I don't want love, I just want to die.

At the time of death, I wish I could scream loudly, like that rabbit.

Have you ever heard a rabbit scream?

Twelve years ago, the coldest winter in recorded history, there was a rare heavy snowfall. Early in the morning, at the age of thirteen, I was still hiding under the covers and was awakened by a terrible scream. I slept in a daze, as if my heart had been stabbed, and every hair on my body stood on end. The screams of terror continued—they were definitely not human-capable sounds!

It is indescribably miserable, barely passing through the eardrum, but directly through the skin, penetrating the brain and heart. My heart was going to break, to pieces. I lifted the warm quilt and jumped out of bed in my underwear in the unusually cold and humid air. Prompted by screams and dim light, I opened the bedroom door and walked through the teddy hallway into the kitchen where the sound was coming from.

The screaming has stopped forever.

I saw my dad holding an iron rod stained with blood, and some blood was splattered on his body and face. There was a cutting board on the kitchen floor, and a blurred mass of flesh lay on it, still shaking slightly. I recognized this mass of flesh and blood, although it was unrecognizable, but judging by the white fur, a pair of long ears, and a short tail, it was my little white.

My little white. It was a rabbit that Dad bought from the vegetable market two days ago. Such a cute little animal, thirteen-year-old I fed it with vegetable leaves, and vigorously cleaned up its black bean-like droppings.

Oh my God, I thought it was a pet my dad gave me!

I found out that my father bought it from the vegetable market in order to eat a fresh rabbit pot in the coldest season! My family has a recipe for rabbit cooking.

It just died, and was beaten to death by my dad with a stick.

Seeing the sudden change in my face, Dad was worried that I was catching a cold on such a cold day, urged me to go back to the bed, and then apologized: "I'm sorry, Xing'er, it was Dad who was too light, and beat the rabbit to death without a stick, and let it bark a few more times, waking you up." ”

The rabbit is screaming...... The rabbit is screaming...... The rabbit is screaming......

My name is Mo Xing'er and I am 25 years old.

Today, I still hear this scream in my ears - in the last refuge of mankind, I always suspect that in addition to cats, dogs, and mice, there may be a nest or a nest of rabbits hidden.

April 1. Sunday. Night, 22:19.

After screaming like a rabbit under the alternating attacks of rats and horror movies, I walked out of the theater on the ninth floor of the Future Dream Building, regretting that I shouldn't have watched this American horror movie called "Bloody Town" alone, and hurriedly squeezed into the sightseeing elevator, just wanting to escape the building as soon as possible. - The end of the world has come.

I witnessed a woman cut in two by a falling elevator. I fell to the ground floor in an elevator with shards of glass stuck in my back. I endured the pain, cleaned the wounds, pulled a wide woollen cloak, and wrapped myself up like an Arab.

Hearing that I had found a way to escape upstairs, I hurriedly ran back to the ninth floor and saw Luo Haoran.

The rabbit's scream sounded in my ears, and it turned out that the dream had not yet woken up.

He, remember me!

A few minutes later, I rescued another man, his name was Zhou Xuan.

Professor Wu Hanlei became the leader of the end of the world. The owner of the building, Luo Haoran, is particularly low-key, he is most familiar with this building and is responsible for the power supply. He never took the initiative to say a word, only when the professor asked, he simply said two sentences, almost no adjectives and adverbs. In addition to the two of them, the third person who can play a leading role is circumference.

Together, they developed a set of rules of survival that everyone must strictly follow. Given that resources such as food, water, and air are very limited underneath the apocalyptic underground, if anyone is not disciplined, it can endanger the lives of all. I found two black sheep - Guo Xiaojun in a Dior suit, this rich second generation is obviously a crooked man, he looks down on everyone, and fantasizes that his rich dad will hire Superman Spider-Man Batman to go through hell to save him; There is also an injured white-collar worker named Xu Pengfei, who always glances at me from the corner of his eye, and I can feel the erotic meaning hidden in his gaze, which is disgustingly obscene!

I have become accustomed to men's eyes, usually there are a lot of lewd men staring at me in the company, even the American boss will use the name of overtime, leave me alone in the company until late at night, and when he suggested that we change places to have a drink, I said that my boyfriend was waiting for me downstairs, leaving him with an ugly face and running away.

The so-called "boyfriend" is nothing, and as for the courteous hints or explicit expressions of male colleagues, as well as the blind date introductions of relatives and friends, they are all rejected.

I hate men.

Of the surviving males underground, the only thing I don't hate is Circumference.

I'm sorry I missed Shota, but he can't be considered a man yet.

The first night of hectic despair passed, and the underworld was surprisingly calm. I leaned on the railing of the atrium on the second floor, looking at the mall from the first floor to the ninth floor, each floor lit with a faint light. Some of the survivors have come out to forage for food, and some are still sleeping, which is called to conserve their strength, probably thinking that slowing down their metabolism like a bear hibernate can make them live longer—wouldn't it be better to practice "Turtle Breath Dafa" like in martial arts novels?

"Good morning."

A man's voice sounded from behind, and I turned my head alertly to see the swirling face.

I couldn't help but smile.

Unfortunately, I can't remember the last time I laughed from the bottom of my heart. Ten years ago? Fifteen years ago?

I found that it was only in this man's eyes that I could not see the filth.

Zhou Xuan also showed a rare smile, although he could see that he was forced to do it, pretending to be happy and relaxed - but this kind of man was also very cute. He is here to encourage every discouraged survivor not to give up even at the end of the world.

"Thank you for saving me last night." He hadn't forgotten that I had gone under the cupboard to save him.

I shook my head: "It's a trivial matter, where are you going?" ”

"Everyone is collecting food in the supermarket, and I want to go upstairs to the restaurant to have a look, maybe there's a lot of food hidden in the refrigerator."

"Makes sense, let's do it together."

On this apocalyptic morning without the sun, Zhou Xuan and I checked the refrigerators in all the restaurants. Despite the power outage, I was able to find a lot of food that hadn't spoiled and distributed it to the seriously wounded in the Häagen-Dazs store on the ground floor, as well as the Japanese mother and son. There were a lot of drinks in the refrigerator, but they didn't drink a single sip in a restrained way, and they were all concentrated in a small room on the third floor, and it was stipulated that each person should only be rationed one bottle per day. I stared at the large jug of juice, and he handed me a bottle of it.

I gulped down and followed around until I reached the private bookstore on the fourth floor.

I pointed to the dense bookshelves and said, "Actually, I like to read too." ”

But in his heart, he was saying - come on, Mo Xing'er, don't you just look at Jinjiang Tanmei's leisure? When did you ever enter a bookstore?

