help take care of her son and go to buy goods by herself. On a hot day, I eat a small watermelon a day, in order to satisfy hunger and quench thirst, and I really have no appetite. 

I didn't want to eat, but my son began to pull green every day, and this pull was nearly half a month, and it took a few clinics to slowly improve. The mother said that Ya ran out every day on such a hot day, and when she was heated, her son ate the hot breast milk that caused diarrhea. Ja lost a lot of weight during that time. 

Is it because my son is well-behaved, can I do more? When my daughter was young, she was so tired that she had back pain. It's okay that my son can't go, but if he can go, he always wants to run out, and the traffic outside the store is bustling, and Yazi can't rest assured. 

I take such a young son to do business, and I have to pick up and drop off my daughter who goes to kindergarten, I often feel tired and can't sleep well, and Ya sometimes feels that she is clearly overdrawing herself. Her husband has always opposed her opening a store, and he plans that his son will be able to go to kindergarten, so he will let her also come out to work. 

Ya was not in good health, he had a headache when he couldn't sleep well, nausea and vomiting when he got in pain, and if he didn't slip away, his son staggered to the road...... It's not that I can't live, so why do I have to toss myself like this? Working part-time at a pharmacy in Beijing gives me plenty of time. Because pharmacies in Beijing either work half-day shifts or have one day off the previous day. I always have to find another job to do, so why squeeze myself into little spare time? 

Is it the invisible concern of survival? Did you exaggerate that invisible fear? Is it because you don't have a clear goal? Although he has shown a preference for painting and writing since he was a child, he has never done his best to do so. I always think that hobbies should be supported by abundant time and money, and as an ordinary person, I don't have the courage to devote myself to my hobby in the midst of hunger and cold. 

One of my female classmates who studied music is full of love for music and has a beautiful appearance. She always finds a way to make money in business, although she finds a boyfriend who is fully capable of supporting her family. But after all, they have to work their own, and neither family can support them with anything. This female classmate often said to Ya: "I want to study through business, and I want to earn enough money before devoting myself to music." At that time, Ya admired her. Years later, Ya saw this female classmate selling clothes with a big belly in a shopping mall, and her husband Mu sat on the side expressionlessly. Ya didn't go over to say hello, and a desolation hit her heart, and the dream of her youth finally went farther and farther...... 

In fact, there is no worry about food and clothing in real life, but why do we always feel that there are invisible monsters in the dark that are chasing after us with their mouths open and bloody, we are forced by this hidden worry, and we can only tense our nerves and run wildly...... 

Exhausted, Ya turned to a small commodity store, and the newly bought suite has been renovated, and the joy of her new home and the longing for a leisurely time after moving in make Ya's heart full of expectations. 

Ya thought that she could settle down and read things, but Aunt Lan's daily visits with her little grandson broke her longing, and coaxing Aunt Lan's little grandson was much more tired than coaxing her own son, and she had no time. Helplessly, Ya had no choice but to send her son to kindergarten and paint in a studio near the kindergarten. In the painting, Yayi sits for a day, facing the canvas with his eyes blazing, his heart is as calm as water, and time clicks into a quiet and beautiful picture. 

Such days have become a good memory with working in Guangzhou. Since then, going to bed late and getting up early, working overtime, and staying up late have become Ya's daily routine. The nap is a luxurious dream, even if you sleep, you are also a frightened bird, and the arrow of the clock is tense at any time. 

This nap is a long one. After getting up, she walked to the balcony, her eyes couldn't adjust to the strong light, and Ya covered her forehead with her hand. Where is this winter, it is clearly in the middle of spring. The sun vigorously kisses the green forest of Spring Mountain, the green forest of Spring Mountain reflects the golden brilliance, and a pond in the green forest declares its existence above the woods, which is a layer of faint blue smoke. 

The pond rests on the edge of the pond with a flock of leisurely ducks, and God has given them amphibious magic skills, and given them divine clothes to protect them from the cold and rain. They live in mansions where the sky is used as a bed. If it weren't for the humans who domesticated them, like the wild ducks and swans, swimming in the heavens and the earth, with thousands of rivers and mountains in full view, this life would really be closed without regrets. Where is it like a human being, who has created countless shackles for himself...... 

How many times has my daughter called her dad today? Her father said he would go to Guangzhou tonight. Ya prostrated herself on the railing, letting the warm sun caress her long loose hair, this quiet and beautiful day is precious. The year is coming to an end, and this kind of leisurely state of mind will not be easy to get in the future. 

Suddenly there was a call on the mobile phone, and the daughter who was holding the mobile phone jumped out of bed and shouted to Ya: "Mom--, hurry!" Daddy's calling! Ya took the phone, it was her husband, and asked her to ride a motorcycle to the factory gate to pick him up and his son. Ya quickly combed her hair, changed into leather shoes and walked downstairs. As soon as she turned the front of the car on the motorcycle, she saw her husband in a red jacket walking over with a bag in both hands. The son, the son in the green checkered sweater, was running towards Ya with open arms, "Mommy--Mommy--", and the crisp voice cut through the silence. 

Ya put down the motorcycle, let it roar, and ran towards her son. Picked up his son and kissed his little face, "Son, I miss my mother, my baby!" Ya was overwhelmed with excitement. 

