She fell in love with the loose kaftan Such clothes can hide the scars on the body and will not rub too much pain against the skin.

Nan Xuan often called to ask about the situation at home, and the only thing she could answer was the word "okay".

The progress of science and technology has brought a lot and taken away a lot - human labor is becoming less and less valuable.

Due to academic qualifications and technical reasons, my father has not been able to find a new job. It only took a year for the few savings left to be used up.

That night, she cleaned up the dishes and chopsticks, washed the dishes without oil and water, and cleaned every corner of the room.

"You don't want to go to school anymore. Father said.

"We don't have any money anymore. Mother added.

"Good. ”

Then, someone unscrewed the gas valve.

To live without hope is to have no hope.

Everything is only going to get worse. What knowledge changes destiny, and what children are the hope of the future, are unrealistic.

Because there is simply not enough financial strength to maintain children's learning of knowledge.

The gas itself has no smell and is odorized so that it is easy to detect leaks.

The taste of sulfur gradually becomes stronger.

Soon, all the pain of the family will disappear.

Changsheng gradually became numb and sleepy.

Just then, the phone rang.

She couldn't tell if the voice was reality or a vague dream.

The noisy phone kept shouting. She tried to make sure, but couldn't move.

Of course...... At that time, Changsheng did not die like this. Otherwise, she wouldn't wake up again.

Nan Xuan saved her life. With no one answering for a long time, she became suspicious and called the police.

Changsheng thus saved a life.

It's just her.

Soon, the desperate father unscrewed the gas valve and committed suicide with a family of three occupied the front page of major newspapers.

Such selfish behavior is really despicable, such a person is not worthy of a father, and such a child is really sad. ”

"My family is dead, and it's too lonely and pitiful to leave my children alone in the world. ”

"Parents always treat their children as their appendages, as a kind of private property, as if they can decide and dictate everything about their children – this is ridiculous, children should have the right to make their own choices, to decide their own lives. ”

For a time, such debates and struggles were surging, and public opinion was chattering.

After that, Changsheng lived with his grandparents and barely survived on state subsidies.

And the friend who had the grace to save her life at the beginning is now cold to her.

All because the boy broke into their lives.

They are in the same class, classmates.

Leave this unpleasant topic aside. Speaking of which, their instructors seem to be greatly stimulated and in a very bad mental state.

Coupled with the rebuke of school management from all over the society, it is difficult for Gu Qiancheng to continue working with peace of mind. The study granted her a period of leave to recuperate at home. There was neither praise nor condemnation for this accident.

Out of guilt for causing inconvenience, Nan Xuan chose to come to apologize. Gu Qiancheng shirked slightly, but did not refuse after all.

The instructors are still very young, and they are the first students she is in charge of. Unlike other rigid teachers, this young teacher, who has just left the school and stepped in with another foot, is so pleasing to the students.

"I'm sorry, teacher...... With my status, I can't come to visit you with everyone's blessings. ”

After Nan Xuan sat down, she said this apologetically.

"It's okay, I understand. It's fine if you're okay. ”

Her smile was still so gentle.

However, Nan Xuan could see that there was a little tiredness hidden under her kind face.

Mr. Gu's home is very large, duplex, and a small attic, and the decoration is exquisite European style.

She is not married, and she is afraid that she will not be able to support this house according to the school salary. Therefore, this house should belong to her parents, who can be seen to be a couple with knowledge and capital.

However, Director Gu said that they are old. Her father has passed away due to health reasons, and her mother, who is not very old, is already a little confused and is now recuperating in a good nursing home.

During the half month she was recuperating at home, she also did some work such as taking care of the garden or cleaning and hygiene.

Even so, Nan Xuan still saw all kinds of drugs on the shelves.

In addition to some medicines for the elderly, imported health products, there is also a bottle of sleeping pills.

While Director Gu was pouring water, she quietly shook the bottle, which was already empty.

"Is oolong tea okay? You may like flower tea, but you seem to have drunk it all. ”

"No, it doesn't matter. She frantically let go of her hand, and the bottle almost fell to the ground.

It's not like something that the elderly need.

Because of his willfulness, did he put the teacher under such tremendous mental pressure?

The window was open, but Nan Xuan still felt a little tightness in her chest and shortness of breath.

"Do you want sugar?"

"Ahh ”

She quickly slipped back into her seat, like a good baby waiting for her mother to make formula.