"Not many people are willing to visit bookstores these days." Zhou Xuan muttered to himself, silently walking a few steps around the bookstore, but he didn't pick up the books on the shelves, just carefully scanned the spine, as if looking for an important book.

I casually pulled out a copy of Guo Jingming's book, immediately put it back on the shelf, and then pulled out a tomb robbery book.

He walked to the deepest part of the bookstore, and in the corner of the most inconspicuous shelf, he struggled to pull out a book with a black cover. I leaned in the back and glanced at it, and there were a few words printed on the cover of the book - Ruolan Inn Circle Works.

"You wrote the book?" I snatched the book from Zhou Xuan's hand, and turned to the photo of the author in front of me, and sure enough, it was the person in front of me - the photo was much younger than now, and he looked more like a literary and artistic young man who liked girls.

"This—yes." With an embarrassed expression, he snatched the book back, rubbed his hands on the book and said, "I'm sorry, it's very badly written, and no one reads it." ”

"What kind of novel is this?"

"Mystery fiction, but reasoning is terrible. Actually, I wanted to write about the fate of the heroine of the inn, about her tragic life, and about several different men she had met, her name was Ruolan, so I chose this title. ”

"You're a writer? I've been writing for years, but why haven't I heard of you? ”

This stupid question made Zhou Xuan blush, and he took half a step back: "Oh, yes, I'm just a third-rate writer, a nobody, living a precarious life. ”

"Let me see your book."

"You won't like it." He smiled reluctantly, hid the book in his clothes, and hurried out of the bookstore.

When I went back to the shelves to look for the book, I found that the name Zhou Xuan was no longer visible among the thousands of books in the entire bookstore.

I turned back in disappointment and found that there was a person looking at me from afar, that person had the shape of a little girl, but he was wearing adult clothes, it was the shampoo girl, what was her name? Ah Xiang?

The girl's gaze was a little plaintive, and I felt a hint of fear when I saw that she turned away.

The next day, in the evening.

Zhou Xuan and I delivered food to the seriously injured in the Häagen-Dazs store, and I fed them when some of them couldn't do it themselves.

The oldest survivor was an old man in his sixties, unable to move because of a broken bone, lying in a sleeping bag we had found for him. He said, "Thank you." You have a good conscience, and you will surely escape this calamity! ”

I smiled bitterly and replied, "Uncle, thank you for your good words." ”

"Hey, it's just my old bones, I don't know how many days I can live."

"I will do everything in my power to protect you!" It's like swearing to heaven.

"Actually, I really want to live a few more years." The bridge of the old man's nose was very collapsed, and he smiled, "I don't think I've lived enough, I'm really embarrassed." ”

He laughed a few times, and then a little sad, I couldn't stand it, so I could only comfort him: "We will all live." ”

With that, I ran out of the Häagen-Dazs store. If it had been a few seconds later, I would have shed tears, and it was almost certain that these seriously wounded would have been the first to die.

I'm sorry, but I still don't know what this old man's last name is.

Zhou Xuan looked me in the eye and said calmly, "I won't leave anyone behind." ”

I don't want to continue on this desperate topic. Even though it's an eternal night underground, I still want to feel like I'm living on the ground. Looking up at a forty-five degree angle, I vaguely saw a few faint lights flickering on the ninth floor, and the dome was as dark as the real night sky - the blurred the vision, the more it looked like a real starry sky, and it was better to deceive yourself.

Zhou Xuan approached me gently. Does he want to smell the smell of me not showering in two days, or does he want to see if I have pimples on my face? I didn't run away or resist, and continued to look up at the "starry sky". Although he was desperately holding his breath, I felt the man's warmth until he squirted a hot breath onto my ears.

Tickle, I like it.

Just as I was about to relax, another man's muffled voice suddenly sounded behind me—"It's like the Orion Nebula." ”

Zhou Xuan and I were both startled, and turned back in a panic, only to find that it was Professor Wu Hanlei.

He looked at us with a frown: "Sorry to bother you. I just had the illusion of looking at the stars in the wilderness of the West. ”

"Me too."

"But it's an illusion after all." Professor Wu patted Zhou Xuan's shoulder, "Tao Ye and Yang Bing patrol tonight, you have a good rest." ”

After Wu Hanlei left, Zhou Xuan returned to a cold look, as if he had changed someone, and never said more than half a word. He kept his distance from me and went alone into the dark, and I didn't know where he slept.

I was alone in the women's clothing store on the third floor, and the feeling of loneliness that I had never felt before suddenly came to my heart. If you have a cell phone signal and his phone number, you must send him a text message, all you need is three words - "Can't sleep!" ”

That's right, I slept soundly last night, but this night I tossed and turned until early in the morning, when I heard a commotion outside.

Guo Xiaojun died, and in the locker room on the fourth floor, he was stabbed many times, and he was miserable.

Although no one sympathized with him, it made everyone feel that it was in danger - among us survivors, there was a murderous demon hidden!

On the third day of the end of the world, Zhou Xuan was busy carefully inspecting the scene, analyzing with security guard Yang Bing to study who was the most suspected of committing the crime.

For a whole day, I tossed and turned around with no results. I'm sorry, he's really not suitable to be a detective, it's completely on paper, and he's analyzing the possibility of murder in a closed room, it's so weak that it explodes! His set of things only exists in fiction, and it can't happen in reality.

To my surprise, the shampoo girl Ah Xiang approached us several times, and there was an indescribable meaning that made me dare not look at her a second time—I believe that she looked at me with hostility.

Just in time for Qingming, Zhou Xuan suggested that the survivors go to the fourth basement to pay respects to the dead, but everyone scoffed at this - no one wanted to go near the pile of corpses, not to mention the disgusting rancid stench. As a result, only Zhou Xuan went underground alone to "sweep the grave".

After dinner, I sat on the couch at Starbucks on the third floor, imagining myself on a weekend evening, wearing a loose-fitting casual dress, sitting alone with a cup of coffee and spending time carefree – but this was just an illusion, and the reality was far more cruel than I imagined, and maybe in a few days, I would starve or freeze to death or be killed on the floor of the end of the world.

Zhou Xuan returned from sweeping the grave underground, and he still had the smell of corpses on his body.

I looked into his pitiful eyes and asked, "How long do you think we'll live?" ”

"I don't know." He assumes the posture of a philosopher, "maybe a day, maybe a month, maybe a year, maybe forever ......"

"I want to live to be seventy, I don't want to be a vampire zombie."

