Ninety-seven: How can I endure a dilemma?
Looking at her son, who is sunny and handsome in the eyes of others, and a little innocent in her own eyes, Yin Rouzhen doesn't know where to start.
She looked at her husband for help, but Xu Zihou avoided Yin Rou's gaze, lowered his head and sipped the tea in the cup, and stroked the little belly with his hand without saying a word.
Yin Rou suddenly realized, this is a reminder to start with the little life in my belly.
There's nothing hard to talk about. Yin Rou pulled her son to her side and sat down, she wanted to follow the original plan, hold her son in her arms, pat his little buttocks and tell him about it, but looking at her son in front of her, who was wide and thick-chested, with big shoulders and a round waist, she had to give up the idea of holding her son in her arms. She just gently stroked her son's head and said to him,
"Pingping, that's right, you may have a little sister."
Looking at his mother's serious look, Xu Xinping suddenly became interested,
"Do you like someone's little girl and want to adopt someone?"
Yin Rou's face flushed, and she said in her heart, others see her as young, but her son doesn't even think about it. Yin Rou had no choice but to say directly to her son:
"No, yes, it's Mom," Yin Rou pointed to her little belly, "I have a little sister!" ”
Xu Xinping, who had already lived a quasi-husband and wife life with Shen Jia, immediately understood what his mother meant. He cried out with joy,
"Really, Mom? Why didn't you tell me earlier, you have to tell me earlier, I would have gone back to see you and my little sister. I love it so much, when... When will I see my little sister? ”
Seeing the attitude of the boss towards the second child, Yin Rou and Xu Zihou suddenly relaxed.
"In another nine months. Pingping, do you really like it? You're not afraid that your sister will take away all our love for you. Despite this, Yin Rou still raised that general concern to her son.
"Mom, Dad, how old am I, I not only want you to give all your love to my sister, but I also want to give all my love to my sister. I'm going to make her the happiest little angel in the world! But, Mom, how do you know if it's a little sister and not a little brother? ”
"Mom, isn't she looking forward to giving you a little sister? Just think of her as a little sister. ”
"Mom, even if you give birth to a little brother, I like it too."
Yin Rou listened to her son's words, and was moved to tears, "Come, son, come here, let Mom hug you for a while, in the future, when your little sister is born, Mom won't care about hugging you." ”
"Mom, can you still hug me?" Xu Xinping said as he leaned into his mother's arms.
Mother and son were connected, and as soon as Yin Rou took her son into her arms, it was as if she had melted her son into her own blood. The worries in her heart, the expectations in her heart, and the storms that her son is about to face are all stirring in Yin Rou's heart without stopping.
"Pingping, how are you getting along with Jiajia now, one of you is in Beijing and the other is in Qingcheng, don't you feel very cheap?" Yin Rou wrote a thousand words, and digressed thousands of miles to start the conversation.
"It's okay, won't the exchange end in two months? I can go back to Qingcheng and be with Jiajia. ”
"Pingping, mom still wants to ask you, how are you doing these days in Beijing? How are you getting along with Yuan Li? ”
"It's very good, Yuan Li and Hong Jun are also getting along now, we often keep in touch, and Yuan Li often helps me find someone to translate the materials." Xu Xinping thought that the focus of his mother's questioning might be to care about Yuan Li and Hong Jun. But unexpectedly, my mother's words changed,
"Pingping, do you remember what happened to you and Yuan Li to your mother?"
Xu Xinping was shocked, sat up from his mother's arms, first glanced at his father who walked into the bathroom to wash, and then asked his mother vigilantly,
"Remember, Mom, what's wrong?"
"Pingping, didn't you take any measures that time?" Yin Rou guided the topic as tactfully as possible.
Xu Xinping blushed and remembered the madness of him and Yuan Li who had completely lost their minds at that time,
"Nope."
"Pingping, Yuan Li has it!"
"Huh? This, this, how is this possible? In Xu Xinping's view, the impulse between himself and Yuan Li was at most the first time that the two of them finished each other when their hormones were uncontrolled. At most, it's an occasional aftertaste, and at most, it's just a special page added to the relationship between the two people. That shouldn't be a swaying of each other's emotions.
"Pingping, how is this impossible? You are so careless and you don't take action. ”
Xu Xinping has not heard of such a thing, in the Youth Normal University, he has heard of this kind of thing happening to a senior brother and sister, the parents of both sides fought with each other, not to mention, the school also gave the boy a punishment, and in the end he failed to get the graduation certificate. At Peking University, he had heard of something similar. All of them caused great harm to the boys and girls who had accidents.
The best solution Xu Xinping thought of was to let Yuan Li kill the child as soon as possible.
