Cheng Jin looked at Cheng Chan, only to feel that his scalp was numb, and he had a feeling that he was facing Zhao Hua in his previous life.

The only difference is that Cheng Hua had a sense of responsibility as the eldest sister and a mother, while Zhao Hua abandoned all the personal feelings of his children and children, and was so ruthless to himself.

Cheng Chan was still pulling her and talking about how to be diligent, taking advantage of her youth to learn more things, but she was already distracted.

After being reborn, she got the memory of Zhao Hua's life, but there was always a sense of disobedience in her heart, the same soul, separated from the past and this life, the joys and sorrows could not be connected.

Cheng Jin is affectionate and sexual, but Zhao Hua is cold and cold-hearted, Zhao Hua's emotions that can't even be called love and hate have been tossed and turned for several lifetimes, and the emotions left to Cheng Jin are like a blank piece of paper, no sorrow or joy.

Sometimes in the middle of the night, she remembers her past life, and her heart is not a trace of turmoil.

Back then, his father Zhao Qi took them to live in seclusion in Hongshan, but rarely met her, almost all of them were under the mountain to help the people, help the needy, even take her with him, but also silently do their own thing, the two rarely talk to each other, every time he talks to her, either to test her schoolwork, or to point and guide her studies.

In Cheng Jin's opinion, the father-daughter relationship should be weak, but as Zhao Qi's only daughter, Zhao Qi is also worried about her illness, and it can't be said that she doesn't love, the strangest thing is that not only Zhao Qi's father and daughter, but even everyone around them feels that they get along like this for granted, and their father-daughter relationship should be deep.

In her previous life, she had no expectations for emotions for as long as she could remember, nor did she feel anything. Whether it is the affection of her parents or the friendship of friends, even a puppy she raised was poisoned in front of her, she never felt sad.

Later, she followed her father to see all the tragedies in the world, those who changed their children and ate them, and mourned all over the wilderness, she never shed tears like women of the same age, she just felt that this was not right, she had to do her best in everything, as if she was born specifically to help the world.

That's why she was able to calmly marry Xiao Sheng, whom she didn't love at all, and spent decades with such a person, never moved or sad.

Even if she had a secret mind about others later, she could still quietly press it down and bring that emotion to the soil, if it weren't for the memory of her previous life in this life, I'm afraid no one would ever know what she had thought.

"God has given you such a talent, how can you waste it, if you continue to slack off like this, not only will you not be able to live with yourself, but also from God......" Cheng Chan was still chattering, her words made Cheng Jin excited, and something in her mind quickly crossed over, but the stroke was too fast, so that she could no longer scratch her head.

"Eldest sister, do you believe in the past and present lives?" Cheng Jin suddenly asked thoughtlessly.

Cheng Chan was stunned for a moment, "Have you read too many books to your grandmother these days?" ”

"I just think that eldest sister, you are not the reincarnation of Empress Zhuang Jing, why are you as dignified and solemn as her, and refuse to slack off?" Although Cheng Jin was laughing, he had a forced smile.

"Don't talk nonsense!" Cheng Qian was taken aback by her words, and he didn't see that her face was wrong, but he just knocked her on the head angrily, "What kind of character is Empress Zhuang Jing, how can you compare me with her?" ”

"She must have been tense all the time like you, and she didn't dare to relax, but would such a life really be happy?"

Cheng Qian didn't understand why Cheng Jin compared her with Empress Zhuang Jing in a dignified manner, probably because she had read too much books to Mrs. Cheng recently, and she couldn't slow down for a while.

"How can life be just to be happy? In addition to being happy, more should be a responsibility, is a responsibility, if everyone only wants to be happy, this world will be chaotic long ago. Cheng Zhan only thought that Cheng Jin was a child, but he was not annoyed, and patiently enlightened, "People who want to be happy often say that there is a tall man on top when the sky falls, but if the tall man also wants to be happy, it doesn't matter if the sky falls, he falls asleep on the ground, then the day will really fall." God has given you talent, but it has also given you the burden of being different from ordinary people. ”

"If the eldest sister is between the world and me, what will be the trade-off?"

"What's this weird problem?"

"Isn't it often written in the book? Someone is a disaster star, for the disaster of the world, and he will be punished, and then someone will kill his relatives in righteousness, if I am the disaster star, how will the eldest sister choose? ”

"You're not a scourge!" Cheng Chanxing's eyes widened, "If anyone dares to chew her tongue like this again, I will tear her mouth!" If anyone wants to hurt you, step on my corpse first! ”

Cheng Jin was shocked, he didn't expect Cheng Zhan to say this.

Cheng Zhan only had such a brainless worry when she had recently read the book and was frightened by the second Mrs. Cheng before, so she just hugged her shoulders and comforted her softly, "Ah Jin is not afraid, we all know that the second aunt is talking nonsense, after this incident, she will definitely restrain herself in the future." And those words...... Don't read it......"

Cheng Jin's mind fell on what Zhao Hua said to Xiao Sheng before he died, and until the last moment, she could still say it so calmly, if necessary, she could divide Wen Dingnian and say that as soon as possible.

Ming Ming Wen grew up with her, treated her sincerely, and obviously she had a secret mind about him that could never be spoken, but she could still say the words of getting rid of him so calmly and cruelly, although it also meant to protect him, but if it was to change places, she would not be able to do such a thing now.

"Eldest sister, do you say that there are people in the world who will not recognize their relatives and be cold-hearted?"

Although Cheng Chan was puzzled, he still answered her strange question seriously, "Gangster, that kind of person only thinks about himself, and doesn't even care about his relatives, he must be a villain with a big evil heart." ”

Cheng Jin shook his head, "What about the gangsters?" Is there anyone who can give up even themselves and their loved ones? ”

Cheng Zhan was asked, and after thinking for a while, he said, "Monk? The great mercy breaks off the common relationship, and he should not take care of himself and his family. ”

Cheng Jin suddenly seemed to understand something, Zhao Hua gave up his family in the world, isn't it some form of monk?

But it doesn't seem to be fully understood.

"Won't it hurt for those monks to give up themselves and their families?"

Cheng Chan laughed, "I'm not a monk, how do I know?" The monks are all people with Buddha roots and wisdom, and we mortals will feel distressed. ”

The mystery in Cheng Jin's heart has not been completely solved, but it is getting bigger and bigger, although Zhao Hua is her previous life, but it has always given her a very strange feeling, not only because the two have very different temperaments, but also because Zhao Hua's thoughts and practices make her feel a little weird, everything she does seems to be set and taken for granted, but she feels that this is clearly not something she will do.

is reincarnated, and it shouldn't be so far apart, Zhao Hua and her are like two completely different souls, but they obviously share the same soul, what a strange thing.