"But in the end of the world, it will be difficult to realize this wish."

Seeing him speak in a serious manner, I couldn't help but laugh again, forcing myself to sit upright: "So, we can only wait here to die?" ”

"If you give up hope, you're really not far from death. However, as long as you still have faith and persevere, no matter how much you suffer, I think you will live forever! Please believe that the vitality of human beings is the most tenacious, many people are buried under the rubble without food or drink for ten days to survive, who said that all the humans on the ground are dead? We now have so much food and even electricity, which is a gift from God! Either way, we have to live! ”

"What if you run out of food?"

"Eat everything you can eat!"

"Animals?" I happened to see a white cat walking gracefully across the atrium.

"That's a must."

"You're so cruel."

"It's better than starving! You can even eat it when you have to—"

"Have you ever eaten a rabbit?"

"Rabbit?" He scratched his head cutely, not at all like a thirty-something, more like a milky high school student, "No." ”

"Have you ever heard a rabbit scream?"

"Do rabbits bark too?" He gave him an incredulous expression.

Yes, people have heard cats bark, dogs bark, birds and even mice, but almost no one has ever heard rabbits bark.

"I heard that." My shoulders trembled slightly, and I went back to that cold morning, and a piercing scream sounded in my ears, "Rabbits only scream, and if you hear it, you will never forget it." ”

"Oh, it's good we don't have rabbits here, I guess the rabbits on Earth have been extinct due to the end of the world - with the screams of the human dead, the rabbits are screaming too, right?"

"It's better not to hear!"

Zhou Xuan stared into my eyes, approached me and asked softly, "Why do you say this?" ”

"I'm afraid that if we wait here to die, sooner or later we will scream before we die."

"Are you really that desperate?"

"What do you think?" I really don't know what to say, the most unrealistic person is him, "You're so naïve!" It's not just me, it's everyone! ”

Zhou Xuan bowed his head and was silent for a moment, then took my hand and said, "Follow me." ”

His strength was so great that I couldn't break free, and I didn't want to run away, so I followed him down two flights of stairs to the depths of the corridor on the ground floor, in a small room near the surveillance room.

There are a few computers in the room, as well as professional microphones and recording equipment, which is the broadcast room that all major shopping malls have. He pulled me to sit in a chair, turned on my computer and pulled up the CD library, pulling out a long playlist.

Nessun Dorma – I decisively chose this song – "Nobody Sleeps Tonight" from Puccini's opera Turandot.

Zhou Xuan nodded knowingly, turned on all the loudspeakers in the building, looked me in the eye, and pressed play.

Nessun dorma! Nessun dorma!

André Bocelli's version, I didn't choose Pavarotti or Domingo or Carreras or the trio of them, because André Bocelli is blind and lives forever in darkness, just as we will always live in the apocalyptic underground, forever night without day, forever night when no one sleeps.

A few seconds later, Andrea Bocelli's voice was broadcast through the loudspeakers in the corridors of the upper and lower floors, and was broadcast throughout the underground Future Dream Building.

The first two sentences made me close my eyes, and I gradually turned up the volume to achieve a concert-like effect.

Suddenly, he grabbed my wrist and dragged me out of the broadcast room to the center of the atrium on the ground floor. From here up to the ninth floor, it is like the most luxurious concert hall in the world, filled with the singing of André Bocelli, like 10,000 angels singing in unison.

No one can escape "Nobody Sleeps Tonight". All the survivors of the underground, except for the seriously injured and immobile, gathered in the atrium, by the railings on the second and third floors, squeezing out the heads of men and women, looking for the source of the soul-stirring singing.

Circumferential grasped my hand tightly, from cold to warm, and I did not resist, resting my head on his shoulder, closing my eyes, and listening to the aria*, Prince Calaf was victorious—

Dilegua, o notte!

Tramontate, stelle! Tramontate, stelle!

All‘alba vincero!

Vincero! Vincero!

Finally, at the moment of the explosion of blood, two lips kissed my forehead, and the moist and gentle feeling made people want to fall down and never wake up.

The melody of "Nobody Sleeps Tonight" stopped, but the entire underground Future Dream Mall seemed to echo for a long time. The audience on the second and third floors applauded, as if watching André Bocelli sing in front of us.

Who said the end of the world tonight?

Circumferential pulled me into the hallway, and I leaned feebly against him, leaning in his ear and asking, "Where are you taking me?" ”

Silent, he walked down the hallway, through a small door, and used a flashlight to illuminate a dark space.

"Where is this?" Looking at the unfamiliar environment, I was a little scared.

He bit my ear: "Future Dream Hotel, do you understand?" ”

I understand. However, in the apocalyptic underground, are there still couples' suites? I couldn't see anything clearly, and when I was about to look for the elevator, he pulled me into a small room. There are a couple of large suitcases on the floor, which are stored by hotel guests, and no one will think of it.

Zhou Xuan turned off the flashlight and kissed me on the lips. I have made the decision to give myself to this man.

I don't know if he is the person I was destined to be, I just know that it is the end of the world, and I may not be able to see the sun tomorrow morning, breathe the air of tomorrow morning, and it won't be long before I will die, buried in a deep grave, no one mourns or remembers. If you miss him at this moment, you will not just miss a lifetime, but you will miss the time and space of the entire universe, and miss countless past and future lives.

No one sleeps tonight......

In the second half of the night, I faintly heard a strange sound, and opened my eyes vigilantly, waking up the circle next to me.

Before five o'clock in the morning, we packed up and rushed out, hearing fierce dog barking along the way. Arriving at the atrium on the ground floor, he smelled a smell of blood, and Luo Haoran led his dog, who was barking at the Häagen-Dazs store.

Luo Haoran saw me and Zhou Xuan running out of the direction of the hotel, and his expression changed subtly—and this is something that only I can notice.

I dodged his piercing gaze and rushed into the Häagen-Dazs store, where I found blood all over the floor. Circumferential helped me up. It was found that the last survivor, the eldest man, and the other four seriously injured were all dead, stabbed to death with a sharp weapon!

"Who did it?"

The old man's mind was surprisingly clear: "It's the girl who looks like a junior high school student, but she's actually not a little old." ”

"Ah Xiang? How can it be? ”

However, when I remembered the way she looked at me in the past two days, I realized that it was a kind of killing intent! Ah Xiang wants to kill me too?

"Why would she do that?"

"She's crazy."

Tao Ye and Xiaoguang also rushed over. Xiaoguang almost threw up.

