But after the results of the second and third models, her grades were worse and worse every time, especially after seeing the results of the third model, she was much lower than the previous exams. She collapsed all of a sudden, she was still in class at the time, she lay on the table and cried silently, just after class, before the teacher walked out of the classroom, she had already gone out, standing by the railing, dialed Gu's mother's phone, and wanted to go home, but there was only a week left before the college entrance examination, and Gu's mother did not agree to her asking for leave to go home anyway.

She cried and ran to the school gate, after being stopped by the doorman at the door, she still cried to go out, the doorman was frightened by her appearance, so he called the head teacher, the head teacher didn't know what was going on, and called Gu's mother, Gu's mother informed the head teacher of her situation, and insisted that she finish the class at school.

Jin Qing was standing outside the classroom when she saw Su Qing crying and running out when she just got out of class, she was a little uneasy, hesitated, and ran after her. When he came over, he saw Su Qing coming out of the guard room in despair. He froze there, watching her fall to the ground because she didn't see the steps at the door, she didn't get up, but sat directly on the steps, her face still had tears left, but she didn't cry, her eyes were red, as if all her strength had been drained, she just sat dumbfounded, her eyes were blank, and she didn't know where she was looking.

The class bell rang, but she still didn't move, and Sumire didn't move. The doorman came out of the room and said to her, "Little girl, the bell has been ringing, go back to class." Don't always think about going home all the time, there is only one week left to take the college entrance examination, this lesson can't be delayed! ”

Su Qing still didn't move, Sumire Qing walked over, first apologized to the doorman's uncle, and then stretched out his hand to Su Qing to pull her up, Su Qing looked at his hand blankly and didn't move.

Sumire Qing was helpless, picked her up, and stumbled a little, he didn't expect her to be so light.

Already in class, he took her to an empty classroom, and when she was put down, she was still stunned.

"What's wrong?" Sumire asked her.

After a long time, she said with tears in her voice, "My dream is shattered. ”

Sumire Qing frowned, "Then why don't you just change your dream?" ”

Su Qing's eyes began to overflow with tears again, and then looked at him with teary eyes, "You don't understand, you won't understand my despair, this is my dream since I was a child, what I wanted to go to most since I was a child is this university, and now, I can't go." ”

"Why?"

"I also want to know why, I work hard, but my grades are still getting worse and worse every time."

Sumire was also silent, he didn't know how to comfort her, his grades had always been good and stable, so he never bothered about these things.

He took out a pack of paper from his pocket, pulled out a piece and handed it to her, "You are very good, I have read your articles published in the school newspaper, and I have also seen the poems you wrote, they are very well written. Your pen name is Suiqian Poet, right? I saw it in a magazine and have been reading it ever since. I heard Su Che say, your grades are also very good, this one or two exams are nothing, don't be discouraged. Sumire felt that this was the longest thing he had ever said, and he didn't know that she had listened to a few words, so he just tried to comfort her as much as he could.

Su Qing looked at him with some surprise, "How do you know?" ”

Sumire remembered that time she knocked out a notebook in her schoolbag after bumping into him in the auditorium, she hurried away without seeing it, he picked up the notebook and took it back to the classroom, thinking that he would return it to her when he was free, but then he accidentally brought it to the house, so he forgot about it.

One night when he was about to go to bed after finishing his homework, he saw the notebook on the side, so he flipped a few pages casually, and found that the title page of the notebook was written with her pen name: Sui Qian Poet, and every next page was basically a poem written by her, and some essays, and even a few pages were her diary, the dates were not continuous, and they should only be written occasionally.

The girl's thoughts in the notebook were vividly expressed by her in literary language.

He found that several of the poems were exactly the same as what he had seen in a magazine, and that the pseudonym was the same, so he guessed that the poems in the magazine were published by her, and that she was the poet.

The next day, he brought Su Qing's notebook to school, and put it on her desk again when school was over.

Su Qing remembered that there was indeed a long time when she couldn't find the notebook, she thought she had lost it, but she didn't expect to find it suddenly.

"I see! Then you've known me for a long time. ”

Sumire smiled, "Yes, it's early. ”

The bell rang for the end of class, Su Qing wiped her tears, raised her head, and suddenly was frightened by Sumire Qing's eyes, she saw something silently surging in his calm eyes, like affection, extremely fierce, undisguised.

She just thought she was wrong, and avoided his eyes, "After class, I'm going back to the classroom, thank you for accompanying me." ”

Sumire picked up the school uniform jacket she had just taken off and followed her.

Su Qing felt that he was so tall, standing behind her, it actually made her feel an invisible pressure.

"You...... Which university do you want to go to? Suddenly there was a phrase above her head.

She smiled bitterly, "The Chinese are big." ”

"Very good. Come on. ”

She didn't answer, how should she answer him? "yes, that's good" or "what about you?" What university do you want to go to? She couldn't say any of that.

In the end, Sumire watched her walk into the classroom before turning back.

........

In the next few days, Su Qing's state was not very good, as if she was studying as if she was completing a task. Every day, I reviewed the knowledge points for two hours according to Gu's mother's requirements, and went to bed on time at twelve o'clock in the evening.