"Then, what does Yuan Li want?" Xu Xinping thought to himself that Yuan Li's biggest possibility was to blackmail herself with this matter. Unexpectedly...
"Yuan Li wants this child."
"Mom, how is this possible! We all still go to school, and Yuan Li can't be like that... That's how you go to class and study. Does she want to give birth to that child for no apparent reason? ”
"Pingping!" Yin Rou was a little angry at her son's attitude, "What does it mean to be unclear, which little angel's origin is unclear?" It's not all the stinky men who don't want to take responsibility for their nonsense. Besides, Pingping, that's the child of the two of you, not Yuan Li alone. ”
Xu Xinping hugged his head in pain, and said in a low but unquestionable voice: "Mom, how can I share this responsibility with Yuan Li." I'm going to be with Shen Jia. ”
"No one wants to separate you and Shen Jia. But Yuan Li and the child are something we have to consider. It's something you have to think about, and you have to be responsible. Yin Rou was equally determined. Because she knows that love is great and precious, but it is also selfish. A person must not ignore everything in the name of love first because of his own momentary speed. At this point, Yin Rou sometimes feels that the peaceful policy of the feudal dynasty is also understandable.
But Xu Xinping, who is in full swing with Shen Jia, how can he accept these views.
"Mom, love can't have to, love is free, the purest and most selfless. It is loyal from the bottom of my heart. I definitely can't leave Jiajia. ”
"No matter how noble love is, no matter how priceless and precious, it is just love, but the child is a living life, and he is not in awe, respect, or love for life, so what qualifications do he have to talk about love?" Yin Rou seems to have completely forgotten her deep affection for Shen Jia's mother-in-law and daughter-in-law who loved Shen Jia like a pearl in her palm.
"Yuan Li can't use the child to blackmail me and Shen Jia." Xu Xinping felt that it must have been Yuan Li's bitter love drama in front of her mother that made her mother so resolute.
"Yuan Li didn't threaten you and Shen Jia with the child, Yuan Li didn't know that she was pregnant at the beginning, didn't she keep telling you not to take this matter to heart, didn't she keep saying that it wouldn't affect you and Shen Jia? Didn't she also get involved with Hong Jun later? It was a few days ago that Yuan Li found out that she was pregnant.
The mother fully understands Yuan Li's idea of wanting to give birth to this child. A really good woman, she will never put the little life in her belly to death. It doesn't matter if this little life comes at the right time or not. That is a woman's fate, and it is also a woman's instinct.
Since the child in Yuan Li's belly is what you and Yuan Li did, it is the objective reality created by the two of you that forces you to make a choice about your future. Forcing you to face responsibility and have to choose between responsibility and free love. ”
Xu Xinping cried out loud, "I can't choose!" I can't make a choice. ”
Xu Xinping's father, Xu Zihou, came over and said to Xu Xinping calmly,
"Pingping, objectively and impersonally, Pingping, whichever option you choose will not kill you, nor will it make you lose your freedom in human rights, no matter which option, if it makes you uncomfortable, it will only make you feel uncomfortable psychologically. Make your conscience feel bad. Of course, it will inevitably affect your future love and life. But at this point, we still have to start from the conscience. Your mother is right, there is no such thing as a blackmailer, there is only a choice of fait accompli. ”
"Mom, Dad, even if I can overcome my 100,000 reluctance and have our children with Yuan Li, I can't face Shen Jia, I can't pass on the disaster I caused to Shen Jia, and let Shen Jia endure unwarranted pain."
"Flat, this is the same for everyone. But if this is not the case, it is another innocent person who bears it with his life, that is, you and Yuan Li's child. ”
Yin Rou felt that the words were almost over, and her son also needed to digest and digest such a major change psychologically, so she said to the two of them: "Let's talk about it here today, the truth of the matter is also clear, let's relax our mood, don't collapse so tightly, calm down first, analyze ourselves objectively and rationally, and talk about it tomorrow." ”
"Okay, Pingping, don't go back to school today, live with your parents." Xu Zihou said and lay down on his wife's bed.
Xu Xinping knew that this was because his parents were afraid that he would be under too much psychological pressure.
He forced himself to lie on the bed, but the conflict between Yuan Li and Shen Jia in his heart made him feel pain again and again.
His mind was full of Shen Jia's infinite affection for him. Shen Jia's delicate face appeared in front of him from time to time, and his heart was always rippling with Shen Jia's touching charm and coquettishness, when Shen Jia's soft and clear singing voice echoed in his ears, "Bai Suzhen under Qingcheng Mountain, thousands of mountains in the cave cultivate this body....." When Xu Xinping couldn't lie down anymore, he sat up and made a loud noise in his heart:
"No one can stop me from loving my Jiajia!"