"Ah Xiang must be caught!" Zhou Xuan clenched his fists, "Everyone has prepared their own tools, she has killed four people in a row, she has a murder weapon, it is very likely that she has mental problems, it is very dangerous!" Again, very dangerous! ”

Luo Haoran took Churchill around the ground floor, and Churchill shouted straight to the basement.

It finally worked, and everyone followed it downstairs. Perhaps the smell of corpses was too strong, and Churchill looked clueless, so he walked hastily around the supermarket and went down to the third basement level.

I saw a Lexus GX460 crashed and a man fell on the steering wheel covered in blood - Yang Bing died.

Five people died tonight! Because I chose "Nobody Sleeps Tonight" for everyone?

Back upstairs in the supermarket, turning on all the lights, Churchill started calling again, aiming at a corner of the supermarket.

"Search right on this level! Be careful, try not to hurt her, catch her alive! ”

Before Zhou Xuan's words fell, Tao Ye's complaint sounded: "Then it has to be before she stabs me to death!" ”

I always followed closely behind me, holding an iron rod in my hand to defend myself. As I turned a shelf, a figure popped up and knocked me down. I smelled blood, I saw the cold light of the tip of the knife, and just as the blade was about to pierce my heart, I grabbed the other man's hand hard.

Ah Xiang!

I saw her eyes, bloodshot red eyes, the eyes of a madman.

Suddenly, Zhou Xuan pushed Ah Xiang away for me, and her knife stabbed at him. At the sound of my screams, Ah Xiang strangely withdrew his hand and did not stab him in the chest.

Zhou Xuan scuffled with her on the ground. I was about to pick up a stick and hit her, when blood spurted out.

Oh, my God! Deal with!

I thought he was stabbed to death by Ah Xiang, but I didn't expect him to stand up, although it was covered in blood, but he was not injured.

The knife was left on Ah Xiang's body, a girl who looked to be forever thirteen years old, and the handle of the knife was stuck in her heart.

She's dead.

Blood-red eyes stared at the ceiling of the supermarket, dead and dead.

Others came around, if it weren't for Luo Haoran holding on to the dog leash, the barking Churchill would have bitten the dead Ah Xiang.

They stared at Ah Xiang first, and then turned to Zhou Xuan, who was covered in blood, and he took two steps back in amazement, spreading his hands - also all blood!

"No!" Zhou Xuan raised his head to the sky in pain and shouted, "No! I didn't mean to! I didn't want to kill her! ”

I rushed to his side, and without hesitating the bloodstains, grabbed him and shouted, "I have seen them all, and I can testify for you!" You're here to save my life! Of course you didn't mean it, it wasn't you who killed her, but during your scuffle, she stabbed herself by mistake with a knife! ”

"No, the knife has been snatched back from her hand, but she is desperately grabbing my hand—it's me...... It's ...... me."

Zhou Xuan knelt on the ground and kowtowed to Ah Xiang.

"What's there to feel guilty about? This woman just killed four people! Four seriously wounded, unarmed, sat and waited to be killed—so brutal that I would have been stabbed to death if I had been stabbed to death. Zhou Xuan, you have done a great deed to eliminate harm for the people, otherwise if you keep this scourge, you will kill us all sooner or later! Tao Ye said excitedly that he wanted to pull Zhou Xuan up from the ground, but he pushed him away.

"I believe Ah Xiang didn't mean to kill someone, she just had a mental problem, she shouldn't have died."

"Enough, it's the end of the world, not the time for the court to debate whether or not there is mental illness!" Tao Ye yelled, "We are trapped in this hellish place, and our family is all dead on it, and we don't know if we can wake up if we sleep every night." I think I'm going to be mentally ill too! ”

Or I pulled Zhou Xuan up, Tao Ye and Xiaoguang carried Ah Xiang's body to the fourth basement floor for burial, and by the way, they also had to bury Yang Bing who died in the car - it is estimated that it will take a lot of effort to get his body out of the car.

When I carried Ah Xiang away, I noticed that she was wearing a large and beautiful diamond ring on her left ring finger.

Looking at my bare ten fingers, I felt inexplicably empty and regretful in my heart. In the apocalyptic underground, there will never be a chance to wear a ring again, although Ah Xiang's one is certainly not hers.

I dragged Zhou Xuan into several men's clothing stores, changed his bloodstained clothes from the inside out, put on brand new clothes, and looked like he was on a blind date, Zhou Xuan still looked at the floor in a daze, as if Ah Xiang's body was still lying there.

"I killed someone."

"I really didn't expect you to be so timid! Aren't you writing mystery novels? Surely murder is often written. ”

"That's different, novels are just novels, they're all made up. Perhaps, I can't be a good novelist because my stories aren't real, or I'm too weak by nature to face real death and killing. ”

I stroked his lips, looked at his pale face in distress, and whispered, "Do you know that since I came here, I want to kill people every day!" ”

"Kill whom?"

Facing the puzzled eyes, I hesitated for a long time but couldn't speak.

Or did he break the embarrassment: "Everyone has a secret that can't be said, and I have it too!" So, you can not say. ”

Looking into his empathetic eyes, I said gratefully, "Thank you!" ”

"It's just that I hope you can restrain yourself and stop making mistakes like Ah Xiang again. Don't kill! Once you kill someone, your life changes completely. ”

"But at the end of the world, we all have today, no tomorrow, who cares?" I thought of the dead Ah Xiang and the huge diamond ring on her finger, "Our lives have long been completely changed. ”

"Do you believe in judgment?"

"I ......"

Looking at my noncommittal expression, he replied categorically: "I believe." ”

I don't want to keep arguing with him, it's just a waste of energy. I left breakfast for him and he said he wanted to be alone for a while.

He is a man who lives in his own world. simply think that as long as you stick to your principles, you can be alone; thinking that as long as you don't hurt others, you will get a fair reward; thinks that as long as there is a little fear, he will not do anything harmful; Thought that as long as the last hope was kept, it would wait for the angel to wave his wings to save.

As much as I love men like that—almost nothing else in this world—but I can't be as naïve as he is stupid!

Since the twenty or so survivors gathered, seven have died so far!

The four seriously injured were killed by Ah Xiang, and who killed Guo Xiaojun? Some people say that he was also killed by Ah Xiang, but I think it's unlikely. Yang Bing's bizarre car accident is also a mystery.

There will be other people who will die and be killed by various methods, and even the murderer is different - every survivor in the underground may be a murderer, just like no one would have thought that Ah Xiang would suddenly go crazy and kill four people in a row!

I'm going to die at any time, right? If I die, who will punish that person?

That person's name was Luo Haoran.

I want to kill him.