She still looks like the hard-working Gu Suqing before, but no one knows that she has already despaired, and she has given up in her heart, she thinks, in another year, I will definitely do well in the exam, and I will definitely not put so much pressure on myself again.

........

Su Qing's performance in the college entrance examination was abnormal, her grades were not ideal, and she couldn't go to the National People's Congress, so she stuffed herself in her room for several days and decided to repeat her studies. However, her parents, considering her physical and her psychological quality, resolutely disagreed with her to repeat her studies, and she made trouble for a long time.

On the last night of volunteering, her volunteer form was still blank. The family is in a hurry, but she doesn't fill it in, and there is nothing she can do. After discussing with Gu's mother, Gu's father decided to talk to her.

Her father walked into her room, turned on the light, and sighed when he saw Su Qing lying on the bed with empty eyes.

Su Qing saw him coming, didn't move, and was still lying like that.

"Qingqing, let's go out for a walk with Dad."

Su Qing didn't speak.

"You've been bored at home for a few days, just talk to me, I'll wait for you in the living room." After Gu's father finished speaking, he closed the door and walked out.

After a long time, Su Qing got up from the bed, took a piece of clothing from the closet and put it on, and went out with Gu's father.

The father and daughter walked to a nearby park and sat down.

Su Qing was still depressed, and Gu's father touched her hair, "Good, it's okay after this hurdle." ”

Su Qing's eyes overflowed with tears, "But I'm so uncomfortable, I never thought of going to other schools." ”

Gu's father smiled, "You don't have to follow the path I walked, junior high school and high school were all in the school that my father studied at the time, and you can also try new things in college." Is it because your father was in college at the National People's University at the time, and you are also going to the National People's Congress? ”

Su Qing was still sobbing quietly.

"You want to study finance, other schools also have good finance majors, your mother and I have helped you see a few similar universities in the past few days, you will go back and have a look in a while."

............

That night, Gu's father told her a lot, talking about her childhood, her middle school, her university, and what happened after work, and he also told her a lot of truths.

Su Qing finally chose to compromise and went to a university in Hainan.

Jin Qing was still the first in the school this time and went to Tsinghua University. Gu Suche also did well in the exam and went to Peking University.

After the college entrance examination, the school will hold a graduation ceremony for this class of graduates. Gu Suqing and Gu's mother went to participate together, and she was sitting in the audience at that time, watching Jin Qing give a speech on stage as an outstanding graduate, wearing a white shirt and black pants, still looking proud.

Gu's mother looked at Jiang Jinqing with appreciative eyes, and asked Su Qing if she knew him, Su Qing said no, and then lowered her head, her eyes slowly turned red, she desperately held back the tears that she wanted to fall, and when she looked up again, she smiled softly again.

After the speech, it was the graduation dinner, Gu's mother left first if she had something to do, she stood with a few classmates who had a good relationship and chatted, and a girl showed her the second button she had just asked for from the male god, she expressed her blessings to her, and looked at the crowd, it was really a graduation dinner after the college entrance examination, and many people were confessing.

She was watching a boy shyly profess his affection to the girl she loved, and her clumsy movements betrayed the tension in his heart. She laughed softly, but she saw a familiar figure walking straight towards her, she knew that it was Jiang Jinqing, and she seemed to know what he was going to do, but she was a little timid in her heart, and she dropped the drink in her hand and fled. He is too good, with him, she is afraid that she will have low self-esteem, and she knows his heart for herself, but if they are really together, will it be suitable?

........

After a long time, when she was sorting out her things, she found a white button lying quietly in the mezzanine of her school bag, the second button on the white shirt he wore that day, and the thin pattern reflected a faint white light. I don't know when he put it in, she smiled wryly, they still missed it after all.

He went to Beijing, she went to Hainan, one south and one north, perhaps, they will not see each other again.

……………….

At the beginning of the school year, her parents happily sent her to school, she stood at the school gate, watching the lively orientation activities, but she was not happy at all, this university is completely different from the person she has dreamed of since childhood, she tried hard to make herself like this school, but she still couldn't escape her heart.

During college, because she has a good personality, she is very popular with her classmates, and many boys confess to her, but she refuses, and when someone asks her why, she says that she has not thought about falling in love for the time being. But the roommate said that if you meet someone you particularly like, these are no longer reasons, and she smiled and stopped talking. These are never the reasons she convinces herself, because when you have a very good person in your life, you will not have room for other people.

The bus reminded the passengers that they had arrived at the terminal, Su Qing came back to her senses, picked up her suitcase and got off the bus, stood next to the stop sign and continued to wait for the bus, she had to take another bus to get home.

She looked at the familiar scenery around her, felt very kind, tightened the scarf around her neck again, and the corners of her lips rose slightly.

When she saw the bus coming, she followed the crowd and prepared to get on the bus. Suddenly, she heard someone shouting her name, and when she turned her head, she saw Jiang Jinqing running towards her from a distance. She watched as people got into the car one after another, and when she turned back, Sumire Qing had already arrived in front of her, still panting.

Jiang Jinqing pulled the suitcase in her hand, held it tightly, as if she was afraid that she would run away again, and showed her a bright smile, "Hello, my name is Jiang Jinqing." ”