Xia Ning couldn't help but ask herself, if she didn't rely on Jom so much and behaved stronger, would Jom also share her thoughts with her?

She didn't know the answer, but she thought it would be better than if Jom would only solve the problem for her now, and not let her share the trouble with him.

There were some things that couldn't be generalized, but she really wanted to help him share them, even if it was just listening and comforting him.

But if Jom didn't say it, she wouldn't know. I always felt that JOM should have a lot of things on his mind, but she couldn't peek into it, and he would never say it.

"Xia Ning ......"

After a long time, JOM finally opened his mouth, but he wanted to say something, as if he wanted to say something, but he didn't want to say it. There may be some things that are destined to be unspeakable, and once they are spoken, many things will be unrecognizable.

He knew that he couldn't force Xia Ning on many things, but he couldn't help but fantasize in his heart, if he could have a little expectation, hoping that she could look back at himself and include him in her future life.

Although the odds of this are slim, people always have fantasies and always hope that their wishes will come true. Sometimes Jom feels very lucky, at least to be able to stay by her side, watch her, accompany her, even if the most important person in her heart is not herself, but it is enough to watch her happy.

But he is contradictory and greedy, and always hopes that she can look at herself a few more times, and always hopes that she can have more place in her heart, so that there may be a possibility of further progress. However, it is so close and so far away.

He is a very simple-minded person in terms of feelings, and he feels that he can exchange sincerity for being good to others. It is true that Xia Ning is a very good person, a good friend and partner, but he wants more and more, not just friends and partners.

He thought about what would happen to him if one day Xia Ning had his true choice and belonging, and that person was not himself, but once he thought about it, he would feel a pain in his heart, and there was no way for him to continue thinking about it, for fear that he would die because of heartache.

Xia Ning looked at Jom's appearance, as if he understood something, and didn't let him continue, just silent.

Xia Ning could more or less see the struggle in Jom's heart, after all, she had been with him for four years, and most of them knew him very well. JOM came back this time, of course, not just to visit the patient, but more to do something else.

She could see the longing in his eyes and his feelings, the kind of emotion that seemed to be about to be vented, but he was afraid and forbearing, she could understand it, but she couldn't say it. All she can do is to see through it and not say it, so that the two can continue to get along like friends, otherwise, the balance of friendship will definitely be unbalanced. And what she fears most is this imbalance.

Xia Ning is afraid of losing JOM, afraid of losing the warmth that JOM brings her. People are selfish, including both of them. JOM wants to stay by Xia Ning's side to have more opportunities and possibilities, and Xia Ning wants JOM to maintain such a warm and close friendship.

Two people have their own thoughts and helplessness, but the most difficult thing is to understand each other's thoughts and each other's helplessness. There is always no way to make everything in the world the best of both worlds, and sometimes it is not easy to achieve a goal, let alone meet the needs of two people.

He didn't continue to speak, Xia Ning didn't speak, the two of them sat quietly, eating dessert for a while. There is a very boring variety show playing on the TV in front of her, and Xia Ning's eyes sometimes stare at it, but more often she only looks at the dessert in her hand.

Sometimes I think that love is a dessert, and when it is too sweet, I feel very greasy, and I want to have the urge to throw it away. However, can there be no dessert in life? If there is no sweetness, only other tastes, then life is not complete, just like life without love.

Although life is not destined to be as sweet as desserts, there are always sweet times, and the same is true for love. However, precisely because it is a dessert, it has an expiration date, and like all foods, once the expiration date has passed, the taste will deteriorate and you can no longer eat it.

If you eat expired food, it will make people sick and make people miserable, just like facing a life full of frustration and helplessness, making people fall into the abyss of pain and desperate situations.

Xia Ning was very fortunate that she had JOM by her side when she was experiencing pain, and she had always been with her, without leaving, without betrayal, only silently guarding her. Like an angel and a loyal knight, he was always by her side, not only protecting her safety, but also caring for her whole body and mind.

If it weren't for JOM, she wouldn't have had such a good life now, and her time in the United States wouldn't have been so stable and smooth, and maybe even giving birth to Duoduo would have been a big problem. If JOM hadn't found a doctor she knew and helped her with almost all the birth procedures, it would have been impossible for her, a person who does not have U.S. citizenship, a green card, or even a short-term visa, to give birth in the United States.

Xia Ning believes that JOM must be a noble person given to her by God, so that her whole life has been beautiful. But there was nothing she could bring him to do, and there was nothing she could do to comfort him now.

A plate of dessert that the two of them quickly finished eating, Xia Ning stood up and said softly, "I'll go and put the plate in the kitchen." ”

"I'll do it anyway, you sit, don't work too hard." He reached out to take the plate in her hand, not wanting her to do these chores.

I always feel that as long as I am by her side, I don't want her to work hard, even if it's such a trivial thing.

Xia Ning felt that the atmosphere between the two of them was really a little stuffy, and she didn't really want to deliver the plates, just giving herself an excuse to escape from this embarrassing atmosphere.

"Or I'll come, you're a guest, how can I let you do it?" Xia Ning didn't give him the plate, just turned around and was about to walk towards the kitchen.