From the first night of the end of the world, the first time I saw him. I imagined every moment - slitting his throat with a sharp blade, the cold air pouring into his trachea, and making him die with remorse and fear in the great pain of suffocation and blood loss......

For some reason, I never did it. Whenever I am full of murderous desires, I always try to restrain myself. Because of the end of the world? Because of the circumference? Or is it a renunciation of yourself?

If everyone is going to die, Luo Haoran must be the one who lives to the end!

The reason is very simple, good people don't live long, and disasters will last for thousands of years. Rationally analyzed, he is the owner of the building, and naturally he can find the safest place to take refuge. No one knows what else he's hiding. Just below the four basement floors, there might be another space. Perhaps in some secret room, there is a large amount of food, water and even oxygen tanks hidden. Also, all the fuel needed for the generator is in his hands, and in the future he will run out when he says it's used up, who can guarantee that he won't hide a few barrels of diesel! Only he can enter the surveillance room and see all the secrets through the camera. Maybe he already knew who killed Guo Xiaojun, but he prevaricated on the grounds of monitoring blind spots. Yes, maybe Guo Xiaojun was killed by him. He also saw that the rich second generation was not pleasing to the eye, so lazy and proud, which aroused everyone's public anger, it was better to kill it.

Kill clean! Kill clean! Kill clean!

The rabbit's scream sounded in my ears again......

I shrunk in the corner with my ears blocked, trembling like a pendulum, and Luo Haoran's face appeared in front of me again.

Yes, I know this man and will never forget it, even if he burns to ashes.

Seven long years have passed, but the pain continues to this day, tearing me to pieces, stitching me back together, tearing again, and so on.

That year, I was still in my third year of high school. Dad works in Future Dream Real Estate Company and is an ordinary salesman. One night he worked late into the night and didn't have time to eat dinner. My mother was sick and bedridden, so I volunteered to bring food to my father and came to the building where he worked. At ten o'clock in the evening, the huge company was in darkness. As I was looking for my dad in the labyrinth of cubicles, I suddenly bumped into a man head-on.

I hurriedly said I'm sorry, and at the same time the lights in the hallway came on, and on the other side were a pair of eyes as deep as the sea.

In the moment of grave silence, I bowed my head shyly, and the man was silent for a moment before saying, "Who are you?" ”

I carefully called out my father's name, and he said in a deep and deep voice, "I see that there are still people working overtime in the sales department, probably him." ”

Then, he led me to my father's office. And when Dad saw his appearance, he was immediately speechless in surprise.

"You should go home early and don't let your daughter worry." He said lightly and left the company.

Dad told me that the mysterious man was the chairman of the company, and everyone called him Mr. Luo. Usually the boss rarely appears in the company, and employees can only see him at the company's year-end meeting, and tonight I don't know why, I actually came to the company in the middle of the night to patrol.

A week later, Dad was promoted to sales manager, much to the envy of his colleagues. I was worried about my mother's medical expenses, but now I can solve most of it. A few days after that, my dad took me to a company executive party on a weekend evening. I didn't want to participate in this kind of boring dinner at all, but my father said that the boss had given instructions that I must bring my family members, and my mother was seriously ill and could not go out, so I could only take me on an errand. In order to keep my father's new position, I was forced to change into a beautiful outfit and go out.

It was a five-star hotel in the suburbs, the women wore expensive jewelry, the men blew on the boundless cowhides, and my dad looked like a poor pauper. I had never experienced this kind of scene, and I didn't dare to speak with my head down. Dad is not good at drinking, but in order to save face for the boss, he was poured several glasses of liquor and was drunk unconscious.

I wanted to take him home by taxi, but the company had prepared rooms for drunk employees, not to mention that it was far away from the city and the transportation was inconvenient at night. I couldn't move my drunken and dead father, so I had to be carried upstairs by a few of his colleagues. The elevator was so small and packed that I was forced to switch to another elevator and knock on a suite on the top floor according to the room number I was given.

I didn't see my father, but his boss, Mr. Luo.

The first time I saw his face, he was still about thirty years old, a bit like a movie star, and I must admit that he was an attractive man. As I was about to turn away, he grabbed my arm and quickly locked the door. I'm eighteen years old and know what that means. I couldn't open the door and could only scream "help".

"It's just the two of us on the whole floor, and no one will come up." His voice is mellow and magnetic, not at all like the imaginary bad guy.

I calmed myself down: "What are you going to do?" ”

"Can we talk?"

"No, you can't."

"Just talk for a while." His tone was as calm as ever.

And I was as stubborn as ever: "No, please let me out, I'm going to my dad's room." ”

"You don't have to worry about him, someone looks after him well. You know, he was happily drunk, and how many people wanted to sit in the position of sales manager! This is a major turning point in his career, and you should be considerate of him. ”

"At what cost?" I asked bluntly, "Is it me?" ”

"Today's girls are so precocious, why would you think of this?"

"I'm not a child! Let me go, please! ”

Finally, I revealed the child's cowardice and helplessness, but he was more relaxed: "Don't you want your father's career to develop more, don't you want your family to live a better life?" I know that your mother has been in poor health and needs a huge amount of medical bills every year - I can meet your needs. ”

I was ready to scold, but when I swallowed it back, I looked down at my feet, and although the clothes were still beautiful, the shoes were old—if Dad could give me some more money, I would like to buy the latest pair of lady's shoes.

"Sit down." Seeing that I was speechless for a moment, he took another half step closer, "What is your dream?" ”

I involuntarily sat down and sat down on the leather sofa in this presidential suite. Many years later, when I watched the "China's Got Talent" on TV, I would be heartily disgusted every time I heard the judges ask, "What is your dream?"

At that time, I was at a loss, eighteen years old, I hadn't thought about this problem, I just hoped that I would be admitted to a good university, my mother's illness could recover as soon as possible, and my father would not have to work so hard anymore.

"I want to be a writer." Probably because I first started watching Harry Potter that year.

"Good. I'll help you make your dreams come true. ”

"How?"

Although it seemed that the conversation had become more relaxed, I was still wary.

"Okay, we can talk about this." He took two cans of drinks out of the fridge, opened them and put them in front of me, "Thirsty?" ”

"Thank you." I was really thirsty and picked up a can and took a big sip.

"You know what?" He didn't move another can of drink, but held his chin with one fist, "Before, I also had a dream to make my sister happy. Unfortunately, she later died. ”

"I'm sorry, I'm an only child."

"I know, but what you don't know is that you look a lot like my sister."

Looking at his dark eyes, I realized why he was staring at me - it was because of my face.