After that, Director Gu greeted the recent situation of several classes like a loving mother, and there were some scattered trivial matters. Nan Xuan answered them one by one and conveyed the concern of her classmates.

"Teacher, there are some words...... I think it's ridiculous, but if it were you, you wouldn't think I'm a weirdo. ”

"Surely, how so? Tell me, my child. ”

"You've heard of ...... Is such an urban legend?"

The story of a guide who brings hope in times of despair.

After telling such a short legend, Nan Xuan's pupils had turned transparent green.

Outside, the wind was raging, and the wide open windows were constantly flapping and groaning. The curtains clung to the window frames, for fear that they would be pulled out of the house if they were not careful.

Gu Qiancheng just took a sip of tea calmly.

"Anyway, what kind of supernatural abilities do you exchange for the rest of your life...... This kind of thing is ridiculous. ”

"Yes? ”

"Yes. ”

"That'...... Why are you crying?"

Gu Qiancheng put down the teacup.

Against the light, she vaguely saw that on the teacher's tired face, two lines of crystal tears were revealed with the action of putting down the cup.

Nan Xuan was a little surprised. But...... I don't think I'm particularly surprised.

The wind stopped.

Outside the window, the sun is slowly sinking, gilding everything in the room with warm light.

With the beautiful twilight, Gu Qiancheng's eyes slowly turned into brilliant gold, like the brightest light in the sunset.

"The sleeping pills are still ...... It's painful. Really, it's not as peaceful as in the TV series. ”

She gently wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes.

"Teacher...... In this legend, there is an important prerequisite. ”

"Well, you say. ”

"The act of suicide must be due to feeling powerless or tired of external objects, not to oneself. As I said before, I'm for someone else's business, and there's no way to ......."

"Ah, my words...... If you do die by suicide, I will feel extremely guilty for my dereliction of duty and incompetence. At that time, if I had chosen to commit suicide, I would not have met the woman with long gray hair, who was the guide. ”

"Then forgive me for taking the liberty of ...... you"

"Public opinion. ”

She whispered.

"Voices from newspapers, from the Internet. ”

It's horrible. No one can compete with such a powerful force.

“...... Well. ”

"Then I received a notice of my mother's death from the nursing home. It is said that she left suddenly, but peacefully, without much pain...... This was probably the last straw that made me decide to take the medication. I'm ashamed to say that I envy her very much......"

The straw that broke the camel's back.

Like what...... Missed a flight.

For another example, he obviously promised to accompany him to the newly opened restaurant for dinner, but in the end, Changsheng was called out by a phone call from Jiang Shuo, and he regretted what he had agreed to two weeks in advance?

It's just such a small thing.

Countless small things come together and become big things.

Jiang Shuo is not a good person, why doesn't she understand? During the holidays, Nan Xuan saw with her own eyes that she had dealings with those social unstable factors......

Even, one day, the bottle he was holding contained an eye that I don't know whose it was.

The unwashed blood stains on the forearm would be unconvincing to say that it was just a specimen.

Let alone...... While listening to the parents' conversation, a female corpse without eyes was found on the dock that day. However, it seems to have been pressed down by some force.

Stay away from him!

But if this kind of thing is said directly, everyone will be regarded as a madman, only himself.

Even in the face of your best friend, you can't speak.

What I didn't expect was that the first person to stay away from me was ......

"Can you not go to the beach? I mean, don't go to the event. ”

That night, Nan Xuan was lying on the bed at home and received a message like Changsheng.

Since one day in the past, she has not lived in the dormitory. Ever since she noticed that Changsheng was meeting Jiang Shuo frequently, she took it for granted that she was being ignored.

In order to be angry, she left there.

Now that I think about it, I really have a child's temper.

But at this point, neither side seems to want to pull down their faces. After staring at this message for a long time, she typed three words:

"Why?"

"It's not safe. ”

"It's not enough to avoid me, do you want me to take the initiative to stay away from you?"

"I didn't mean that. If you promise not to go, I won't go. ”

"I'm going to go. ”

Somehow, the child's temper came up again.

She knew she never did...... The image of gentleness, kindness, and helpfulness is Nan Xuan in the eyes of everyone else. Only in front of such a special friend, she can be a little willful.

After all, it's been like this since childhood.

"Well, I'll go too. ”

Nan Xuan was suddenly a little happy.

She wanted to tell Changsheng where she had been and what she had done today, as before, and report the day's itinerary like a ledger, just like before.

But she put her phone down anyway.

- To be continued -