But she was thinking about him, and she forgot to look at the road, so that she didn't see a toy that Duoduo had accidentally dropped on the ground in front of her.

Xia Ning was anxious to escape to the kitchen, her steps were a little bigger, and she was also a little anxious, and stepped directly on the little duck toy of Duoduo. Her feet slipped, her whole body was unstable, her head was up, her body was down, and she fell straight down, and she was about to fall to the back of her head again.

JOM'S EYES WIDENED, AND HE INSTINCTIVELY FELT THAT HE COULDN'T LET XIA NING BE IN ANY DANGER AGAIN.

At the last moment, he almost immediately pounced, and stretched out his arms to catch Xia Ning when she was about to hit the ground with her head covered.

Xia Ning's body was still a little unstable, but JOM reached out and pulled it again, so that the back of her head was safe, and she didn't have a close contact with the ground again.

The two of them met in an instant, and the distance in mid-air was only a few tenths of a millimeter, and they were about to stick together.

Xia Ning's slender eyelashes cast a faint shadow on the deep eye sockets, with the flush on her face, and the crystal lamp above her head shone on her delicate hibiscus-like cheeks, giving birth to a few hints of charm and temptation for no reason.

The hair is messy, the eyes are like water, and the slender waist is soft, all of which makes JOM feel a little unreal, but it is so beautiful.

Xia Ning looked at JOM's turquoise eyes, with a deep luster, and something that made her nervous seemed to be quietly brewing. She intuitively felt that she wanted to escape, but her body was not obedient, as if it was because she had used too much force just now, and she was weak just after being discharged from the hospital, and now she was tossing so much, which directly made her weak and unable to exert her strength.

When she realized that she might fall again, she put her arms around JOM's neck almost reflexively, so that she could find a clinging and not fall again. And in this way, the distance between the two people is a little closer.

She can even count JOM's eyelashes one by one now, and the pores can be seen clearly. His eyelashes were longer than hers, like fake ones. Long, with some natural curls, like a doll's eyelashes.

JOM LOOKED AT XIA NING'S EYES THAT SEEMED TO BE TALKING, AND INVOLUNTARILY TILTED HIS HEAD TO KISS HER ON THE LIPS.

Xia Ning held her breath, and wanted to accept this kiss in such a fascination, but the moment she felt his scorching breath approaching, Xia Ning turned her head to the side, making JOM pounce.

He watched Xia Ning's movements, a look of injury rose in his eyes, he frowned slightly, and helped her to stand up.

After a moment of silence, Xia Ning looked at him with a blushing face a little uncomfortably, "I'm sorry." ”

JOM CHUCKLED, "IT'S ME WHO IS BAD AND KNOWS I SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE THIS TO YOU." ”

He knew how much his heart longed to kiss her lips, and he also knew how much he wanted to be close to her, so that the two of them could open their hearts without distance. But he also knew that Xia Ning had another person in his heart, and it was impossible to accept him.

Everything just now was just a small accident caused by a mistake after falling, since she was unintentional, why did he care so much?

Xia Ning didn't know how to explain the act of letting JOM have expectations but was disappointed just now, and she herself felt extremely conflicted. If she could, she wouldn't have dodged it just now. But inexplicably, she felt that she couldn't do this at the last moment, and even Yuan Chen's face appeared in her mind.

It's almost like a movie, at the moment when JOM was about to kiss her, in just a few seconds, she actually recalled the kiss she had with Yuan Chen, which made her whole person confused, and there was no way to accept JOM's kiss anymore.

She didn't understand why Yuan Chen was still her obstacle to this day, but it was so real that he tortured her.

If she can choose, she must not want to be controlled by the memory of the past to control the current life, but memory is memory, and there is no way to disappear for no reason, so everything in the past will still deeply affect the present life and future life.

She didn't want it, but she couldn't choose and decide. It may be good for anyone to have amnesia, but if she loses her memory, she will also be unwilling, unwilling to lose so many precious memories.

Therefore, the unbearable weight of life is a burden, and the unbearable lightness of life is also a heavier burden. If people have no memory and no hope, it must be the most painful. Xia Ning thinks so.

JOM helped Xia Ning take the plate and went to the kitchen, and then said goodbye and left.

Before leaving, Xia Ning gave Jom a helpless but apologetic look, standing at the door, watching his car disappear at the end of the road from a distance.

She can't give JOM promises, nor can she give JOM the same warmth and happiness as he gave her, as if the most she brings to him is trouble, endless trouble. It's always wasting his time and delaying his life.

Alas, Xia Ning, why did things turn out like this? Why do this to a person who is so good to himself?

She couldn't help but ask herself in her heart, wanting to find an answer, but she couldn't give herself an answer that she really let go. In fact, she knows that it is because she can't let go, so she will be entangled. couldn't let go of Yuan Chen, so he struggled with himself; I can't let go of JOM, so I'm willing to let him suffer with me.

She didn't know what she was going to do to break out of this dilemma, and her mind was in turmoil about what she would have to face next.

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