"Oh......" I felt dizzy before I could say, "In that case, please send me back to Daddy's room, we can continue to talk tomorrow......

By the time I woke up, it was the next morning, and I was the only one left in the suite, without any clothes on me.

In an instant, the rabbit's scream sounded in my ears.

He took my first time.

I cried until I almost collapsed, and I didn't have the strength to scream anymore. There was only my clothes left in the room, but there was no sign of him, and even the two cans of drink were gone—he had used this despicable means to make me unconscious.

I got dressed in a daze, looked at my pale and beautiful face in the mirror, looked at this woman who was no longer a girl, and my life was ruined.

Calmly opening the window and standing on the windowsill looking out over the countryside, I jumped.

It's a pity that he didn't die.

fell from the seventh floor to the platform on the fourth floor, it was just an ordinary fracture, and both legs were put in a plaster cast for three months, and there were no sequelae left!

That day, when I was taken to the hospital, my father finally sobered up. He kicked the doctors and nurses out of the room, got on his knees and begged me to forgive him – especially not to call the police! He said that even if he called 110, it would be impossible to finalize the case, and the boss had a strong background, so he could easily handle it in any aspect. He also said that if he really got to that point, his job would be lost, and what would happen to his mother's medical bills? As long as we keep quiet, the boss will compensate him more and promote him to a higher position.

Before Dad could finish speaking, I spit a mouthful of saliva on his face with a plaster cast on my foot and a bandage.

However, I did not call the police.

Dad's every word was right. What if you call the police? There was no evidence left at the scene, not even in my body, how can I win him with just one side? He could even say I volunteered! The can of drink is long gone, and I have to test my blood for any of the drugs, and my metabolism has passed its expiration date. The only result of this is self-inflicted humiliation, and it will ruin Dad's future and maybe Mom's life!

I endured it and decided to continue living, for the sake of my parents and for myself.

I wore a thick plaster cast and worked hard to prepare for the college entrance examination. However, every night I hear the rabbit screaming, and every morning I wake up from tears.

Just three months after my mother was transferred to the best hospital and used the most expensive imported medicine, she passed away due to complications.

On the first seven days of my mother, my father jumped from the upper floor of the company - forty-nine floors and fell directly to the ground.

After burying my father's ashes with my own hands, I dispelled all my hatred for him. He's just a cowardly man, everything he does is for my mom and for me to have a better future. He has neither the ability nor the courage to resist the big guys, believing that he is just a small victim in front of the powerful, and that all his struggles are in vain, and that he can only get a piece of meat from the feet of a lion if he obeys the arrangement of fate. But he couldn't face his daughter, and the guilt he felt about me couldn't be eliminated for the rest of his life. If his mother is alive, he still has a reason to let himself live, but when his mother is gone, he can only choose to self-destruct.

That year, after being drugged*, suicide attempts, broken bones for three months, my mother's death, and my father's suicide, my college entrance examination scores were a mess, and I had to go to a pheasant university in another place.

Of course, I also wanted to get out of the city, as far away as possible, because there was that man in the city.

After graduating from university, I returned to work here, gradually forgetting the pain of the past, although I still heard the squealing of rabbits occasionally. Sometimes I come to the Future Dream Building to buy a new outfit or watch a movie alone, even though I know who owns it.

Seven years later, I never saw him again.

If it weren't for the end of the world, I don't know how many more days I'd live, I'm afraid I wouldn't accept any man, even if it was around.

The rabbit is still screaming in his ear...... Unable to close your eyes, unable to forget the past, full of shame anytime and anywhere, hatred wells up in your heart more and more intensely.

I'm going to kill him!

While I am not dead, starved to death, suffocated by thirst, suffocated or killed, even if I am a tame rabbit, when I am about to die, I will make the most desperate resistance, if I can't use my body, then I will scream.

Until then, I'd like to spend another night with Zhou Xuan.

We curled up in a small room on the third floor and shared a simple dinner. I stroked his hair and his beard, which grew stiffer and stiffer, and imagined that when he was eighteen years old, he must have been a melancholy beautiful young man, writing poems with a sad face every day, or worrying about the future in a daze.

Zhou Xuan shone a flashlight into my eyes, and I could see that he loved me very much, as if he cherished his own life.

"Promise me, Xing'er, that we will be together forever."

He said it like an eighteen-year-old high school student! But in the end of the world, who else dares to say forever?

"Well, if there's tomorrow."

When we woke up in our arms, it was the fifth day of the end of the world.

On this day, I always kept an eye on Luo Haoran, no matter where he took Churchill. I've also learned to hide myself, to look at him from the farthest distance, to pretend to be doing something else, and sometimes to take a turn for cover.

At night, Luo Haoran did not take the dog on patrol again, but returned to the residence of the Japanese restaurant on the fourth floor. It was Zhou Xuan's turn to go on patrol, and I was alone on the fourth floor, hiding a sharp knife on my body. I've been waiting patiently, it's been seven years anyway. It wasn't until midnight, when I was sure the dog was asleep, that I snuck into the place that smelled of rotting fish.

Sure enough, the Labrador was purring. I turned the flashlight to the weakest and saw Luo Haoran - but he didn't sleep, but sat on a chair with his eyes open.

He saw me, and in an instant he understood what I was here for.

I pulled out my knife and put it against his neck. He didn't resist, he just pressed the switch on the wall, and the light came on.

The Labrador raised his head and just wanted to bark loudly, but Luo Haoran reprimanded: "Churchill! Keep sleeping! ”

The dog looked at me and his master in bewilderment, but it was a smart dog, knowing what the knife in my hand meant, and immediately ran to the owner's feet. Luo Haoran said: "Don't move! Get down! ”

It could only lie on the ground obediently and look at me with a fierce gaze. I'm not afraid of this dog, even if it bites me. I've broken my legs by suicide, and I can endure any kind of pain. As long as it dares to scream, I will cut its owner's trachea with a knife!

"You're going to kill me?" He calmly looked me in the eye.

I nodded slightly, the tip of the knife already trembling: "Yes, you remember me, right?" ”

"I will always remember this face of yours, and if it weren't for this face, I wouldn't have hurt you."

"Hurt? You also know that you hurt me? ”

"I'm sorry, I admit everything I've done. The first time I saw you seven years ago, I remembered my dead sister – she was the favorite person of my life, and you were just like she was when she was eighteen. I promoted your father, arranged a party for executives, got him drunk, and tricked you into coming to my room. But I do want to talk to you, as long as I can get back a little bit of what it was like to be with my sister so many years ago. ”

Luo Haoran still looked at me directly, as if he wanted to see something on my face. It was also the first time I saw a special sadness in his eyes.