"Turn off the bike, push it over and put it away!" The husband yelled at Ya. The son and husband are sweating on their foreheads, from north to south, and their clothes decrease with the temperature. Ya pushed the car and said to her son, "Go find my sister, my sister said that I want to kill you!" When the son heard this, he ran forward. 

Ya went upstairs and saw her daughter and son hugging, and the joy of reunion after a long absence was full of childish faces. Ya turned on the induction cooker to boil the bath water for her husband and son, and her husband took out the bacon and sausage he brought from his hometown. 

For dinner, my husband made cabbage vermicelli meat on the liquefied gas stove, as well as boiled bacon sausage slices. The family ate happily, and the two children kept talking and laughing. 

Since her husband and son left, Ya's door has often been closed, and the quiet courtyard is silent, except for the roar of the motorcycle when the security guard comes to feed the dog in the morning and evening, which is so harsh in the silent backyard. 

Now, my husband and son are back. The door was open again, and the cries of the two children echoed through the hallway. 

After eating, both the husband and the daughter asked their son who he slept with at night, and the son said, "I want to sleep with my mother." The daughter asked her son, "Is it okay to sleep with me at night, brother?" The son shook his head vigorously. All these days, the son slept with his father. 

The son and daughter were bouncing on the bed as usual, chirping like magpies. 

Ya came to the balcony, the moon hung in the clear blue sky, not far from the right side of the moon, a snow white cloud in the shape of an avatar stood quietly in the air, Ya hurriedly returned to the house and took out his mobile phone to take a picture, the avatar disappeared quickly, Ya folded her hands and muttered: "Heavenly Father! You have come to see your beloved son and daughter......" The mist of tears filled his eyes...... 

The evening breeze gently caressed Ya's cheeks, and the sound of firecrackers rang out sparsely, and the year was coming to an end, and the firecrackers were still obsessed with the lively scene before, and they couldn't bear to run away. The daughter and son were chattering on the big bed, and their voices were full of joy to be reunited after parting. They tell about their respective lives after parting, and they all want to share the tidbits of life that are not together with each other, probably so that they will feel that they have never been separated: your bustle and my coldness, and the intersection of each other becomes each other's commonality.

The evening breeze is blowing, and this warm wind makes Ya feel drunk, just like the gentle hand of the spring breeze caressing the sparkling heart...... The past is thick in the smoke that rises on the surface of the waves......

Time flies, and it is not necessarily the emotion of the passage of time. Not to mention what has been achieved, at least these lovely children are the greatest harvest in this life, that is, God's mercy, and God's great favor.

Ya's mother is four sisters and one brother, and Ya is three sisters and one brother. Ya's parents, Ya's sisters, are very envious of families with both children, but their families finally welcomed a son after welcoming one daughter after another. This son is really the mercy of God, otherwise, will he continue to give birth to a daughter?

Ya's aunt relatives have three daughters, the eldest daughter is married and pregnant, and she still does not give up her desire to have a son. She and her daughter were pregnant almost at the same time, gave birth at the same time, and gave birth to daughters. The two children played together since childhood, fought over things together, and fought together. I don't know if they have grown up and adapted to each other's different generations.

When Ya was working in Beijing, the neighbor's eldest daughter-in-law, Hong, had a good relationship with Ya. Red was a gentle girl, with a round face, a round body (she was a few months pregnant at the time), and a gentle voice. Her husband is very similar to her, and he looks like a windon. The two are very affectionate, always smiling when they go in and out, and there is sweetness in their voices when they talk to each other.

The mother-in-law is a bit of a trick, and sometimes tells the neighbors that the daughter-in-law doesn't know how to work. Ya thought to herself: What kind of work do you have? I didn't see my mother-in-law doing anything, not to mention that my daughter-in-law was still pregnant. I don't know if the daughter-in-law knows that her mother-in-law is a little unaccustomed to her, but she still goes in and out gently, and speaks gently.

Hong likes to talk to Ya very much, and from the conversation, Ya knows that there are six sisters in her family, and she is the eldest. Her mother is at home with her children and farming, and her father sells fruit at a stall in Beijing, and he also rents a house near us. Ya lamented that her parents had the ability to support six children, and in the modern society where only children are common, her parents actually gave birth to six daughters in a row, just to have a son.

Red later returned to her hometown to give birth to a child, and it is said that she gave birth to a daughter. Later, Ya also moved, and since then she has been cut off from Hong, but Hong's gentle face often appears in Ya's mind......

At that time, there was also a female neighbor who was about to give birth. The female neighbor had short ear-length hair, and her hair was dyed brown and yellow, which made her fair skin even whiter. She has delicate facial features, doesn't like to talk much, and always greets Ya with a faint smile when she sees her, and Ya feels that she has an elegant charm. Her room also has a simple and elegant feel, there is not too much furniture in the house, and a bottle of hydroponic plants on the bedside table makes the whole room green.

The female neighbor later gave birth to a daughter, and her husband was still working in other places, and it was her mother who came to serve her in confinement. Ya later heard that this was her fourth daughter, the eldest daughter was left to her mother-in-law to take care of, and the other two daughters were given away after birth. Ya later moved away, but she had no doubt that the female neighbor would have children in the future until she had a son......