"You pervert!" But I won't forgive him! When I think of that night, my heart is like a knife, "How do you explain those two cans of drinks?" Have you ever been drugged? ”

"I'll admit that it was arranged by my men because they knew I never drank drinks."

"And have you done anything to me—" Another sense of shame arose, and he couldn't say any more, and if he couldn't control his emotions, the blade would cut his throat.

"Yes, I did."

He was so frank! I bit my lip, not wanting to be soft-hearted: "Did you know? I almost committed suicide because of this, and my dad later committed suicide! ”

"I know, that's why I never went to you again, and I didn't want to cause you more harm." I can't imagine that his gaze was so sincere, "I'm sorry, everything is my fault, I have caused irreparable damage to you and your family." From the first night of the end of the world, the moment I saw you and recognized you, I wanted to confess to you. I'm sorry, it's too late, but I still have to repent. ”

Should he be killed? Perhaps, my hatred has been accumulating for seven years, not to kill him, but only to hear his confession.

Still weakly I shouted, "I'm going to kill you!" ”

"Kill it." Luo Haoran closed his eyes and waited for my knife to fall.

The knife could not move forward even a centimeter! Looking down at the Labradoodle, there seemed to be cloudy tears in its eyes.

dog's eyes! The knife fell from my hand.

Holding back the tears that came out of my eyes, I rushed out of the Japanese restaurant with my head buried in my head, ran into the escape passage to the fifth floor, and crouched around the corner and hugged my head and cried.

In the past seven years, the unspeakable pain and humiliation have been like an indelible brand, but why don't you dare to start? Did you really forgive him?

"Once you kill someone, your life changes completely."

I found a reason – what Zhou Xuan told me.

Suddenly, someone hugged me from behind, and another towel gagged my mouth. I struggled desperately, but I couldn't resist those arms. That's definitely not Luo Haoran, and it can't be circumferential, but ......

Xu Pengfei? Is that him? I smelled a cloudy smell, heard a beastly gasp—and for a moment, remembered the lewd gaze he threw at me.

I tried to shout for help, but I couldn't make any sound, and he dragged me to a shop in the dark depths of the corridor on the fifth floor.

A black cloth blindfolded my eyes, and as it was pitch black, a hand ripped off my dress.

What a brute he is!

Oh my God, who's going to save me? No...... No...... No......

Despite the hard twisting of my body, I was powerless to resist, and only tears flowed freely. Why would I have to experience this a second time at the end of the world? Seven years ago, I jumped off a building and died! In my previous life, I created a great sin, and I still have to pay my debts in hell?

The rabbit is screaming...... The rabbit is screaming...... The rabbit is screaming......

I want to die.

The black cloth suddenly fell, and in the flashlight rolling on the ground, I saw the face of the beast.

Xu Pengfei!

This face was so disgusting and filthy, only a few centimeters away from me, and the smelly, fishy breath sprayed on my face.

I want to shout, "Kill me now!" ”

He timidly stepped back, grabbed his flashlight and fled, listening to the footsteps as if he had run upstairs.

I was so sore that I couldn't stand up, and it took me a long time to take off the towel that was gagged and get dressed with difficulty. I almost crawled out of the hallway and leaned on the railing to the fourth floor, only to bump into someone.

The other person let out a scream, it was a woman, and just as she was about to run away, I grabbed her.

It's the high school girl named Umi. She helped me to the third floor and called out for everyone to help me. I said that Xu Pengfei was a rapist and had fled upstairs, and the men took up arms to chase him down — especially Zhou Xuan.

Yoko Tamada is a nice person, she wiped the dirt off my body and found clean clothes for me. But I refused to put on new clothes and stubbornly wore the stained white dress. Yoko took care of me until the early hours of the morning - but I never fell asleep, but I could no longer shed tears.

At six o'clock, I pushed Yoko Tamada away and walked down the stairs alone.

The men were still searching for Xu Pengfei, and their voices could be heard from upstairs from time to time, but it seemed to be fruitless. I walked through the dimly lit ground floor alone and found the monitoring room - usually this door is locked, and only Luo Haoran can enter it if he picks it with his fingerprint. I tried to find a tool to pry the door open, but it opened on its own.

Luo Haoran was in the door and said coldly, "I see that you want to come in." ”

It turned out that there was a camera overhead. I said calmly, "Do you know what's going on?" ”

"I already know, I'm sorry-"

"Let me take a look at the surveillance, I want to know where he is." After speaking, I pushed Luo Haoran away and walked straight into the monitoring room. The Labrador barked twice, but was stopped by its owner.

"Did you see the brute on the surveillance?"

"I see it." Luo Haoran sat down and pressed the mouse twice, and a night vision picture appeared on the screen - Xu Pengfei escaped from a hidden passage to the ground floor and entered the hotel lobby through a small door.

"He went to the hotel?" Remembering the night two days ago, Zhou Xuan and I spent that wonderful night in the small room in the hotel lobby, "Did you tell Zhou Xuan?" ”

"Nope."

"Why?" I grabbed the collar of Luo Haoran's Armani suit.

He replied lightly: "Zhou Xuan's emotions are out of control, he is not suitable for the role of leader or organizer, he will only make everyone lose their minds now." ”

"I'm going to kill him!" With that, I quickly rushed out of the monitoring room.

I didn't go straight to the hotel lobby, because I was unarmed and had to find a suitable weapon - I thought of a special kind of torture, absolutely inhumane, that happened to be used on Xu Pengfei. I ran to the supermarket on the basement floor and found a portable electric drill from the household tool shelves – a must-have tool for many installers.

I found an outlet to charge it until it let out a horrible whistling that was enough to penetrate walls and metal, not to mention human flesh and bones?

I picked up the electric drill and was about to go upstairs when there was a panicked footstep in the supermarket. I hid behind the shelves and saw Xu Pengfei with blood on his body appear in the dim light.

I crept close to him, trying to hold my breath, not expecting to be so calm - rather cold, I was probably a natural killer.

Suddenly, I stuck his neck with my right hand! For the first time, such a powerful force erupted.

Xu Pengfei's face turned red, and he had no strength to resist at all. I turned on the light switch next to me with my left hand, and a light illuminated my face from overhead.

I want him to see my face, and my white dress, the dress he wore when he was *.

I picked up the electric drill in my left hand and pressed the start button, and the electric drill immediately made the most terrible turning sound in the world-

No wonder there are such props in many horror movies, even if you see it in the movie, it makes people's hairs stand on end! Xu Pengfei was so frightened that he stepped back, and the electric drill approached his eyes little by little.

“Fuck！” He instinctively cursed.

However, it is useless to scold them in Japanese, Korean, German, French, Russian, Italian, Spanish, Arabic, Ancient Greek, Ancient Chinese, and Martian!

The coward began to beg for mercy, and my left hand did not pause in the slightest, advancing millimeter by millimeter.

Watching Xu Pengfei's tears soaring, my heart is really happy!

"Die!" I roared in a rage. The electric drill spun rapidly and pierced Xu Pengfei's left eye.

The rabbit is screaming...... The rabbit is screaming...... The rabbit is screaming......

The brute's blood covered my vision, and the vitreous tissue bursting from his eyes.

Almost all the drill bits entered his eyes, estimated to be about ten centimeters, before I turned off the drill switch.

I lost all my strength at once. Xu Pengfei's bloody corpse fell to the ground, and the electric drill was still stuck in his eyes!

At this time, a group of cats and dogs smelled the smell of blood and greedily surrounded them.

"Your breakfast is here!" I said angrily, threw down the corpse with an electric drill in its face and fled.

"Once you kill someone, your life changes completely."

All morning, my ears were filled with these words. I hid in the corner of the ground floor and put on a new set of clothes to clean up the blood.

The smell of blood still wafts through the tip of the nose.

At noon, anxious Zhou Xuan found me. He hugged me and lit my eyes with a flashlight. The tears that had been stopped for a long time poured out like spring water. He wiped it for me with a handkerchief and whispered, "It's all right." Well, it's all over. ”

"I killed him!" I also said it to his ear.

He nodded: "I know!" I know! ”

"Am I doing something wrong?" I began to wonder if I had done something wrong, and my voice trembled more and more, "You told me not to kill." ”

"You're right! He's not a man, he's a brute! You just killed a mad dog, nothing wrong at all! ”

I believe this is not a comfort, but a heartfelt statement that when people really feel pain, they are always desperate to find a reason for revenge and killing.

"Don't touch me!" I shoved him away from my side and curled up into a dark corner.

"Xing'er, what's wrong with you?"

"I'm being *, my body is dirty, and you're so simple and clean, don't stain you!"

"That's not your fault! That brute is dead, he's been punished, don't embarrass yourself anymore. ”

In the glare of the flashlight, I noticed that he didn't mean what he said.

"No, I'm doing it for your own good."

"Xing'er, I will love you forever."

When Zhou Xuan said this, his lips trembled slightly.

"At the end of the world, there is no tomorrow, and there is no eternity."

"No, because the end of the world is forever."

Oh, my God! He said it so beautifully, so perfectly, so logically, so irrefutable...... But I don't believe it!

At this moment, the entire building was plunged into darkness, and a commotion was heard from upstairs. Zhou Xuan seemed to have predicted and said, "The last drop of diesel has run out." ”

"Are we dying?"

"No, I still have some food reserves, and the ones I just took out of the refrigerator a few days ago must have some to eat."

"You always think of the best ending, but things are impermanent."

"The world is impermanent......" The face in the flashlight beam was solemn, and he couldn't say it anymore.

On the sixth day of the end of the world, the darkest time - most of the food taken out of the refrigerator was stolen by cats and dogs! With only a few bottles of water left, he fetches some biscuits from Xiaoguang to fill our hungry stomachs.

Although, he was always with me, but he never kissed me again. I didn't kiss him, I didn't touch his hair and lips as I used to, and I didn't look into his innocent eyes. I curled up, both to ward off the cold and not to want him to touch me again. And he tried to say something to me several times, but he stopped talking until I fell asleep.

A lot must have happened that night. It's also the longest I've slept since the end of the world.

Day 7.

Early in the morning, I was awakened by the sound of gunshots, and I couldn't see the circle anymore - I hurried to the railing on the eighth floor, looked down, and saw a dark sea. I didn't dare to go down, for fear of encountering some terrible people or animals.

After a long wait, Zhou Xuan returned with an iron rod, a knife pinned to his waist and a rope on his shoulder.

"Are you going to kill someone?"

"Yes."

"Kill whom?"

Zhou Xuan paused for a long time, and coldly spit out a name-"Luo Haoran." ”

"Why?"

In an instant, I thought he knew—that he knew what had happened seven years ago. But I never said half a sentence.

"It's none of your business." His tone was unusually cold, as if he had changed from yesterday.

The air was getting more and more cloudy, and even on the eighth floor, you could smell the rancid stench coming from underground. I sat alone on the ground, my eyes closed, waiting for death to come.

At nine o'clock in the evening, a deafening sound was heard overhead.

But I didn't dare to go up, until the Japanese mother and son and Tao Ye hurriedly ran upstairs, I followed them and rushed into the passage of the cinema on the ninth floor, and I didn't know what was going on in front of me and why everyone was running inside. When I was halfway through, the whole ceiling slammed down.

I was buried in the rubble, and after some time, the rescue team dug me out.

You all know what follows—there is no end of the world!

After being sent to the ground, countless cameras and flashes were pointed at us. And I only worried about Zhou Xuan's life and death until I saw him being the last to be carried into the ambulance.

He told me with his eyes - Luo Haoran is dead.

At this moment, I lie alone in the isolation ward of the hospital, recalling the seven days and seven nights underground, what happened to me and other survivors - it is a secret that cannot be said, so dark and cruel, no one will believe that it is true!

I lied to Officer Ye Xiao, what kind of animal kills people - it's just my imagination when I see those cats and dogs after the killing. In my answer, Xu Pengfei was the one who died the worst.

I knew I would never be able to go back to Circumference. Even though all the secrets were buried, no one knew that we had killed someone, that we would soon be free, and that we would be able to live in the same city – but I still remember the way he looked at me, and that was after I was allowed to fly to Xu*. I'm a stained woman, and no matter how innocent I am, I've been soiled.

The invisible wall that comes from this is something that men will never dare to admit, and there will be a knot in their hearts that will never be able to be untied.

I think when I meet Zhou Xuan again, it's just a stranger.

There is another thing that I have been worried about for the past two days but dare not face. A few minutes ago, I asked my doctor for a pregnancy test strip – one of the newest products that results 24 hours after conception.

At this moment, I picked up the test strip in fear and saw the ribbons appear at the top and bottom ends.

I'm pregnant.

Strangely, I didn't have any tears, and from the moment I was rescued back to the ground, I couldn't cry anymore.

Perhaps, Moscow does not believe in tears.

Didn't believe it until the end of the world.